Fall 4th Quarter 2025 October - December

 

OCTOBER

1 October 2025 Wednesday

Well it took me a week to finish my fence that Kyle started 3 years ago but left it just rocks and chicken wire to contain the pups. Well he's gone so it was up to me to complete it.  I also planted 4 fruit trees. I am not going to plant grass anymore. I might put a patch of clover. This October I moved into this house in 1996. Lots of memories.

My great grandpa Danforth  was a master carpenter and built the Earth Hotel, Grandpa Williams  helped build the Portales High School, dad could do masonry as well as carpentry... their little Gay descendant must have a tiny fraction of their DNA in me to build me a fence and a gate all by my lonesome. Jesus was a carpenter too. Sorry  for all the cussing and blasphemy said during its construction. I had to add a little festive touch as I am Gay after all

I am on Face Book probation because I responded to pictures of Nazis in New Hampshire with a historic poster of German Nazis ... I guessed better stick to puppy pictures

Yesterday was Brayan 9th birthday. Last year he was Locked up near Brownsville Texas with his older brother in a detention facility after being detained from his grandmother while his mother lived with me frantic that they would be deported back to Columbia where they had no care takers.

Eventually Brayan and Gabe were released and rejoined his mother and grandmother to come live with me. We took a chance at bringing Adrian's family while President Biden was in office knowing all would be futile if Harris lost to Trump.

 Today he's in 3rd grade at NorthStar, Gabe is working with a permit and they live with their mother in their own place. Grandma still lives with me, Adrian, and Chuito who is disabled as well as Adrian's brother's family now.

I am so glad that I am a person who tried to help immigrants rather than the masked thugs who kidnap families and incarcerates them.

Yes it seems weird at times not knowing Spanish but then my pups communicate with me without them speaking English. Love transcends speech anyway.

I do have something to say to the Latino haters CHINGA TU MAGA!!!!

 

2 October 2025 Thursday

Michael Romero called me to say he put Coco down today because she collapsed yesterday and couldn’t get up. He adopted her back in 2008 when she about a year old so she was be17 and 18 years old. She was a brown schnauzer which while pure bred brown isn’t recognized for papers. She was so small and when they clipped her ears one never would stay up but laid down. They clipped her tail too short also. Until Mike retired he would bring Coco every work day for me to babysit and for her to be with the rest of the crew.

Her last years she developed a huge tumor on her back side that grew nearly a third of her body. She was also nearly blind but would go camping with Mike.

My house was like Cocos second home so i am grieving also. Last November I lost Lulubelle and Maxx but I had TJ and Taco who needed me. Mike will be going home to an empty house. That is the hardest thing of all. Lying down Jack is pawing at me to move over so he can lay by myside. It’s a sad day at the House of the Barking Dogs

Facebook removed the restriction from my account admitting they made a mistake.  So that is an improvement as before you couldn't challenge their decisions. So if you get a warning contest it as they know their algorithm does not understand nuances or humor.

 

3 October 2025 Friday

You can call me ornery, cantankerous, and opinionated but you can't call me lazy. Just tired at times. I worked in the back yard doing some clean up and Carlos Behana next door said I could throw items into his trash trailer he’s taking to the dump so I did. I also told him that he could park the trailer over on the southside of the property on the concrete pad I will never use. Later in the day he brought over a dozen eggs from his chickens which was thoughtful of him.

                When I tried calling Mike Romero I had a message that the number wouldn’t connect but when I called Adrian the phone worked. It just wouldn’t let me contact Mike. So I drove over to Hodges Lane and he had just come in from going to Lees Market to get some fritters. His phone was working but when he called me and I tried to answer my phone would disconnect so we went to Total where I had the kid there find out what was wrong. Evidently I had a virus in my phone. Never knew you could get a virus in your phone. Anyway he fixed the problem and after taking TJ back home we went to Chubby’s for a late lunch. We needed to visit about the loss of Coco and how Mike was holding up. We both ordered smothered Chili verde burritos and I bought our lunch. Mike seems to taking Coco’s absence in stride and I think he  is also a little bit relieved as towards the end his only life was taking care of her needs. Her remains will be ready on Monday.

                Back at the house someone came and picked up all the tile setters that were left over from Kyle and I laying tile this summer. I tried selling them on Facebook market place for $10 but ended up just giving them away.

                Yolanda and Adrian went to work this evening and I took my queen size comforter to the laundry to wash rather than try to do it at home. It’s not worth perhaps wearing out the washer for the $4 its costs in quarters at the laundry mat.

                It was a very cool day and it was after 7 before I could walk the pups. It was twilight out already. TJ didn’t eat any supper so I wonder if his tummy is upset as yesterday he was throwing up phlegm.

                Well it’s been two months now since I realized that Kyle had abandoned us.  Things don’t seem so desperate but may be living in a fool’s paradise.

Patricia Routledge, TV's Hyacinth Bucket (Bouquet) and a Tony Award Winner, Died at 96. Jane Goodall had died on October 1^st. She was 91.

 

4 October 2025 Saturday

When the Saints meet the heavens weep so they say...lots of soggy sinners as well as it had rained all night with lightning and thunder it and has been raining all day. I can't even walk the pups. I think it's the most rain we had all year in one day. So far, an inch and a third this morning. So I made onion soup, lentil soup, pot of beans, corn bread, and zucchini bread. Also baked a Marie Callendar razzleberry pie. I am not hungry just bored and it's 47 outside

                Yolanda went into work so I drove her into town as everyone else was at work themselves.

It's been raining all day and not far from where I live by 1900 West and 900 North homes are flooding from the backup canal. I did notice water seeping into the  garage from the stairs leading outside because the little floor drain can’t keep up. So far almost 2.5  inches out here by the airport

“Incredible rainfall amounts from our storm system today...and lake effect (enhanced) showers remain forecast through the evening for the northern Wasatch Front. The airport has received 2.40" of rain so far today, the second most precipitation ever recorded in one day. The all-time wettest day was back in May of 1901...looks like we could make a run for it with showers still possible through the evening.”

Today is Mormon October General Conference weekend. Sure to be a gab fest over the virtues of Russell Nelson and how Heavenly Father loves everyone except Gays and Trans. The Mormon Church and other right wing religious organizations filed a brief with the Supreme Court against transgender protections.  I am old enough to remember when Blacks were the pariah before Gays and now Trans.

With lawyer Dallin Oaks as prophet lying for the Lord "justice" will prevail over "mercy" in their revelations. I prefer the Royal Law of Jesus who said to love one another as yourself.

 

5 October 2025 Sunday

Such a pretty day after the deluge yesterday. The ground was perfect for  doing  yard work. I went to Lowes this morning right after taking the pups for a walk.  I wanted to  spread white  clover seeds all over the back yard rather than grass seeds. Clover is drought resistance and doesn’t require mowing. Plus the bees will like it. The ground was still saturated so I hope the seeds will sprout.

Then I  stacked all the fencing boards left over after throwing them over the fence on to the concrete pad and that was a chore so I am beat. So I took a little nap

Adrian went off to work  and Gabriel came by to see his grandma before Argenis took her to work at Bodega. I then went outside and took out most of the spent sunflowers bushes,  replanted other plants, and weeded. I spent about 7 hours in the yard today as the ground was perfect for weeding.

My final task was replacing my raggedy rainbow flag with an official Salt Lake City rainbow flag courtesy of Alejandro Puy . It has the city symbol on it and the colors are inclusive of the LGBT. It’s the first time I ever flew anything but the traditional rainbow flag. I also rehung my American flag upside down as a sign of distress. I wonder if anyone will notice.

Rich Butler wrote me “We will be in Salt Lake Sunday Oct.19th and Monday the 20^th.” I'll come by in the afternoon on Monday to figure out how to load and take the BBQ. Hope it's not snowing that day,  lol

Also I notice I hadn’t seen any post from my cousin Stephanie in a while so I contacted her to see what is going on. I can’t seem to add heron Facebook.

 

6 October 2025 Monday

What a day. I sent Detective Lewis an email to find out what is going on with the work truck but I never heard back from him today. After working posting material on my Facebook history page I went to the garage to start the Fit and the battery wouldn’t turn over. I was going to go with Mike Romero to go pick up Coco’s cremains so I called Mike and he came over to put a charge on the battery.

                So I went with him to McDougals down around 4300 South and  Redwood. I think it was the place that Darrell Webbers  viewing was held back in 1988 after he was murdered. The place was lovely and very observant of Mike’s grief. He had a little carved box to hold her ashes as well as paw cast, clippings of her fur, and a pennant that would hold some of her ashes.

