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Winter First Quarter Journal 2018 January-March Trumps 2nd year

 

JOURNAL 2018

 1 January 2018 Monday

After a restless night full of frightened pups and explosions finally was able to go back to sleep after 1:30 a.m. and slept in until 7:30. So begins a new year. Wow. I am still around. So let’s do the basics. I am a 66-year-old man and will turn 67 this year. I live at 1633 Fernleaf Street in the Westpointe area of Salt Lake City in the northwest quadrant. I have since October 1996. I have no other person living with me at the start of the year but I do have six hound dogs that I share my space with. Crazy right? Five of them are rescue dogs that I fostered and then couldn’t give up and then old Buddy who I have had since 2006 when I got him as a 8-week-old puppy. In order of when they came in to my life, there is Buddy a black schnauzer about 13 years old, Harleigh a gray schnauzer about 11 years old, Maxx a Chihuahua mix about 5 years old, TJ a pure Chihuahua about 3 years old, Lulu Belle a white terrier mix about 6 years old, and Buster, a black and tan Chihuahua mix about 12 years old. I am still babysitting Coco a chocolate schnauzer who is Mike Romero’s 8-year-old dog. So they all entertain me and keep me engaged with taking care of them and I am never lonely with all of them on my lap at various times of the day. I had bariatric surgery last spring and have lost 50 pounds at least and weigh about 195 pounds which is a weight I haven’t been at since 1990. My diabetes is in remission because of the surgery but my life style which had been centered round food had been radically altered. I eat so little now and take little joy and pleasure in food. I am a retired elementary school teacher but still am active in research and writing up the history of Utah’s Gay history. I write a monthly history column for the Q Salt Lake and have since 2004. I also do a monthly history lecture on Gay history which is about the only real involvement I have in the Gay community anymore of which I was once a mover and shaker. Times change. It’s a pleasant sunny New Year’s Day with most of the Christmas snow melted. I had my morning coffee with dark chocolate and had two frozen waffles for breakfast. That’s more than enough. I am making split pea soup for supper. Michael came over to retrieve Coco who spent the night since Mike went to a New Year’s Eve party and I just stayed home. I gave him cans of Star-Kist tuna and chicken  that I know I will never eat. I went down to the Utah State Prison to see Kyle Foote in the afternoon. It was a good visit and not nearly as many people as it was on Christmas Eve. He looked good and seemed to be in good spirits. Our time was from 1 to 3 and after our visit I went to Lucky Market and bought a few things for the pups and me.

 

2 January 2018 Tuesday

I took Coco and Buddy down to the groomers at the Dog Park instead of taking them to Stephen Bolinder’s after all these years. It’s not that I had anything against Stephen’s grooming but it was such a pain going across town to 15th and 15th  where The Dog Park is just down off of Redwood Road and North Temple. They did a nice job although quite a bit more expensive than what Stephen charged. Together Coco and Buddy were about $110 where with Stephen it would have been just $80. Oh well I guess I am paying for convenience. Spent the rest of the entire day working on my report for my Lecture Series tomorrow on the years 1979 and 1980. Orrin G. Hatch, the longest-serving Senate Republican, said he will retire at the end of the year, paving the way for Mitt Romney to be sustained.

 

3 January 2018 Wednesday

I woke to the news that Thomas S Monson, president of the Mormon Church died last night. I wonder if Hatch's announcement did Monson in... Both thinking it’s time to check out... Be prepared for wailing and gnashing of teeth in SLC ...While some of my friends are lauding the late Thomas Monson as a good man let’s not forget he led the church's opposition to marriage equality with Proposition 8 and was a high church official for over 45 years who never condemned sexism and homophobia within the Mormon Church but kept the status quo of right wing bigotry disguised in crocodile tears and benign platitudes...Both presumptive prophet Russell Nelson and next in line after him Dallin Oaks are polygamists having a second wife sealed to them for all eternity... So their first wives will be sharing their husbands’ everlasting penises with another woman for all time and eternity... What a marvelous work and a wonder... Russell Nelson the next president of the Mormon Church said that excommunicating same sex married Mormons was the mind and will of God... He also said that Millennials are the last generation before the apocalypse..." In the end, the apostle reminded the young people that they were born for this time — with an important assignment: to usher in the Second Coming of Jesus Christ." Oh papa Tooney we got a looney... It was Harleigh and Lulu Belle’s turn to go to the groomer today while I finished up my report. That was another $100 but that’s what one does if you love Schnauzers. I finished getting 30 pages of notes on 1979 and 1980 down to 10 pages for my history lecture series for tonight... It only took two days and 12 hours to glean and rewrite... Then I  baked cookies ... After all what is a meeting without cookies? We only had a small group of about 12 people at the lecture series tonight although we are now schedules for the big room at the Marmalade. I had anticipated a larger turn out and made extra cookies but oh well. The ones who were there enjoyed it for sure. Our Topic was the events of 1979 and 1980 including the dissolution of the old Imperial Court of Utah and the entrapment of David Chipman by BYU security officers.

·         Richard Harmston Ben, thanks for educating your community. We need this perspective to move forward.

 

4 January 2018 Thursday

It took several tries but the talk given last night on the years 1979 and 1980 is posted as a document on USHS Lecture Series site for those interested. I spent about two hours formatting it and then the computer froze and I had to do it all over again. Ugh. Frustrating. I made a crockpot of corn chowder this January day and ate several bowls of it for my supper. Soup is about the only way I can eat vegetables. The insurance guy for Wiscombe Memorial called this evening and I have an appointment for next Tuesday at 11 a.m. to pay for my arrangements. Trump is threatening to sue everyone involved in the book that was written about his first year. You know I don't recall President Obama suing any of his defamers during his eight years... Just saying. In the Trump-Bannon divorce I wonder who will get custody of the Nazis?

 

5 January 2018 Friday

The dogs were so anxious last night. I wonder what got into their bonnets...about 3:30 a.m. TJ, Harleigh, Buddy, and Lulu Belle were so anxious they woke me up...Couldn't get back to sleep until 4 a.m. then Coco comes barging in at 7 saying howdy to everyone. So I wrote my article for the Q that isn't due until the 12th.. That should make Michael Aaron ecstatic ... Shared a breakfast of a sausage patty and two frozen waffles with the hounds who said they were hungrier than me. Even my mega cup of coffee isn't doing the trick this morning. The pair of new jeans I bought last week at 38-inch waist is dropping off of me... damn serves me right for buying new clothes... In the afternoon went and had a haircut but not a beard trim this time. I like to keep the sides short to avoid hat hair. From there went to Deseret Industries and bought a pair of pants that are 36-inch waist to see if that is what I am wearing now. Then went to Smith’s to get the dogs a treat and I bought a frozen cheese pizza. I haven’t had a pizza since before my surgery. I figured if I am not able to eat it at least I am not out much. I have a pot of pinto beans and chili meat cooking… Should be ready by tomorrow, I still have split pea soup and corn chowder to finish up also. Back East I guess they are getting clobbered by the “bomb cyclone” and it’s snowing in Tallahassee but its dry as a bone here unlike last year at this time when I had a half a foot of snow to deal with.

 

6 January 2018 Saturday

It’s 38 degrees this morning in SLC...and expecting rain today... wow. Is it January? I just worked on cleaning up the report I did on Britton Williams one of my great grand daddies who died at the young age of 35 in the Revolutionary War. I know I should clean house but the most I got done was some laundry and picked up some of the dog dishes. I did make a crockpot of chili and some pinto beans. Made some corn bread with it but that little I can eat makes it a lot of effort for such little return. I will give Mike Romero most of it on Monday. The book Fire and Fury is out and is on all the news outlets. Roasted chicken for supper tonight... Buddy was hungry ... In the evening watched a bit more of Miss Fishers Murder Mysteries.

 

7 January 2018 Sunday

Today is the 41st anniversary of when Fran and I got married. I wonder if she gives this date any thought. She will be 73 years old this February. I got a letter dated the 4th from Kyle Foote. It must have come yesterday when I didn’t check the mail. He said that he’s being transferred to another section of the Utah State Prison for those who work off site like he does now. They are closing Charlie Block of the Wasatch and opening another site called Lone Peak. He said I won’t have to use the main waiting area any more as that Lone Peak has its own entrance. I guess sometime after the 15th they will be moved. Lulubelle is just nuts over split pea soup...I had a bit left over from earlier this week and after eating about 1/2 of it she wanted the rest which was a good size bowl...she licked it clean. About 3 pm I was surprised with company. I know so many good people...I feel so blest...Richard Harmston and Charles Bigo dropped by to have a short visit and drop off some lovely yellow flowers... I asked what the occasion and they was said it’s because it's January... It's getting foggy over here by the river although much of the day was warm and nice...must be the moisture in the air from the snow melting...there's a cool sink right by the Jordan River where the air is cooler than all around it. Company coming over this afternoon made me realize I need to keep up with the house cleaning...that or leave a bunch of Get-Well cards lying around so people think I've been too sick to keep it up... The pups and I are having cooked oatmeal for supper today...I am having mine with butter, milk, and sweetener...the pups’ wanted gizzards and chicken breasts... No accounting for tastes... But Buster must have liked it because his bowl is clean as a whistle...Lulubelle isn't eating...she's probably full of pea soup... When I was sitting in the lazy boy TJ wanted up in my lap and then proceeded to hack up some un digested bits of food he probably scarfed down to keep others from having it... Yuck!

8 January 2018 Monday

Home from Voices Heard, where Chad Anderson, Mike McClane and Meg Bee Green read from their works. SLC has some amazing talented people and Chad seems to be connected to them all... I usually don’t go out at night but wanted to support Chad. Dillon Harker and Mark Angus were the only ones I knew there at Mestizo Café but I am glad I went because  Mike McClane wanted some information I had on the Warm Springs area that I had.

·         Chad Anderson I am so richly blessed to have supportive and incredible friends in my life. I retire this evening full of joy and love.

 

9 January 2018 Tuesday

It's 45 degrees this morning in SLC ... What are we now? In the tropical belt? The high was 48...not that I am complaining as long as we get our moisture... I had an appointment at 11 pm to meet at Wiscombe Memorial to pay for my cremation funeral. It cost $1001 so I guess even my funeral will be on the cheap. LOL But it’s a relief and a peace of mind to know that my mortal remains will be disposed of in a proper manner and my relatives won’t have to be put out dealing with it. It was not lost on me that today is what would have been John Cunningham’s 67th birthday. When Richard Harmston came over on Sunday he was concerned I wasn't getting enough leafy greens in my diet...he suggested Kale!!! Can you believe it? But since he's such a good person and don't want to worry him I made cream of spinach soup with smoked sausage for supper tonight... Next he will tell me my candy orange jelly slices aren't as good as real oranges...When I took Coco home I told Mike that it was taken care of. He wants to do the same but I bet he will procrastinate. He said that his brother John manage to see Bill Romero’s shop in Rawlings for $65,000. They were afraid they would just lose it. This evening It's actually balmy out ... Feels like mid-March ... Strange but I like it... As true today or truer than when President Truman said it 70 years ago... This is Why I am a lifelong Democrat... Because I have empathy...

·         Today the forces of liberalism face a crisis. The people of the United States must make a choice between two ways of living — a decision which will affect us the rest of our lives and our children and our grandchildren after us. On the other side, there is the Wall Street way of life and politics. Trust the leader! Let big business take care of prices and profits! Measure all things by money! That is the philosophy of the masters of the Republican Party. Well, I have been studying the Republican Party for over 12 years at close hand in the Capital of the United States. And by this time, I have discovered where the Republicans stand on most of the major issues. Since they won’t tell you themselves, I am going to tell you. They approve of the American farmer — but they are willing to help him go broke. They stand four-square for the American home — but not for housing. They are strong for labor — but they are stronger for restricting labor’s rights. They favor a minimum wage — the smaller the minimum the better. They indorse educational opportunity for all — but they won’t spend money for teachers or for schools. They think modern medical care and hospitals are fine — for people who can afford them. They approve of Social Security benefits — so much so that they took them away from almost a million people. They believe in international trade — so much so that they crippled our reciprocal trade program and killed our International Wheat Agreement. They favor the admission of displaced persons — but only within shameful racial and religious limitations. They consider electric power a great blessing — but only when the private power companies get their rake-off. They say TVA is wonderful — but we ought never to try it again. They condemn “cruelly high prices” — but fight to the death every effort to bring them down. They think the American standard of living is a fine thing — so long as it doesn’t spread to all the people. And they admire the Government of the United States so much that they would like to buy it. Now, my friends, which is the Wall Street Republican way of life. But there is another way — there is another way — the Democratic way, the way of the Democratic Party.

 

10 January 2018 Wednesday

It's 43 degrees and misting rain in SLC and the high is going to be 45 degrees...for well into next week it's going to be in the mid-forties... Very unusual for SLC's Januarys ... Which are generally in twenties and low thirties... I hope things don't begin to bud out...

I was so bored this morning that I thawed out some Rhodes Bread dough and made some walnut cinnamon rolls. They turned out really tasty but I will give most of them to Michael Romero as I won’t be able to eat them all for sure. It was sweet seeing old Buddy and Buster butt to butt sharing their doggy bed as I was getting ready for bed myself... I think Buster feels he has a home now... I watched Dead Men Tell No Tells in the Pirates of The Caribbean series. I think that franchise is done and it’s all special effects these days. I wondered why Taco Bell doesn't taste the same any more...According to a former Team Trainer at Taco Bell, "Refried Beans and Red Sauce are made on a prep table from mixing special dry storage ingredients and boiling water. Refried Beans need to settle in a heating cabinet for 45 minutes before being put on line, Red Sauce is ready to go immediately." When I worked at Taco Bell in 1970-1972 we made fresh beans in pressure cookers every day... The sauces came in cans already made... We shredded blocks of cheeses, cooked our own meat, chopped our own onions, and fried our own taco and tostado shells... No wonder I can't eat there any more...only thing they have from the past is the name... I miss Bell Burgers and frijoles cups...

·         Aaron Fagan They use to boil in a bag meat . The beans are freeze dried and just add hot water. It is disgusting to eat. I worked at Taco Bell as a kid and it was all fresh but those days are gone. If you are constipated just eat the meat at Taco Bell and boom constipation gone

·         Benedgar Williams I worked with your daddy, Aaron at Taco Bell... That's where I met your mom.

