Journal 2007
1 January 2007 Monday
It's 2007! Can you frigging believe it? (frigging is a mild expletive
compared to fucking). Cutting down on my saying fuck so much is one of me New
Year's Resolutions.
Well I slept in
from staying up to see the new year in. How lame is that? But I was watching
Fear and Loathing in
I did wish Chuck
Whyte and Chad Keller “Happy New Year’s” and emailed Mark Swonson a greeting.
Ben Anderson
went to see Dream Girls and while he lectured me on the necessity of Gay men
supporting Musical Theater he confessed that he didn't really think the movie
had much pizazz! He was impressed however with Jennifer Hudson and Eddie
Murphy. I wonder if Eddie is still considered a homophobe these days from his
early comedy routines.
It was a mildly
inverted day but the clouds eventually burned off.
I paid $2.17 for
gas yesterday. I wonder what the rollercoaster will be this year. It doesn't
take a prophet to know that big oil will make a profit.
Ben Anderson
came over for dinner today and I fixed scones and tuna casserole. We looked at
all the bear sites on line and though there are tons of chasers in states all
around us, Utah and is decidedly lacking in that department. Brainwashed RM
twits.
I Overheard some
gossip from a little birdie that there is going to be Trouble in River City.
With a capital T and that rhymes with R.C. and that spells trouble!
Mike Romero and I took the dogs out for a new years day
ride. Yesterday Smokey was humping Buddy and I told Ben that I hope Buddy isn't
becoming a Butt Boy for Smokey LOL. Smokey is definitely the daddy.
Well back to
work tomorrow...Happy News Years and may it bring us good health, more wealth,
true friends, and bountiful lovers.
2 January 2007 Tuesday
Today was President Gerald Ford's National Day of mourning and its yadda,
yadda, yadda. I think it's Bush's way to draw attention away from
Most excitement
today I had was a student puking in my classroom. Yuck! I guess the stomach flu
is going around and around.
Speaking of
yucky the weather is abysmal with this dismal inversion. Thank
I fixed fried
potatoes and fajitas for dinner tonight and talked to Ben Anderson whose
catching a cold and then called Darren Solomon to wish him a Happy New Years.
I emailed Mark
Swonson this: “Mark just wanted to say Happy New Years and how much I admire
your dedication to your community. Hope you find abundant health, wealth,
friends, and love in the new year. Your friend Ben”
He wrote back
“Thanks so much for those kind words. Ben, you have been great wonderful friend
since I came out back in 1992. May your dreams, wishes, and all come true this
year. We all have the ability to have abundance, happiness, joy, and love in
our lives. I'll see you in 2007!! Lets do dinner or lunch again!! Hugs, Mark.”
3 January 2007 Wednesday
The Inversion is still here. The Full moon is
hard to see through the haze. I had Ben Anderson over for dinner with Mike
Romero and me. I Fixed Taco Soup since that sounded good for a cold winter day.
I Served it with corn chips and shredded cheese. Yum.
We helped Ben
down load some pictures on his Bear web site. His pixels were to big (size
queens) and so I used one of my programs to reduce them to fit. Other then that
nothing new.
I sent Michael
Aaron a column on the murderers Lance and Kelbach since its been 40 years since
their crime spree. Sorry for the boring blog
4 January 2007 Thursday
We had seven inches of snow! Ugh!
Winter wonderland? Not if you are driving in it. There's some kind of children
flu going around. I had seven kids gone today. On Days like this I just want to
cuddle.
5 January 2007
Friday
No Entry
6 January 2007 Saturday
I Spent much of the day with Ben Anderson. We
went to this African Market on Redwood Road looking for ethnic clothing....okay
a muumuu or a caftan but where in this land of wonder bread can one find such
accoutrement's?
So we settled
for watching Damn Yankees and Pajama Game. We were in a Bob Fosse mood. This
morning we even watched "
A year ago Larry
Miller was pulling Brokeback from his theaters which created quite the uproar.
This year there aren't any movies worth seeing.
Well Nancy
Pelosi is now just two heart beats away from being President. Now if Cheney and
Bush could just die of natural causes!
Nothing really
to report. Chuck Whyte won't confirm any gossip about the court. Well time for
bed. Perchance to dream
7 January 2007 Sunday
Thirty years ago, when I was 25 years old, I was married in
I cleaned pee stains from my carpet
and watched the “Gay Divorcee” as a wedding anniversary tribute. When Gays are
truly assimilated glamour will be gone.
8 January 2007 Monday
It was a long day with kids
getting hyper for some reason. I've asked my principal to come in this Thursday
to do an observation of a lesson plan. I will have her assess my lesson plan as
part of my ESL evaluation and kill two birds with one stone. The lesson will be
on Chromosomes, genes and heredity and I am having the kids build a marshmallow
bug with different traits randomly chosen as an activity.
This evening I had
to attend another ESL class at South Davis Junior High. Five more Mondays and I
will be through hallelujah!
Martin Luther
King Holiday is next Monday so I've got to get a lesson on Human Rights this
week on that also. After this term ends this weekend, the year will be half
over then its a down hill slide into Summer!
9 January 2007 Tuesday
Happy Birthday John Francis Cunningham. How different our lives would
have been if only you would have loved me as much as I loved you.
10 January 2007-11
January 2007
No entries
12 January 2007
Friday
I took Friday off from school so I could enjoy
a four day weekend but it's so Freaking Cold!.
I took Ben Anderson
and his son Jared out to lunch at China Star in Bountiful. Jared is about 28 now
and wanted some advice on getting into education. I told him he ought to
substitute teach first to even see if he wants to be a teacher.
The QSaltLake issue
came out bigger than ever, 40 pages with a different look. I Saw that Michael Aaron
listed it as “issue 70” so he must be back counting it to the old Metro.
There was a
brutal letter to the editor from the owner of Heads-Up, ranting against Chad Keller
and Mark Thrash's New Year’s Column about the bars. I think not only was the
letter unfair it was slanderous accusing Mark of being dishonest when he served
as Emperor of the Royal Court.
I like the new
columnist Troy Williams’ radicalism but he seemed to be using the same rhetoric
of the Radical Faeries, perhaps without realizing it. Everything that is old is
new again
It was 1 degree
tonight! Yikes. So Ben Anderson and I decided not to play dress up for Gay
Bingo because it was so damn cold but we rather wore sensible warm and fuzzy
clothes although, I did don my red pill box hat with the black Vail as well as
pearls. I had never been to Gay Bingo before, hosted by the CyberSluts as a
monthly fund raiser.
It was the first
time held at the First Baptist Church so Ben Anderson and I decided to give it
a whirl. Mike Romero would never have gone with me.
The place was
packed and they had to put up more tables. I'd estimate that between 150-200
people were there and the Sluts raised around $1400 for charities that night.
It was an interesting crowd, totally new to me. I only recognized, Debbie
Rosenberg, Becky Moss, Mark Swonson, and Michael Aaron among the crowd.
Poor Deb
committed some type of party foul and had to don a pink wig and dance around
the room for money! I made sure I kept my elbows off the table, my mouth shut,
did not call out Bingo or anything else that might be considered a foul.
Becky Moss sure
had a cute Gay cousin at her table. Speaking of Becky I had no idea that she
lost her house on Commonwealth Avenue due to identity theft several years ago.
I felt really awful for her.
I sliced my
middle finger pretty deep upon sitting down on one of the metal chairs as I
reached underneath to pull it closer to the table. Thank goodness Ben had a
band-aid in his pocket.
All in all it
was a nice evening and I may go back now that I know some of the ground rules.
I can see that it would be a lot of fun if you had a group with you.
Ben wants to try
the Monday night Bingo at The Try-angles but I have classes on Mondays
13 January 2007 Saturday
Mike Romero took off somewhere today
and Ben Anderson's been with his son and daughter-in-law so I've spent a very
quiet cold winter day alone.
I hooked up my
new printer/scanner/copier but not sure if I am all that thrilled with it yet.
Made some chili Verde and roasted a pork roast for the puppies. My mom said
that it's been below freezing even in Vegas.
14 January 2007 Sunday
Another day in the deep freezer. Brrr! Ben Anderson came over in the
afternoon and we played Cantan the board game he likes and watched “Where The
Boys Are.” Excitement to spare. Its just too damn cold to go out.
15 January 2007
Monday
Today is Martin Luther King Day so no school, and
I did absolutely nothing because of the deep freeze we are in. Ben Anderson came
over for a little bit and we had homemade macaroni and cheese. That was
comforting on such a chilly day.
He wanted to go
to Try-Angles for the Cyber Sluts Bingo but I said NO WAY....Brrr. So I had him
take the Color of Love test and he, like me, is a Maniac Erotic or hopeless
romantic.
16 January 2007
Tuesday
It was back to work but without
the students as it was a teacher’s prep day for the end of the term. I dropped my
Sonoma truck off at Lodder’s garage to have the back brakes replaced. I had to
walk about 1/2 mile in 4 degree weather to get back to school. Brrr.
Nothing exciting
at work just finished up grades and other mundane tasks. The truck wasn't ready
until 4:30 and the temps were dipping again as I walked back to retrieve my
vehicle. It was only $132 for the brake job.
17 January 2007
Wednesday
The kids are back and it's officially
the beginning of the third term. School is now officially half over.
18 January 2007 Thursday
After school I bought my hounds a
ton of treats, chicken strips, dog biscuits and that kind of thing. I was
finally able to make it to the Pharmacy to pick up my medicine. It's gone up to
$72 a month now! Yikes! Lipitor alone is 40 dollars which is a $1 a pill. And
that's with insurance.
I watched the
first season of the Mary Tyler Moore Show from 1970. I guess, like she, I'm
going to make it after all.
19 January 2007 Friday
Today is my father's birthday. He
died the day after Christmas 2003. He would have been 82 today.
My nephew's wife
is expecting their baby any minute now. I was hoping he would have been born on
dad's birthday but I guess not now.
It still feels
like we are in a deep freeze and I hear the inversion is bad but at least we
don't have the nasty fog along with it.