                Coming back to his place we stopped at Lee’s Market on 4^th West and 3^rd North because Mike had never been inside and I showed him where the  parking was. Inside I was surprised that a neighbor named Jenny who lived on Niles was working there and we stopped and had a visit and gossiped a bit about the Reliance Neighborhood. She has lived her as long as I have and an original owner. She was married to a Polynesian man named  Andy that both Mike and I knew but they had divorced a few years back I guess. She lives next door the a Asian lady who is an original owner also named Margaret.  I never knew her name and her veteran husband died shortly after moving in back around 1997. She is the neighbor who walked by our house  once and described our place as the House of the barking Dogs which became the name I gave our house. LOL

                Any way we went back to Hodges lane and watched an Agatha Raisin episode which was fun before taking me back to the house at 2:30.  I was disappointed that the battery didn’t take a charge but Mike gave it a boost and after he left I drove the FIT up to Farmington and back to charge the battery. I stopped back at Mike’s and the car started back up again so hopefully it will keep a charge. I do have AAA in case I get stuck somewhere.   So it was kind of a wasted day.

                I was home by myself as evidently Yolanda went into work as well as Adrian. I suggested to Adrian that his brother could pay rent in two parts if it helps him as they are just getting settled.

                After going to bed, I was surprised when Milagros came over to hand me some money and something else to give to Leidimar Munoz downstairs. I don’t know why she didn’t herself so I knocked on their door and gave it to Argenis. I have no idea what that was all about.

                Stephanie Williams finally was back on Facebook with me as she said somehow I was in her block list. Strange but all is well now. My cousin Kay Johnson’s birthday is today.  She is the last of that side of the family of my cousins.

                I also saw an email that the ski boots were sold so I guess if the car is working I will go to Lone Pine and pick up a check.

 

7 October 2025 Tuesday

If the FIT is running I should have a busy morning. I need to go to BIG O tires and have them check the low tire engine light  that came on yesterday, then to DI just to look around and then to Lone Pine to pick up a check. I also need to make a grooming appointment for Lucy and Jack as well as nail clipping for TJ and Taco.

                Well I accomplished most of what I needed to do so that is good.  It’s a much cooler day only in the 60’s. I went to Big O to have the tires checked and they were find but the low tire light is still on. OH Well I also had them check the battery and they found that a cell in the battery had gone out and the life of the battery was poor but would work to start the car until it just gives out like the other day.  So I contacted Michale Romero and he said that what they said was correct but they wanted $225 for a battery plus labor and Michael thought that was excessive and he would check around for me. I then went to  Lone Pine  Gear and picked up a check for $175 for the boots and ski poles. Well that will go towards getting a battery I suppose.

                I then went to Glendale Deseret Industries and found a wooden sign to replace the one the rains ruined.  It  said Well Behaved Women Rarely Make History LOL. Funny that I found that at DI which shut down at 11:30 this morning for Russell Nelson’s funeral.

                In the afternoon I drove to Walmart in Centerville to buy a battery because they install them for free however They didn’t have one for the FIT. So I came back home and called Triple A and bought a battery through them.  I was surprised how quickly the guy came to the house.   Cute kid from Tooele.  He said that he had to pull a brand new pickup truck some kid got stuck in the Flood out there last Saturday. Anyway he happened to have the right battery for the FIT and I was surprised to find out that the FIT has its own special battery  and that  is why most places don’t carry it.   I decided to go ahead and buy a new battery rather than get stuck somewhere. That was $220 so there went the Ski boot money.

                After that I called Pet Smart and made an appointment for have Lucy groomed tomorrow and TJ have his nails cut at 9:30.  I made an appointment for Jack and Taco on Thursday at the same time.

                Adrian and Yolanda went grocery shopping and I had to let them know that anything I have in the house they can use as we are now a family.

                Detective Lewis finally messaged me back and said that he had turned the case about the truck over to the Lawyers for their perusal and I might hear something this week. Also in the mail I saw that Kyle has been dealing with some bank in Kalispell Montana of all places.

                The sunset a few minutes before  7 this evening so we are heading into the dark times. If we were on standard time it would already be dark at 6.

You can never go home again. This is my childhood home at 11562 Dale Street in Garden Grove, California  that mom and dad bought for $8500 in 1954.  When mom and dad sold it in 1989 i think they got $35,000 for it.  It sold in 2017 for $550,000 and today its valued at $950,000 or more.

 It was a starter home when mom and dad bought it back in November 1954...it was a light beige stucco home with a red roof and dad built a pink masonry wall around the back yard. They land scaped the backyard with a Chinese elm, rose bushes,  and oleander bushes  all gone now. The Vietnamese Ho family who live there now aren't much of a yard people evidently.

 The house was remodeled to make the old dining room, kitchen and front bedroom and living room all one big room. They put wood floors all through the house, even my old bedroom...

The house seemed so much bigger when I was a child .

I must have been skinny teenager back then  to sneak out that small bedroom window so many years ago when the older neighbor boy who wanted to have  sex would throw pebbles at my window at night to come out and play. Back then the space between our houses was open space between out bedroom windows however now looks like  a wall was built  between the Casas who were our neighbors.

 

 

8 October 2025 Wednesday

I took Lucy in to PetSmart for her grooming as well as TJ to have his nails cut. He screamed as he always does but I was so impressed with how sweet the gals were with him.

                Back at the house I mowed the front yard and did some much needed weeding. I saw that my water bill due tomorrow  is for $160. That’s almost a $100 more than it used to be, No wonder so many people are letting their yards go to pot.

                I called the city to find out when the trash people were coming to haul the pool away  thinking it was today and found out it was yesterday. I never received a notice as they said they don’t and I forgot to write it down evidently . They wouldn’t come out again until the 23^rd so I made sure I wrote it down this time. So I did clean up a bit by removal all the metal poles and stacking them in the parking strip and the wire mesh used to contain the rocks for the retaining wall.  What a bizarre idea that was of Kyle’s to level  the back yard and fill  it in with piles of dirt. What a fool I was for Kyle.

                Anyway I worked a bit cleaning weeds from the driveway and waited for Pet Smart to come get Lucy which I did around 2:20.  I decided to start posting items on Facebook’s Market place again and I sold the tamper Kyle had bought almost immediately for $15. I will list a couple a day I suppose and see what sells.

                When Adrian came back from shopping with his mother I could tell he was emotional so I had him sit and tell me what is wrong. Where he had gone made him think of Kyle and so I sat with him and hugged him while he wept some. I said I know too how hard it is to love someone who is not around anymore. He was emotional because Kyle’s birthday is this month and Adrian’s is next month  and all the holidays coming up without Kyle being here. I said I think Kyle has a split personality., a good one that we love and a bad one that does a lot of harm.  Maybe everyone one does or perhaps Kyle has so much self-hatred that he has to sabotage any happiness he finds along the way.   I told him that the good Kyle probably thinks about us and misses us but the bad Kyle not so much.

                Gabriel Perchas came over this evening to visit with his Grandma. I really like that boy of all of Adrian’s nephews and nieces. He is a good kid. Now that it gets dark so soon and he had walked over, I told Gabriel   that I didn’t want him walking home in the dark and so I took him home. I also stopped at Smith’s to buy some more cokes since we were almost out and they were still on sale.

                I didn’t get a nap today so went to bed kind of early around 10

 

9 October 2025 Thursday

I had the strangest dream this morning that I was documenting the old Greek and Italian Mercantile building that once existed on 2^nd South 5^th West. It was dilapidated but people were living there and I was telling them about the history of the building and even remarked that it was in block 64. The dream was so  vivid and I woke up after saying I was going home to get a camera to document the place before it was torn down.   Maybe the dream is telling me  I need to preserve my writings on 2^nd South better.

                I took Jack and Taco into Pet smart to get groomed and have Taco’s nails trimmed and then stopped to get gas for $3.14 on 13^th South truck stops when was about 20 cents cheaper than elsewhere.   I was surprised when Pet Smart called to say Jack was done at noon so I went back down to get him and was surprised that they charged $71 to groom him when it was only $52  to groom Lucy who weighs more and was shaggier. I thought it must be a mistake but they said they groom by breed and had him down as a Yorky mix. That pissed me off because he is not a Yorkie by any means  so I won’t be taking him back there again. It’s not that they didn’t do a good job but if he weighs 20 lbs. I’d be surprised while Lucy weighs at least 40.  

Adrian asked me to take Yolanda into work at the Bodega so was home for much of the evening

I moved into my house 29 years ago today. It was just recently built and I had to do all the landscaping laying sod with the help of Richard P. Butler  but basically everything else, the trees, the bushes, the flowers by myself. I once had a lovely back yard but Kyle had a bug to make the backyard level so out came all the trees and in came piles of rocks in wire cages and tons of dirt. That was a couple of years ago so now after almost 30 years the yard looks barren again. I was 45 back then but now at 74 I threw down some clover seeds, planted 4 fruit trees and built me a fence and called it a day. My pink rose bushes is all that is left from 29 years ago.  Seasons change and so did I You need not wonder why You need not wonder why There's no time left for you No time left for you

A year ago the Villalobos family was reunited after the Johanna’s  boys were held up in ICE detention in Texas. They were released because my home was accepted as residency. Lots of changes here at the House of the Barking Dogs over the past year.