·          Aaron Fagan Wow I didn’t know that. Now I have to ask her lol

·         Benedgar Williams She might not remember me...your uncle was Larry's friend at the time and use to come up for free food lol

·         Aaron Fagan Benedgar Williams, yeah, my uncle Steve Bullington. He and my dad were best friends if I’m not mistaken

·         Benedgar Williams As I recall... Fun times

 

11 January 2018 Thursday

I must be bored because I deep cleaned my kitchen emptying everything into the sink and cleaned all the grime that drawers can accumulate. There was some mouse droppings I had to vacuum out of the bottom drawers and I sprayed everything with disinfectant and rewashed everything that was in the drawers. I don’t think I have any more mice but keeping my eye open for any fresh droppings. Scrubbed all my small appliances and used disinfectant... Rewashed all my kitchen utensils and it took me about 3 hours...In the evening I turned on my “self-cleaning oven” for about 3 hours. It still worked although my oven is 20 years old... I use my kitchen a lot so it does accumulate some grime over time. Since it feels like spring I guess I am doing spring cleaning... There was an article in the Tribune about the state supreme Court hearing the competency of Michael Archuleta. Nowhere in this article does it mention why Gordon Church was murdered. That in of itself is a cover up just like in 1988 when a gag order was put in place... Gordon Church was a Gay man and murdered by men conditioned by society to despise Gay men... His death was One of exceptional cruelty... Few people outside of the Gay community and Church's own circle of family and friends know how this young man died at the hands of these vicious men in a lonely stretch of country in Central Utah....1988 saw the murder of two other Gay men and the attempted murder of several others...in 1989 my friend Darrell Webber was murdered and his killer walked... Am I still bitter... Yes I am...

 

12 January 2018 Friday

Spent most of the day deep cleaning the kitchen of a layer of grime that accumulates from cooking. Finished scrubbing the oven and the top burners. I got most of it done, cleaned inside the cupboards, straightened the spice cabinet, washed curtains, cleaned the microwave, took down all the decorative chili peppers and washed them in the dishwasher. I also cleaned the kitchen window door that leads to the deck and got down on my knees to scrub the dining room floor and then waxed it. I need to make a DI run to drop off some kitchenware and some clothes...actually it feels good …like spring cleaning... and it was such a spring like day for sure.  Alan Anderson asked me to go with him to Jim Dabakis one man show at SLAC this Sunday. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to go because Charles Frost was directing it. Trump should not be invited in by decent folk... If you are still a trump fan ... Then calling the homes of black people shitholes, grabbing women by the pussy, and calling Mexican’s rapists must not upset you...

 

13 January 2018 Saturday

I left the house at 9:15 this morning to head down to the State Pen this morning for Kyle’s visiting schedule from 10 to noon but when I got there I found that the place was on lock down...I guess I should have checked first. On Thursday there was a gang fight and six people were injured, and although in a separate facility at the Prison they shut down both Draper and Gunnison. I am so glad I didn't drive all the way to Gunnison... Kyle wrote me that they are moving him again from Wasatch Charlie Block to Lone Peak...which is still in Draper but I will have to figure out again how to access that facility to see Kyle... It's a separate building from where I had been going which is the main prison... So I guess I won’t have to go through the cattle call anymore to get into the main prison during visiting hours. I was kind of disappointed but also kind of relieved that I didn’t have to go through the hassle they put visitors through. On the way home my empty gas light came on so I stopped at Costco and filled my tank up. IT was $2.27 and I put $30 in the cruiser. I guess because my plans fell through I didn’t do as much today as I did yesterday. I went to the grocery store at Smith’s and bought food and treats for the dogs and me. I made a kettle of cheesy potato and ham soup and had a small bowl ha! A lot of work for a cup of soup. Mr. Hall, my Mormon neighbor came by in the afternoon with an armful of IAM canned dog food... He said his dog Katie won't eat it...lol. Well mine will especially when mixed with gizzards... Lol ... I wonder what is up with the Halls... They have lived behind me for 20 years and now they want me to go to their church ... I took the dog food but am not stepping foot back into a ward house. It was a spring like day nearly 50 degrees and clear blue skies in SLC. Alan Anderson said he bought me a ticket for a Women's Democratic Club play put on by Pygmalion on February 1st. Chuck Whyte wants to go " Private Heroes " but said both he and Becky Moss keep getting message that it’s sold out. I hadn't planned on going but told him there's supposed to be some free tickets for the Tower showing but you have to get them I think through the Utah AIDS Foundation. The pride center is making people raise money on their FB page for them and then they will choose 7 pairs of tickets out of them which is no guarantee you’d get a ticket. Chuck said he was able to get into the Sundance Film Festival site but all he could find is groups to join for 250.00 up to 3,000.00 plus I know he wants to go because the film is about Dr. Kristen Ries ad Maggie Snyder. Chad Anderson invited me to a gathering of a group of people this coming Thursday night, at the home of Tim Houpt, to discuss the Gordon Church documentary project he’s spear-heading about Gordon Church. He said, “There will be wine and food, and a group of brilliant people to discuss ideas about the format of the documentary, what has been done so far, and how to make it happen.”  I don’t think I have other commitments that night so I will probably go.

 

14 January 2018 Sunday

Still deep cleaning but moved to the front room...cob webs, dirt, dust, floor scrubbed by hand... I guess I could have a cleaner house without six dogs but then it would just be a house and not a home... These two plants, my fig tree, and my corn plant sometimes I take for granted but I have had them since 1989 when I moved from the Juel Apt. The Buckingham on A Street...they have been my companions through my moves to Delmar Court, to the Riviera to finally Fernleaf Street... They have been with me longer than any other living thing... I also baked a loaf of Banana Nut Bread for Alan Anderson for buying me a ticket to go see Jim Dabakis: Stories From My Soul at the Salt Lake Acting Company... It started at 1 and we sat near Dan Fahndrich too...Jim is such a great story teller... I never get tired of hearing of his adventures... It was sold out this weekend but two more shows were added for February. Charles Frost was the director and spoke to Alan, Dan, and I. Tension was still strained between him and I but I was pleasant enough. I signed four petitions while there, for medical marijuana, for expansion of Medicaid, for redistricting fairly, and something about teachers and students... Michael dropped Coco off for a few hours while he went out to dinner with some of his friends. He came and picked her up at 8:30 and I gave some potato and ham cheddar soup to take home. I finished the evening by watching a program on Armistead Maupin the author of Tales of the City. It was really good but made me nostalgic

·         Alan Anderson Benedgar, thanks for going with me and thanks for the wonderful banana bread, and thanks so much for sharing your story, James Dabakis. No thanks for making me and Dan cry. Shame on you.

 

15 January 2018 Monday Martin Luther King Jr Holiday

Wanted to get out of the house so went to the movies at the Megaplex at the Gateway...I don't think I've been to a movie since last summer... I went to see Star Wars, the Last Jedi... I heard so many mixed reviews but I wanted to see what was unfolding. I first saw Star Wars over 40 years ago in June 1977 at the old Centre Theater with Fran. Amazing that the series has continued this long...I am glad I went... I liked it but can see where some might have been disappointed...I saw it as the end of a franchise with the old characters, Luke Skywalker, Princess Leia and Hans Solo, and the beginning of a new one with new characters. It was almost a tribute to those former characters I think... It was fun to see Carrie Fisher’s daughter have a role in the Rebel Army and kind of sad to see Carrie Fisher’s last performance. I made a crock pot of beef and cabbage vegetable soup today. It was mighty tasty. In the evening I watched The Day After last night... I hadn't seen it since I first watched in November 1983 along with 100 million other Americans...it was an ABC made for TV movie about nuclear missile strikes in Kansas City... It was horrifying then and just as horrifying now especially with mad men having access to a nuclear arsenal... After the false alarm in Hawaii ... I think Americans need to watch this movie again...

 

16 January 2018 Tuesday

I spent the afternoon with Bill Poore...he wanted to put some flowers on his dad’s grave since it was his birthday and I offered to drive him because we haven't visited in a while. I brought him some beef and cabbage soup, some cheesy potato and ham soup, and a loaf of banana nut bread that I made this morning. After visiting the graves he took me to Charlie Chows for lunch...he and I had, what else? More soup...lol his dad was born just 3 days before mine was. In the evening I went to the Tuesday Movie Night that Mark Angus organizes for Men Who Move... I wanted to see what all the fuss was about Call Me by Your Name... Pretty good crowd in the theater and if there was anyone there but Gay men I didn't see them...I sat with Cole Gilmore who's had surgery and isn’t supposed to talk and Mark... Did see Jon Bennett and Stan Rovig there, people I've known for 30 years here in SLC and have a history with... Glad to be home now with the pups... Lulu Belle and I are sharing a bowl of split pea soup for our supper. Call Me by Your Name was great film making but poor story telling... It took 2 hours and 15 minutes to tell a story that could have been done in 90 minutes...lots of scenes that did nothing to move the plot along... Acting was first rate and if the intent was to show a moody teenager coming to terms with his awakening sexuality ... That was achieved... There were some magnificent dialog but over shadowed by the directors’ love of showing off northern Italy... As for a love story Brokeback Mountain did it better...and for a coming to age movie Edge of Seventeen was better I thought... Much of the criticism I have read even in the Gay men's community was the relationship between a 17-year-old and a 20 something year old... Sign of the times I suppose... But the movie is clear the 17-year-old is the seducer...I know when I was 17 I would have loved to have seduced an older someone in their 20s lol... Those who are having a conniption fit over the age better never watch the Dutch movie, For A Lost Soldier, a nostalgic look back during WWII when an adolescent boy falls in love with a young Canadian soldier who liberated his village... But yes I enjoyed the film...is it a Gay masterpiece? Not in my opinion.

·         Roland Ron Holmgren The age of consent in Italy is 14. This is not Timothee Chalamet's first film, he has made several other films. He is an outstanding young actor. One of the things that you did not like about the film, is what has made some film critics rave about the film. While it might not be the best gay film made, it and "Moonlight" have given gay films much needed exposure.

·         Benedgar Williams Among film critics and indie festivals... Doubt if a general audience will find the appeal... I wonder what kind of film it would have been if James Ivory would have directed it...

·         Roland Ron Holmgren More nudity.

·         Benedgar Williams Maurice was a better film

·         Brandon Burt Hey, Ben! Eric Peterson, the cute, furry, and hopelessly straight reporter, is doing a story about some murders that happened in the 70s? I think I've forgotten all about that. Anyway, He asked me if I could get contact info for Joe Redburn and Nikki Boyer. I was wondering, if it's not too much trouble, could you put me in touch with them?

·          Benedgar I met Eric at Mestizo for coffee last year... He was interested the Tony Adams murder from 1978... Both Nikki and Joe are on FB but to be honest I doubt whether they know or remember much... Tony was a black Gay socialist and since his murder is still an open case no one but family can access his case... Most of what know is from conversations with Bob Waldrop who was a close friend and who discovered the body... I don't know how to contact either one of them now...I am FB friends with Joe but Nikki and I aren't on best terms over the Larabee affair.. I've tried to contact Ron Hunt through his partner Todd Bennett but have never heard back...Ron Hunt was a mover and shaker in the 1970s and knew Tony Adams lover so he must have known Tony

·         Brandon Oh, OK, thank you very much Ben. How are you doing these days? I disappeared because a tow truck driver was here to take my poor old Rav4 away I really don't like car shopping.

·         Benedgar Car shopping is the worse... I had good luck at Enterprise Rental and used cars in Murray... I am well as can be expected for an old dude

·         Brandon Yes, our rental is Enterprise. They like me there; they bumped me up to a very large and butch pickup truck. LOL Well, it's amazing how quickly the kids just sort of takeover, right?

·         Benedgar Circle of life...

·         Brandon So, Murray, huh. Are there any in particular, or do you just go down the row? I've been having a helluva time getting Dave moving on this; all he wants to do is sit and make jewelry. I think I broke him. So I might have to take the bull by the horns, be a real Aries, and just go out and do it.

·         Benedgar You can go on line and see what they have... I bought my cruiser through them about 10 years ago... Because they were rentals all their warranties are kept up and they have been well maintained... Check it out and see if anything strikes your fancy... Of course most of their vehicles will be sedans or that type..

·         Brandon I'm hoping to get one like the Rav4, or just to stay in the Toyota family, they always seem to be reliable when they're not trying to kill the driver by accelerating unexpectedly. But I think that's just on newer models. I wish I had listened to you, Ben Maybe if I had capitalized "Gay" the kids wouldn't all be out fucking and drugging themselves to death. I can't help but feel somewhat responsible. How do we teach the children?

·         Benedgar The whole concept of capitalizing Gay was to teach that we are a people a folk with a history and culture which had little to do with just sex... The whole idea of trying to build community was based on that premise but the assimilationist won with all this watered-down LGBTQ + crap ... Young people are going to have to find their own way ... 

·         Brandon You predicted it but I didn't believe it for some reason, Now the country is about to fall into fascism. I feel so duped. Professionalization, my ass.

·         Benedgar This is how I feel about assimilation “Tetris taught me that when you try to fit in you’ll disappear.”

·         Brandon My God, just now the mail carrier came and she had a letter from my grandfather. The one who hasn't written me a letter since I was 15 and he told me he didn't want a cocksucker for a grandson. He's very old now and in a nursing home. He appears to have had a change of heart, it's a heartfelt apology! This is something I did not foresee.

·         Benedgar Wow ... Good for him trying to get right with you and God

·         Brandon Yeah, I think that's it. But I am all about forgiveness these days. This is a big one. I think once I can wrap my heart around it, it's going to be a huge weight off my chest.

·         Benedgar Forgive him and allow him to change

·         Brandon It's wonderful. Just a few minutes ago I was all doom and gloom about the young generation, and suddenly the old generation showed me what was what! LOL

 

17 January 2018 Wednesday

Chuck Whyte wanted me this morning to haul him around so he could run some errands this morning. Since I had nothing else planned I said sure. I took the truck because something plastic beneath the cruiser’s under carriage has broken off and is dragging... I have to look at it and see what it might be... The car drives well but don't want something dropping off... Chuck wanted to go to Winco, then Home Depot, and Dollar Tree and I was back home by noon. I gave Chuck the $50 gift card that Bill Poore gave me. I figured he needs it more than I do. Chuck said he may have bariatric surgery himself this coming year. Well I guess hauling Chuck wore me out because I took a nap and fell asleep for almost 2 hours before getting up to take Coco home. I had Mike look under the car and he said it's a plastic air flow shield that is broken and I can just break it off lol I missed a call from Kyle because of my phone and for some reason didn’t ring when he called. I didn't write this but I agree 100 percent..."Just to illustrate how we've lowered the decency bar for this POTUS, the fact that he's been potentially blackmailed by a porn star is a non-story, not even covered in most media. This is where we are now." Mormons think they are such a moral people but they support the liar in the White House overwhelmingly knowing he's morally bankrupt, a racist, and a liar... When Clinton had a BJ in the White House Mormons lamented what he did as demeaning the office and how children lost their innocents over the news coverage...However nary a peep over the use of the words "pussy grabbing", and "shithole " that's because in Utah Mormonism isn't a religion but a political party... Russell Nelson is now the head of the Mormon Church and he promoted Dallin Oaks and demoted the German. I once saw Dallin Oaks and his polygamy wife at the Utah Symphony...he was so rude to her and put out because she wasn't hurrying along following him... No affection or kind gesture...