Chad Keller texted
messaged me while I was at work. I called him later as he was down in the dumps
about some results of his medical tests and the flap over Mark Thrash and his
New Year's Column by a certain bar owner in town.
Ben Anderson said he stayed in bed all day
watching movies. Good for him. The weather is too yucky for much else and yet I
hear
I watched three
episodes of OZ tonight from its finally season. They sure are killing off all
the characters one by one in that prison series.
The Sundance
Film Festival opens tonight...Hope people are having fun.
20 January 2007 Saturday
It was a very hazy winter inversion day until around 3:30 when it
started to snow and cleared the gunk out of the air.
I agreed to meet with a U of U student who is
working on a history research project on Gay history in the 1970's at noon at
Nostalgia coffee house on First South. I asked if Ben Anderson wanted to meet
me there just in case the guy didn't show but he did.
His name is
Charles Perry and while not Gay per se has a queer identity. Don't ask, it gets
confusing.
Anyway we
visited and visited, until Ben decided to leave and Charles and I talked more
about Queer Theory, Queer History, about the lost archives, about how few Utah
Gays are recording our history.
He said that he
only knew of Michael Quinn, Rocky “Connell” O'Donovan, the late Jay Bell, and me.
I said, well I knew of some others who are working on doctorate thesis but I
said I'm the only one that I know of that is doing specifically Utah Gay
history and not Gay Mormon history. They are not one and the same although the
lines are really blurred.
Michael Quinn is
not even doing local Gay history at all. I said that Rocky is in California now
and his focus was on Mormon history as was Jay Bell who has since died. I guess
that makes me the loneliest historian in Utah
21 January Sunday
No entry
22 January 2007
Monday
I am feeling blasé about my English as a Second Language class
and kind of over whelmed by it right now. I sent in my history column into the
Q Salt Lake and edited a letter for Chad that he wanted sent.
23 January 2007 Tuesday
I am feeling blah! Just kind of lacking in
energy. Not sure whether I've picked up a bug or not.
Ben Anderson
came over today and said that he's a new Cyberslut! He went to Gay Bingo last
night and auditioned and he's “Bunny Hole” a kind of a trainwreck cyber slut.
I fixed Mike
Romero and Ben hamburgers for supper and then Ben played Judy Garland songs
from her boozy bottom basement Capitol Records period. Poor Judy. I need to hit
the sack.
24 January 2007
Wednesday
No entry
25 January 2007
Thursday
Ben Anderson came over this
evening to show off his Bunny accoutrement's that he purchased. I fed him and
Mike Romero some Taco Soup and Cheese Nachos.
26 January 2007 Friday
I am SOOO glad this long week is about over. I Had a lot of work and
preparation work for this ESL assignment that's due Monday. It's just about
wore me out and the kids have been totally wacky....hitting each other with
plastic spoons and knives hard enough to raise welts, writing notes saying this
girl wants to have sex with this boy, having one boy sit out in the hall and
bawl. And beyond and above all this I am supposed to teach, social studies,
Language Arts, math, science, reading, and computers?
At work I
bitched out this passive aggressive twit that operates the after school program,
after twice in front of the secretary with whom I was having a conversation,
kept interjecting comments about how children should be treated with respect. I
said, I get that! Are you implying something? That Shut her up.
She's one of these Mormon twats that think
that children should run everything instead of adults. I guess perhaps it’s because
her brain is as underdeveloped as the kids.
After work I had
my emission and safety inspection done to register my vehicle; $45 for the
inspection and while waiting this hunky blue collar love machine came in to
have a company truck inspected. Eye candy!!!
Funny that the
tax cutting Republicans raised the tax on registering my car. Last year it was
only $80 and this year its $88.
I read where
Scott McCoy introduce a measure to take Sodomy off the books since it can't be
enforced but not likely to happen as long as Chris Butters is horrified and
disgusted with the idea of men butt fucking.
I heard that
David Hurst the owner of Heads Up who lambasted Mark Thrash and Chad Keller,
had his car stolen with all the tax receipts from last year. Karma?
Then, after I
went to bed, Chad called me. He just needed to visit some. He said that we have
to be at the Park Reservation office on March 5 to reserve Jordan Park for Gay
Freedom Day.
Ben Anderson is
hooked on OZ after I turned him on to it and he called me from home said he
hates me because he hooked on the male nudity but also has to wade through the
incredible violence. He's in love with Keller character and I said that guy is
a psychopath!
27 January 2007 Saturday
I went with Ben Anderson to see
“Children of Men” after reading that Deb Rosenberg saw it. It was pretty
powerful and even choked me up; -this old cynic.
I
gave Mike Romero and Tom Folks my tickets for “A Thousand Clowns” which was
being performed at the Grand Theater. Mike Romero said it was only so-so and
they left after the second act.
There’s no sense
asking if the air is good when it's all we have to breathe. This is Utah where
the Republican patriarchs "don't question us" Mormons cut the Utah
Department of Environmental Quality budget, even though the state is flushed
with cash, at a time we have the worse air ever!
The Airport was
shut down by the SMOG yesterday and its so thick out here by the airport you
can't see across the street. Folks it’s NOT fog or haze its SMOG.
Since it was a
soupy day just stayed home this evening and watched a movie. Mike Romero and I
watched another Spanish black-comedy movie called the “Perfect Crime.” I have
never been disappointed in Spanish films so the subtitles are worth the effort.
French films are just so-so; kind of a hit and miss proposition. The Perfect
Crime is about a materialistic department store manager in
28 January 2007 Sunday
The weekend went fast. The air is still bad but at least there's patches
of blue. I made a lemon poppy seed pound cake today and cooked up a corned beef
for sandwiches this week. Mike Romero took off with Smokey someplace and was
gone all day so.
I went to the Nostalgia
Coffee House to meet this guy named Troy. Ben Anderson was there already after having
had a massage at the College of massage therapy.
Then Ben came
over and I worked on his Bunny hair for the Cybersluts’ Bingo tomorrow. Wired
in a stork carrying a baby. Ben said that Ruby Ridge and Chevy Suburban are
taking a decidedly reduced participation in the Sluts. I am sure burn out can
be a major factor and, hey none of us are getting any younger.
Ben also webbed
camera some kid in Turkey. That was wild to actually be seeing some guy clear
around the world. He wanted to see our bellies LOL! Just my luck I will have to
go to Turkey to find someone who appreciates me being a full figure, last of
the red hot mamas!
29 January 2007 Monday
After my ESL class I went down to Try-angles to see Ben Anderson’s “Bunny
Hole” outfit. She looked fabulous. I visited with Donald Steward while there, saying
I heard he was stepping away from the Cybersluts and he said, no that he was
stepping down from being the Pride Day Coordinator. The parade has grown into
more then a one person position he said. We also dished the Lesbian and
Chad Keller had
complained about the youth center to me before saying, “It takes years but
finally others are starting to see the true lesbian youth center for what it is.”
31 January 2007 Wednesday
It's been a very long hard old January. It's been very frigid and the
air polluted for much of the month. It's been so cold at night that it was
unpleasant to go out in the chill. It snowed a little this morning and cleaned out
the air somewhat but I think I’ve picked up a virus or some shit in my lungs
because I have been coughing from a tickle down deep in my lungs.
I’ve been
having the weirdest dreams lately; the wildest, about killer drag queens. Well
so long January and good riddance. When I mentioned my dream to my friends,
Chad Keller he said, “Most drag Qweens kill your Soul” and Tony J Jones added “or make you want to kill
yourself...(hee hee).” He also commented “I didn't know Salt Lake was so
polluted. I always pictured it as very pristine. Sorry to hear that you are
feeling under the weather.”
FEBRUARY
1 February 2007 Thursday
No entry
2 February 2007 Friday
It’s Ground Hog Day! Candlemas! And mid-way to
Spring yahoo The light snow fall today pushed the inversion out of the valley
and we actually could see the Ogden Range again 35 miles to the north! The bowl
we live in is beautiful when the air is stirring but when it gets stagnant
yuck!
I am not sure if
I have a chest cold or whether my lungs are expelling the crap its been
breathing for the last three weeks.
I am planning on
going to bed early and get some rest anyway. Next week is the dreaded parent
teachers conference where I have to justify why little Johnny is such a turkey.
My student Dakota
came to me after lunch today and said that boys in the classroom were shoving
him around and threatening to beat him up if he writes down any of their names
as part of his job as lunchroom monitor. Sounds like we have our own little
Mafioso.
Nothing in the
news except that Texan liberal Molly Ivins died. I really enjoyed her columns
and her right-on commentary on George Bush she called "the Shrub."
Chad Keller sent
me a copy of a commentary he wrote for the QSalt Lake and .he wants me to
perhaps edit it for him but doubt if I could or would have time.
This weekend I
have to get all my conferences notes ready and Monday night I have ESL Class.
For the rest of the week I will be at school for 12 hours, meeting with the
parents of the hooligans I am privileged to teach this year.
3 February 2007 Saturday
Well a new branch on the family tree budded today. My nephew James Edgar
Clark and his wife Rachel had a baby boy today. Jaidon Edgar Clark is what
he'll be named.
I was only 17
when James was born and now I am 57 and he has a son of his own. Amazing that
Jaidon will be my age in 2064. What will his life experiences be I wonder? I
wonder if he'll even recall that he had a Gay great uncle who use to ride his
daddy on his handle bars and take him to the park to swing. "Swing Uncle
Junior Swing" is all he had to say and away we went. I even carried him
off to college with me when I baby sat him. Now he has his own son.
It was a
beautiful day along the Wasatch front. I cleaned house, went shopping, had my
hair cut, and wrote my column for February 15 issue of the Q.
I Even found
time to edit Chad Keller's article after listening to his plaintiff plea on my
answering machine.
Mike Romero took
off today to parts unknown. He's been gone almost every Saturday now, never
tells me where. Maybe he's found a boyfriend.
I went over to
visit with my neighbors the Giles who I haven't really seen since the New Year.