A peace deal is being brokered finally between Hamas and the Israelis in Gaza. You know Trump doesn't give a shit about Gaza he just wants the Nobel Peace Prize. It’s sickening how some Israelis are fawning over him not knowing what a monster he is here at home.

 

10 October 2025 Friday

It rained for much of the night  and I was up in the middle of the night as Yolanda and Adrian were up. I kept hearing this knocking and it turned out to be the wind blowing a Halloween sign against the front door. It was nearly 3 before getting back to sleep but I was up at 6:30 because I had an 8 o’clock appointment with Dr. Stoneburner He gave me an A+ for my blood sugars as my A1c was at 5.8  but for general health an D- because I hadn’t been taking my medicine and my blood pressure was through the roof 165/74. My weight was down to 182 lbs. though. Well I don’t eat any more except for candy so I was surprised my A1c was so low.  While in the office I got my flu shot, my covid shot and a Vitamin B12 shot.  I did tell Dr. Stoneburner that I was more mentally depressed than physically unhealthy as my world had turned topsy turvy and that I am having to adjust to a new reality. I also told him that Kyle had left for Mexico so he won’t be seeing him anymore as a patient.  Stoneburner almost told me some things about Kyle and would have if not for patient confidentially but seemed aware of something about him. Oh well.

Adrian was off work today and when Yolanda went to work he looked after Chuito.  I went and laid with Adrian for  a little bit but other than I did not do anything out of the ordinary

 

11 October 2025 Saturday

Today is National Coming Out Day.  I was up real early around 5 and made some biscuits using the 7-up recipe. I think my sour cream was old because they didn’t taste all that great but were eatable.  It was a windy and fairly nice day as I was surprised  because it was forecast to be a stormy day.

                 The rains are here this evening after a pretty sunny day. We need the rain but Taco is pissed he didn’t get his second walk. Diane Keaton has died at the age of 79

 

12 October 2025 Sunday

I went this morning to dig up some rabbit brush bushes along the road near the sports complex road. They are drought resistant and hopefully after I plant them in the parking strip  on the Southside it they will take off. I thought it would be a good time to plant anything after the rain we had last night.  I also went over to Hodges and dug up some starts from the Russian Sage I planted over there at Mike Romero’s place years ago from my plants so I guess I am bringing some of them home.  I’ve notice that some grass is starting to sprout up in the back yard from all the rain we have had this month.

                Argenis had a warning on his truck not to park so close to the mail box so I showed him how to just move it further down on the curb in front of the house so it doesn’t impede the mail man.

                Adrian and him cleaned he the garage by clearing all of Kyles tools I still had out so Argenis and Luis Alberto could come over and paint Argenis car.  So I had a lot of the Villalobos over today. Milagros wanted to tell me that she and Tutu were hired to work at Little America and she was excited about that. I hope she succeeds.

                Adrian went into work and at 4:30 I took Yolanda into the city to go to work at Bodega. I saw a Rainbow flag outside the place so must be Gay friendly. 

Looks like 9th East and 4th South is soon to change dramatically, the old Village Inn on 9^th East and 4^th South is becoming apartments and Bizmart student housing. This Area was my last stomping grounds before moving to Fernleaf. The first Utah Pride Center and the Utah AIDS Foundation was just  down the street back then

 

13 October 2025 Monday

Adrian had the day off. Today was also Columbus Day, one of 12 federally recognized holidays. Seventeen states and D.C. however commemorate the holiday as  Indigenous people day with some recognizing both. So no mail today and the banks were closed.

                Adrian had a lazy day and so did I. Yolanda went to work  tonight and Chuito went down stairs to be looked after by Leidimar.  Adrian had a gentleman caller over this afternoon but he had a prince albert which was a turn off for him so he sent him a way.  I could tell Adrian needed some attention so I went and laid down with his while he was watching a movie about Pablo Escobar.  I discovered a fun Canadian Show on the Howdy Channel called “Corner Gas.”  It’s an old series that ran from 2004 to 2009 but I really enjoy the dry wit of the show.

The view of Columbus has changed on whether he was an intrepid voyager in an age of discovery or a villain assuring the dominance of European Christendom over indigenous people and cultures around the world.

Columbus was a product of a ruthless time in European  15th Century. In 1453 Constantinople fell to the Islamic Ottoman Empire ending the 1500 years of the last of the Roman Empire. Hundreds of thousands were slaughter, made slaves, or became refugees. The Ottoman Empire swept into Europe and destroyed former Italian trade routes to India and China.

The fall of Constantinople historically ushered in the Renaissance and the Age of Discovery in Western Europe.

In 1492 the kingdom of Spain finally drove the Islamic Moors and Jews from the country. When the crown took a chance on Columbus to discovery new trade routes to the Indies it was one of the most militarized country and Catholic in Europe.

While Columbus never knew what his voyages discovered his ruthless treatment of indigenous people returned him to Spain in chains.

Map maker Amerigo Vespucci actually was first to figure out the lands Columbus had  encountered were a New World to the Europeans  which became known as Americus in Latin. To the indigenous people who had lived here for tens of thousands of years it was simply home.

The image of Columbus was redeemed once the riches of the Americas were exploited but too late for the New World to be named after him.

Still a country was named for him in South America and the capital of the united States is the District of Columbia. Two major cities, Columbus Ohio and Columbia South Carolina is named after his as well as the Columbia River. A famous American national anthem O Columbia Gem of the Ocean is named such because of Columbus.  Even the statue on top of the Salt Lake City government building is named Columbia, the feminine form of the name.

So it is doubtful that name Columbus is going to disappear any time soon whether it's Columbus Day or Indigenous Day.

However life did change in Western Europe and the Americas when the technologically advanced militants of the old world subdued the less technologically warfare advanced people in the "new world"

Little known fact is we have no idea of what Columbus looked like as no portrait was made of him in his life time. The likeness used to portrait him is that of his son.

 

14 October 2025 Tuesday

It rained really hard last night and the lightning and thunder scared Lucy so much she jumped on me for protection. I love the rain we are getting at night and clearing in the day

The news said that the overnight thunderstorms dropped another .67" in Salt Lake City pushing the monthly total to all-time record levels! October 2025 is now the wettest October ever recorded in Salt Lake City weather history, that's over the course of 151 years of record keeping. The wild thing is that we've got more coming.”  It may rain again tonight.

 The rain is really popping up the grass seeds I threw out all over the back side yard.

This  morning Adrian and I had a visit regarding our feelings for Kyle and how we can’t share them with anyone else because we still love him regardless what he is. Pretty sure that  Kyle is sociopathic to some degree.  Later Adrian said he wanted to talk to me saying the ceiling in the shower downstairs was leaking. So he contacted a “friend” of his named Jeremiah who came over around 4:30. He had to cut through the celling to look at the pipes but everything looked fine but what was the problem he  was pretty sure was the upstairs shower that when the guys installed  the tile they didn’t use the right panels to keep it going behind the shower wall so I am looking at a remodel of the shower upstairs ouch.

 

15 October 2025 Wednesday

                I went to the store this morning to buy some stuff to make Lasagna for Adrian. Then

Adrian and I went to Lowes this morning to get the supplies that his friend Jeremiah asked us to get for the remodeling of the shower upstairs. Adrian and I were like innocents abroad in Lowes not knowing where anything was or if we were getting the right stuff. Its times like this that I hate Kyle and miss him at the same time. I guess I will just have to step up because the little I know is more than Adrian does at all.  He had to go into work today so I just took him home after buying a few items. Then I went with Michael Romero who helped me get 5 panels of mortar boards with his truck.

                Then I went to North Star Elementary to pick up Brayan and Jefranny from school. Everyone else is working now.  They stayed at the house until I later took Brayan and Gabriel home at night

                I was able to get all the right stuff but one thing according to Jeremiah so I will have to return it tomorrow and get the right mortar board sealer.  I absolutely hate construction and not knowing if I am getting the right material. I was just Kyles helper, not an apprentice. Oh well other folks have worse issues to deal with.

                Jeremiah came over around 5:30 and tore the tile off the shower walls.

Evidently the crew that Kyle had hired to tile my shower did not put a water proof mortar board  behind the tile and water began pooling in the wall and dripping through the shower ceiling downstairs. We caught it intime before mold or the studs needed replacing but it’s always something.

                Jeremiah who demolition the tile with Gabriel’s help and we will redo it right this time.  I only had my remodeled shower by Kyle’s Build Team not quite 4 years,  now it’s a memory.