·         Ken Jones Don't believe the load of crap my brother and dad are trying to sell you. If there was a tape of my grandfather explaining our family history, this is the first I've heard of it. Jehil had the kids DNA done last month, it confirms much of what you've found. Looking at that old picture of Isaac Jones is like looking into a mirror for me. You're on the right path with your research and I wanted you to know that I and my family (the family that isn't insane I should say) appreciate all of your efforts.

·         Benedgar I would like you sometime to do a saliva DNA test that would test your Y chromosome... We are only connected through the X or mitochondria gene... The female...you through Donna, through Mom through Grandma Johnson through her mother Ellen Fenter, through her mother Maggie Crawford through her mother Margaret Whitman...

·         Ken Jehil sent me a screen shot of one of your blog post, where my brother responded to you, just to clarify where this is coming from.

·         Benedgar I think your Jones Family is fascinating warts and all ... Too bad your brother rejects it for a fantasy

·         Ken Yeah, he's as bad as my dad

·         Benedgar Your Jones family is posted on my Louis Williams Family FB page as well as the complete Williams history too... Well at least you have a beautiful son and daughter

·         Ken I've been trying to read all of the things you've posted as much as time allows. I find it all fascinating. Thank you I guess I just get frustrated with my father’s lies. I've had to deal with this my whole life. It's to the point where I sometimes feel like I don't even know who I really am. I've had very little family connections, and now that I'm finally trying to reconnect and understand the truth, I feel like my father is still there trying to taint all of it with his lies. I've been talking with my father’s sister and her daughter. They seem completely normal. I found out my grandmother lived until the age of 85, she died in 2012. It would have been nice to have had some contact with her. Add that to the list of things denied to me by my father. My aunt confirmed that my  grandfather Jones was abandoned by his father at a young age, he tried reconnecting with him when he was older and was denied. So my grandfather probably had very little family information to pass on to my father from that part of his family. Most of the stories probably come from my grandfather's maternal side. Which makes many of the things that Jehil has found make sense. On my grandfather's mother's side there is a Jonas by way of Sweden. It appears the Jonas name is not connected to the Jones side at all. The Swedish Jonas side where relatively recent immigrants as my father said, but it appears the Jones side has been in this country for a very long time. I'm not sure how he came up with them being Welsh. My children's DNA came back with large amounts of Irish and British, as well as Welsh and Swedish. I was reading those notes from my brother on your old blog post and It really angered me how much they lie. The two of them can barely figure out how to plug a TV into the wall. When I was a kid I had to program the vcr timer because my dad couldn't do it. I find it hard to believe they were able to locate Welsh tax records from over two hundred years ago. That tape of my grandfather does not exist. How does he know a black Jones family lived down the street from my family in long Beach? He doesn't even know where he lives at most of the time. I really don't see what his point about Daisy's grave marker is, maybe there was one in the fifties when he visited as a child and it has been destroyed over the years. It's sad how some people try to invent their own reality. I know he's mentally ill but it's hard to forgive him for much of what he has done and now he has my brother following in his footsteps. It's interesting to find out that many of the men on my father's side where poor fathers. It goes to show how much of a vicious circle it is when a child doesn't have his parents around. It just keeps repeating generation after generation. I'm proud to say that I think I may have broken that circle.

·         Benedgar I know you have broken that cycle for just being there for your kids and letting them know they are loved... I was surprised how vehemently he dismissed the research I did which is well documented... I think the murder of your great great grandparents were the beginning of a cycle of generations that were set adrift...

·         Ken I feel it's going to be my legacy to break that cycle and begin to right some of the wrongs of the past. I want to make sure my children and grandchildren are productive members of society so all the hard work and suffering of generations past wasn't for nothing. My father wouldn't know the truth if it slapped him in the face.

 

18 January 2018 Thursday

Now that the New Year’s Resolutioners are gone, I went back to the gym walking and doing the exercise equipment. I felt guilty seeing how Chuck cannot walk without a cane I have no excuse not to exercise. Chad Anderson had a discussion meeting about how to help raise money to create a documentary movie about the tragic murder of Gordon Church. I was invited and had planned on going but unintentionally completely blew it off. Jesse Dolce went as he was Gordon’s boyfriend before he was murdered. I got a call from Michael Aaron saying a reporter from KUTV wanted to talk to me about Tony Adams murderBottom line is that I'm a liberal because I think we the people should take care of each other. I believe in the principles laid down by Franklin Delano Roosevelt's New deal and Lyndon Baines Johnson's Great Society.

So, I'm a liberal.

 

·         Jesse Dolce Thank you Benedgar Williams for introducing me to Chad.

·         Jim Dabakis my hubby just said that he didn't want to go to PVT Saturday night. have you seen Bright Star? The review says the show is shining over PMT's stage, and it is radiant! It's a production that has a beautiful freshness, and honesty unlike most touring shows. Several of the cast members are from the original cast in the Broadway production, and Carmen Cusack is one of the most diverse performers I have seen. Her ability to move from a young ingenue to a mature women within seconds is remarkable. She is leaving the show after the SLC run, It’s a most heartwarming show not to be missed.

·         I would love to have gone but I have a bunch of folks coming over for dinner that night ... I am so grateful that you think of me... I am sure you will find a good theater date... I loved your show by the way

 

19 January 2018 Friday

I went to the Northwest Community Center’s gym and walked on the tread mill and did some weight lifting on the machines this morning. Then came home and wanted to get some baking done for tomorrow. Adventures in baking... I wanted to make a coconut cream pie for Jim McMullin and I had a can of coconut milk up in the cupboard left by Ben Anderson and thought my that should make the filling tasty... So I cooked up the pie filling and put in toasted coconut... Licking the spoon I thought hmmm this has a tangy after taste so I looked at the can and it said best use by April 2009 lol ... Threw the pie out and made it again the old fashion way with just milk ... Ha-ha ... I am letting it set overnight then I will cover it with whipped cream... So much for being adventurous. I posted on my USHS Lecture Series site my writings on the AIDS deaths from 1983 to 1999 that I had gleaned. I guess the premier of Silent Heroes about Dr. Kristin Ries and Maggie Snyder made me start to think about AIDS again. Today is my dad’s 93rd birthday. He died in 2004 at the age of 79.

 

20 January 2018 Saturday

Yesterday morning it was 50 degrees ... Today not so much lol about 25 this morning... There's at least 5 inches of snow on the veranda... Not shoveling until much later and hopefully it will be mostly gone ...Went to the gym yesterday but no need today...got my aerobic exercise shoveling snow so I can walk in a winter wonderland... I shoveled it all up on the flower beds and grass because God knows we need the moisture... First snow dump since Christmas Day and at least 5 inches. I cleared the back steps this morning so I could bring Harleigh up without breaking my neck but within a short period it all got dusted with snow again... But I just cleared it again and as long as it does snow again the pups are good to go. It was a busy day preparing for movie night. Now if the hounds don't scatter their Chewies and toys I've picked up or track in too much snow...I've got 24 little feet running in and out. Having company over this evening so besides the coconut cream pie I made a chocolate meringue pie too... You can never have too many desserts with company... Got my floors swept, mopped, and vacuumed... So that's a big deal I've got the clam chowder done except for adding half and half just before company... It can curdle if cooked too long... I am also warming up chicken noodle soup that I made the other day... Joel Jay Vallar came over early to prep a Spinach salad while I baked my dinner rolls and whip the cream for the coconut cream pie. Got the drive way done and steps... If you want to come over about 4:30 to prep  my spinach salad while I whip cream for the coconut pie...  I have dried cranberries, red onion, an apple, walnuts, and hard-boiled eggs for the salad... Also just going to make a ranch dressing for it...I made meringue for the chocolate pie which when I browned it you have to watch it like a hawk as it can really get away from you.... Jay and I talked about him moving in down stairs but we will see if it happens. Only TJ, Jim, Charles Bigo, and Mike Romero came over and Jay left after dinner to go back home to stay with Kai. Greg Allen dropped by around 7 while we were already watching it’s a Mad, Mad, Mad, Mad World. TJ and Jim had never seen it. Everyone said the Coconut Cream pie was good though I didn’t have any. I just had a small bowl of Clam Chowder, spinach salad, and a sliver of chocolate pie. I sent the left overs home with ever one. After going to bed I had a nasty surprise when in my sleep I had diarrhea and had to get up, shower, and strip my bed. The spinach must have played a number on my digestive tract.. ugh so about midnight I am changing sheets and blankets before I could let the pups back up on the bed. They were not happy having their sleep interested and neither was I. This is the second time since I had surgery last May that I had soiled my bed. I never had before in my life. The Women March in cities all over America is in the news. Hundreds of thousands of Women are protesting Trump.

·         Charles Bigo The food was great as always! Thanks for being such a great friend, Ben. It was an enjoyable evening with special friends!

·         T.J. Otaka I agree with Charles. Thank you for your hospitality, Ben. We enjoyed the  time with our friends and your pups.

 

21 January 2018 Sunday

Gaging from the amount of food left over none, I'd say my dinner party was a success. Two pies gone, two crock pot of soups, gone, a big bowl of Spinach salad gone, buttered dinner rolls gone... All that's left is a few oyster crackers lol.. We watched it's a Mad Mad Mad Mad World and some of my company had never seen it... It's filmed in California in 1962 and makes me nostalgic for the Southern California I grew up in plus the tremendous comedic talent... Ethel Merman's mother-in-law role is consummate. Anyway learned after going to bed that raw spinach salad does an unpleasant number on my digestive tract... So only cooked from now on... Raw veggies are a thing of the past...Spent the morning cleaning up after the party from yesterday and adding obituaries to my list of AIDS deaths for my Utah Stonewall Historical Society Lecture Series site. At noon I got ready to head down to Draper to see Kyle at the State Pen. Visiting times was from 1 to 3 pm. I wasn’t even sure if he hadn’t been move but he was still in Wasatch. It was good to see him after I had missed his last phone calls. He said that he’d be moving tomorrow morning to section A of Lone Peak where those inmates who work off site will be housed. They are shutting down Wasatch after they had just opened it I guess because of staffing shortages. Probably one of the reasons for the gang fights that had locked down the prison when I attempted to go out there last week. He will have to call or write me the new visiting hours for Lone Peak because it’s not on the Prison web page yet. The facility is separate and apart from the main prison so I won’t have to go through the guard station and then into the waiting area before they let me into the prison into the visiting area. I will be glad for that. It was crowded today I suppose because of the lock down last week. We had a good visit him telling me how he’s already been over there helping clean the place up since it had been closed for two years. He won’t have his own room and shower anymore but will be in an open dorm area with about 30 other guys sharing 1 shower, and 2 toilets. Remind me never to go to prison. After the visit I thought about going out to see Jim and TJ but I was too mentally exhausted and since I just saw them yesterday I just headed back home. It was a beautiful winter day with the air clean and crisp and the sky so blue. It was in the mid 30’s. I had made a crock of bean soup this morning and it was ready by the time I got home and that was my supper. Spent some time with the pups and on FB before heading for bed. The Republicans are trying to spin their Government shut down as the fault of the Democrats although they control both houses of Congress and the Executive Branch. Every government shutdown in the past 25 years have been under a Republican Congress.

 

22 January 2018 Monday

I went to Centerville to have my teeth cleaned for $95 . I have to go back in 3 months because some of my gums are receding. Meeting with a reporter from KUTV tomorrow who is doing a story on the murder of Tony Adams from 1978 hopefully to reopen the cold case... I guess they just want some background material to put the times in context Benedgar Williams

I have so few pictures of me when I went to BYU... I was kind of cute and no wonder I was in trouble down there LOL. I'm about 23 in this picture.

·         Craig Hunter And you’re not into mischief in Salt Lake City all the time? Lol. Lol

·         Roland Ron Holmgren Yes you were.

·         Greg Allen Smoking

·         Benedgar Williams I still have this shirt lol

·         Greg Allen Wear it and post then and now pics side by side! You're thin again!

·         Bill Poore I think I might have done you.....back then. You look familiar, I never forget a mouth......

·         Benedgar Williams Not unless you went down to Provo... I didn't have a car back then lol

·         Bill Poore weren't we at the U at the same time?

·         Benedgar Williams I never went to school at the U...in 1977 through 1980 I worked managing the Huddle in the Union Bldg. and then on a set up crew at the Special Event Center I was at BYU from 1973 to 1976

·         Bill Poore You must have known the acting out places at the U? I left SLC in Aug of 76

·         Benedgar Williams Never went much further north than Pleasant Grove and south to the hot springs in Spanish Fork Canyon LOL. I got kicked out in May 1976 and went home to Garden Grove and didn't come back to Utah until Nov 1976 when I started working in the sandwich department in the Union Bldg. I got married in January 1977.