I said its a sign that Spring is coming when the Ground Hog and Ben comes out
of our lairs.
I read a copy of
this month’s Q Salt Lake. Donald Steward is so funny! But I am not sure I get
all the neo-post modern gender queer exposes that Troy Williams is writing
about. Its Gay youth this and Gay youth that; and cyber revolution everywhere
with Madonna thrown in for good measure.
Give me a good
disco dancing hanky wearing bearded old Castro clone anytime over some gender
tranny who can't make up their mind if they’re a boy or a girl!
4 February 2007 Sunday
My aura is blue, and my Muppet personality is either Scooter or Miss
Piggy depending on my mood. My cough has settled deep in my chest....poor baby.
5 February 2007
Monday
No entry
6 February 2007 Tuesday
I finally saw a picture of baby Jaiden James Edgar Clark, my sister
Charline Wachs’ grandson.
7 February 2007 Wednesday
Events of the Year in which I was Born: 1951
Harry Truman is president of the
US
Julius Rosenberg and his wife
Ethel are found guilty of conspiracy to commit wartime espionage
President Truman removes General
Douglas MacArthur from his command in Korea from making unauthorized policy
statements
Inauguration of transcontinental
television with President Truman's address at the Japanese Peace Treaty
Conference
Scientists develop UNIVAC I, the
first mass produced computer
Rush Limbaugh, Tommy Hilfiger,
and Orson Scott Card are born
The Catcher in the Rye by J.D.
Salinger is published
Disc jockey Alan Freed uses the
term rock and roll to describe R&B, in an effort to introduce the music to
a broader white audience
New York Yankees win the World
Series Los Angeles
I Love Lucy debuts
8 February 2007
Thursday
Anna Nicole Smith who married
that millionaire old guy died in Florida at age 39 of an accidental drug
overdose.
9 February 2007-10
February 2007
No entry
11 February 2007 Sunday
It's been a long week with a chest cold and parent teacher's conference
every night so I took Friday off to rest. Feel so much better now but still
have a residue cough. It rained for most of the day instead of snow which was
really good to wash away the salt and grime.
I’ve been out of
touch with people for a while. Just kind of taking care of my needs.
I did watch “Hollywoodland”
about the George Reeve suicide back in 1959 and whether he was actually
murdered. I really enjoyed it and they had the period down to a T.
I also watched
Flags of Our Fathers which has made me really melancholy for my own dad. The
movie was about the invasion of
The scenes of
the invasion were horrible and left one with a sense of horror and what
sacrifice our fathers went through in WWII. My dad never talked to us about the
war and after watching the film I looked up the history of my dad's ship the
USS Gamble and where it was during the invasion of
I assumed that
it was in
However on the
18th, around 9:30 at night, two Japanese bombs hit the USS Gamble's
fire room killing five men and wounding 8 others. Later I learned from calling
my mom that dad had just left his shift and retired to his bunk for the night
when all hell broke loose. He helped with putting the fires out and with
rescuing his shipmates.
The USS Gamble
was a destroyer class mine layer and was so damaged that it was towed back to
Saipan with its crew so dad missed the invasion of
My dad never
ever really talked about the war. He had just turned 20 years old a month
earlier. The movie really made me miss my father and the stories he never told
me his only son.
I never really
knew my father nor he, I but when I think of him as a 20 year old kid going
through a traumatic experience of having his buddies blown apart it makes me
really sad and I wish I could just tell him that I love him even if we were
strangers for most of our lives.
12 February 2007 Monday
A Madman took a shot gun to
That teenager
shot nine people, killing five, before he is shot and killed by an off duty police
officer.
13 February 2007 Tuesday
Six people died in
I am still not
feeling up to snuff and all this horrendous news has made me depressed.
Then I read that
Fox 13 news had over 200 calls complaining of interrupting “24” with the
breaking news. Are people that callous anymore?
Tomorrow is
Valentine's Day maybe that will help cheer me up. Doubt it. Oh wait boys’
wrestling. That will put a smile on my face!
14 February 2007 Wednesday’
No entry
15 February 2007 Thursday
Hope everyone had a nice VD. Today it turned damp and snowy. My furnace
has been making a rattling noise for the past couple of days and after keeping
me awake for much of the night by coming on and going off I broke down to day
and called a repairman. The motor was going on out on it so about $950 later I
have a new motor, ignition switch, inspected, cleaned and like new. That also
included coming out in the Spring to check my central air.
The furnace was
new with the house but that's 10 and half
years ago. Oh the joys of home owner ship. Our neighbor the Giles said
that theirs is going out too and their house is only about 9 years old.
Well the boy who
shot up Trolley Square turned out to be a Muslim so all the radical right is
making a big deal out of that instead of his being just a fucked up kid. The
kids who shot up Columbine High School sure the hell weren't Muslims.
I talked to Chad
Keller tonight. He said that the QSalt Lake is out and that Heads Up, the gay
bar owned by someone who trashed talked Mark Thrash and Chad has gone out of
Business. Karma will get you.
16 February 2007 Friday
No entry
17 February 2007 Saturday
Chad Keller thought I was upset
with him for him asking me to edit his paper for one of his business classes. He
wrote me: “Perhaps you were just having a bad day yesterday. I feel somehow I have upset you by having you proof
my paper. I do appreciate the fact that you did it for me. If you aren’t angry
just let me know or if I have upset you, I would love to know so I could make
it right. Love ya!
I wrote him back:
“Chad I'm not upset. Why would I be? Just busy trying to get stuff done before
having to go back to work. Finally got all my stones moved to where the pups
destroyed the grass and it’s a muddy mess. Picking up after the children.
It's too early
to do garden work except for cleaning out
beds. I have a whole bunch of day lilies and sage you can have. I tried
composting once....you have to be a die hard, but you can just build a wooden
frame box put all you clippings and garbage in keep it covered and stir once in
a while. Easier to buy manure!
18 February 2007 Sunday
I wrote to Richard Butler: “I
know your birthday is around this time so I thought I'd drop a line saying I am
thinking of you and hope you and your family are well.
I have had a
cold, occupational hazard I suppose, but am over it mostly now. My pups Daisy
and Buddy are almost a year old now and have finally started to settle down
leaving the puppy stage behind.
I've had to
move all my paving stones from my garden to in front of the deck because they
have tore up all the grass and it was getting pretty muddy.
Mike's still
working for Napa at the Mountain Fuel place. He's up in Wyoming visiting his
mom over the President's Day holiday.
I had to put a
motor in my furnace the other day, It was making such a racket. It's ten years
old already.
The Giles are
fine. Randy is working for Diamond Parking now. Well really not a whole lot of
news. Hope you have a wonderful birthday. Ben Williams.”
Richard Butler wrote
back: “Wow! You always surprise me. Thanks for remembering number 53! (It's
this coming Friday) We spent the summer going on camping trips and fixing up
the house.
It took me
4-1/2 months to get the mortgage company to finish the paperwork so I could own
this house. It was an assumption loan and they dragged their heels (no money in
it for them). But as of January 15th 2007, I am a home owner again. Brenda's
dad Norm lives in the downstairs apartment and pays us rent. So that helps us A
LOT on the mortgage payments.
Our new address
is 4034 Durrans Lane, West Valley City, Utah 84120 our phone number is 964-2182 I also now have
a cell phone (will wonders never cease). I hardly use it but Brenda sure loves
hers. (I'll get you the phone number for that also at a later date).
We haven't seen you since the dinner at Orbits
Cafe. Maybe in the near future you can stop over and visit for awhile. I still
do mean BBQ! We could stop by for a visit also if that works better for you.
Desi loves
dogs, puppies, and anything four legged. Austin will be graduating this year
and in the fall Desi starts Jr. High School (or as they say here Middle School)
Brenda is still holding her job at Majestic Elementary running the cafeteria.
I'm still with Kennecott (7 years this June) Drop me a line and keep in touch.
Can you e-mail
me your phone number so I can re-install in on my computer. Yes I’ll also write
it down on paper. Bye for now, Richard, Brenda ,Austin & Desi
Lesbian
activist Barbara Getting died today one of the founders of the Daughters of
Bilitis in the 1950s. [1932-2007]
19 February 2007 Monday
It's a winter wonderland after a nice spring-like weekend. I Finally did
my taxes up on Saturday. Because I claim all the interest on the house and my
income is not all that big I'll get a chunk of change back. It will help with
the $1000 I laid out Thursday for my furnace repairs. Well its a lot but will
keep it going for another 10 years.
I moved all my
paving stones and slate from my garden to make a large patio behind my deck so
that the pups won't track in so much mud where they have destroyed the grass.
It's about an area of 600 square feet so that was a lot of work!
Mike Romero went
to Rawlins for the weekend for his Mom's birthday and said he hit wind and a
little bit of snow on the 300 mile trip.
Ben Anderson
stopped by and said he went with the Cyber Sluts to the cheer on the QUAC team
at the Ski and Swim Weekend fest. The Center's Winter Fest should be over now.
I hope they had a good showing. I wasn't impressed with the venue nor the key
note speakers so didn't attend.
I helped Chad Keller
edit a paper he has for one of his college classes and I need to write up two
lesson plans for my class. Will be glad when that is done.
One of my blog
buddies finds the most interesting list sites. Here's one for My Nine Secret
Identities:
1.YOUR REAL NAME: Ben
2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 4
letters of real name plus IZZLE) Benizzle
3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fave
color and fave animal) Yellow Bear
4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle
name, and childhood street) Hugh Dale
5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the
first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, first 3
letters of mom's maiden name) Wilbejoh
6. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd
favorite color, favorite drink) Blue Salty Dog 7. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter
of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, any letter of your middle
name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of your dads middle name,
1st letter of a siblings first name, last letter of your moms middle name)El
hojde (I substituted a g for a j)
8. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:
(grandmother/grandfather's first name) Louis
9. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and
the name of one your pets).Black Daisy
20 February 2007-21 February 2007
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22 February 2007 Thursday,
I haven’t written much in a while
but heard some news. My friend Todd Bennett was chosen Mr. International Daddy
Bear 2007 at the International Bear Rendezvous about two weeks ago in San
Francisco. I first met Todd when he joined the Sacred Faeries back in 1991.