                Denise Wachs sent me a message that her partner Heidi died today from her cancer

 

16 October 2025 Thursday

Adrian and I went out looking for shower panels at Lowes and Home Depot but Adrian was up so late this morning that we didn’t really get to look around at Floor and Décor.  So I took him home so he could rest before going into work and I went to Floor and Décor myself. The panels that Jeremiah suggested were called Pannello but at Home and Décor they said only the store in Riverdale near Ogden had them and they hadn’t been unloaded yet as they just came in. They were the only store in Utah that had them.

                The kids were off today for UEA weekend and I took Yolanda in to work at Bodega downtown.  I am kind of in a daze right now.  I don’t mind not showering for a few days just concerned about the expense and time it will take.

It rained again last night and so far this month we have had 5.17  inches which has broken a record and we may get more before the month is over. It sure has helped the clover seeds that I spread all over the back yard a few weeks ago.

                Taco isn’t feeling well I think because he didn’t eat his supper and he had diarrhea when I walked him.

 

17 October 2025 Friday

Today is Kyle’s 46^th birthday wherever he is. I know Adrian is probably taking it harder than me. I have resigned to have Kyle just a memory, like Billy Bikowski, and John Cunningham.

                I sent an email to detective Larry Lewis about the truck and he said “We are waiting for the prosecutor to file the charges. Once the charges are filed the DMV will reverse it. It should be sometime next week.”

                Jeremiah came over around noon to install the mortar board in the shower and worked until about 4. Adrian and I wanted a Pannello Paneling for the shower but when I called Floor and Décor they said while they had it they couldn’t sell it yet because it wasn’t in their system. That was frustrating as I could not locate a store in Utah that had anything similar so I went on line. Amazon had something that would work the dimensions of my shower and so when I went to order it I couldn’t get into my account because they blocked it.  So I had Mike Romero come over and had him order it on his account to be delivered Monday on my address. It was about $980 and I had the money thank goodness and when Argenis pays this month rent that should about pay for it.

                Both Yolanda and Adrian went to work this evening so except for those down stairs I had the house to myself. I never got in a nap so I went to bed early.

                Adrian and I never spoke a word about Kyle today

 

18 October 2025 Saturday

Today is the No Kings Rally that the Republicans are calling Hate America Rally when really we just hate them.  Jeremiah came over about 9 this morning to clean up some of the mortar boards and seal them. I guess he won’t be back until Monday when the panels arrive.  I made Spinach soup with the left over spinach from the lasagna and while it was tasty I doubt whether anyone else will eat any of it.

                I was alone again this evening and watched a lot of a Canadian comedy series called Corner gas before going to bed.

                I am kind of world weary right now from the fascism in this country and not having much of a presence anymore. Sometimes I feel isolated with living with people most whom a year ago were strangers to me as they are all Adrian’s family and I don’t have any real connection to them culturally or linguistically. It just seems strange not having Kyle here who was the reason they all are here.  Strange times.

 

19 October 2025 Sunday

I spent much of the morning typing up the life story of Mahala Matthews Thomas whose mother was one of the original lot owners in Block 63. I am going to compile stories of women who had some dealing with Second South back in the day.

It was kind of a windy day this morning but since Rich Butler is coming over tomorrow to retrieve the two BBQ grills I thought I better clean them since they had been sitting out in the rain and were getting a bit rusty besides not having been cleaned since they were last used.  The weather was nice for it and Adrian wanted to clean the Hot Tub so I showed him were the drain was and how to do it,

                I cleaned the two BBQs the best I could for Rich and then just kind of hung out. I had a bit of mild diarrhea also that made it a bit uncomfortable since the bath room is all torn up.

Adrian was on a cleaning kick today and he cleaned the veranda and the outside wall. He was cute this morning because Alexandro Puy left him a card with a chain necklace in it and Adrian said he had two boys “in love” with him

I had to take Yolanda into town for her to get to work at Bodega and while traffic wasn’t bad the ones out were driving like idiots. I was glad to be back home.

                Adrian was horny and wanted me to suck him off which of course I obliged. Young men have their needs.

                I spent the rest of the evening watching Corner Gas lying on the couch surrounded by my pups.  I have a very strange life.

The Trump Regime literally has bombs bursting in air over America. It’s not what the national anthem meant. If MAGA cultist still support Trump they are guilty of aiding and abetting treason. 

There was not one arrest among the 7 million peacefully protestors but at least 20 MAGA terrorists were arrested wanting to kill protestors.

And Trump the having the mentality of a 9 year old posted a AI of him flying a fighter jet and shitting all over Americans exercising their constitutional rights.

At this point it's no longer a matter of political differences it about whether we want to live in a democracy or an oligarchy of billionaires. 

Just remember how Republicans refused to impeach Trump twice and consented to his entire cabinet of fascists and to the trump appointed Judges to the Supreme Court who blazingly lied to Congress that Roe vs Wade was a set precedence.

Now back to our regular program.

 

20 October 2025 Monday

It rained last night and I woke up with Adrian coming in around 3:30 this morning from some adventure. Later he told me that Alejandro Puy wanted to meet him and tell him how much he loves him.

 I managed to go back to sleep but at 7:30 I was up to start the day and walk the pups. It was brisk out and damp from the rain last night and more and more of the neighborhood trees are turning color and losing their leaves,

 The bathroom panels were delivered around 11 this morning which surprised me and thankfully they were not damaged at all. So I texted   Jeremiah that they had arrived.

                Rich Butler came over around 3 and stayed until 4:30 visiting. He came over to look at the BBQs but only took the Cuisinart propane one. We had a nice visit but as usual Rich gabbed the whole time about people I don’t know but I didn’t mind as he has always been a good friend to me.

                About the time Rich left. Jeremiah arrived to start planning how to install the panels. He stayed until nearly 9 and while he was here I decided I wanted something to eat but didn’t  know what.

I first went to Little Caesars thinking about getting a Pizza We could share but while I was the only one in the establishment and workers in the back who could clearly see a customer, no one bother to come wait on me. After about 5 minutes of being ignored I left and went to the Chinese place where I ordered a sweet and sour pork combo dinner. Even there it was frustrating as  I really just wanted was the egg roll that came with it and I was told after ordering and paying for it that they were out of egg rolls. However they finally managed to find one after I put up a fuss.

                Only the Mexican Bakery where I bought some cookies for home had decent service. I did stop to get a drink at Common Cents. I think I just needed to be out.

                I had a minor epiphany while driving around,  that I was glad that Kyle is gone. Not that I was angry or anything but just somehow felt relieved. Since I have known him, I had let him control my emotions and actions and he had me  work so hard in all his projects no matter how exhausted I was physically as well as mentally.  His personality drained me.  In some ways I actually feel a burden has been lifted, one that I know I actually placed on myself because of my devotion and dependence on him.  Strange, a life without Kyle

 

21 October 2025 Tuesday

I wrote on Facebook without mentioning Kyle’s name “Did  you ever have someone in your life, you thought you could not live without or imagine life without them in it, but after they leave you suddenly feel relief? It's almost like a spell has been broken and you are waking up to a new reality.

Life is weird, to be sad and relieved at the same time.   Life is full of chapters, beginnings and endings with people coming and going.

I suppose it’s time for me to start a new chapter until I get to the ending of the crazy book.

Sometimes I think a long life is a curse as well as a blessing but as they said in my youth Keep on Trucking

                Adrian left the house early to go have breakfast with Alejandro Puy and later had to go into work. Before he left he helped me drag one of the trash cans to the curb because it was filled with tile debris from the shower demolition and it was too heavy for me. 

                Adrian said that Jeremiah won’t be back until Thursday because of his grandma’s funeral so I guess no shower until then.

                Yolanda didn’t have to work today and Adrian gave me $500 for Argenis partial rent which I took to America First to deposit it in checking. I have about $700 to pay Utah First for the FIT and the Ford Truck probably this week.

                I went to bed rather early as I was tired out. I think it’s just hibernation season as its getting dark after 7 now. TJ was super animated in bed wanting to play and lick me more than usual. That was unusual for him. Almost like a puppy.

                The news is so depressing that it’s hard to write about it let alone think about it. Trump is having part of the East Wing of the White House destroyed so he can build a $250 million ball room turning the people’s House into a Palace.

 

22 October 2025 Wednesday

Today is both Denise and my grandpa Williams’ birthday. I am 20 years older than Denise and grandpa is 49 years older than me.

                I ended up taking Jefranny to school this morning now that both her parents are working. Brayan didn’t go to school today so Johanna didn’t come by. I was up any way so no big deal. However at 2:30 Adrian called me to ask if she was at the house and I said no and he and Yolanda were out shopping so I hurried down to NorthStar but she wasn’t there. I panicked a bit but Adrian called back and said she had walked home. I said they needed to communicate better with me as we are the adults and she is the child. I said I have no problem taking her and picking her up but they had to communicate with me better so I don’t worry

                The trash truck came today and emptied my two garbage cans that were filled to the brim on mainly with tiles and debris from the bathroom that was super heavy and I even had to have Adrian wheel it out yesterday.