 

23 January 2018 Tuesday

I made a Bacon, onion, spinach, and mushroom quiche this morning... Getting tired of soup... I hope I can eat it 'cause real men don't eat quiche...( that’s an old the reference to a book from the 1970s) I can't eat raw spinach anymore like last Saturday... It goes right through me... But cooked is good... My salad days figuratively and literally are in the past... After it was done I went to the gym and did some weight riffs and walked a mile before coming home to get ready to meet Jeremy Harris at the Tribune building at the Gateway. I wasn’t sure where the Tribune offices were so I wandered around the Gateway until I found it. There Jeremy and his camera man took me up to the 7th floor where the Tribune’s offices were secured and where I was interviewed in their conference room. They wanted background material on what the Gay community was like back then in the 1970’s... The police are looking for the missing murder weapon hoping to get DNA off of it but no state agency knows it's whereabouts... Never been in the Tribune Offices before... Half expected to run into Perry White, Lois Lane, and Jimmy Olson. A Tribune reporter named Tiffany Caldwell sat in on the interview and took my contact information for future stories. I met with them at 2 and I was home by 3:30 from talking to reporters from KUTV and the Tribune about the murder of Tony Adams 40 years ago. The KUTV story aired tonight at 10 pm but somehow I missed it... Harleigh and Lulubelle are being such butts about dinner...I fixed everyone a roasted chicken thigh and Purina canned dog food for supper and they would eat it...they just wanted split pea soup... Weirdos Republicans are cruel and hateful people...they are trying to spin that Democrats are hurting Americans at the expense of protecting illegal aliens... What a vicious lie when it was the sexual predator in the White House with his obsession with Obama's legacy who undid the Dreamers Act causing the conflict in the first place. These Dreamers for all intent and purpose ARE Americans... Brought here as children no fault of their own...Republicans are selfish, greedy, and un-American... Supporters of fascism and oligarchy –

 

24 January 2018 Wednesday

I don't know what is wrong with me... I've gone to the gym all this week...this isn't normal... Either I'm bored or I have a rare disease...Trying something new with Buster...I put a harness on him and walked him around the block. He's not left the house or backyard since November... I want him to associate the harness with a good thing because in February I have to take him in for a dental checkup and he's not been in the car since I brought him home... He's afraid of the car... I think he associates car rides with something bad... I took Harleigh out for a constitutional walk too... Maybe it will strengthen his legs

 

25 January 2018 Thursday

Busy morning ... Richard Butler came over to show me a Nissan he just bought... Beautiful vehicle then when he left off to the gym...I know it's boring hearing me write about going to the gym but it's kind of like Weight Watchers that it works because you have to weigh in front of others... Since I have no motivation to go to the gym... Maybe posting on FB will help... I did a set of weights for 15 minutes and walked 1 and a third mile with my heart rate in the cardio zone for 37 minutes... Then came home and walked Buster and Maxx for a little bit... I am Feeling sorry for myself because I have to exercise and all the soreness that goes along with it and then I remembered I have a hot tub... Amazing how 104-degree water lifts the spirit... Plus haven't weighed myself since November and my home scale says I am 183 lbs...I know that's not as accurate as the digital scales the doctors use but I haven't been at this weight for over 35 years ... In 2001 I weighed 275 lbs...

 

26 January 2018 Friday

What a pain... I had to go to the DMV to prove I have insurance on the Sonoma because some dumb shit agency that the state hired to track who has insurance and who doesn't says I don't... I can't register the truck which is due at the end of the month until I do; even though I have been paying insurance to Horace Mann faithfully for 20 years. Ugh and then in the states infinite wisdom they have divided the DMVs from the Driver License places so instead of just going to the fairgrounds down the street I have to go to 2900 South... Ugh Well I am exhausted from dealing with the DMV...so when I get up to the counter with proof of my insurance the lady said it wasn't effective until tomorrow! I looked at it and sure enough I brought down my most recent proof...she said because it wasn't effective until tomorrow I had to show proof that I had insurance since July or pay $100 reinstatement fee... I was frustrated but I did have her take Mike Romero off my title which was the problem in the first place because they thought he hadn't had insurance on the truck. So I had to go back home and dig through my papers and luckily I found my insurance form showing I had continuous insurance... I drove back down to 2800 South and 300 West, got back in line and fortunately I got this lady who was the mother of a student I had taught 18 years ago...of course I remembered her kid who is 29 now and she took care of everything for old Mr. Williams who she said was Kurtis favorite teacher... Didn't make it to the gym but I did walk, Maxx, Lulubelle, and Harleigh separately around the block ... May be I will go later after the stress of this morning wears off... Taking Maxx and Lulu Belle in for their rabies shots on Monday...

 

27 January 2018 Saturday

I created a new Blog page to put all my Danforth material on. So I've been blogging most of the morning before heading down to gym...it was crowded with Jr Jazz basketball camp... Noisy as a school bus on a field trip...but I did my reps and walked my mile before coming home and walking Harleigh for a half hour and Lulubelle for 20 minutes...Buster didn't want to go and I don't want to force him to do anything... So I had these 7 over ripe bananas ... What to do what to do... I think I went a bit over board and made four loaves of banana nut bread... Oh well they will freeze good... I roasted Chicken breasts for the pups supper... I am having a frozen Marie Calendar  dinner ha! If I can finish it... If not Lulubelle will be more than happy to finish it for me.

 

28 January 2018 Sunday

When I got up this morning I saw Buster and Buddy in bed together... So cute to see those two old dogs sharing creature comforts in their old ages. I met Bill Poore in the city at noon and we went out for lunch today at Village Inn because our Chinese place, Charlie Chows  was closed I guess for Sunday... He paid me $100 for February from the money I loaned him last year. Village Inn was busy and I have a bit of nostalgia for the place as I have been eating there at that location for over 40 years. It was the go-to place after meetings held up on campus.. But eating out is kind of wasted on me... I ordered a half Reuben sandwich and a cup of tomato basil soup and could only eat a half of a half of the sandwich before I felt stuffed. It was nearly $9 just for that. But Bill Poore paid so why am I complaining. I mainly just wanted to visit any way and give Bill a loaf of banana bread. Nothing too new to record. It looks like they are remodeling or tearing down the Wendy's on 4th South and 6th East... What's up with that? I didn't go to the gym today but did take Harleigh and Lulubelle for walks. I worked on a new Blog today on which I am posting all my Danforth Research.

·         Kevin Scott What's your Chinese place of choice?

·         Bill Poore We go to Charlie Chows on 4th around 3rd East....it is not great, just one we have been to a great deal. I only have soup anyway.....

·         Kevin Scott Ah, their good. A little pricey. We go to another buffet on 33rd South State which has a Mongolian BBQ. Admittedly not as good, but cheap and quick. We rotate between 3-4 Chinese places pretty much weekly.

·         Benedgar Williams You got to hit these places before the health department does

·         Jesse Dolce Bountiful us one of the best Chinese places called Boba World. Fresh and so tasty. Very clean restaurant with friendly staff. They have had several reviews and always fare well. Food is. It over priced and always hot and fresh.

·         Paul Jennens I like Little World? Small World? The Chinese is 小世界。

·         Benedgar Williams the service at Little World is not very good though I use to like their food... Last time I went it was iffy...

·         Kevin Scott They have an abominable history with the Salt Lake Health Department and have been closed multiple times. After Jose and I had a really bad experience there once, I'll never go back even though I used to be a big fan.

 

29 January 2018 Monday

My sleep was broken up a few times because of the dogs. Lulubelle was whining because Buster wouldn’t let her up on the bed. Then Buddy started whining because Buster wouldn’t let him off the bed. Then Harleigh started barking to be helped up the stairs. But I was up a little bit before Coco arrived. I fixed a cup of coffee and two link sausages, a scrambled egg, and some fried hash browns with a slice of American cheese. The pups got the two sausages, most of the egg and hash browns. Just didn’t’ feel like eating. It’s a beautiful day today and I had a busy morning. I dropped Lulubelle and Maxx off at the Dog Park vet to get their rabies shots renewed and Maxx needs to his nails clipped. So does  TJ who screams like a banshee whenever he gets a manicure. After dropping them at 9 I went to the North west gym working out until 10, walking a mile and doing my weight lifting reps. After that I went to Smiths for chicken for the pups and some more eggs that were on sale for 99 cents for a dozen. Bought a few more items on sale and came home to cook a crock pot full of lima beans and ham for my supper. All the snow is completely gone except for what is in the shadows. Levon texted message me and said his status hearing is tomorrow. The way the climate for immigration is these days I’d say his chances are iffy.

 

30 January 2018 Tuesday

No super blue eclipse moon this morning with all the cloud cover over the city... Oh well. I did watch it being steamed live from Griffith Park Observatory in Los Angeles.

Well I am pooped out... Took the truck in at 9 am to get it registered... It only took 15 minutes now that they don't do safety inspections...so I am law abiding for another year...then went down to the gym and did my work out until 10:30 then worked in the yard for two hours trimming back my Russian Sage that has taken over the parking strip...so after trimming and raking I am tuckered out... It's going to be 57 degrees today... How could I not do some yard clean up? Now for a bowl of Lima bean soup...

 

31 January 2018 Wednesday

Didn't make it to the gym today but I spent 2 and half hours doing yard work. Cut all my Russian sage back, raked out all the leaves, trimmed my forsythias back, cut back all yard grasses and yarrow and raked and raked... Still a lot to do but it felt really good to be grubbing in the soil again. And its only January 31st!

I propose that every American who opposes citizenship for DACA individuals must prove their patrilineal decent from a pre–Revolutionary War man or prove citizenship papers from or be deported back to their country of origin... If you going to play that game of racial bigotry and that is what it is... If you are going to be a Nazi play it all the way...An Amtrak train carrying the entire Republican House delegation to West Virginia  slammed into a garbage truck. Kind of poetic justice there. The GOP is imploding with about 35 GOP Congressmen not running for reelection this year.

·         Bill Poore I took on half the pool today, didn't give them an inch. One made the mistake of saying Trump is the best president we have had......well that did it.

·         Benedgar Williams I would have gone bonkers too...

 

FEBRUARY

1 February 2018 Thursday

Got a late start to the gym today because my gut was hurting... Not sure why... Sometimes it just does whether I eat or not... I bought myself a radio FM head set for the gym so as to make walking more enjoyable... I can listen to NPR on the go now... It must be working because I walked a mile and a half instead of my usual mile... I ate a little bowl of Lima beans and ham to see if that helps the old stomach ache... Didn’t much. I baked some Mac and Cheese for supper tonight...... My poor tummy hasn't been well today... Maybe this will help some... Home from going to the theater with Alan Anderson and Kyle G. Daniels... Went to the Rose Wagner Theater and saw the play “I and You” that had a Walt Whitman theme about two high school students... It was a two-person performance and the actors Cora Fossen, who is an actual high school student and Tristan Johnson  were phenomenal... Wish I was feeling a bit better so I could have observed it better... All day my stomach has been acting up and hurting… really gassy. My first car I bought was a 1971 Pinto Runabout this same color... I bought mine in 1972 for $1600 with a 11-gallon gas tank I usually filled it for $3.50... I loved this car and had it until 1978 when it froze to death in a Dallas ice storm... In 1976 drove it across country and had it when I was in college at BYU... I called it my Pinto Blow about...Jimmy Hamamoto sent me his itinerary for his stay with me. He’s coming in late Tuesday the 21 and  staying until Monday, February 26. The world has gone topsy turvy when I support the FBI over Congress.... The difference between Trump and Nixon was that when Nixon was elected no one knew he was a crook.

·         Bill Poore wow I just knew you were a Pinto kind of guy, it all fits, Texas, BYU, and a green Pinto. I surprised BYU didn't send you on a mission.

·         David Andreason I had one of these in beauty school--root beer color. I was a little more conservative than you. ;)

·         Roland Ron Holmgren My first new car was a black Pinto. The only one sold in Utah. I was involved in a fifteen truck-car pileup. The back was crushed, the front was sheared off, but where my passenger and I were sitting, the car was totally intact. I loved my Pinto.

 

2 February 2018 Friday Ground Hogs Day and Candlemas

Well it’s Candlemas and we are half way through winter. Tired and not feeling all that perky. I worked most of the morning on the Danforth blog and after working for a couple of hours it crashed and I lost all that work. I knew I could reconstruct it but the time lost really pissed me off. I made some French Onion Soup hoping that would set well on my stomach that is out of sorts. My compost can wasn't picked up... Instead it had a note on it saying the service is discontinued until March... Well they can kiss my Aunt Fanny if they think that's gonna stop me from yard clean up... I have two green trash barrels that will do the job just fine... Its 56 degrees out and flower beds don't want to wait until March in this weather. Then I noticed that my mini iPad was acting weird and then it went blank. So my mini iPad finally died on me. I had dropped it a while back and saw that it was slightly cracked but had worked just fine until now.. debating on replacing it with a tablet instead getting another iPad... I could just use my iPhone but I like the portability of an iPad... I went on FB and asked for suggestions. Some really liked their Amazon Kindle Fire but when I read reviews it sounded like it wouldn’t fit my needs. I was worried about simply buying a refurbished on so I finally ordered a Samsung Galaxy Tab A 8" 32 GB Wi-Fi Tablet (Silver) through Amazon. It was about $200. The Party of Re-Putin-icans are collaborators with the Russian intent to divide us and create a civil strife among us if not a Civil War. When the Republicans attack our institutions to prop up a unpopular president they have lost all claims to being patriots. The new talking point for Stone cold Conservatives is ending “Chain immigration” saying that immigrants are breaking in all their extended family. Very few people ever came to America alone and if they did it was to make enough money to bring other family members with them... Stone cold Conservatives only want a "whites only" chain migration... These bastards like Trump sycophants forget that African Americans were the only true "chain" migrants.

 

3 February 2018 Saturday

I went down to Draper to see Kyle in his new facility at Lone Peak. I made sure I had plenty of time because I had no idea what the procedures were for visitors in the new location. Actually it was much more pleasant than the old jail at Wasatch where the guards treated us like we were the prisoners. It was different however as there is no guard station asking to see your driver’s license and were abrupt to the point of being rude. Here you parked and then walked to the gate entrance…pushed a button to let a patrol guard no you are there. He drives by in a truck checks your I.D. and then operates the gate that leads you to the building. Then you can go in but then you have to wait to be buzzed into the main waiting area. The guards were much more pleasant. The time for A-F inmates was from 9:30 until 11:00. When I said I was there to see Kyle, the guard said he had been a great help setting the place up. They waved a metal detector wand rather make you walk through a one. There was just another woman and me and when he went to wand me I asked if I should take my keys out and he acted chagrinned because he had forgotten to ask for them when he took our licenses. Anyway we were taken unto a room the size of a new classroom and it had been set up with new chairs and tables. It was good to see Kyle even though didn’t have that much news since we just talked on Wednesday. He didn’t know I was coming so it was a good surprise for him. I told him I wanted to find out what the new routine was going to be. We had a good visit and I hoped it raised his spirits some. When our time was up I gave him a big hug and then left. Since it was such a beautiful day I took a chance and drove over to see TJ and Jim in Daybreak. They were home and just sat down for some lunch but we had a nice visit anyway. It seems like it’s been forever since I’ve seen people and it’s only been about 2 weeks. I was home by 1:30 and after finishing off my French onion soup I decided to do some yard work instead of housework. I spent 2 and half hours raking, cleaning out flower beds and just doing some Spring cleanup even if it’s not Spring. I fixed the dogs their supper and now I am tuckered out. I miss have my mini- iPad. I am watching a great series on Netflix called Babylon Berlin. It’s a German production with subtitles about life in the Weimar Republic in 1929.

 

4 February 2018 Sunday

I always consider this my anniversary of my official coming out day from 1986. Major bedroom cleaning... stripped the bed and made it up with sheets and blankets... can’t believe I sleep with dog chews, doggie biscuits, and anything else they like to hide... can’t believe I had so many spider webs on my ceiling over the past year... Miss Lulubelle also had a few accidents that I had to use my carpet cleaner on... but all nice and fresh for at least a day. First stages of dementia is setting in. When I went to the store  this afternoon I looked down at my hands and noticed that my two rings were not on my fingers. I thought that was really weird because I rarely ever take them off. One is an enamel rainbow ring and the other is a purple amethyst that is set in a silver Celtic style. I've looked through the entire house and I cannot find them and even worse I cannot ever remember taking them off. Last Thursday I was even complemented on the rainbow ring at the theater  by Sheryl Ginsberg. ... I am worried they may have slipped off yesterday when I was doing yard work and picking up leaves with my hands. Still it’s a mystery.