I
wrote to Kathy Worthington regarding her partner Sarah Hamlin: “Just a quick
note to say that as Sarah's anniversary of her passing has come and gone I am
thinking of the both of you and I hope, Kathy, that you are well. Ben”
The state
legislature has slapped at the Gay Straight Alliance high school clubs in Utah,
making it harder to form a club.
23 February 2007 Friday
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24 February 2007 Saturday
I took the pups in for a physical and to get their rabies shots. They
will be a year old in March. Buddy is right on for his weight but sister Daisy
is "chunky"; 8 pounds heavier than her brother. I don't feed her any
more then brother and she is as active as he is, so I don't know what the deal
is.
I worked on
homework assignment for my ESL class. I just have one more Monday class and I
will be done with ESL.
I've spent most
of the day watching the first season of HBO's Rome that's out on DVD now. I
love it as a historian and a drama queen.
25 February 2007 Sunday
Ben Anderson and I went out for
breakfast with Michael Romero because Ben wanted to come over and have me print
out in color a picture of Jennifer Hudson and of the Oscar statue that she's
going to paste on to stars pinned to her boobies. Ben Anderson, as Cyber Slut
Bunny is attending the Utah AIDS Foundation Oscar Night tonight. The Oscars are
tonight Big YAWN!
Ben said there's
a series of agitated emails being zipped back and forth between the Cybersluts
over their mission. I guess Ruby Ridge and the new "Madam Ada” have been
going at it, tooth and nail, over what direction the fund raising group should
be heading.
Later tonight I
heard horribly sad news. Michael Aaron called me tonight from the Utah AIDS Foundation’s
Oscars Night to tell me that Kathy Worthington had died. I immediately went to
my email account and had this message from her family
“Dear Kathy’s
List readers, friends, and acquaintances, We are writing to inform you all that
Kathy Worthington passed away a few days ago. Kathy’s life touched many, so
many that we are already overwhelmed by the number of those who looked up to,
appreciated, and loved her.”
“We know that
many of you will want to join us for a memorial in Kathy’s name. However, we
are unable at this time to find an appropriate venue for this gathering – a
gathering that we are assuming will require a large meeting center.”
“Perhaps some of
you have suggestions where we all may meet to celebrate Kathy’s life. If so,
please email her daughter, Lucy, at lucyfer@comcast.net
<mailto:lucyfer@comcast.net> .
“Once we figure
out the details of the memorial service we will send another email. Thanks to
you all, Kathy’s family.”
I had written Kathy on the 22nd just to tell
her that I was thinking of her and Sara since the 21st was the 1st anniversary
of Sara's passing. I don't know any more than this.
What a blow to
our community.
Ironic that a
movie called ``The Departed'' won best picture at the Academy Awards.
26 February 2007 Monday
No one is willing to tell me yet as to how Kathy Worthington died or
when. I sent 40 pages of archival material to a reporter for QSL for a story on
her. Hope it will help.
Tonight was my
last class for ESL.....Yippee!!! Free at last -Free at last -Thank God
Almighty, free at last.
Tony Jones, my
Arkansas soul mate has posted another survey. I've posted my responses to the
same questionnaire.
1. Do you know
anyone in prison? Not anymore now that they sprung my druggie nephew
2. Have you ever
logged onto a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush's myspace? I don’t do myspace just
Bears411
3. When is the
last time you ate peanut butter and jelly? 6 months to a year ago. Not sure why
because I love PB&J
4. Do you have a
desk in your room? Which room? Question is kinda vague you know. And lame.
5. Have you ever
gotten naked at a party? yes- don't ask.
6. What kind of
car insurance do you have? Horace Mann-Teacher's Insurance
7. Are you named
after one of your parents or grandparents? yes- my dad and my two great-uncles
and my great grandfather were all named Edgar and so is my nephew and his new
baby son.
8. Does your
first significant other still live in the same town as you? no- John Cunningham
is a California Fireman on San Clemente Island. Big Sigh.
9. Do you throw
up gang signs? No just hairy legs into the air
10. Have you
ever broken a rib? nope but I have busted a gut
11. Would you
rather be a girl or a guy? I like the feel of a kaftan but love my dick too
much to depart with it...too many good times-besides why would I want lumpy
globs hanging off my chest? I mean bigger ones then the man boobies I already have.
12. Who is the
most spoiled person you know? All my pups
13. Would you
rather have a million dollars or true love? Well, I've never had either so wish
in one hand and spit in the other.
14. Have you
ever had sex in church? Kinda- "As a Man Thinketh...".
15. Is your
boyfriend/girlfriend a marine? No but I've swallowed a lot of seamen
16. Do you watch
the Grammy's? Gawd not the music today is crap…non singable and forgettable.
Give me ELO over any one today.
17. Would you
ever work for the border patrol? Moi with a weapon? But you’re not serious.
18. Which one
word would describe your current relationship: rigor mortis...is that one word
or two?
19. Would you
rather date someone 2 years older than you or 20 years older than you? Well 20
years would make him 76 years old! I think its good to be on the same time line
and from the same generation. 10 years is a big enough spread either way. I'd
rather be with someone who remembers where they were when Kennedy was shot not
when Reagan was shot. But hey if he can keep an erection what do I care really?
Still ----I am a Baby Boomer so don't fuck with us!
20. Have you ever had an eating disorder? Yes
overeaters anonymous- Whoops that was supposed to be a secret
21. Do you have
a porn collection? Vintage ...I like hair and for people to look more then a
manikin.
22. How many
proms have you been to in your life? None although I chaperoned a Gay Prom.
23. Have you
ever been in an inter-racial relationship? Does New Mexican count? I've had
Chocolate flavored love but no relationships
24. Is your
birthday on a holiday? No but it falls on Easter every ten years or so.
25. Are you old
enough to vote? Triple times
26. Do you have
any friends or family in the War right now??? Nope not since the Viet Nam War
that last great protest war.
28. Do you worry
about global warming? Not as long as they keep making ice for Margaritas. More
concerned about pollution and transportation issues
29. Do you like
polar bears? Not face to face…but I would feel that it would be strange not
having them in the world. Or did you mean hairy Gay Eskimos.
30. Have you
ever been cheated on? yes I've sung Your Cheating Heart more times the Hank
Williams ( a distant cousin I might add)
31. What kind of
birth control do you use? anal lube
32. What slang
word(s) do you call marijuana? Brownies
33. Are you an
atheist? No but questioning...I am a Faerie and believe in the Gay Spirit,
Nature, and the Great Mother. Faeries hiss when they are happy
34. Did you lose
your virginity to your neighbor? Yes- Phil Casas. I was 13. He was 15. It was
an accident. Who knew that a dick could enter an asshole so easily? I certainly
didn't.
35. Did or do
you think your childhood dreams will come true? I had no childhood dreams we
were too lower middle class.
36. Do you wear
your sweetie's clothes? Nope...I don't look good in
37. What's your
opinion on gold diggers? Do you mean Gold Diggers of 1937? Loved it. Busby
38. Are you a
country or city girl/boy? I'm a city boy... although my first crush was on
Buddy an 18 year old Lubbock Texas Cowboy. I was 16 and we had to share a bed
because we were boys. I always slept curled up to him with my hands between his
thighs. He didn't seem to mind.
39. Is your car
a 2002 or higher? No 1998 GMC Sonoma truck.
40. Do you floss
daily? Not my generation.. we’re doing good to brush everyday! Flossing's for
sissy boys. My father fought in World War II. Do you think they flossed? Hell
no! If the Greatest Generation didn't floss I'm certainly not .
27 February 2007 Tuesday
This Mormon Legislature sucks...they can only find $2 million for CHIP a
health program for Utah's poorest children but can forgive a $6 million St.
George debt which the city had been paying off! They guarantee a $30 million
sports stadium for
Does a 'Mormon
reality' create such insanity or is it a "Republican reality". Does a
Republican Mormon reality create a perfect storm of insanity? Do they feed off
each others lunacy? “I am a Mormon Stake President. I can't be insane. I have
12 kids and my wife is on meth but keeps a neat house. For Gosh sake we can't
make torturing animals a felony. How would the poor fellow even be able to own
a gun as a felon?" (Chris Butt Turds own words!)
If this is how
Mormons run a state God truly help us if Mormons ever get control of the
country! And don't you doubt for a minute Mitt Romney won't fill every post he
can with the Brethren. Oh Brother! Can you see the country shutting down on
Sunday and Family Home Evening Night! Well at least Wonder Bread's stocks are
rising. Senator Hatch, who really are the nutcakes?
28 February 2007 Wednesday
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MARCH
1 March 2007 Thursday
Finally, there was an obituary for Kathy Worthington in the Salt Lake
Tribune. She died on February 22 the same day I sent her a note telling her
that I was thinking of her at the 1st anniversary of the death of Sara. I
suppose she didn't want to live another year without her.
When my father
died we were careful to be with and around mom for the entire year as much as
possible because statistics show that a high percentage of people will die
within a year of losing a spouse.
Anyone who has
ever lost a lover through death or break up knows the toll it takes on the
heart and soul. My Grandma Williams died 10 days short of the first anniversary
of my Grandpa's death.
I've been
reading Kathy's legacy book where people write in to give condolences and to
tell how special the deceased was and I think it's a sin that more people from
the Ex-Mormon community who never even knew her personally are writing tributes
then there are from people from our own Utah Gay community.
The Utah's
Church and State Sanhedrin finished their 45 days of mean spiritedness
yesterday by Utah constitutional law. The bastards did manage, at the last
minute , to find a few million dollars to spend on dental for the poor and for
CHIPS but only as a one time infusion of money nothing that will be on going to
really address the long term needs.
Read that New Hampshire voters favor McCain
and Giuliani over Romney so maybe Americans will have enough sense to kick flip
flopping Romney to the curve.