                I also put the old funcycle pool and the material that the panels came in out to the curb to be hauled away. I even rolled out 4 of the tires that Kyle had stored here. They must have still had some good tread as someone later took them and so I was able to put out two more.

                Adrian was gone this morning again and when he came home I had him haul the pool liner to the pile as it was way too heavy for me. I had gone to the store to buy some items and when I came home Adrian was back and he dragged the lining over all by himself.

                Adrian said  today was his day off because some people at his work had to make changes so he has to work this weekend instead.  Yesterday Yolanda showed be a  picture of Gabriel getting an award from Newrest for being an excellent employee. I knew he was a good kid.

                Anyway Adrian, Yolanda, and Chuito took off in the afternoon to go shopping and when they returned they had all this decorations they bought for Christmas.  I guess Yolanda loves Christmas as much as Adrian so they bought a whole lot of icicle lights that Adrian spent the later afternoon stringing along the eaves of the house.  Jefranny was outside being his helper and Yolanda watching.  Jefranny is just  little chatter box.

                It was a beautiful late afternoon fall with leaves changing and I cut some roses for Yolanda that she admired.  After it was all done and Adrian was waiting for the sun to go down to admire a Christmas lightshow he bought to display on the front of the house I opened a bottle of wine and the three of us sat in the drive way.

                Adrian said he had just begun to decorate but I said after 1 November they can just go crazy but we have to get through Halloween first LOL.   So this my new life at 74 and a half years old.

 

23 October 2025 Thursday

I took Jefranny to school this morning and when I came back I walked the pups except for TJ who was sound asleep. While walking saw that the city trash trucks were going through the neighborhood So this morning after all this time the ill-fated funcycle was hauled off to the dump. It was just another ridiculous venture of Kyle.

                Adrian went off to work at 2 and then at 2:30 I went to get Jefranny. I had to take Yolanda into work at 4:30. I do that on Thursday and Sunday. Thursday is a pain because she has to be at work at 5 and that is when all the city traffic is leaving. I can’t use the freeway because its backed up going north  so I just take surface streets.

                Jeremiah Chesley came over before taking Yolanda to finish up the shower. He mainly just had to put the shower doors back on and the hardware for the faucet.  He will need to come back to finish up the ceiling in the shower downstairs and also reattach the shower caddy.

                He said not to use the shower until tomorrow to make sure all the adhesives are dried and firm. I, however, went to Dollar Tree to buy cleaning supplies like bleach and such and I spent the evening scrubbing the shower pan which was kind of grimy now that the shower is white and not beige as before.  I also used lime away to try and get off some of the hard water spots. Kyle never did fix the soft water that was leaking and so we just shut it down.

 

24 October 2025 Friday

I didn’t wake up until 7 after being up several times to pee and waking up after midnight when Yolanda and Adrian came home from work.  Anyway I started my day knowing I’d have to take Jefranny to school. When I was taking my clothes out of the dryer, Alexandro Puy came out of Adrian’s room to head home. Well, well. Someone got some nookie last night. I sent an email to detective Larry Lewis also about the Ford Truck as I still haven’t heard anything about the title.  He wrote back that  “They are working on reversing everything today. The title will be sent to the lien holder, Utah First Federal Credit Union. I will send you an email when it has been completed.”

                I took Jefranny to school this morning and went back to pick her up at 1:30. I saw Brayan there and then asked Jesus if he wanted me to pick Bryan up when I get Jefranny but he was non-committal about it saying that he could so I just let it drop.

                Before going to NorthStar I went to Lowes to return an item that Jeremiah didn’t use which was $57 that was put back on my card. Other than walking the pups that was my day mostly. I love walking the pups this time of year with all the fallen leaves on the ground. They run through them making crunching noises and having a blast. Summer is too hot. Winter is too cold. Spring doesn't have enough to sniff. Fall is just perfect.

                I was home upstairs alone for the evening although I could hear the Villalobos downstairs so I wasn’t completely alone.

                I haven’t heard from anyone in the Gay community for a while. Michael Aaron posted about his prostate cancer surgery that he’s recovering from and Dan Fahndrich posted that he has a mild stroke.  I heard an aging doctor say that at the age of 75 everything drops off a cliff for seniors physical and mentally.   Well I am almost there.

                Strange that I don’t think of Kyle as often as I did. Like the Gotye song  You’re just someone I used to know.

 

25 October 2025 Saturday

I slept in late today for me nearly 7:30 and in the afternoon I took a two hour nap and went to bed early around 9. I don’t think I am depressed although I am just plain weary of hearing and reading how our country is going to shit because of a megalomaniac shitting all over it. I am feeling my age today or maybe it’s just the seasons changing and the weather turning cooler.

                I have been obsessed with writing again compiling information on 12 women from the Rio Grande District.  I have already done most of the major details , just kind of organization it.  Gives my brain something to do.

I am so old I was born before there were ZIP codes and  you called long distance at night because it was cheaper, and you memorized phone numbers or you looked them up in a phone book. I am so old our first phone was a party line you shared with others.  I am so old that TV dinners came in aluminum trays you baked in the oven and frozen food came in bags you boiled. I am so old that going to the library was an adventure. I am so old that our cars didn’t have seat belts, had carburetor, and you rode in the bed of the truck because the front seat was for adults. Our drinking  water outside  came from a hose and not a plastic bottle and you could make money returning glass soda pop bottles to the store for cash. Bought a lot of 10 cent comic books with returning bottles for 2 cents which was the cost of a tootsie roll pop.  I am so old I was taught to use a slide rule and a typewriter.  I guess I am just plain old but still smart enough to never vote Republican, the enemy of working people.

 

26 October 2025 Sunday

I slept like a pretzel for some of the night with Lucy and TJ up by my head, Jack curled in-between my legs and Taco down by my feet.  I woke up around 4 and went back to sleep around 5 and it was almost 8 when I was up to fix breakfast. I walked the pups around 9:30 as it is supposed to rain after 10 o’clock. The sidewalks are covered with scattered leaves. Very fall like with the hues of yellow, orange, and browns with tinges of red.

I made beef stew because it was supposed to rain today but except for a light mist, nothing. I took Yolanda into work. Earlier she was weeping and I asked Adrian why and he said because she was missing Kyle. That nearly broke my heart again.  He left the people who loved him because he is maladjusted. I am glad he left because I never would have had the heart to tell him to leave.

My antifa profile was flag by Facebook as having "issues" and "Account restrictions affect everything you manage, including your profiles, Pages and groups."

Adrian also had to work today so I spent the evening watching some TV and also It’s the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown. It’s not Halloween without it.

                My days seem diminished without Kyle but I am also enjoying being home and not stressed out all the time.

 

27 October 2025 Monday

It rained last night and some this morning but cleared up in the afternoon. My days these days are made up of taking Jefranny to school and picking her up. I had to take Brayan home to the house also. Funny how I am still connected with elementary school kids after retiring 10 years ago.

                Yolanda went off to work but Adrian had the day off and lounged around in bed for much of the day. Good for him.  This afternoon however he must have been horny as he wanted me to suck him off again. I never initiate it but if he wants me to I won’t refuse him. I remember what it’s like to be young and have lustful needs.

                In the evening he took Chuito over to his sister Johanna’s apartment and was gone for the rest of the evening and night.

It ain't Halloween without watching Abbott and Costello Meet Frankenstein so I put it in the CD player to watch but instead just ended up in bed with the pups reading Facebook posts... yesterday I watched  the Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown.

 

28 October 2025 Tuesday

I went downstairs to make sure Jefranny was getting ready for school as Yolanda was sleeping in. I am glad I did because she hadn’t gotten ready and we were late a bit when I took her off to school.

I finally watched Abbott & Costello Meet Frankenstein before going to bed.

                Three years ago today  I was down at Club Verse volunteering "community service" helping to get the place opened by building a stage, dressing room, a VIP booth, and  painting.

  It was  where Adrian came into our lives. Since then the owners Riley had a stroke and Micheal passed away.

Club Verse closed and it's now a Latino bar. Gay Clubs come and go now it seems. I wonder if any of the hard work i did even exists anymore or was just torn out. I guess it doesn't matter.

Adrian is still with me and now his family. Nothing is as constant as change. It's what makes for an interesting story.

 

29 October 2025 Wednesday

I went down to the Barber School in Midvale early this morning to get a haircut and beard trim. No sense looking scraggly. I stopped and got some gas which was at $3.16 which has come down about 20 cents so I save a buck or two.

                Coming back I stopped at Lucky’s as they were having a great produce sale where lots of items were 10 cents, 25 cents and 50 cents. A 5 pound bag of potatoes was 50 cents so I bought 2 bags. Also they had 12 packs of pop but 2 get 2 free so I bought some also because the gang goes through pop here.