 

5 February 2018 Monday

I spent much of the day putting my Danforth histories on a blog I created just for it. So Democrats committed treason for not clapping at the Fuhrers state of the mess speech? The Trump supporters are a 5th column undermining America.. A fifth column is any group of people who undermine a larger group from within, usually in favor of an enemy group or nation. The Republican party has become a 5th column. The stock market has dropped 1500 points... How’s that working out for you, idiot trump supporters

 

6 February 2018 Tuesday

My new Samsung tablet came today. I was tickled that it came so fast as they said it would be delivered the 8th.. so I’m trying to figure it out...there’s a bit of a learning curve from the iPad  but I feel connected once again to the world. I wanted to take Bill Poore to lunch today for his birthday but he had several VA doctor appointments so invited him to lunch tomorrow. John Cooper posted on his FB page “Well it’s official. I have terminal Stage 4 Pancreatic Cancer. I will be gone in days, not weeks. I will be going into the VA hospice within the week.” What horrible news to have to post. Its seems strange that he would post this just after I had written that February 4th was my coming out day. I went to my first Gay meeting which was Salt Lake Affirmation of which John Cooper was back then Chapter director.

 

7 February 2018 Wednesday

Bill Poore came over for lunch and since he was busy for his birthday yesterday I fixed a pot roast dinner for him. Made carrots, spinach with bacon, buttered corn, parsley mashed potatoes, onion brown gravy, biscuits, and of course a pot roast... I also made him some banana bread that I sent home with him with all the left overs...Funny how times change... when I was young going out for dinner was a treat... but now that I am old and nobody cooks anymore... a homemade meal is a treat...even something as simple as pot roast. Celebrity Big Brother premiered today. It’s my guilty pleasure for sure. The Asshole in the White House has ordered the Pentagon to put on a Military Parade in Washington DC like the tinhorn fascists he is. No president in the history of this country has ever ordered a military parade for his own ego... the only military parades in Washington have been after winning wars i.e. the civil war, WWI, and WWII... this is obviously partisan and for his base... Cadet Bone Spur should have join the service ... phony patriot.

 

8 February 2018 Thursday

Since tomorrow is trash pickup day, I spent 45 minutes going through the yard waste I had in my 55-gal trash bin. I did it twice sifting a hand full at a time and I found my faerie ring but not my rainbow ring... this faerie one has more sentimental value to me as I bought it in 1988 at Gypsy Moon for $70 back then... it was my first purchase during my first year of teaching when I was so poor bringing home about $800 a month...I got a gratuity check for taking some classes and I bought this faerie ring because I read in “Another Mothers Tongue” that Gay people should always wear purple somewhere on their body for protection... and it has so far... I miss my rainbow ring that I bought with Michael Romero when we went to Seattle for Pride Day once I think in 1995. But nothing lasts forever. I guess I can wear my high school class ring now... it's from the Class of 69 at Rancho Alamitos and I bought it in 1968 for $35 which was a lot of money back then... I was only making $1.65 An hour working part time. Our school colors were green and gold so the glass stone in the gold setting is green. It's 10 k gold...all the guys were getting the typical big knuckle round class ring but I was the only one I knew who bought this slimmer design because it was unique... and I knew I was different from the other boys... Coming back from taking Coco home, this Asian gal bumped my Cruiser at a stop light. When I got out to see if there was any damage she was so distraught and I just told her to be more careful and pay better attention. I was in a hurry to get home LOL In the evening Went to the Utah Museum of Fine Arts this evening to hear a presentation given by Gregory Hinton on preserving western Gay history. Charles Bigo and Richard Harmston invited me to tag along. Saw Jim McMullin and T.J. Otaka, Craig Miller, and Stan Rovig there also and many other community members but wasn’t that big of a turn out but then I guess tonight was opening ceremonies for the Winter Olympics in South Korea. I talked briefly with Mr. Hinton beforehand and he said he was impressed with the amount of material on Gay history in the Marriott Library... I said well 37 linear feet was donated by me... lol

 

9 February 2018 Friday

A day late and a dollar short but I finished my Lambda Lore article for March's QSalt Lake that was due yesterday. I wrote about MCC’s early years in 1972 and 1973 here in SLC. Busy morning though. I went to the gym about 10 am and walked a bit and did some weight repetitions. I got a notice in the mail that I have appointments with my bariatric team on the 22nd. Coming home I drained the hot tub, cleaned it, and as it was refilling I drove to Centerville to buy a new filter...so once it heats back up, it should be good to go. I also blew some of the leaves of the deck and did a little cleaning outside picking up all the doggy toys and throwing them in the washer.. Yesterday, I realized I had a dozen eggs down in the garage refrigerator so I made 24 deviled eggs and gave 16 of them to Michael along with some oatmeal cookies I made. I kept a few to make egg salad sandwiches. I had one for lunch and got through 3/4 of it. Yum. Here I am cleaning my hot tub and back east they are cancelling flights because of a winter storm... strange. It was about 60 degrees today. I heard the stock market is down 10 percent and has wiped out all its gains for the year. A couple of White House officials have resigned over allegations of spousal abuse. One is a Mormon who had worked for Orrin Hatch. Hatch at first defended him saying it was slander against a decent guy but when photos showed up he just said that domestic violence is a serious issue but never apologized to the women to whom he called liars.

·         Brandon Burt I think the time is ripe to bring back the lambda symbol It can symbolize real Gays' commitment to the cause and the community, as loaded opposed to the fuckbots who wouldn't notice or be bothered anyway. Let me clarify that: It could symbolize the commitment of the real Gays to the cause and to the community. The fuckbots who don't give a shit about our history and culture won't notice or be bothered anyway. Sorry, I was so excited about the idea I forgot to type properly. I wonder if being capital-G Gay can become defiant and sexy again. I think men are rejecting it because they see it as little more than old Queens like me tutting, passing judgment, and telling longwinded stories about the good old days. Say something, Ben!

·         Benedgar I think the young LGBTQ men will have to find their own tribe again before they can regain the concept of a community of brothers...I have used the term Lambda Folk for a long time but as long as people choose to be identified by others and not by themselves nothing will change. I ever heard a reporter on a local news station say LGBTQ the other day... I almost gagged.

·         Brandon I was just realizing that it's meaningless for me to say things like "Let's bring back the lambda" because 1. It hasn't gone anywhere, it's part of our history, but 2. These days, my 1990s-era media savvy and eight bucks will buy me a cup of coffee. I have no power to popularize any symbol anymore, and it's a relief not to be expected to.

·         Brandon Just remaining true and authentic is enough of a challenge.

·         Benedgar Life is easier recording history rather than making it... but not nearly as much fun as being young and full of piss and vinegar [and sometimes cum LOL]

·         Brandon Lol. All three at once! I remember that salad

·         Benedgar substitute vinegar for beer and there you have it

·         Brandon There is still plenty of dick to be had! I'm not bashing sex. I'm just uncomfortable with fisting becoming a mainstream act.

·         Benedgar Not among those I associate with nor wearing furry costumes lol

·         Brandon I've made the acquaintance of a bright young man who does restaurant work in Tooele but aspires to study in college; he stopped by a few months ago and as we were chatting, passing around soft drinks, he casually produced a Fleshlight and a porn video and started masturbating. It's a thing now. Masturbation as a social pastime

·         Benedgar Well why the hell not? LOL... My prefer sex the old fashion way LOL

·         Brandon It wasn't even very sexy, I felt as though I could join in if I liked, but there was no special urgency. I miss urgency.

·         Benedgar You should have just seduced him and showed him what Gay sex is all about.

·         Brandon I love the idea of a masturbatorium where people can jack off together and talk or whatever without it being serious sex. It just took me aback I think I should. Lol. As soon as I get some Viagra

·         Benedgar Ah you mean jack off clubs

·         Brandon No! Not them They're soooo serious and dark and intense and nobody talks except to say, "fuck yeah."

·         Benedgar LOL ...

·         Brandon This would just be a nice, sunny room with refreshments and moist towelettes. Lots of them Ah, Ben, I love ya. I gotta get my day started, I'm late enough as it is...

·         Benedgar Have a Gay Old-Time bye

·         Brandon You have a Gay old time, too, Snugglebear

 

10 February 2018 Saturday

I worked on the Family of Rev. David White and Susannah Wells for much of the morning before getting ready to head down to Draper to visit Kyle Foote at one o’clock. It was crowded today compared to last week and quite noisy in the small room. Kyle was fine and we just talked about Celebrity Big Brother and politics as that nothing new was going on since our last visit. The visiting time was just until 2:30. It was really cool down there compared to the 60 degrees yesterday. I thought it was going to be warmer so I only wore a short sleeve shirt and no jacket. Big mistake. It only got up to about 42 compared to yesterday. On the way home stopped at Colonial Flags at 90th South to buy another flag pole because the wooden one in the back broke and I also stopped at the Barber College on 72nd South for a hair and beard trim. The trainee did an okay job but at my age I’m not really fussy. After buying some chicken gizzards for the dogs I was home by 5 and while fixing them their dinner, I got a message from Alan Anderson wanting to drop by. I figured something must be up for him to want to come over on a Saturday. So had a pleasant surprise when Alan Anderson dropped by for a visit... I didn't have much in the house to offer but French onion soup, deviled eggs, and oatmeal cookies. While we were eating I asked him what is going on and he teared up saying that his Kyle was out on a “date” with a new sex partner. It’s not serious and Kyle loves Alan but they don’t have sex anymore and Kyle is relatively a young man and we both know he shouldn’t have to give up the game just because we have. He knows that Kyle loves him and they still sleep together and sometimes at our age that is just enough. I said at least he is not keeping secrets from you. Alan was teary because he said he doesn’t have anyone to talk to about how he feels when Kyle goes out for a romp and leaves him home but I told him he always has me… no judgment just a listening ear. He stayed to watch a movie, Rosalind Russell`s Auntie Mame which he hadn't seen before...it's fun to watch an old favorite with someone for whom it’s a new experience...all the pups were well behaved and even Buster joined me in the movie room... So Alan left about 9 to go home to his babies and I went to bed with mine… Bill Poore is coming over tomorrow for us to go for a little Sunday drive.

 

11 February 2018 Sunday

For some reason I was wide awake at 3:30 a.m. Rather than try to force myself back to sleep I got up and made a crockpot of beef vegetable soup and typed up a little in this journal before going back to bed at 5. My tummy was kind of gassy so I ate a half of a banana before retiring again. The pups were all zoned. So I slept in until 7:30, got up and had some coffee and a slice of buttered toast and honey for breakfast. Bill Poore came over about noon and we went for a Sunday drive all through Davis County top to bottom taking all the side streets through West Bountiful, Centerville, Farmington, Kaysville, Layton, Clearfield to Sunset...showed him my first elementary school I taught at in Sunset...It was just an excuse to get out... before taking off we had vegetable beef soup and biscuits for lunch...He brought me a bunch of scented candles and cans of nuts... So I sent him home with soup, biscuits, and lemon cake... It was a pretty day for a drive but nippy out compared to last week. After Bill left I went down to see John Cooper in Sandy where he's in a hospice after being diagnosed with pancreatic cancer... it's just a matter of days he said before he passes... he was a very important part of my coming out experience back in February 1986 when he was chapter director of Affirmation... I owe him so much gratitude for his willingness to serve... if I've touch any body's life it's in part for John being there for me. We are all connected.

·         Kyle Good morning. I'm glad Alan had a good evening with you. He tells me this morning you wanted to share something with me. Alan and I had a good heart to heart talk this morning. Honestly, he's very grateful to have had you last night. I'm such an asshole, I know that. Any way I'm sorry to Alan. He knows I still love him. I just need to do better than the was in being. And my age is no excuse. I know better. And finally thank you for being there for him last night. I was not and I regret that.

·         Benedgar Alan and I both know you love him, and we both know that you are young and have certain sexual needs as well as you should. He understands this... just be extra careful of his heart because he loves you so much and I know you know you and Alan have a special real connection. Alan felt bad as he didn't think he had anyone to talk to when he was feeling down. I told him that he will always have me and so will you... He did tear up last night which made me sad... Maybe I have let you down too... I love you both and I know that Gay relationships do not a one size fits all. I miss you too... I think I have been worried that losing so much weight and being wrinkling would be a turn off... I know you both will work it out... just keep communicating and no secrets... you are walking a fine line to break some hearts... be careful... you big dope... come see me some time and we will talk.

·         Kyle Thanks Ben. Communicating is definitely key. I agree. We definitely have a special connection And I would be a dope to lose that. Thanks again Ben.

 

 

12 February 2018 Monday

Today Fran is 73 years old. Happy birthday old girl. I had to take Lulubelle back for a reexamination to see if the infection in her ears is clearing up. After dropping her off at the Dog Park Clinic I went to the Northwest Community Center Gym at 9 and that's not a good time to go... lots of old people... 10 or 11 is much better for the geriatric generation is cleared out and the Millennial muscle boys haven't arrived yet. So now I am home trying to make sense of 1981 and 1982 for a Wednesday presentation. It looked like it was trying to rain in parts of the valley while I was out but so far nothing here although it is gloomy. After picking up Lulu Belle from the vet for a follow up she still had an infection in one of her ears so they gave her some antibiotic ear drops. Another $60 but glad I can take care of her. I worked mostly on getting my lecture for Wednesday all day. I went out this evening to the Marmalade Library where Voices Heard: Hello Goodbye was presented by Chad Anderson. He and  John Bonner, and Meg Bee read from their writings. I was shocked how much weight John Bonner lost. The readings were all pretty intense. I sat with Cole Gilmore and I kicked over his tea... I felt so bad... there was a pretty good turnout. I am glad I got out of the house on a Monday evening. I also bought Chad's book Gay Mormon Father mostly because I wanted to read it but also the proceeds go to help fund his documentary on Gordon Church.

 

13 February 2018 Tuesday

Only time I went out of the house was to go down to make ten copies of the Chronology for my lecture series. I asked Bill Poore  if he wanted me to take him out to the cemetery tomorrow so he can put flowers on his mom’s grave. He said sure.”

·         Bill Poore I have Chad’s book, was going to give it to you when I read it, my eyes are bothering me too much to read the book....I think he is with me for not reading it yet....he wants to know what I think. He likes to be praised publicly for it.