I've got my
chest cough back with this flip flopping weather. Pretty one day, winter
wonderland the next.
I Watched
"The Mostly Unfabulous Social Life of Ethan Green" last night. Came
from Netflix. It had its funny moments but favorites were the Hat Sisters...I
want their fabulous frocks and hats. Their zingers at Gay Republicans were
pretty funny also.
2 March 2007
Friday
My schnauzer puppies are almost a
year old! They sure are naughty. Something outside bothered them and they went
tearing outside yapping and of course Priscilla and Smokey have to join in the
fray. Oh did I forget to tell you it was 4 in the morning with misty snow fall?
So here I am
trying to get them back in the house and get them to shut up so as not to raise
the dead. I block the doggie door after they are in ---they are wound up and
jumping all over me with wet cold snow covered paws...Ugh! I Tried to go back
to bed but I was up at 6 a.m.
It was a snowy
commute to school so had to leave earlier than usual. Oh well, when I came
home, I was filled with puppy ecstasy. They all covered me with doggy kisses.
3 March 2007 Saturday
Well here its a lovely Saturday in the Rocky Mountains; No snow today
and clear as a bell.
My house is a
split level with a bay window that faces the Wasatch Range and my deck looks
out over the Oquirrh’s (O-kers not O-queers). Funny story back in the 1970's
when the communities on the western side of the valley were joining to form the
second largest city in Utah, originally it was proposed to name the city Oquirrh
City but some asshole yokel mayor out there said "How do you pronounce it?
Oh Queer?" That one comment destined the second largest city in
I made some
pecan caramel cinnamon buns this morning and I am sipping on a hot cup of Star
Bucks French Roast coffee. Life is good. Now if I can just get rid of the mucus
in my chest. My that was a pretty segue.
My mom must have
had the need to visit because we talked on the phone for 2 hours. I guess she
is helping my nephew get into a house in Orange County. The house they are
Looking at is 2 years old and is a half a million dollars and is a track home!
No wonder I left Orange County. No school teacher could afford a house there. I
guess he and his wife are making good enough money to make monthly payments but
yikes!
The QSalt Lake
is out- You can get it on line for all you ex-repatriate Salt Lake City (Cross
Roads of the West) people. Joselle Vanderhoof did a great tribute to Kathy
Worthington and Michael Aaron's editorial piece was very moving. So much so,
that I felt like I need to include my thoughts about Kathy and her dedication
to our community in my next column.
International
Mr. Daddy Todd's bear hug party is tonight. I'm invited but not sure if I am up
for a bear rug orgy. Boy I must be getting old! The spirit sure is willing but
the flesh is weak.
Chad Keller and
I are supposed to be at Parks registration at 6 a.m. come Monday morning to
reserve Jordan Park for Gay Freedom Day. I am getting too old for this activist
shit... But who else is going to do it? Certainly not the iPod, cyber
genderqueers of today.
And in reality
why should they? It's their party now. I'm relegated to family reunions in the
park. But you know that's okay too. Every thing in its season. Time is cylinder.
Birth -death are not opposite ends of a spectrum but conjoined points on a
cycle. We begin. We end. We begin We end. What we do on the rest of the cycle
is our own adventure.
"We all
come from the Goddess and unto her we shall return like a drop of rain flowing
to the ocean."
4 March 2007 Sunday
I am not a well woman. The crud in my bosom is wearing me down. I guess
I will see if I can get to the doc's this Thursday. My Next door neighbor had
walking pneumonia.
The weather was
beautiful again and Mike Romero and I went shopping this morning before all the
Mexicans get out of Church and it gets crowded. Use to be Sundays were the best
time to leisurely shop because Mormons do all theirs on Saturday but now
Mexicans have taken over Sundays but if you can get to the store before 11 you
usually are okay after that it’s screaming kids- DeJa’Vu.
It’s not the
Mexicans I mind it’s their kids running all over the place and touching
everything. Mormons let their kids do it on Saturday and now Mexicans have
taken over Sunday.
I guess I could
always shop at 9 p.m. to have some peace and quiet in the stores.
Mike's parents
are coming down from Rawlins Wyoming next weekend so I am going to let them
have my room and bathroom downstairs. I wanted to buy some new linen and
comforter for the bed for them.
Tonight is Kathy
Worthington's memorial service and I had been looking forward to it but I
really felt like my energy is gone and I really don't want to drive across
downtown to the University in the cold.
I wrote a nice
tribute to Kathy and if people have a problem with me not being there then
that's their problem.
I Watch “20
Centimeters” this morning. It was fabulous. American movies about gay lesbian
bisexual and trans issues can't hold a candle to
She lives with a
dwarf and turns tricks to raise the money for her operation. The problem is
that she has narcolepsy and when she falls asleep she dreams of herself being
in musical numbers.
The hot guy who
falls in love with her however loves her dick and likes getting fucked by her
so there's a problem. She wants to have a pussy and he wants her to keep the 10
inch dick. The movie really has some really funny scenes. I so want to go to
5 March 2007-6 March 2007
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7 March 2007 Wednesday
We live in an age where a no talent media whore can call a Presidential
candidate a "faggot" and get applause from the mighty and powerful.
We live in an
age when the Vice President can set up his own advisor to be the stooge for
revealing a CIA operative's name to the press.
We live in an
age where the President says we will give our fighting men ever bit of care
they deserve when they return and yet have them live in squalor hindered by a
bureaucratic nightmare.
We live in a
world where a conference on Global Warming has to be canceled because of the
weather.
We live in a
world where Brittany, Anna Nicole, and Paris are objects of national importance
and concern.
We live in a
world where
We live in a
world where Exxon can rape Americans for the greatest transfer of wealth in
world history and we call it Capitalism at its finest.
And yet no one
has taken to the streets? What is wrong with this generation? I guess they have
all "tuned in, tuned on their I-pods, and dropped out."
Apologies to
Timothy Leary Oh well I won't be here in 30 years when they reap what is being
sown now. Goodbye democracy - hello technological consumer driven
totalitarianism.
8 March 2007
Thursday
I took today off from school to
accomplish a lot of personal chores. First I had to take Smokey, Daisy and
Buddy to the groomers. Then I went to Parks and Recreation to see if I could
reserve Jordan Park for Gay Freedom day. No way. Every Sunday was taken in June
through August!
So Chad called
County parks and reserved Harmony Park again for Gay Freedom Day. Will be on
June 30th this year. Gay Pride Day has been moved up to June 1st as not to
conflict with the Arts Festival so there will be plenty of distance between
Pride Day and Gay Freedom Day in the Park.
Then I started
cleaning the house for Mike's parents who are coming down from Wyoming to
attend a Rock and Mineral Show up in Ogden this weekend. I am letting them have
downstairs and my bed so had to put on new sheets and bedding.
It cost me $150
to have the hounds groomed but after I got home saw that Buddy's eyes seemed
awfully red. When Mike Romero came home from lunch had him look at it and they
were even redder. Fearing that the might have had his eye cut at the groomers,
I rushed him to the vet and fortunately the doctor was right between patients
and could look at him.
He said that he
looked like he had a concussion to the eye but it was not cut. He gave me
ointment that I have to rub into his eye. He said sometimes dogs hit their head
on the pole they are tethered to at the groomers. Buddy can be pretty wild.
I've seen him smack his head on a wall by turning too fast because he's still a
puppy. That was another 40 dollars.
I spent the rest
of the day cleaning house and in the evening Mike Romero and I watched “WTC
View,” a film based on a play about a Gay man who lost his roommate in 9/11
disaster and the sequential descent into madness as he interviews people
wanting to rent the SoHo room. It was really powerful stuff.
Chad Keller and Mark Thrash lost their little
Sugar Glider the other day probably from old age but Mark is really sad over
the loss of his little furry friend. He has such a tender good heart. I think
it's a sign of how great our hearts are to be so caring for the little lives
that become our responsibilities.
9 March 2007 Friday
Today is Daisy and Buddy's 1st
Birthday. Bill and Faye Romero came in this afternoon after I was home from
work. I had left school early to meet them and then we drove around to
different thrift stores to go junking. I bought some more children books for
school and just stuff. Buying to be buying I suppose. The weather was
wonderful.
They treated
Mike and I to dinner at Crown Burgers that Faye likes so much. In the evening we
watched "The Guardian"; Ashton Kutcher and Kevin Costner macho movie
about the Coast Guard on Mike's big screen. I like Ashton Kutcher but I so
associate him with only being the goofball on the 70's Show that it’s hard to
picture him as a romantic lead.
10 March 2007
Saturday
It was cold, rainy, and blustery,
not at all the 55 degrees that was forecasted. We piled into the Romeros Excursion,
four adults and six dogs and off to Ogden we went. The show was held at the Union
Pacific Depot and it was crowded. Lots of pretty jewelry and shiny rocks but
since I am not really into collecting I looked at guys instead.
I had tickets
for Nunsense that is playing at the Grand Theater that I couldn't use so I
called Kevin Hillman and asked if he and his hubby Ryan could use them as not
to go to waste. I bought season tickets last fall.
He said he'd
take them so I met up with him and we gossiped some. He said he went to Kathy
Worthington's memorial which was basically divided between two camps...one, the
old guard activists and the other, young Lesbian friends of Kathy's daughter
who is also a Lesbian.
He said that
Luci Malin spoke which was really appropriate with her being one of the last
Lesbian Feminists around. She moved to Utah to fight for the ERA and was
president of the Utah Chapter of NOW for years and years.
Kevin said that
Kathy used her car in a closed garage to pass away the day after friends and
family was with her to help her get through the 1st anniversary of Sara's
death. Well they are together now.
Today is the 1st
anniversary of the death of my little female Schnauzer Saffy. She passed away
with Mike Romero and I holding her. My little brats Daisy and Buddy turned 1
year old on the 9th of March and it’s hard to grieve when there's so much
vitality is those two. The world keeps turning and there is always a beginning
for some living creature so rejoice in the new day.