                Yolanda was off from work today. She spent the night at Johanna’s with Chuito. Adrian went to a haunted Halloween house and so slept in really late.

                Most of the leaves have fallen now and there’s frost in the morning but in the 50’s during the day.

                Not much I want to write about.  Trump ordered the renewal of nuclear weapon testing. I guess in a 100 years all this insanity won’t matter anymore that the 1920’s prohibition does today. Weird to think my dad was born 100 years ago.

 

30 October 2025 Thursday

Strange how life goes in circles. I retired from being an elementary school teacher 10 years ago and now I find myself dropping off and picking up a 10 year old girl at NorthStar Elementary. Her parents are both working now,  so Abuelo Bencito volunteered to take Adrian's step niece to school in the morning. Life is strange but still glad I can still be useful.

I received some good news from Detective Lewis “The title has been reversed back into your name with your lienholder added. You'll now be able to do what you need to do. Let me know if you have any questions.”  So now I have to figure out a way to sell it as I have never sold a car before.

                I took Yolanda into work early today around 3:30 so I dropped by Mike Romero’s as I hadn’t heard from him in a while. I am glad I did because he was feeling melancholy over Coco and said he was glad I came by.  I wanted to catch up and let him know that the  truck’s title is back in my name.  He said he took a second mortgage out to pay off his HELOC and other debts. He said he thought Kyle had posted on Instagram until under the name Kyle just me or something like that. I told Mike that I actually feel a sense of relief that he’s gone so I don’t have to worry about everything he was up to doing financially and emotionally.  That is a strange feeling.  I will always love Kyle but am becoming indifferent to him.

                Leidimar when she came home she had Tutu with her and they put a twin size mattress and box spring in the garage.  I don’t know where they have room to put it. Oh well.

 

31 October 2025 Friday

Well it’s Halloween and Samhain and the end of the light half of the year and now begins the dark. Even more so when the clocks go  back an hour on Sunday.  I took Jefranny to school early because of her being excited for some party. She was speaking so much Spanish I didn’t have a clue what she was saying except calling me abuelo.

                I asked Adrian before he left for work who was taking Jefranny trick or treating and he was very vague. I knew that  everyone here would be working tonight.  However Leidimar came home around 5 so I thought she would take Jefranny as I was home alone this Halloween, sitting by the door rather than going up and down the stairs. I bought the kind of candy that I like but I thought I might run out as it's a Friday and not a school night but I didn’t.

                It was nearly 7 and trick or treaters were coming as it was dark now and Adrian wouldn’t give me a definite answer about Jefranny and I really didn’t want her to miss out as she was all dressed up. I guess Leidimar was watching Chuito for Yolanda who was at work.  I didn’t know what to do because I wanted to be home to hand out candy but I wanted Jefranny to experience Halloween.  When a bunch of girls came to the door about Jefranny’s age or a little older I told Jefranny she could go but stay with these girls and stay in the neighborhood. I asked the girls to watch out for her as she was new.

                Anyway I was second doubting my decision to let Jefranny go off on her own even though she said she knew how to come home but at night everything can look so different. After about a half an hour she hadn’t come home and Adrian showed up with Johanna, Brayan and Gabriel to go trick or treating. I was kind of pissed as I would have kept Jefranny to go with them if he would have communicated better.  Anyway I said I would go look for her in case she got lost or separated from her group.

                It was really dark out and a rather nice night as many people were sitting outside to hand out candy. In my neighborhood we didn’t have many trick or treaters but over on Morton Drive and by the school there were plenty. While I concentrated on looking for Jefranny it was rather futile but I did get to see more of the decorated houses than I had before.

                Anyway I came back home, hoping for the best and about 8:30 a mother drove up and dropped Jefranny off. I was so relieved. She was loaded down with candy and I thought why bother to rebuke her for not listening to me when I should not have sent her out on her own.  Not long after she was home the rest of the Villalobos crew arrived back at the house and were taking pictures outside. The weather was still quite nice.   Tutu and her friend from around the corner on Niles were in Lorax costumes from Dr. Suess’ books. Adrian had on a purple wig and a robe saying he was Shekira. Gabriel didn’t dress up but Brayan had on his Scream character costume.  I saw a lot of imaginative costumes on kids tonight more than usually and lots and lots of teenagers. I think parents take younger kids to truck or treat events  instead while for adolescents it a lark to be out roaming the streets.

                So after much anxiety over Jefranny all in all it was a special Halloween at the House of the Barking Dogs. All’s well that ends well.

I really hate to see October go because I dread the next three months November, December, and January.  I know they are supposed to be holiday times but I really never have gotten much joy out of them and last year November was a horrible time with Adrian involved with Juan Pablo and Kyle having a melt down over it and me caught in the middle.  A year later both Kyle and Juan Pablo are out of the picture, Adrian has new boyfriends well actually sex partners because he said he isn’t ready to have a relationship again after Kyle and Juan Pablo.

                Eat, Drink, and be Merry as Trump has his finger on the nuclear button.  

Well another Halloween and October is coming to an end so it’s time for this old ghoul to slumber with the hellhounds ... beware of things that go bump in the night

 

NOVEMBER

1 November 2025 Saturday

Yolanda stayed at Johanna’s place last night and Adrian wanted me to suck him off so I did before going to my own bed.  However I had a very restless sleep as I ached with sciatica and couldn’t get comfortable and kept waking up.  The pups all slept well in the bed that I put new sheets on and did some laundry yesterday.

 I worked this morning taking down all the Halloween decorations because I said Adrian and Yolanda could start decorating for Christmas. While they went grocery shopping I dug out my Christmas paraphernalia that I still have as I threw away a lot in the past with Adrian and Kyle fighting. I decorated the railings on the front steps, put out my Christmas Manger and fiberoptic Tree down by the front door. When they came home I think they were surprised how much I had done.  Adrian put up the beautiful wreath, that Yolanda had bought on the front door so Christmas came early this year. I have never been a fan of Christmas but with the mad man in the White House you never know if we will even be around for Christmas.

                Strange how intimate I am becoming with Adrian. He was jacking off in his room after no one was home but me and I went in to blow him. He enjoys it and asked me if  Kyle ever showed me his dick. I said never  but I had pictures from his old computer before he went to prison of him fucking a guy so  I have seen him naked in a video. Adrian said Kyle would never let him do anything with me.

                Adrian also showed me pictures on his phone of Alexandro and Jeremiah and why he likes them both because of their big dicks.  I guess in my old age I get to still be Gay although Kyle never thought of me that way.

                I turned all the analog clocks back before going to bed at 8 but then it was 7 so that was weird.  I called Mike Romero before going to bed to see how his Halloween with the Giles went and I guess down in Daybreak they go all out for Halloween. I told him about my adventure with Jefranny but it all ended well.

                In the news the dictator had a 3.5 million Great Gatsby theme party for his MAGA millionaires with Las Vegas type show girls while SNAP benefits were not released today and the country is still shut down with the military and government workers not being paid. Just his Gestapo agents.

                Michael Arron posted that the SunTrapp bar closed its doors after Halloween for good, The owner was in a dispute with workers who wanted to unionize.  Joe Redburn opened the bar as The Trapp in 1991 as a Levi cowboy bar.  After he sold it, the bar owners always seemed to have trouble with the place.  Riley and Micheal left the Trapp Door to start Club Verse so that is the end of that.

 

2 November 2025 Sunday

Well we are back on Standard time so instead of waking up at 5 I wake up at 4 and try to sleep in but to no avail. The pups don’t care what time it is because they live by their own rules, supper time and walking.

                Alejandro Puy spent the night making love to Adrian as Yolanda spent the night over at Johanna’s place.  I wrote some more on the Metz family of old Salt Lake and also noticed that I was being billed $71 for Google Fiber which I don’t have anymore. So I called the service number to find out what was going on and it seems that when I went with Total I didn’t cancel Google Fiber nor returned their equipment. So I had them cancel my service and I found the equipment to ship back  or I would have had to pay $285 for them.

                It was another really pleasant day in the mid-sixties.  I finally put the for sale signs on the Ford truck. I listed it at $15,000 whether I get it or not I just want it to be gone. I started it up and it cranked right up but noticed it’s on empty so I need to get gas for it because people will want to drive it.

                Adrian was stringing lights around the tree in the parking space and as Argenis was home he was helping him and with gather up leaves and sprucing up the yard.  That was good of them.

                I saw that Argenis was working on his truck using the rachet wrench tool set I was going to sell but I might as well just give them to him if he can use them.

                I took Yolanda into work at 4:30 then stopped in at Lucky’s to get some groceries and notions for the house. It was already twilight at 5:30 and pitch black out by 6:00 so the dark times are upon us now but at least the yard is lit up with Christmas lights.