·         Benedgar I bought it actually as a donation to the project he's working on... Do you know that old song “I'll see you in my dreams? John Cunningham came to me in my dream last night and we held each other and kissed...something I never got to do while he was alive... I wonder if his memory is alive in any one else since his family is gone and he was never close to his brother James... I wonder if I am all that's left who still loves him? Strange dream... Wednesday I will pick you up at Smith's to go put flowers on your mom's grave... I have my lecture done so I have time...

 

14 February 2018 Wednesday

Made Cheesy Ham and Potato soup for lunch... It also has green and red bell peppers and onions for my veggies... the dash of cayenne is good for the blood. I took Bill Poore out to put flowers on his mother's grave as today is her birthday... It was breezier up on the east side then here in the River District...he bought me some flowers too saying that I'd bitch about it if I didn't get flowers today from somebody... I am all set for my lecture series tonight...just got to make some cookies to take to the library for those who come out...Home from the USHS lecture series...we had a smaller than usual crowd due to it being Valentine's Day but the stalwarts were there. I made chocolate chip cookies and talked about how it was in 1981 & 1982... I was surprised and touch that before the meeting John Cooper sister brought him to the meeting to give me some archival material he wanted me to have... he was too weak to stay but I felt honored that he would entrust me to preserve what he gave me... He literally got off his death bed to come see me. Another Valentine Day Massacre. In Florida 17 people were slaughtered in a high school by a 17-year-old with a AR 15 assault weapon. Before George W Bush and the GOP Congress let the ban on assault weapons expire there wasn't a weekly school shooting. One of the reason Trump is okay with surrounding himself with men who abuse their wives is that he is guilty of it himself. During a court deposition, Ivana Trump—Donald's first wife and mother to Eric, Donald Jr. and Ivanka—accused the president of raping her in 1989. The private account was described in former Newsweek reporter Harry Hurt III’s 1993 book, Lost Tycoon. It details the alleged "violent assault," in which Trump pulled out fistfuls of his ex-wife’s hair after receiving a painful operation on his scalp

 

15 February 2018 Thursday

It was really cold today with the breeze making it extra chilly. Did not leave the house today except to take Coco home. I made a cheese burger for dinner. Before going to sleep I watch the completion of the series Babylon Berlin. It’s really dark but really good. Following a school shooting, the White House reportedly refused requests to release a photo of trump signing a bill overturning an Obama-era regulation restriction on the mentally ill from acquiring guns.

 

16 February 2018 Friday

I got a letter in the mail about my pension plan from Ticor Title Insurance from so long ago. Not sure how much it is but every bit helps I suppose. Then I went down to the NW Rec Center to work out and just get out of the house. I walked about a mile and a half. For lunch I fixed a cheese burger. It’s still chilly out but not as bad as yesterday. I am burning out on blogging the Danforth Family History but I keep going on. So burned out on some Americans obsession with guns. Child sacrifice is the ritualistic killing of children in order to please or appease a god or supernatural beings in order to achieve a desired result. The radical theocratic Republicans and the simply obscenely wealthy have now extended child sacrifice to placate the NRA for filthy lucre... Americans have been taken captive by sociopaths...Okay let gun owners keep their guns but place a two-week moratorium of the sale of any new fire arms after each mass shooting. At this rate gun dealers will go out of business. Mueller’s grand jury  indicted 13 Russians for interfering with the 2016 election. Trump is about as faithful to the Constitution as he was to his wives and about as abusive... Special counsel issues indictment against 13 Russian nationals over 2016 election interference. The indictment says Russian defendants created hundreds of social media accounts to pose as politically active Americans, purchased political ads on social media...

 

17 February 2018 Saturday

Michael picked me up to go the Grand Theater at South High where we met up with Jim McMullin and TJ Otaka. We went to see “The Musical Murder Mystery of 1940” which was really fun and seeing it in a group made it even more fun. The seating was rather weird though because we were seated over the orchestra pit and the play took play really on the back stage. We want to see Spamalot that will be performed in May which should be a lot of fun too... When dead children become the price to preserve the 2nd amendment the NRA has  become a terrorist organization. How come everyone wanted to know Hillary Clinton’s reaction when Bill Clinton cheated on her but no one asks Melania trump the same question. Nuclear bombs don't kill people ... People kill People ... oh wait nuclear bombs and assault weapons are meant to kill people... never mind.

·         Chris Johnson Along those lines... ​Do you have a desire for fame, glory, or notoriety? Would you like to be the center of attention without any talent? Do you have an unresolved personal grievance that demands vengeance? Would you like to command respect without having to earn it? Would you like to know the secret that instantly turns a little man into a big man? All you have to do is pick up a gun.

·         Ron Johnson I'd highly recommend The Hunchback of Notre Dame and Hale Centre Theatre. A magnificent production! And soon, Desert Star Playhouse will be presenting Spamilton.

 

18 February 2018 Sunday

The wind here in Westpointe has been fierce all night. My outdoor chimes have been making music constantly since going to bed to waking up. Must be a big cold front coming in with feets of snow forecast for the mountains tonight. Taking Buster in tomorrow morning for a teeth checkup in Murray. Hope the roads won’t be too bad. I made the appointment 2 months ago so don't want to cancel it. Really did not do a lot of anything today. I did go down to the prison to see Kyle and told him that I wouldn’t be coming next weekend because so much is going on with Jimmy Hamamoto and Mike and I are going out to Day Break for dinner with TJ and Jim. When I got home I cleaned the house a little for Jimmy coming next week but other than that just watched the tube and worked on the Danforth-White family genealogies… Those Connecticut River Valley ancestors really had a time of it but probably no more than the Native Americans that they were replacing. I watched a little bit of celebrity Brig Brother this evening but am kind of losing interest in it because the season is so short. Its over next week. I miss having a series to watch like Babylon Berlin that was so good. The NRA controlled NRA is framing the debate over gun control as a mental health issue even though they decimated Obama’s Affordable Care Act and rescinded the law against the mentally ill buying weapons. 98 percent of mass killing are committed by men not women who also have mental illnesses. Gun Control is about keeping violent men from having easy access to guns. There are two Americas, people who think Donald trump is fraud and a narcissistic megalomaniac and those who think God has sent him to save America. I wonder how it will end?

·         Bill Poore screw Paul Ryan  A vast of Americans wants gun control...but the politicians are in the hip pockets especially the Repos of the gun manufactures All you have to do is look at the contributions to all of them by the manufactures.....evil bastards all of them.

 

19 February 2018 Monday President’s Day

The one day I have to take Buster down to Murray for his dental checkup a blizzard comes to SLC. I scheduled it last December and we had mostly really dry warm weather.. I didn’t dare reschedule as it will be another 2 months if I do! There was 5 inches of snow this morning and he has to be there to drop off between 7:30 and 8:00 So I got dressed in my snow shoveling outfit because I shoveled my drive way at 630 this morning. No need to go to the gym today. When Mike came by to drop off Coco I asked him if he could take Buster and me down to State and 48th because the roads were so bad and it was snowing heavily. He said no problem  but it took us 45 minutes because of the slow traffic and slick roads. I am so glad he took me because driving and dealing with Buster wanting to be in my lap would have been treacherous. When I dropped him off at the Spay and Neuter Clinic they said I could  pick Buster up after 4 pm. Back home I finished shoveling the driveway again plus 100 feet of sidewalk and the back step so the pups would go outside... now my floors are slick and wet... The clinic called about 3 pm and said Buster could be picked up and since Mike got off early he took me down to pick up Buster who is a little groggy and take Coco home. Buster  only had one extraction but already had a lot of teeth missing. While there I made an appointment for Lulu Belle to have her teeth cleaned on March 14th .  Hopefully, there won’t be a snow storm that day. I made Mike a kettle of Chili Verde for taking me back and forth on this wintry day... People are driving crazier than usual...

·         Richard P. Butler I got home after spending an hour going one mile on I-80. 1300 East everyone westbound had to exit Freeway was closed westbound. Then I had to remove 8 inches of snow. The "Beast" did its job.

·         Bill Poore I just got back from going to two stores, I had to clean snow off my windows, my feet are frozen, and my neighbors had not shoveled the snow off my sidewalks yet.....l am not going out again for at least a week, or until when I look outside I don't see anything white.

 

20 February 2018 Tuesday

It must have snowed all night  but I'm not shoveling until they plow my street. In the afternoon I finally did as that I needed to have the driveway cleared for tonight. It didn’t snow today and spent much of the day getting the house ready for company. I made a big crock pot full of corn chowder. Soups are about the only way I can eat my vegetables these days. It was hard staying up to midnight  when I am so used to going to bed about 10 pm and getting up about 6:30 in the morning when Coco comes bounding in. I left the house about 11:15 not knowing what the weather conditions would be but the roads were fine just extremely cold. Jimmy was taking a “red eye” flight from Boston. I waited in the Park and Sit lot because his flight was supposed to have come in at 11:48… but  it was nearly 1 a.m. when I was able to retrieve him. “The Republican-dominated Legislature’s most outspoken Democratic foil, Sen. Jim Dabakis, announced on Tuesday he won't seek re-election to his Salt Lake City seat.” I am surprised that Jim lasted this long but good for him. A Florida woman who ran a Donald J. Trump supporters page that unwittingly promoted a Russian-coordinated event on Facebook says she doesn’t believe that she was influenced by Kremlin-linked trolls

·         Craig Hunter She must have grown up in Alabama.

·         Jon Michael Disgusting old whore! The only way these people would ever turn against the tangerine turd is if he suddenly morphed into a black man.

·          Richard P. Butler Doesn't care? Typical trump lover. Why plow the snow? it'll melt in a few months anyway.

·         Stephanie Williams He could be running a prostitution ring out of the White House and they would still support him blindly. Just make sure you don’t slip and fall on the ice

·         Bill Poore It is like my Mexican neighbor still has his Christmas decorations up, I asked when was he going to take them down? He said it is almost August and he would just have to put them up again.

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21 February 2018 Wednesday

So I didn't get to bed until 2 last night after trying to get the hounds settled with someone new in the house. Jimmy isn’t really an animal person. Then I was up at 7 with Coco over to see the gang...when Jimmy got up around 10 a.m. all the hounds wanted to see who was in the house... I fixed him some breakfast and then went to the gym to do my workout and when I got home the Bariatric Clinic called and said I needed blood drawn for some blood work for tomorrow appointment. So back down to the Redwood Clinic  before finally staying in. It’s been cold but no snow so far. I fed Jimmy some corn chowder in the afternoon and I took a well-deserved nap... The pups and I are not used to someone being in our space. For supper  fixed Jimmy an oven roasted chicken, yellow rice, and steamed broccoli. Jimmy is a good guy but I am really do this for John Reeves because he would have wanted me to. Jimmy is very self-absorbed talking about his life, his friends, and his interests none of which I know nor care to know really. One of the first things he asked of me when we were visiting was whether he had changed or did he look older and that people say he looks like he’s in his 40’s. Never once did he comment on how much weight I lost or how my surgery went or how I felt. Oh well that’s Jimmy.

·         Stephanie Williams Burrrrrr that’s pretty cold. Got down to 29 here last night. Another cold one tonight too.

 

22 February 2018 Thursday

I had my 9-month bariatric follow up today this afternoon after dropping Jimmy off so he and Chuck can go out to lunch...so I got up to the U of U hospital too early so I sat and had a Starbucks coffee and people watched. I was thanking Providence for my health after seeing so many with serious health problems. They were way behind at the clinic so didn't get out until 330 when my appointment was at 1...They said my blood work showed  I am low on iron and vitamin but all else is good... I was down 60 pounds... and don't need to be seen again until my 1-year anniversary on May 22nd. But I guess they want me to have more blood drawn as they didn’t do an iron sample. Poor Jimmy is fending for himself tonight as I don't keep much in the house. I did fix him breakfast and he had a nice lunch at Su Casa I guess. He said that Chuck takes a lot of energy out of him and I thought  guess who’s  calling the kettle black but kept my mouth shut. John’s grandson Chris Reeves had taken Jimmy back to my place. I fixed left over roasted chicken, yellow rice, and broccoli from yesterday. That will have to do... oh there's corn chowder too... As me I went to bed early... because going to the clinic takes a lot out of you and being chief cook and bottle washer and maid for Company takes its toll too. Mitt Romney announced he’s running for Orrin Hatch’s Senate seat. When he kissed trumps ass when he thought he was getting a cabinet position tells you all you need to know about Massachusetts governor. First National Bank dumped the NRA  "Customer feedback has caused us to review our relationship with the NRA. As a result, First National Bank of Omaha will not renew its contract with the National Rifle Association to issue the NRA Visa Card."

·         James Connelley Bain capital stole my uncle's retirement when they invaded ampad paper. Another crook idolized by the church.

·         Doug Murri Romney has no backbone. He's still as much of a flip-flopper as he's always been.

 

23 February 2018 Friday

I woke up to a snowing and blowing and “chilly willy” day. Jimmy was disappointed as I think he had planned on meeting old friends of his for lunch but no one is going out in this weather except me because Jimmy wanted to get some party supplies for his get together. So it took me an hour to shovel the driveway, the sidewalks, and the back steps so the pups can go outside without being lost in the snow. The snow is coming down still like a fine mist blowing in a chilly breeze. I think we got a good 5 inches here...I thought we were only supposed to get a light snow... oh well we need the snow pack...I had to shovel again because so much snow fell since I did it at 10 am at least 2 and half inches. Everything was covered again. It has not stopped all day but it’s been a fine snow almost a mist. I would have waited it out but Jimmy needed to get some supplies for John's memorial tomorrow... I cannot complain since we have had such a mild winter and Spring is less than a month away. Yes I can complain and I will. I made some banana bread to take to the Pot Luck Memorial.

·         Richard P. Butler 4 inches so far. Lake effect.

·         Andrea Lindseth Boone Gsc Still snowing and blowing here in Kearns! I'm not going anywhere!

·         Amy Barry I've shoveled twice as well. Glad I got out there when I got home around 1pm. It made a difference the 2nd time as it was lighter. I think if we had waited to do it once it would be a much heavier snow.