11 March 2007
Sunday
Day Light Savings Time started today
and Bill and Faye Romero left this morning to head back to Rawlins. It was a
long weekend with Mike's folks here for the Ogden Rock show. They are rock
hounds and now that Bill is retired he runs a rock shop in Rawlings.
12 March 2007 Monday
So here I am whining, like I suppose most are, with losing an hour of
sleep. Yawn!
I emailed Tim
Keller in Logan that I would speak at their Gay Student Retreat at Bear Lake in
April, and Reconciliation wants me to speak to their group in May.
Chad Keller has
Harmony Park lined up for Gay Freedom Day and he said that the center hired
someone from California to be the director of Utah's "Pride Day". You
can't say the word Gay anymore as it would piss off too many Lesbians,
Bisexuals, and Transgendered. Wonder why the Center couldn't find someone from
Oh yes its as old fashion as we Baby Boomers. It’s
out of style among the new "Gender-queers" generation.
My Aunt Marie
Williams wrote me: “How is everything going? I think you may have spring break
soon. Ours is next week. The weather here is great.
I am planning to
move soon; it is too expensive here in Sedona. Talked to your mom Sat and she
is clunking along. Wish she could come out here. Well I am at work so got to
get back to the grind. Take care...Auntie.”
I wrote her back “Things are just plugging
along here. Easter Break isn't until April. I guess Charline is still in
The weather is
becoming more spring like here. Will be in the 60's all week. Mike's folks came
down from Rawlins and spent the weekend here. They wanted to attend a Rock Show
in Ogden. They are rock hounds.
Do you know yet
where you want to relocate to yet? I heard that Norman Danforth is in a
retirement village near Alan, I think in Fontana.
I am sure that
Sedona is becoming a haven for people with more money then you or I. LOL .
Last I talked to
Mom she was doing fine. I haven't heard from Stephanie in a while not since
last fall. I am sure David keeps her hopping. Take Care. Love You Jr.
13 March 2007-14 March
2007
15 March 2007
Thursday
There are events in our lives
that make us stop, pause, and question our sense of reality and perhaps our
delusions. Kathy Worthington’s recent death has had that effect on me. When
Michael Aaron called me at home with the news, he was at the UAF’s Oscar’s
Banquet. The report that Kathy was no longer with us was monumental to him. I
think somehow he knew that the heartrending news had to be passed along to
someone, as if by saying the dreaded words, sense could be made out of it. It
was however insensible that the towering strength that was Kathy had left us.
There
was a time in Salt Lake City when most everyone- who was doing anything in the
Gay community, was known by everyone else. We use to be that small. Oh sure
there were thousands who lived quiet lives, partied on the weekends, and
thrived in the protective cocoons of their familiar cliques. However those who
were out of the closet and wanting to make a social difference, in the late
1980’s and early 1990’s, perhaps there were little more than two hundred
people. These extraordinary queers were willing to serve in leadership
positions, raise money, make their voices heard, and make a different in the
bastion of rabid ultraconservatism we like to call home.
“We
are family” was not just a Pointers Sisters’ song but was a watchword for us
Gays. We called each other family because we were and are. Therefore, when
someone of the stature of Kathy Worthington leaves us, it’s not simply a sad
event, but a sorrowful, devastating loss. There are events in our lives that
make us stop, pause, and question our sense of reality and perhaps our
delusions. Kathy Worthington’s recent death has had that effect on me.
When Michael
Aaron called me at home with the news, he was at the UAF’s Oscar’s Banquet. The
report that Kathy was no longer with us was monumental to him. I think somehow
he knew that the heartrending news had to be passed along to someone, as if by
saying the dreaded words, sense could be made out of it. It was however
insensible that the towering strength that was Kathy had left us.
When
I first heard the horrific news I felt much the same disbelief, sorrow, and
grief as when I heard that the larger than life AIDS Crisis advocate David
Sharpton had died. That is how Kathy lived her life- larger than life. When
people who have sustained that much vigor and vitality are taken away, it makes
my own world feel smaller and diminished.
Funny, as much
as that small cohort of activists fought, fumed, and fussed, (especially David
Sharpton), Kathy was always above the fray. She had what appeared to me the
stoic virtue of a Roman Matron. She like Caesar’s wife was beyond reproached.
When she spoke at Community Council, we listened. Her words were always sound,
true, and pragmatic.
At the time I
hated that actually- because I was all emotion and ethereal fire and wanted to
lead the Gay revolution by storming the Bastille of Homophobia. Kathy however
was calming, reasonable, and down-to-earth in her approach to the struggle for
our human rights and had this homey “let’s be sensible” approach in dealing
with the issues of the day.
While
Kathy and I were not close friends, we were always friendly. Comrades in arms.
I sent an appreciation card to Sara shortly before her death and on the day
that Kathy died I had emailed her a quick note to say I was thinking of her and
Sara on the anniversary of Sara’s passing. I will never know if she ever read
it. The kinship I felt with Kathy was that of one comrade-in-arms towards
another. Kathy, I as well as many others were fighting the same “good fight”
against injustice, bigotry, prejudice, and
homophobia. I felt safe knowing that Kathy had my back. She had all of ours.
Possibly
because Kathy and I are baby boomers, travelers on the same time line I feel
especially connected with Kathy. Only six months older then I, we experienced
in our teens the turmoil of the Civil Rights Movement and the disastrous bloody
Vietnam War that lasted until our early twenties. Events like the
assassinations of John Kennedy, Martin Luther King, and Bobby Kennedy, the Kent
State Massacre where the National Guard fired on college students, and
Constitutional Crisis of Watergate influenced our social consciousness and our
sense of social justice. For us they were not just events out of history books.
Although
we both were heterosexually married once, because of society’s pressures to
conform, we still had our young adult lives affected by the Equal Rights
Amendment’s struggle for Women’s Rights and the Anita Bryant National Backlash
to Gay Liberation. We knew who Harvey Milk was and what he stood for. We saw
“Gay Related Immune deficiency” Syndrome become AIDS and, because of Government
neglect, wipe out nearly a million Gay men within a decade. Our generation.
Kathy
and I both were late bloomers in our Gay activism, I in 1986 when I was 35
years old and Kathy in 1989 when she was 39 years old. But when we came out- we
were out – and we were formidable, working ferociously to make up for lost time
and to construct a safer and more hospitable Utah for Gay people. We both had
the honor of being recipients of the Dr. Kristen Ries Community Service Award
for our efforts. We both ran support groups. We both started papers in Salt
Lake City, Kathy for the Women’s Community, and I for the Men’s. We both wrote
newspaper columns, (however she never pissed off as many people), we both did
not hesitate to send letters to the editor, nor did we turn down a newspaper
interview.
My
favorite memory of Kathy Worthington is rallying her circle of Lesbian friends
to clean, paint and decorate the old Utah Stonewall Center at 3rd West at 770 South with rainbow curtains.
She did not do it for praise. She did not do it for money. She did it because
she loved Gay people. She did it because it needed to be done. She did it
because she was Kathy Worthington.
While
I am incredibly sad that Kathy is gone I can’t be but grateful that because as
weary as she was she now can rest forever in Sara’s arms.
When I first heard the horrific news I felt much the same disbelief,
sorrow, and grief as when I heard that the larger than life AIDS Crisis
advocate David Sharpton had died. That is how Kathy lived her life- larger than
life. When people who have sustained that much vigor and vitality are taken
away, it makes my own world feel smaller and diminished.
Funny, as much
as that small cohort of activists fought, fumed, and fussed, (especially David
Sharpton), Kathy was always above the fray. She had what appeared to me the
stoic virtue of a Roman Matron. She like Caesar’s wife was beyond reproached.
When she spoke at Community Council, we listened. Her words were always sound,
true, and pragmatic.
At the time I
hated that actually- because I was all emotion and ethereal fire and wanted to
lead the Gay revolution by storming the Bastille of Homophobia. Kathy however
was calming, reasonable, and down-to-earth in her approach to the struggle for
our human rights and had this homey “let’s be sensible” approach in dealing
with the issues of the day.
While
Kathy and I were not close friends, we were always friendly. Comrades in arms.
I sent an appreciation card to Sara shortly before her death and on the day
that Kathy died I had emailed her a quick note to say I was thinking of her and
Sara on the anniversary of Sara’s passing. I will never know if she ever read
it. The kinship I felt with Kathy was that of one comrade-in-arms towards
another. Kathy, I as well as many others were fighting the same “good fight”
against injustice, bigotry, prejudice, and
homophobia. I felt safe knowing that Kathy had my back. She had all of ours.
Possibly
because Kathy and I are baby boomers, travelers on the same time line I feel
especially connected with Kathy. Only six months older then I, we experienced
in our teens the turmoil of the Civil Rights Movement and the disastrous bloody
Vietnam War that lasted until our early twenties. Events like the
assassinations of John Kennedy, Martin Luther King, and Bobby Kennedy, the Kent
State Massacre where the National Guard fired on college students, and
Constitutional Crisis of Watergate influenced our social consciousness and our
sense of social justice. For us they were not just events out of history books.
Although
we both were heterosexually married once, because of society’s pressures to
conform, we still had our young adult lives affected by the Equal Rights
Amendment’s struggle for Women’s Rights and the Anita Bryant National Backlash
to Gay Liberation. We knew who Harvey Milk was and what he stood for. We saw
“Gay Related Immune deficiency” Syndrome become AIDS and, because of Government
neglect, wipe out nearly a million Gay men within a decade. Our generation.
Kathy
and I both were late bloomers in our Gay activism, I in 1986 when I was 35
years old and Kathy in 1989 when she was 39 years old. But when we came out- we
were out – and we were formidable, working ferociously to make up for lost time
and to construct a safer and more hospitable
My
favorite memory of Kathy Worthington is rallying her circle of Lesbian friends
to clean, paint and decorate the old
While
I am incredibly sad that Kathy is gone I can’t be but grateful that because as
weary as she was she now can rest forever in Sara’s arms.