            Mike Romero told me of a site called Retro movies that I added to Roku and I was so surprised it had so many of my favorite movies like Lion In Winter, Harold and Maud, Phantom of the Paradise and more.  They even had the Killing of Sister George! They are all from 50 years ago or more so I guess that is retro LOL

 

3 November 2025 Monday

Adrian left early this morning  and later he said it was to take Johanna for an immigration appointment. How Trump’s regime had turned those words into dread like being ordered to Gestapo headquarters.  Fortunately everything went well or I would have heard something.  I asked him later if Argenis was okay paying rent for last month then the ditz said his brother had given him the money but he had forgotten to give it me. Why Adrian is the intermediator is beyond me. I don’t care.  He paid me this afternoon so I guess I will go to the bank tomorrow. I still need to call about the Google Fiber to send it back so I don’t get charged anymore. Yolanda went off to work but today and tomorrow is Adrian’s day off.

                I took Jefranny to school this morning but was surprised to see her back home at noon.  She said she got sick from eating too much candy.  She is a strange little girl but was really sweet to me this morning when I dropped her off. She was proud to show off her pedicure her mother must have done for her.  Yesterday Argenis and Yolanda gave Chuito a much needed haircut and Gabriel came over this afternoon to take him over to Johanna’s place.  Not sure what is up with Milagros as she doesn’t seem to be that involved with the rest of the clan. I see Tutu more than the rest of them. Oh well. It really doesn’t matter.

                I went to Lucky’s this evening at 5:30 when it was twilight to get some coffee filters but ended up buying $80 worth of items we needed like trash bags as well as more soda pop while it was still on sale an also stuff to make some Taco Soup. I also bought a bag of mini snickers that was on sale for half price so I guess I did some impulse buying.  A pound of cheap hamburger was $5.50 so I can’t imagine what beef for Bewilders hamburgers must be now.  Actually it’s a very good thing we are no longer responsible for keeping the kitchen running  but after  two years the memories of being there haunt me. When I left the store at 6 it was pitch black out with a bright nearly full moon.

                I went to bed by 9 not interested in watching any television and noticed that Adrian brought Alejandro Puy home to spend the night.  Yolanda must be staying at Johanna’s because Adrian likes to keep his proclivities on the downlow from his mother. LOL. I would too.

                The courts ordered the Trump Regime to release SNAP benefits but they said they would only do half.  There are too many scandals to keep up with which is why there is battle fatigue among many Americans, the ones who are not traitors to the Constitution.

 

4 November 2025 Tuesday

It was actually a very pleasant breezy day at 70 degrees today. It was election day also but I already voted for the one city council race. I accomplished two things today by going with Mike Romero to put $20 worth of  gas in to the Ford Truck to sell it and took back the Fiber Optic equipment to Fed Ex so I wouldn’t be charged for it.

                This morning when Alejandro left Adrian’s room I was up already and we exchanged pleasantries. Later in the morning I went and laid down with Adrian who was still sleeping to snuggle with him. He was horny with morning wood and wanted me to suckle on him, which I did until he was satisfied then went about the rest of my day.

                In the late afternoon Yolanda came back to the house as it was her day off and was doing laundry. Adrian’s room look like an explosion of clothes in piles LOL.

                Not much was going on today. My system is a little out of whack so I didn’t want to be too far from the bathroom.  I did make a pot of Taco Soup this afternoon.

 

5 November 2025 Wednesday

I took Mike Romero out for lunch today at 11:30 and we met at Chubby’s to have chili verde platters. Afterwards we went into Davis County for some business as I also wanted to go to Walmart and get some big bulb, colored Christmas lights which I did. While at Wal-Mart Jim Dabakis called and said he was back in town so when I came home I called him back. He also wanted to know if I wanted to go see Dear Evan Hansen  at the Pioneer Memorial Theater but I didn’t.  I saw it once before and didn’t care for it.  Anyway he’s back for a few weeks as he is having some sort of eye surgery.  He said he had a great time visiting Spain.

                It was quite windy all day and  a bit like a storm was coming in. The trees were getting their leaves blown off those that were remaining.

                After picking of Jefranny from NorthStar, I went into the city to go to the first Wednesday coffee klatch as I told Roy Zang that I would meet him there at 3.

                About 8 or 9 people showed up including a couple of women this time, and the only people I knew were Roy, his husband Tony, and Paul Milne who also was there. I hadn’t seen him since I stopped going to the Tuesday night men’s group. I always liked Paul as he’s about my age and is  a good guy.

It was good to see Roy in person but I just had a long phone visit with him the other day so I mostly visited with Paul. I wanted to explain why I stopped going to the group and what Kyle had done to make me feel like such a fool and that I wasn’t moving to Mexico. However I did tell him that I am doing alright now and still am surrounded by people who look after me.  I guess I wanted to tell him so if anyone at the men’s group asks about me he will be able to tell them he saw me. I doubt whether anyone will.

                I was extremely uncomfortable at coffee and doubt if I will go back. The people were pleasant enough but I don’t know any of them and except for those I mentioned none of knew me or even heard of me.  It shows to me how disconnected they were with the old Gay community and how I am so disconnected with the new LGBTQplus one even among seniors. I guess I shouldn’t be such a snob but I keep thinking where were all of you back in the day when we had to fight to even get the right to congregate without fear of being harassed?

                I didn’t stay but a half hour, as I didn’t want to fight 4 o’clock traffic leaving the city so instead I went to Deseret Industries looking for some Xmas items. I found more lights, a clock and a few other pittance to purchase.

                Back at the house I strung the color lights along the front yard fence and within a bush so the place is really getting Xmasy.  I like using the abbreviation Xmas instead of Christmas because Grandma Johnson always wrote it that way.

                Gabriel came over to spend some time with his grandma. He loves his grandma and he always gives me a hug also. When he was ready to go back to his mother’s place I took him because it was pitch black out with the cloud cover.  It’s not very far perhaps three quarters of a mile but I wanted to take him because he’s such a good lad.

                Well it’s the 5^th of November Guy Fawks Day when treason was abated in Brittain. Here the results of yesterday’s election was a resounding rebuke to Republicans. New York City overwhelmingly elected their first social Democrat who is also Muslim. Governor Newsom’s Ballot 50 to allow gerrymandering out Republican House seats passed and New Jersey and Virginia  both elected female Democratic governors.  There were a lot of other upsets but the real test will come next year at midterms.

               

6 November 2015 Thursday

When I took Jefranny to school, it was sprinkling and it looked like it might have rained last night some. Later it cleared up to be a warm mid fall day of about 65 degrees. 

Adrian spent the night with Alejandro Puy and didn’t come home until after 10. Then he went to bed so I didn’t interact much with him. He left for work about when I left to get Jefranny from school.  It’s a madhouse down there when the kids get out because they all come charging out the front doors of the school and there must be 30 or more cars in the pickup area.

                Anyway, Yolanda was over at Johanna and  I had to take her to work so I retrieved her from there at 3:30 so she could be at work by 4. Leidimar texted me in Spanish, which I mostly did not comprehend but basically said she had to go to work and Jefranny would be home alone until Argenis comes home by 9.  I don’t have to babysit her as she is in 4^th grade but just being home if something came up. I wanted to go shopping after taking Yolanda to work but instead came back to the house so Jefranny wouldn’t be by herself.

                In the mail was a Notice from the Third District Court that Kyle was now in violation of a court order for failing to pay the remaining $10,000 of his restitution. Oh well. It’s becoming more and more like Kyle is dead, and well in some ways he is to his former life.

                So that was my day, walking and feeding the pups and even going to my room to get in to bed at 6. I was tired for some reason and fell asleep about 7 but woke up at 9. Old age issues I suppose. After cleaning the kitchen I managed to go back to bed and only got up again around 1 to find Adrian cooking himself a snack. I gave him a hug and went back to bed.

Vice President Dick Cheney finally died the evil genius behind George W. Bush. The only decent thing to come out of his was his daughter Liz.

                It’s coming up soon the first anniversary of Lulubelle and Maxx passing away. They are resting in my back yard next to the pink rose bush along with Buster and the remains of all my other pups who had a good life with me here at the House of the Barking Dogs on Fernleaf.

                I kind of stopped working on Elizabeth Metz’s chapter and started devoting research to the chapter on Mary Edwards Taylor who lived on the original lot where the Greek Orthodox Church is today on the corner of Third South and Third West.  When I lived at LaFrance Apartments, now torn down, I may have been residing near or close to where the African American Fanny Payne spent her last days.  Ironic.  Maybe why I am drawn to these people. Ghosts.

 

7 November 2025 Friday

Alejandro Puy spent the night with Adrian again but left by the time  I took Jefranny to school. I walked the pups as soon as I was back as they all felt like they wanted to go except for TJ who stayed behind. May be it was too early for the old man.