 

24 February 2018 Saturday

Busy day and tiring one... I have been up at 6 am with the pups and when Jimmy got up I fixed him some breakfast and then he said he needed for me to run him to the store again for some items for John Reeves' Memorial. The roads were sloppy but not too bad and we went to the Smith’s in Sugar House before taking him over to Highland to drop him off at his friend's apartment who was hosting the gathering. Then I went and got Chuck and drove him over to Sugar House. I brought a loaf of banana bread. Chuck and I got there about 2 when some other folks showed up around 3ish. I was trying to be pleasant and make small talk but the only people I knew there were Chuck and Chris Reeves and he’s not very personable. It was a small but nice gathering of John's family and Jimmy's KRCL friends from back in the day. I hadn't slept well last night so by 3:30 I told Chuck it was time to leave. When I got home the pups were wanting to be fed so that's what I did. Jimmy didn’t get home until after 9:30. I guess John Crapeau, who must have come after we left, brought Jimmy home. It’s a cold day today but at least it didn't snow. Well John’s Memorial in Salt Lake City is done. I really never cared for John’s family and the way they treated him and me back in the late 80’s. I got an email from Doug Webb a person I knew from Affirmation Days wanting me to call him. I wonder what that is all about. Let this sink in: The children who survived last week's mass shooting are now getting death threats from NRA supporters.

·         Craig Hunter That Republican mafia group called the NRA is horrifying.

·         Bill Poore I believe in the 2nd Amendment however feel the NRA is a terrorist organization run by that moron. Just compare the number of people killed in U.S by guns each year to that of any of our allies

 

 

25 February 2018 Sunday

I thought about asking Jimmy if he wanted to go with Mike and I out to Daybreak but decided against it. I felt guilty but I needed a break from him. This morning he was blaring this German techno runaway music that was on my last nerve. But I made some brownies last night after I got home from Jimmy’s soiree and brought them with me. I Had a nice Japanese Sunday dinner hosted by TJ Otaka and Jim McMullin  and I went with Mike and Coco. Alan Anderson and Kyle Daniels came too and we had a nice long visit. What I ate that TJ made  was delicious...but I shouldn't have had the brownies I had brought...that was the tipping scales of too much. On the way home I started to have a dumping syndrome and barely made it home. I was sicker than a dog wanting to puke but it subsided. Jimmy Hamamoto I guess was down stairs sleeping taking a nap when I was so sick. When He got up I fixed him some dinner and then went to bed to watch the finale of Celebrity Big Brother. I was happy who won but I bet other people won’t be. Ross Mathews came in 2nd but also won America’s Favorite Player. It was a fun afternoon however and I said I would get tickets for us all to go see Spamalot in May. I guess the Winter Olympics had been going on in South Korea but didn’t pay any attention to it. Spamalot, Saturday, May 19, 2018 02:00 PM, Grand Theatre: Main Stage: B A-109 (Section B, Senior Discount (60+), $17.00) Spamalot, Saturday, May 19, 2018 02:00 PM, Grand Theatre: Main Stage: B A-110 (Section B, Senior Discount (60+), $17.00) Spamalot, Saturday, May 19, 2018 02:00 PM, Grand Theatre: Main Stage: B A-111 (Section B, Senior Discount (60+), $17.00) Spamalot, Saturday, May 19, 2018 02:00 PM, Grand Theatre: Main Stage: B A-112 (Section B, Senior Discount (60+), $17.00) Spamalot, Saturday, May 19, 2018 02:00 PM, Grand Theatre: Main Stage: B A-113 (Section B, Senior Discount (60+), $17.00) Spamalot, Saturday, May 19, 2018 02:00 PM, Grand Theatre: Main Stage: B A-114 (Section B, Regular / Adult Admission, $20.00

 

26 February 2018 Monday

It was a busy day today. I took Lulubelle to the vet for a check up on her ear infection this morning. That was another $78 because her infection had completely cleared and they gave me drops to put it.. Then I took Jimmy to the downtown Library where he met up with old KRCL for lunch. I went on line and bought six tickets on the front row for Saturday the 19th of May to see Spamalot. I picked up Jimmy about 4 pm from the Trax Station and he said Chris Reeves wanted to take him to the airport at 10 pm so I won’t have too because I went to see Silent Heroes in the early evening. Jim McMullin had gone on line a while back and RSVPed 3 tickets for the event at the theater in the Utah Museum of Fine Art. Quiet Heroes is about Dr Kristen Ries and Maggie Snyder and all they did during the AIDS crisis in Utah...I heard it started at 6 so I was a little early and found out that the reception before the screening was at 6 but the movie wasn’t until 7. I  met TJ, Jim, Alan Anderson, and Kyle Daniels  there and also saw Kevin Scott and his partner. Chad Anderson was there also.. There was refreshments which was nice before the showing. There was a mix up abut Kyle’s admission and he was put on a waiting list but I said that if he couldn’t get in to take my ticket because I would have rather a younger person see as I had lived it but he got in without any issue. At one point while watching the film I got very melancholy seeing pictures of David Sharpton and so many other people I knew  lost to the disease that were friends of mind...I was surprised that a brochure I made on AIDS was in the film... they must have gotten it from the archives...  The event wasn’t over until 9 and when I came home Jimmy was gone... he had made arrangements for Chris to take him to the airport... So it's me and the pooches again... alone again naturally. I told Alan and Jim when they asked how much they owed me for the Spamalot tickets I just said it was my treat.

 

27 February 2018 Tuesday

This last of the month I wanted to stay in bed all day and cuddle with my canines but stripped the bed downstairs and did some clean up but not a whole lot of anything else. Grandma Johnson always called it when company left “a glad lonesome.” When Jimmy left I was glad and hardly lonesome. He took a lot of energy out of me without giving any back to me. Not that I would have but it would have been nice if he would have asked me to lunch or dinner or said he appreciated me opening my home to him. Oh well. Aunt Beulah said people have their ways but some people weigh more than others. I brought over to Michael’s left-over Beef and Noodle soup I had made for Jimmy yesterday. I went back down to Redwood to have more blood drawn. They seemed to have taken a lot for one test.

 

28 February 2018 Wednesday

I am still resting up from last week. Typing up Gay histories and Genealogical histories. The snow is slowly melting. I wasn't sure if the pound puppies would eat my leftover beef and noodle soup that had carrots, peas, green beans, and red bell peppers but it appears to have been a hit judging by the empty bowls. Even though Wal-Mart raised the age to purchase a gun I don't see me shopping there. A lot of companies are ending Discounts for NRA members. Good.

 

MARCH

1 March 2018 Thursday

Well it's March already and soon will be Spring... I am ready to see some green again and flowers... I have a checkup appointment this morning with my doctor I had for 20 years at least. He was a puppy when I first met him... now he's getting some gray in his hair... Back from a doctor appointment. He was happy with my results. Even with all the crap I have been eating my A1c is down to 6.4 from 7. 1 four months ago and from 10.1 a year ago. I am down to 190 lbs. from 254 a year ago. So he said I am the healthiest I have been since he started seeing me more than 20 years ago. Even with me cheating. I got a call from Doug Webb who I hadn’t seen in years but in the middle my phone battery went dead. You know a land line never quit working just because the battery went dead ugh!!!

 

2 March 2018 Friday

TJ must be cold this gusty day ahead of a storm front. He got under the covers in the doggy bed. I got a message from Jim Dabakis this morning asking if I wanted to go see a play with him tonight and I said sure. Bill Poore came over for lunch...I made biscuits and beef stew...sent him home with stew, a biscuit, split pea soup, and banana bread... the pups are always glad to see him because he brings them treats...This evening went to the Salt Lake Acting Company to see HIR with Jim Dabakis....it's a comedy by Taylor Mac...that's all I know. We left the play at the intermission... So grateful Jim was tired... It was hard watching a disabled senior being abused as a comedy...

 

3 March 2018 Saturday

The pups got me up way to early this morning around 5 am so I had some coffee and a bran muffin before working on the Danforth-Auger history. Wanted to go see Kyle this morning so I left the house about 8:45 to get down to Draper by 9:30 am. It’s supposed to snow later but it was just breezy and cold down there. They missed a call for Kyle so I was kept waiting nearly 15 minutes after our visiting tome began. We just got caught up on what I had been up too and what he’s been doing which wasn’t much although he said a week ago he did get to snow plow during that storm. I was back home by 11:30 and fixed a cheeseburger for lunch. Going out to the Theater again ... this time with Alan Anderson to the Eccles Theatre to see the Sound of Music... I prefer musicals to pithy contemporary drama like HIR .... I didn’t get home from the theater until after 11:30. It was 3hours long...I enjoyed the Sound of Music much more as a staged musical than the film...although heard the music a hundred times it seemed fresher as theatre. The mother superior was tremendous and all the children actors were cast so well...at the end I felt guilty applauding the guys in Nazi uniforms ...

·         Bill Poore He was probably cute, all the Nazi guys in that part are cute.

·         Alan Anderson Very enjoyable. Thanks for going, Ben. Hit snow about Valley Fair Mall to I15. My driveway was dry at home. Weird

·         Kevin Scott Mr. Showtune queen here does not hate on musicals... except that one! The movie had three things that people fell in love with: Julie Andrews, the Alps, and those children. Every stage version you've ever seen has none of those. We traded our season tickets for that show for Jersey Boys, which I've already seen twice. Life is too short to sit through that show yet again. :-)

·         Alan Anderson People have different tastes. I enjoyed Maria last night, the kids were very good, considering they were live, and any movie can have the Alps as the backdrop. Last night's Mother Superior was 100 times better than the movie. And I would have problems seeing Jersey Boys again, even if the tickets were given to me. Like I said, we all have different tastes.

·         For perspective, I'm not a total hater... I perform pretty much every song in that score many times a year. It's pretty much a staple of Polka Doodle Doo. I even get audience members up to play "Do Re Me" and "Edelweiss" on my Austrian Cow Bells, and I have a ton of stories about the show that I recount to audiences. My wife performed in a production of it in Oregon and one of the original Von Trapp children (then in her 80s) came to speak (and debunk). And as much of a theater lover as I am, I don't like to sit through shows I've already seen unless there's been many years between viewings. But I do listen to them pretty much daily. There was one really good number cut from the SoM movie: "No Way to Stop It", which was pretty well named as orchestras tend to snowball through it.

·         Richard Harmston This is Utah's favorite musical. Hard to understand.

·         Kevin Scott I thought that distinction went to "Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Yawn". Oh wait, a technicolor yawn is what the Aussies call puking. ;-)

·         Benedgar Williams Utah loves it's musicals with a God theme like Le Miz... I didn't like the movie but enjoyed seeing it as a stage version... there were some very young children sitting in John Williams seats in front of us and they were thrilled by the music and during the intermission were singing along to climb every mountain... it was sweet

 

4 March 2018 Sunday

Mother Nature’s way of saying stay in bed all day... yesterday it was 50 degrees and all the old snow had melted away... nothing like wet dogs wanting to snuggle

We are up to 7 inches of snow on my deck railing and it's still coming down... hot chocolate and oatmeal for breakfast on this wintry day...the pups got ham and cheese... now everyone is back to sleep... this is the heaviest storm we had by the airport this winter... but I got split pea soup, beef stew, and bean soup in the refrig... makings for biscuits or corn bread so all is good... feel sorry for my squirrels and magpies though...

The storm is over and the sun is out and snow is melting fast. Had to shovel a path for TJ because snow was deeper than he is... some pictures from March's lion storm ... I hope the month goes out like a lamb. Tonight was the Oscars but did not care a thing about any of the movies so didn’t watch. “You own everything that happened to you. Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly about them, they should've behaved better.” ― Anne Lamott

 

5 March 2018 Monday

Had to take Lulubelle back to the vet to have her ears checked...her left ear drum is blocked so I have drops that are supposed to break the blockage up... They want to see her again in two weeks. It cost 40 dollars today. I made an appointment for Coco to be groomed tomorrow. I’ve been working all day writing up my talk for Wednesday's lecture on 1983 and 1984...

 

6 March 2018 Tuesday

Took Coco in for a new do so I thought I better get one too so I am not as fuzzy as I was. I like this barber down the street but everything was cut so short. Finished up my talk ion 1983-1984 and binged watched Hitler’s Inner Circle of Evil which was pretty good on Netflix.

 

7 March 2018 Wednesday

I lounged around a lot today until it was time to get ready for my lecture tonight. Jay Vallar came over with copies he made for me but when I looked at them later he made a copy of my talk instead of the chronology. Oh Well. I made some shepherd bread this morning from a no knead recipe that turned out pretty good and I made some onion soup to go with it. I also made two dozen chocolate chip cookies for the group tonight. It was a pretty good turn out with Cole Gilmore, Terry Gilman, Chad Anderson, Courtney Moser, T J Otaka, Jim McMullin, Stan Rovig, Joel, Charles Bigo, Richard Harmon, Craig Allen, Chuck Whyte  and a couple of others I can’t recall. We had about 15 people there. Poor Charles  Bigo was wearing a mask as he said he’s had the flu that is going around. I think people who attended really enjoyed the presentation this time. I talked to Jim and TJ about movie night which I guess will be next weekend on St. Paddy’s day. We are also going to the play Straight on the 25th.

 

8 March 2018 Thursday.

I added my presentation onto my FB Lecture series page before Richard Butler came over about 10 am and to remind me that I am babysitting Sophie and Miley the first week in April. I had left a candle in a glass jar burning in the bathroom like I have for years and I forgot to neither put it on a coaster nor blow it out. While I was in bed watching television I hear a pop and an unusual noise so I got up to investigate and the glass containing the candle was nearly on fire… I quickly doused it and the glass shattered but not before it left a scorch mark on the counter top. I hate to think what would have happened if I had fallen asleep. Lesson learned I suppose.

 

9 March 2018 Friday

Got my Lambda Lore column for the Q finished. The pups all had their morning breakfast and as I was bored I made a raisin walnut and cinnamon rolls just because I wanted to bake something new.. so simple... 3 cups of bread flour, 1/2 cup sugar [or honey] 1 1/2 tsp table salt, a packet of yeast, cup, and half of tepid water. Mix together with the stick end of a wooden spoon until forms a ball, cover and let it sit overnight. In the morning mix in 1/2 chopped walnuts, 1/2 cup raisins, 1/2 cup dried cranberries, tablespoon of cinnamon... pour onto a floured surface and fold over a few times into a ball. Place back in bowl let rise again for an hour and then dump dough into a Pam sprayed skillet or Dutch oven that has a lid. Score the top with a knife or scissors, put on lid, and bake in a 400-degree preheated oven 30 minutes. Then take lid off and bake about 10 minutes more for how crusty you like it... Sounds complicated but super easy... time and nature does all the work.

 

10 March 2018 Saturday

This morning I went down to Draper to see Kyle because I won’t be able to go next weekend. We had a good visit and he wants me to buy him some transitional lens glasses for his yard work this spring and summer. I said I would. In the evening I went to the Leonardo’s Trivia Pursuit activity last night. Jesse Dolce and Darby Hinton wanted me to come and we were the only ones from Men Who Move who came. I felt so out of it when most of the trivia questions were geared to those growing up in the 90s and the aughts... they had a whole series of questions on Legos!! The only question I knew for sure was the song Woolly Bully by Sam the Sham and the Pharaohs... if you want to feel irrelevant be in a room of 150 mostly Millennials go play Trivia Pursuit with them.