16 March 2007 Friday
I am playing hooky today to go to the doctors finally. All this week my
class has been performing the Ghost of Plymouth Castle. I am about the last of the
teachers who put on plays for their kids. I had three casts so it was hectic.
One boy found a
tutu in my costume box and asked if he could wear it and a tiara. He twirled
around the room and had a Gay old time. Kids don't get to play dress up and
make believe anymore.
I went to doctor
Stoneburner about my cough. He said that my oxygen levels were great, my blood
pressure was great, and everything was great...so how come I don't feel so
great?
One of the
reasons is the drug Avandia which has caused me to gain nearly 20 lbs. since
last Summer. It control my blood sugar levels for diabetes but the side effect
is that it makes you gain weight.
I said, look at me doctor, do I look like a
man who can afford to put on more weight? I really love my doctor who I've had
for nearly 15 years and he is putting me on a brand new drug, have no idea the
name of it which is supposed to work like Avandia but will help takeoff weight.
Anyone up for ANOTHER survey?
1. What time did you get up this
morning? 6:15
2. Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds
of course (my birthstone!)
3. What was the last film you saw
at the cinema? Children of Men
4. What is your favorite TV show?
Ugly Betty
5. What did you have for
breakfast? Coffee and oatmeal
6. What is your middle name? Hugh
7. What is your favorite cuisine?
Mexican
8. What foods do you dislike?
Anything Vinegary, Indian food, animal organs, turnips, rutabagas, Chinese corn
cobs, brown rice, sweet pickles, runny eggs, hard candy, soft cookies, caviar,
raw fish, most moles, game meat, duck, rabbit, cocktail shrimp, raw meat
9. Your favorite potato chip? I
like Barbecue
10. What is your favorite CD at
the moment? Haven’t bought a CD in ten years.
11. What kind of car do you
drive? Sonoma GMC truck
12. Favorite sandwich? Barbecued
pulled pork
13. What characteristic do you
despise? Republicanism
14. What are your favorite
clothes? Anything with Elastic waist bands better yet flowing nightshirt.
15. If you could go anywhere in
the world on vacation where would/or
wouldn't you go? Wouldn’t go to
Japan Would go to
16. Favorite brand of clothing?
XXL
17. Where would you want to
retire? In the
18. Favorite time of day?
Suppertime
19. Where were you born?
20. What is your favorite sport
to watch? I despise all commercial sports, but I usually watch some men
swimming. Not really waste of time.
21. Who do you think will not
send this back? Everyone
22. Person you expect to send it
back first? No one
23. Pepsi or Coke? I am a bi-sodual
24. Beavers or ducks? Ducks,
Beavers scare me lol.
25. Are you a morning person or a
night owl? Nite owl...I HATE mornings.
26. Pedicure or manicure?
Manicure, I love people messing with my feet but alas they have had 56 years
worth of wear and tear and ain’t as purty was they once were.
27. Any new and exciting news
you'd like to share with everyone? 3rd Term of school is over!
28. What did you want to be when
you were little? pretty
29. What is a childhood memory
you have? Having the chickenpox on my 3rd birthday and watching the other kids
enjoy my party through a window.
31. Ever been to
32. Ever been toilet papering?
Gosh No! That’s vandalism!
33. Been in a car accident? Two
minor fenderbenders over nearly 40 years of driving. Not bad.
34. Favorite day of the week?
Sunday
35. Favorite restaurant? La
Fronteras
36. Favorite flower? lilacs
37. Favorite ice cream? Burnt
almond fudge
38. Favorite fast food
restaurant? Apollo Burgers
39. How many times did you fail
the driver's test? Once (backing up with out turning my head instead of just
using mirrors)
40. From whom did you get your
last e-mail?
41. Which store would you choose
to max out your credit card? Lowes
42. Bedtime? usually 9:30 school
nights
43. Who are you most curious
about their responses to this? I like it when people post these...they're fun
44. Last person you went to
dinner with? Mike Romero and his folks
45. What are you listening to
right now? Computer droning
46. What is your favorite color?
periwinkle
47. How many tattoos do you have?
none
48. How many people are you
sending this email to? I'm posting it in my blog
49. What time did you finish this
blog entry? 9:45 a.m.
50. Favorite magazine? Mad-
although I never read it anymore.
17 March 2007 Saturday
Kiss my
Mike Romero, Ben
Anderson, and I went to the St. Patrick Day Parade in
Mike Romero went
and hooked up with Richard Packer and Steve Merrill and I stayed with Ben. We
only watched the parade for about an hour and then left but left at 11:30. Mike
Romero said it went on until nearly 1:30! I only went to see the men in kilts
anyway.
Ben Anderson and
I went out for lunch at a great little Chinese Buffet place before heading back
to my place to rest up. He wants me to go with him to
When Mike Romero
came home he said we were invited to a party to this afternoon have corned beef
and cabbage. It was at some guys place that he had met at Gay Pride Day last
summer.
The party was
interesting but a mixed crowd of straights and Gays. Call me old fashioned but
when I go to a party, its to get away from Straight people.
But we bit the raw potato, threw back the
Irish Whiskey and toasted the Green Isle of our forefathers.
Back at the hose
Kimberlee Gile, my sweet next door neighbor, came over all depressed, stressed,
and teary eyed so I had her come in and I just hugged her and let her cry.
Her oldest
daughter Elyse is leaving home this week to move to Florida to attend college.
The empty nest syndrome is just killing her, worrying about her daughter, and
she's super stressed because of her job.
She's a customer
supervisor for Jet Blue Airlines and upper management is dumping on its
employees for mandatory overtime. She used to love Jet Blue but now with all
the negative publicity the company has been receiving, she gets panic attack
just answering calls. People are just getting meaner.
So her husband Randy and she with Mike Romero and
me, we went to Applebee’s in Bountiful and just had a long leisurely meal and
to just commiserate about all the gunk that is going on in our lives.
It’s so good to
have friends and neighbors like them. Well they are more like family. I gave Elyse $100 for her trip, saying this is
emergency money. I'm like her Gay Uncle. I've known her since she was in 4th
grade.
A lot of Sunday
was emailing back and forth between Stuart Merrill and me over some comments he
made on my Yahoo Gay Forum site that offended some people. He's a lobbyist for
the AIDS community and I think he feels like he has to defend his position to
me since I am the unofficial Gay historian of Salt Lake City.
In the evening Mike
Romero and I watched a Gay film “Fixing Frank” based on a stage play which was
interesting, then we watched Liz Taylor in Cleopatra. Gilded to the gills in
gold, riding a monumental Sphinx pulled by a hundred Nubian Slaves! FABULOUS!
18 March 2007 Sunday
No entry
19 March 2007 Monday
Beautiful weather along the Wasatch Front. Its in the 70's and
daffodils, violets, forsythias, willows are all budding and blooming. I hear a
storm is heading our way on Wednesday, however.
Today is the
last day of Winter. Yay! The kids had the day off so I got a lot accomplished
today filing lessons back into their folders, doing grades to hand out next
week etc.
I have 30
students now and they keep on coming. By the “No Child Left Behind” law our
school will be judged by how well these kids do on the end of year tests even
though I am only teaching some of them for just the fourth term. Oh well.
In 45 work days
it will be all over. Another school year gone.
Our mayor Rocky
Anderson is becoming a national spokesperson for the impeachment of George
Bush. I bet that surprises a lot of people that the Mayor of Salt Lake City is
calling figuratively for Bush and Cheney's heads.
I went to the Try-Angles Bar tonight to
support Ben Andersons Bunny, now one of the Cyber-Sluts. It was the last Bingo
Night. I didn't play because I didn't want to stay long but just donated some
money.
I saw Ron Hunt and
Todd (Mr. International Daddy Bear) Bennett at the bar and sat with them a
while. Didn't get to visit much because I didn't want to distract them from
Bingo.
Well it’s going
to be a busy week so better sign off... Goodnight Mr. and Mrs.
20 March 2007
Tuesday
It’s the first day of Spring. I Wrote
my article for the Q and sent that in. Heard that Mike Aaron was out of town so
sent it to his editor.
21 March 2007 Wednesday
I had a long 13 hour day. The kids were
performing their I Can Do dance at West High for Ballet West and I had to be
with them so after being in school all day I was at West High until 9 at night
and by the time the last student was picked up by straggling parents it was
nearly 10 before my day was finally over.
The school bus
ride was the thing that about did me in with 60 students singing "and the
wheels of the bus goes round and round" at the top of their voice.
Speaking of buses If you have not seen SHORT BUS do yourself a
favor and rent it. It's John Cameron Mitchell's (Hedwig and the Angry Itch)
latest film. It is so much fun, bizarre, and helps understand the new
genderqueer genre of smashing all sexuality into a single concept of a search
for meaning and identity. I mean what other movie do you get to see one of the
main characters masturbate upside down to cum in his own mouth?
22 March 2007 Thursday
No entry
23 March 2007 Friday
It's been a busy week. My ESL endorsement came in the mail today so
Yippee! I suppose. I only plan on teaching six more years at the most. In fact
I met with a
Davis District financial
retirement planner after school since I realized that I have only six more
years to teach.
I will then be
62 years old and will have had put in 25 years. From taking to Tyler Ferguson,
found out some real encouraging news from him and he was really cute so it was
easy to listen to his advice.
At 62 I can
retire from the district without penalty and receive my full pension which will
be half of my yearly salary at retirement. The district will pay for my medical
insurance until 65 when Medicaid will kick in.
I am going to
collect Social Security at 62 instead of waiting until I am 66 but that with my
pension and my 401Ks and my house I should be able to live comfortable for the
rest of my days.
But that brings
me to where do I want to live for the rest of my days? Not California. Not
Texas. Not Las Vegas. Certainly not Utah but if I stay here and did not have to
worry about losing my job, I will become the biggest loudest pain in the ass of
the Mormon establishment but do I want to spend the rest of my life being
agitated like Larry Kramer?
Mike Romero says
he'll probably head to Colorado where he has family, which was just another
reminder that he doesn't consider me family any more.