·         Erick Myers I know the feeling, Ben. And it's even worse if you haven't been watching US tv for 17 years. Haven't got a clue about most of the current stars of stage and screen...

 

11 March 2018 Sunday

It's later than you think! Today starts Daylight Savings time and I just lounged around a lot today. If I did anything beyond doing some laundry and house work I don’t know what.

 

12 March 2018 Monday

I Baked some rye bread this morning from dough I let rise over night. It was the first time I ever made rye bread... and it was good. Brought most of it over to Michaels. This morning I took Chuck Whyte to the doctors. I thought he had an emergency but it’s just that he didn’t have money for a taxi. The President and The Porn Star brought to you by GOP Evangelicals and Mormons

 

13 March 2018 Tuesday

Lulubelle is getting too damn smart... she'll go to the leash hanging from the peg and nudges at it to tell me she wants to go for a walk... so when we come back then Harleigh wants to go for a walk too... ugh my dogs are making me exercise... Trump fired Steve Goldstein an assistant to Rex Tillerson who he ousted as Secretary of State. Tillerson replacement will be CIA Director Mike Pompeo. Tillerson's removal comes just one day after he condemned Russia for their nerve agent attack in the UK.

 

14 March 2018 Wednesday

I had to take Lulu Belle down to the Spay and Neuter Clinic on 48th South and State to have a dental cleaning and checkup. I had to be there by 7:30... The sunrise over the mountains was a gorgeous red this last week of winter. Because my driver’s license expires next month I went and had it renewed this morning... didn't need birth certificate ... social security card... nor any of the rigmarole I needed last time... The driver’s license place is at the Fairgrounds near my house so it was quick and easy... driving by Backman Elementary I saw a bunch of students huddled on the playground... must be part of the national walk out... Lulu Belle came home with only 2 teeth pulled. It's been raining pretty good here off and on but better than the blizzard we had when I took Buster down in February... Sad news a friend of mine John Cooper died... he was a good guy and did a lot of good in this old world especially at Affirmation

 

15 March 2018 Thursday

Rainy days and Thursdays get me down

 

16 March 2018 Friday

I received a nicely bound hard copy of a book containing my memoirs from my Sacred Faeries days over 30 years ago...I guess I can truly say I'm literate. Daniel Cureton published in a Salt Lake Pagan Journal. Its only from the 1st two years of the Sacred Faeries and he wants me to send him the last half so when I get down with my Danforth project I guess I will write up my old journals from back then.

·         Daniel Cureton-Your diaries are the big piece, an amazing work we get to bring to life and it's wonderfully impressive in print. It's a primary source of information of a rare part of history Well of course, as an author you get a copy. I strive to improve the journal and make it better:) I knew what I'd change. I had a different designer. this year was able to do hard cover. I had more on the editing team helping. Thanks for the feedback. Submissions for vol 3 are open now. We're doing part three, so I need part 4 of the chronicles for next year! Now the journal is indexed with ebscohost, the library world vendor of data bases, so the PDF will live forever available in research to students and academics

 

17 March 2018 Saturday

It was a Good Old fashion St. Paddy's Day snow blizzard here in the North Jordan River District this morning with Snow coming down again after a break...Had a nice dinner with friends who made their way over in a blizzard for dinner and movie night... There was TJ and Jim, Mike Romero, Bill Poor, Dennis Lee, and Greg Allen. I made corned beef and cabbage, carrots and new potatoes, mashed potatoes, green beans, and a meat loaf because Jim doesn’t care for corned Beef... also made homemade bread and an apple pie... afterwards eating we watched Boys In the Band and I think only Mike, Dennis, and I had ever seen it before. Saint Patrick's Day is just like gay pride but for straight white people who are proud to be drunk. According to my DNA, my remote direct paternal ancestor was Niall of the Nine Hostages. Without him kidnapping Patricus a Roman Brit and bringing him to Ireland there would be no St. Patrick Day to drink green beer or eat Corned Beef... So kiss my Blarney Stone and top O' the morning to you. Facebook is suspending the trump-affiliated data analytics firm Cambridge Analytica, after learning that it failed to delete data that it had taken inappropriately from users of the social network. They took information from 50 million FB users to help influence voters for Trump.

·         Bill Poore I went to Smiths on 8th and 9th yesterday before coming to your house, I just sat there watching all the young white people walking out with beer, everyone had beer. It is clear St Pats is not a Mormon holiday, or is it?

 

18 March 2018 Sunday

Didn’t do much but clean up from the party, type up information on Grandpa Samuel Danforth of Bennington, Vermont and relax.

 

19 March 2018 Monday

 Beautiful last day of winter... I had a busy morning. I went to my credit union in Bountiful to get a pension application from METLIFE notarized as well as my Last Will and Testament, finally. I drew it up last year before going into surgery. Then I went to America Best glasses there in Bountiful and ordered a pair of transition glasses for Kyle. It was a little over $300. I guess I better file my taxes and see if I get anything back since I also have to pay $250 for car insurance. A TV production company, Beyond Productions, based in Sydney, Australia wants to contact me because I "specialize in Gay Utah history" about a crime I had written about... so I've gone international or at least down under.

 

20 March 2018 Tuesday

Happy Vernal Equinox and Blessed Eostra or Easter this first day of Spring. After today there will be more light than darkness.  Rich Butler came over this morning to visit and fix a stopper in the downstairs toilet cistern tank. He also brought me a hoe for my garden. He’s still bummed about his cat being crushed when the garage door came down on him. He’s bringing Miley and Sophie over on March 31 when they go to New Mexico for a week.

 

21 March 2018 Wednesday

Bill Poore took me to lunch at Charlie Chows... Had a bowl of soup... I can tell he and I worked in different parts of the food industry as I was a cook and he was a waiter... we had horrible service and he still was too generous tipping... I thought tips meant To insure Prompt service which we didn't get... He paid me $100 for the money I loaned him last year. I think he owes me $1400 still. Afterwards I went to Lowes and bought some pansies and grass fertilizer as we are supposed to get rain again... the garden sections of the stores are still pretty bare... Rich Butler brought me a new hoe yesterday so I am ready to grub in the soil. I potted the pansies and I will get more this weekend maybe. At Lucky’s they had strawberries for 88 Cents so I bought two and gave one to Mike when I took Coco home. I’ve been watching a BBC series called Midsommer’s Murders. I enjoy a good murder mystery and this series is worth watching. I may be going to Albuquerque NM on April 20th for the day to be interviewed for a story this Australian Film company is doing on a murder that happened in SLC in 1963. It’s the Jean Sinclair case. I said I'd only go if I can be back the same day to feed my dogs, so they are going to fly me in and out... Well at least that's the plan. The Austin Texas bomber blew himself up so another angry white conservative is dead.

 

22 March 2018 Thursday

Cool and breezy out like a front is moving in. I worked on Thomas Bassell Danforth this morning trying to get it ready to go on line before I went down to the Riverside Day Library to make copies of my Last Will and Testament to give to Mike Romero and a copy of my birth certificate to send off to METLIFE to get my whopping $21 a month from my TICOR pension LOL. Mailed it off today.

 

23 March 2018 Friday

International Puppy Day today. I fixed them some corned beef that I found frozen in the freezer dated from 2016 LOL. They loved it and didn’t mind that it was dated. Haven’t been doing much lately except spending inordinate amount of time on the computer on my Danforth Genealogy blog. Really haven’t done much else except binge watch Midsommer Murders on Netflix.

 

24 March 2018 Saturday

I went with Charles Bigo and Richard Harmston to John Coopers graveside service in Logan... it was foggy going through Sardine Canyon... the service was provided by a veteran group from Hyrum with a flag folding ceremony, three rounds of gun salute, and the playing of taps... I had never attended a military service before... very solemn and impressive... all the veterans had to have been in their 70s. It was cold up there with it trying to snow. The flag was given to Wil Mejia and not his blood family, which surprised me. I guess towards the end they were more than just roommates as that John paid off Wil’s mortgage on his little house.. I was glad I went to show a final respect for John. As the rifles Were being fired I thought how ironic to hear gun shots on this of all days being the March For Our Lives against  gun proliferation. We ate up in Logan at this Noodle place. A bowl of chicken noodle soup felt good on such a cool day.

·         Richard P. Butler Shots fired for a GOOD reason. Sorry for your loss.

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·         Bill Poore Military graveside services are nice, my father had one. I remember walking into seeing him in his coffin the first time seeing the flag over his coffin really hit me. It brought it home, he was 100 percent disabled American Vet. Cooper must have served in a special way to get that service. I also think it was very touching that they gave the flag to Wil, that probably would have made me cry.

·         Roland Ron Holmgren If he was in any branch of the military, he was eligible for a military service.

·         Benedgar Williams He was a lieutenant

·         Beau Chaine' I was flown by the family of a 99-year-old Air Force General I had cared for 16 months, to Arlington Cemetery ...It was like something out of the movie, AMERICAN ASSASSIN...The caisson was a horse-drawn carriage with the coffin, followed by a foot band in 17-degree weather...a bagpiper in a purple kilt played pipes from top of the hill...military funerals are a true proper send-off and extremely humbling...Glad to see John got one. He helped so much with the first computer for aardvarks way back at Gingerbread House cafe' the predecessor to aardvarks....thanks, John, I salute you...

·         Terrie Williams Very touching. I too have witnessed a full military funeral. It is humbling and honoring and tearful. When my dad was buried, at graveside service they had a flag on his coffin and played taps. Those that give this service are dedicated And my hats are off to them. The folding of the flag is a ceremony in itself. A final send off. Glad you were able to attend and have your own goodbye.

·         Stephen Bolinder Had a military funeral for my grandfather. Felt like daggers in my heart with each gun shot. We also had bag pipes. Such an awesome sight, the military funeral.

·         Douglas Webb Wow, sounds respectful

 

25 March 2018 Sunday

Had a nice afternoon watching the play “Straight” at the Sorensen Center in Glendale. I went with Mike Romero, and met Alan Anderson, TJ Otaka, and Jim McMullin there. Kyle Daniels was in St. George... the theater was a packed house but I have ambivalent feelings about the play but then I am an old Gay Libber. The “bisexual” leaves his Gay lover to marry a woman. We all then went out to Chubby’s a Mexican restaurant by my house for dinner. It was fun visiting and I had a chili Verde smothered enchilada. Jon Michaels was there having dinner too so it was nice to see him. Jim and TJ followed me back to the house because I wanted to give them the ham that Bill Poore gave me for Christmas for next week’s Easter dinner. I said I’d make my carrot cake everyone seems to like so well. I also gave them my air fryer as I decided I didn’t see the advantage of it. it's been snowing all afternoon and kind of a blizzard but roads are good. It’s a hot coco with marshmallow evening

·         Douglas Webb That’s what I’m drinkin’

·         Kevin Scott Surely you remembered the peppermint schnapps, right? And for extra fun some creme de cacao topped with whipped cream?

 

26 March 2018 Monday

All that anyone is talking about is the 60 Minutes interview of Trump and his prostitute. What a sad day in America. I went to the Dog Park to make appointments to have Buddy and Harleigh groomed. Buddy will go in on Wednesday and Harleigh on Friday. I made some banana bread

 

27 March 2018 Tuesday

I got a phone call that Kyle’s glasses were in and I guess they will mail them out so he should get them this week

28 March 2018 Wednesday

I took Buddy in to the groomers today. He needed a good haircut. It cost $60 after leaving a tip. Chevy used to only charge $40. I guess I am paying for convenience. He is getting so thin. I am kind of worried about it but he eats well but mostly sleeps. Both Lulu Belle and Harleigh insisted on walks and it was chilly this morning. Dampness in the air I suppose. I bought another spiral cut ham at Lucky’s Market today for $6. I couldn’t pass up the deal. Worked on the Thomas Bassell Danforth history today especially on uncle Elihu Luce of Dickens County. Then settled in to watch some more of Midsommer Murders.

 

29 March 2018 Thursday

Another day of sitting at the computer doing research on the family of Thomas Bassell Danforth. Keeps the old noggin lucid I suppose. Jim McMullin left me a message. He just found out that I gave him a turkey instead of ham, lol... I let them know that I have a spiral cut ham... and will  drop it off Saturday as I am going out to the prison in the morning.... I bought it at Lucky’s the other day because it was on sale and such a deal, I guess I should look in the grocery sacks I throw in the freezer. I guess I should have looked but Bill Poore said he had given me a ham at Christmas and I never took it out of the grocery sack to look.

 

30 March 2018 Friday

I think this is the earliest I ever had to mow my lawns. The front and especially the back needed mowing. I moved some paving stepping stones to my front gate and placed them securely so no pup would ever be able to dig under the gate like TJ use to do a few years ago. Cleaning out flower beds too. Feels good to be grubbing again after a long if mild winter. I took Harleigh in to get his hair cut today. Another $60. But he’s worth it.

 

31 March 2018 Saturday

So this is the last of March already. It’s my Grandma Williams birthday too. The weather is pretty. March came in like a lion and did go out like a lamb. Making a carrot cake for Easter tomorrow... Then I went down to see Kyle Foote in the state pen. He said he just got his new transitional lens glasses last night in the post so he was wearing them and was super proud of them. ... they look sharp on him... he sat back-to-back with Craig Crawford who had two gay guys visiting him... just Gays and some women visiting today... It kind of weirded me out when I left Craig and he said “goodbye Ben”...I've never met him so Kyle must have told him about me... never had a murderer say hi to me before that I know of... I then dropped a ham off to TJ and Jim to replace the Turkey Breast that I had given them. Rich Butler then dropped Sophie and Miley off for the week. Surprising Darren Solomon dropped by at the same time. He isn’t in the best of health and looked pretty shot. With Coco I will have nine pups next week.

·         Bill Poore-I love this, so your future roomie is sitting around with convicted killers exchanging stories on how to get over on old gay men.....Maybe you can start visiting Craig as well. I am laughing as I type this but Ben you have to remember what Kyle has will not go away..  I have worked in this area for years; I have known many Kyles and know how easy it is to fall in love with them. I love you and just want you to remain realistic with who  you are dealing with....I mean really Craig said goodbye. that is scary. I like Richard’s dogs; they don't bother me. Have fun tomorrow.

·         Benedgar Williams You gave me a turkey breast LOL... I never took it out of the grocery sack last Christmas and gave the sack to TJ and Jim when they got home found it was a Turkey Breast LOL... Never fear we have a spiral cut ham for Easter

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