Oh well I have
six more years to get through before having to deal with that.
Mom talked to me
a good two hours tonight. She was in a mood to visit and was feeling better.
Her newest great grandson is coming to visit next week so she is all jazzed.
She said that
she and my uncle are selling the farm in Texas. Some Mexican rancher wants to
run cattle on it and the farm does have a natural pond on it. He's offering
$450 an acre for the 160 acre place. That's $72,000. JW wants $80,000 but mom
said to accept the 72 grand if that's all we can get because it will be one
other thing that we cousins won’t have to deal with.
Strange to think
that my house in worth twice what a 160 acre farm is worth in west Texas.
My share of the
inheritance from Grandma and grandpa Johnson will be about $12,000 if I get any.
I've never really cared about money or material goods. Just wanted to be
comfortable and not have to eat cat food in my old age.
Really have no
real desire to travel anymore. An expensive car doesn't feed my ego. When you
die you leave it all behind and only take your memories if that.
Mike Romero and
I watched a good movie that made me readjust my thinking somewhat on the
Mexican migration to the
My neighbor
Randy Gile dropped a bomb shell saying that he may accept a position in
Anchorage Alaska and will find out in a couple of days if he'll take it. If
they offer it I am pretty sure they will go because Kimberlee and he have
talked about Alaska before, and if the company will pay for their move and sell
their house they are out of Utah. I think the Universe is turning for them and
it will be a good opportunity for them but a sorrow for me.
24 March 2007 Saturday
I put some bark down in the
backyard between the paving stones but Sutherlands still haven't gotten any
wood mulch in which I really want. They didn't have any bedding plants either.
No wonder Home Depot and Lowes are taking their business.
I drove into
Bountiful and bought some pansies and prim roses to plant in my pots on my back
deck. After this long dreary winter I need some color.
Kimberlee Gile and
her daughter Elyse were packing the truck they bought from Michael Romero a few
years ago. They were supposed to leave by noon but they left at Giles time- 5
o'clock. lol
It was hard to
see Elyse leave. She was bawling and saying good bye to her childhood
essentially. And her sister Kayla who is only in 4th grades, said with tears
streaming down her face, "I'll always remember you". Well Florida is
not the same as living across town.
So glad that
Kimberley is going with her daughter, kind of a mother-daughter road trip. I
gave them $100 for extra money and Mike Romero gave them a card and some money
too. The Wheel of Life is turning.
I made a chicken
and stuffing and gravy casserole for the Spicy Dinner Group tonight that Ben
Anderson wanted to go to. I also made some cornbread.
The location was
at this guy’s house just west of 13th East and had a fantastic view of the
valley. About thirty people came. Perhaps more.
My first
observation was that no one cooks anymore. Almost everything was either
packaged or store bought. I think only one other entree besides mine was home
made. Everything else was either a salad or something from Costco or Sam's
Club. Needless to say my chicken casserole was the first thing gone. Ben didn't
even get a taste.
I didn't care what I ate because I just wanted
to socialize but there were quite a few people there who were piling on the
food like they never get a good meal. Perhaps they don't.
Most of the men
there were in their mid-thirties to mid-forties and with a few exceptions I
didn't know anyone. Made me think that perhaps Salt Lake City isn't home
anymore but just another city full of strangers.
One of my main
impressions was that the gathering had all the same trappings of being in a bar
except without the smoke. Ben Anderson and I tried to be friendly but after it
was clear that most wanted the familiar, rather than make new friends, we just
sat in these chrome chairs that kind of rocked and just people watched.
We left about 9
and doubt if our leaving even caused a ripple in the party's conscientiousness.
At home Mike Romero and I played Short Bus for Ben but he didn't enjoy it. He
said he liked more traditional Boy meets boy and lives happily ever after.
The Gile’s oldest daughter left today
for Florida to go to college. Kimberlee hates her job now at Jet Blue, and
since the family isn't Mormon they really have never made friends with anyone
other then the two old queens who live next door.
We’ve been neighbors
for nearly 10 years and the only ones we became like family. But time stops for
no man and you can't stop progress nor should you want to. It's just another
chapter of my life that is receding into my past.
25 March 2007
Sunday
Sunday was more calm than
yesterday, just chores, grocery shopping, making some pasta salad for next
week.
I told Chad Keller
that I would edit his term paper for his philosophy class because he was all
stressed over it. He was doing it on Nietzsche yikes! So I helped him put in a
better opening paragraph, condensed some superfluous information and two hours
later I was done.
By that time I
just wanted to relax and do something mindless like watch Sunday Fox TV.
I had a message
on my answering machine, I hadn't noticed before and it was from a long lost
friend Mike Pipkin who I bet I haven't seen in 15 years. He used to be my roommate
in the early 90's and his Faerie name was Puck. I haven't called him back yet.
26 March 2007 Monday
It can't be Monday again! I didn't get nearly anything accomplished that
I wanted to do. Friday night my mom had a marathon phone call for two hours.
She just needed to visit so we did and I went to bed at 9:30 after that.
Today on the way
to work my engine service light came on for the first time so I called my
mechanic and asked if I could drop the truck off in the morning. They have to
use sensors to diagnose why the light came on before they can even fix it. Mike
Romero thinks it might be an emission thing because I have 85,000 miles on the
truck and its 10 years old.
Michael Aaron's
new editor is really starting to annoy me with all her questions about my
column. I dare say I put more time and effort into my columns with the research
I have gathered over the year and yet she nitpicks them about inconsequential
details while ignoring the broader theme of the column.
I am getting
tired of it, of having to document to her satisfaction. I am not writing a term
paper nor do I ask for any type of financial remuneration. Neither do I get a
thanks and, worse, the respect that I feel I have earned from my labors over
the years to become an elder or senior in the community.
Well old faggots just fade away
once the glitter and glamour has turned dull and tarnished. Zeus consumed his
father and it has been that way from time memorial. You have your day in the
sun and then it’s time to let the new puppies play.
27 March 2007 Tuesday
I was up early this morning to take my car down to my mechanic to see
why the engine light came on. Let this be a lesson. Tighten your gas cap! The
sensors in the car computer noticed a change in the air pressure in the
tank....and 60 dollars later I learned a valuable lesson.
It was down
pouring in
Big Dick Cheney
is coming to BYU. Is there any other sign bigger than that, that the LDS Church
has sold its soul to the devil?
28 March 2007 Wednesday
No Entry
29 March 2007 Thursday,
I am sick with the flu. I Came
home yesterday at 4:30 and slept 13 hours until this morning. I am going to have
to drag myself to work to make lesson plans for a substitute but just really
want to just go back to bed. I am still feverous and wouldn't want others you
to catch it either.
.
30 March 2007 Friday
Well I am feeling better now. I went to bed Tuesday will a chest cough
and progressively throughout the day it became worse and deeper. Wednesday I
was supposed to stay at work until 6:30 for Parent Teachers Conference but I
was fading fast and by 4:00 so just left for home. I barely made it home and
was able to throw myself into bed before the chills hit. I had the flu.
I managed to gag down some codeine for the
cough and Excedrin PM to help sleep and I was knocked out until the next
morning. I was out for 13 hours.
I had to go into
work having no lesson plans made, so aching and tired made it through another
day.
Thursday night I
was feeling somewhat better and watched “Children of Men” with Michael Romero and
that night my fever broke soaking my pillows and sheets. It was a fast moving
flu, hit hard and then moved on.
I had a flu shot
last October but sure it had worn off by now. I had kids absent all week and
today four were gone so it must be making the rounds. I had really wanted to
hear this Yale professor of Gay history who was speaking at the U yesterday but
even though I was feeling better I was not up to racing across town and being
out in the weather. We had rain, snow, hail, all in the past few days.
With this pet
food crisis I have stopped feeding my dogs dog food all together. I feed them a
roasted chicken and corn bread. I put vitamins in the corn bread and they like
it better. I can get a roasted chicken for $4.50 and with four dogs to feed
that's just a buck a day per dog. It's really plenty of meat and most of the
fat has already been roasted off.
Every time I use
spell checker it pulls up “somersaults” for Cybersluts. Hmmm. There's got to be
a good joke in there somewhere.
I guess the
Living Planet Aquarium, (an aquarium in the desert?) board of directors are
leaving like rats from a sinking ship. Plenty of drama there.
It's LDS
conference weekend don ‘cha know? The Gay bars will be packed with those out of
town Elders singing "Her light shall there attract the Gays of all the
world in Latter-days"
31 March 2007 Saturday
Last day of the month and for most of the day it was gorgeous. Trees are
wearing their flowery blossoms of pink, white, and lavender. In fact it was
nice out I worked in the yard cleaning out flower beds putting down weed and
feed all those spring time chores.
Of course I over
did it and was stiff and sore later on. Plus I am getting a fever blister on my
upper lip. Ouch. But the worse of the flu is over and feel almost normal again.
This morning I
stumbled onto a web site called “Sparks-notes” which offer all different types
of tests that millions of others have taken. One is what gender are you and the
result of my answers said that I was female. LOL. No I have not gone
genderqueer. I just wonder if being Gay made me answer questions differently
then hetero-men.
I took an IQ
test that took me nearly an hour and it said my IQ was 128 with 100 being
average. So I am bright but not genius.
I also took a
test on when I would die based on life style and health. It said I would die in
2016...July 6th to be exact so I suppose its a good thing I am retiring at 62!
I guess anything after that is borrowed time!
I have been
updating my Utah Stonewall Historical Society 360 Blog putting as much of my
research out there as possible. Mike Romero and I took the dogs for a drive
down to Iceberg Drive-In that makes the best shakes in
Ben Anderson
wanted me to go out clubbing but I wrote him saying, “I have been working in my
yard all day cleaning out flower beds and pulling weeds and I over did it. I
also have a horrible fever blister emerging on my top lip so now I think I am
going slicker myself up with Ben-Gay and call it a night. Not up for a crowded
bar scene so if you decide to go to the Bear thing have fun. Ben
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