                Anyway Yolanda spent the night with Johanna and Adrian was tired from his antics so was sleeping in. I decided to do some errands today. I first went to Lee’s Market where I deposited $520 into my savings account at America First, then I went to D.I. and bought some more Xmas lights. I found a string of blue bulbs that I thought would go nice over the garage to highlight the icicle ones Adrian had put up. Then I went to the Glendale Smith’s to do some grocery shopping before heading to Lucky’s to buy some crushed ice and a 12 pack of soda pop called “Shirley Temples” that 7-Up promoted as a seasonal drink. It’s the little girl drink LOL.

                Anyway back at the house I saw that Yolanda had been there cooking for Adrian but had left to go back to Johanna. It must be easier being there instead of hauling Chuito back and forth. Leidimar is working now in the evenings so no one is here to look after him and at Johanna there’s Gabriel.

                It was early out for Jefranny so retrieved her at 1:30 and Adrian went off to work while I was stringing the blue Xmas lights over the garage. This 74 year old man was climbing up and down a ladder to do it.

                I was home alone upstairs while Jefranny stayed downstairs. After walking the pups this evening I was in for the night.

                I was in bed by 8.

 

8 November 2025 Saturday

                I woke up after midnight after Adrian was stirring. Yolanda was still away. I was kind of awake and around 1 Adrian came and asked if I would come give him a massage and I said certainly. So went to his room and gave him a lot of attention.  I then went back to bed when he texted me to meet him in the bathroom to give him a blow job. He said he likes having sex in various places like we did the kitchen the other day.  Whatever floats his boat.

So I did. Afterwards I went back to bed but he wanted me to text him. Evidently he has an app that allows him to communicate in English better.

                He told me how he likes older men which I said I kind of knew that from his involvement with Kyle and Alejandro but I was surprised that he said that he enjoyed being with me because of my experience with oral sex. I guess age does have its perks. He told me that Kyle was rather perverted with him, which I kind of figured and always wanted to dominate him.  We had a long conversation via text and it made clear that Adrian enjoys getting pleasure from me so that relieved me of any worries that I was taking advantage of him.  It was after 2:30 in the morning before I was able to fall back to sleep.

                However I was a wake again by  5:30 and was up to make some coffee.  So that was my big adventure for the day.

                Adrian wanted me to wake him at  9 for some reason so I did but he never was stirring until nearly noon. After he left for work, even though Argenis and Leidimar were off work today I was basically alone all day to do some research on the notorious women of Salt Lake in the 19^th Century. I started researching a woman named Sallie Davis who was a tragic character in the city  due to her alcoholism which made her appear monthly if not weekly in police court records so much so the police beat reporters often wrote amusing anecdotes of her appearances to amuse their readership.

                That’s it for the day and that was quite enough. What a life.

 

9 November 2025 Sunday

I crawled into bed with Adrian to arouse him so he’d wake up.  Yolanda was over at Johanna and I took her into work at 4:30. Jim McMullin called to visit and see what we were doing for Thanksgiving. I said I didn’t know what the Villalobos had planned if anything but I would find out. I did tell him I would go over to see them this coming Saturday.  It was a beautiful day today although not as warm as it has been only in the 50’s.

                I am home alone this Sunday evening but not feeling particularly lonely. I feel blessed to have my health and surrounded by people who care for me and pups that love me. I have a warm house and plenty of food so why gripe?

 

10 November 2025 Monday

There's ten hours of daylight today 7:09 to 5:13.

It was Adrians’s day off and he stayed in bed all the entire time. Yolanda was gone so besides taking Jefranny to school that was my morning. I decided that I wanted to buy a color light bulb for the porch light and to get some Xmas bulbs to replace about 4 of the blue ones that I hung the other day that must be burned out. I first went to Smith’s market place downtown and I found a color blue light bulb but the only replacement Xmas bulbs came in packs of 4 with only one blue in them. They were $3 and I didn’t want to buy them for just one bulb.  So I went to Deseret Industries and the had a strand with some bulbs but they looked shoddy so I went to Walmart thinking they must have a better section but they didn’t have any at all. So I went to Lowes and even  to Target. None of these places carried the old fashion bulb replacements just the tiny strands.  I was really surprised as no one must use the large bulbs anymore. Times have changed.

                I was home after that until I went to pick up Jefranny. The school was handing out bags of food and Jefranny got three.  Leidimar was home until going to work so Jefranny stays downstairs until Argenis comes home, which isn’t until after 9.

                Adrian was horny again and in the late afternoon he motioned me to come blow him. I think I have sucked more cock in the past months than I have in years. At least since I was with Kimball who was tall and cute like Adrian. I told him jokingly afterwards he needs to have Alejandro Puy over more or at least Jeremiah.

                I don’t think Adrian left the house all day and when I checked in on him around 630 he was back to sleep.

                After walking the pups and feeding them I did up the sink of dishes I had not today. Looking out the window as the sun was setting the sunset was so lovely with lots of pinks and oranges.  This has been the warmest November I can remember this far into the month.

                Jim McMullin called me to say that this Saturday would not be good to visit and he forgot that TJ and him are going to Lava Hot Springs that weekend. I said maybe we can get together the next Saturday before Thanksgiving.

                I was in bed myself by 8 playing this game on my tablet called Q Block which is a puzzle game of filling in spaces with squares to fill an 8 by 8 square. I have been so addicted to it that I stopped playing Spider Solitude as my main game to relax my mind.

                Anyway Argenis and Adrian were in the kitchen around 9:30 with Adrian making some arepas while they visited. I was up to see what was going on and then played more QBlock and heard Yolanda and Chuito come in. Nice to have them back home.

                In the news 8 rogue Democrat senators sided with the Republicans to start the process of ending the government shut down.  Many on the left are so upset they caved getting little but empty promises.

So today is Veterans Day and Pedophile Trump had to get his rich daddy to buy him a bone spur deferment even though he was in military school because trump was too stupid to keep a B average for a student deferment.

 

11 November 2025 Tuesday

Adrian was up early before 6 cleaning up his room lol now that mom is home.  I went to the Smith’s market place in Bountiful and found the bulbs I needed to replace the burnt out ones above the garage and I had Adrian replace them for me because he’s so much taller.  Of all the Smith’s I think I like the Bountiful the best.  Downtown is laid out too weird, Woods Cross is too big and Rose Park and Glendale have limited stock.

Yolanda was cooking for Adrian and I made a pot of Chicken and dumplings. I remember how much Russ Lane loved my Chicken and dumplings a life time ago.  In the evening Adrian went out to dinner with Jeremiah. I still don’t know his last name LOL

                Another relatively warm day for November’s Veteran’s day.

                Dan Fahndrich posted that he was in this hospital to have a correction on his heart so he doesn’t have another minor stroke. Michael Aaron posted he was staying on the Queen Mary  in Long Beach California for a night while on Vacation.  Curtis Jensen posted a picture of him and Matt Landis attending Palm Springs Pride Parade.  I guess Curtis moved from San Francisco to Palm Springs a while ago.  I have known all these people for nearly 40 years. We are kind of the last of the old timers.

 

12 November 2025 Wednesday

I went to Deseret Industries to look for some more Xmas lights and stuff. It was just in the morning and there were a lot of shoppers already there. More than I have seen in a long time. Today was Yolanda’s day off but Adrian had to go back to work. He said he had a really nice time with Jeremiah last night and I finally asked what was his last name which I guess is Chesley.  Nothing to write about except that the Democrats have enough votes to demand that the Epstein Files be released but probably not in the Senate.  Emails from Epstein were released that mention Trump in them.

                It almost seems like I am waking from the enchantment that Kyle had me under for  years and years.

 

13 November 2025 Thursday

After taking Jefranny to school and walking the pups I went to Lucky’s to buy some chicken for the pup’s  Supper. Back out in the car it seemed like my right front tire was low so I went to Big O Tires on Third South to have them check it out. Sure enough I had a nail in my tire so I am glad I had it checked out. I'd hate to go out to find a flat tire in the morning when I had to pick Jefranny up and take Yolanda to work.

                At the house I noticed that the hot tub was low already just from Adrian filling it a couple  of weeks ago so I added some water to it. It has to have a small leak somewhere.

                Leidimar was home early and said her hours changed and she won’t be working nights anymore but rather in the mornings. I wonder if she will look after Chuito instead of taking him over to Johana when Yolanda goes into work.

 

14  November 2025 Friday

Yesterday was one of the warmest November day I can remember in Utah in a very long time. 75 degrees out here by the airport with a strong breeze ripping leaves from the trees. Felt like November in California not Utah  for sure.

At 5:30 this morning it's 60 degrees but next week the high will only be in the 40s and  expecting rain and even snow. I wonder how long the good weather will last.  It was 68 degrees today. Nothing unusual today.  Everyone seems to be well. If I could write a letter to Kyle I would say, we are getting along without you very well. It's been 3 years since Kyle had me helping constructing the stage, dressing room and VIP seating at Club Verse. It was a lot of work and now it's all gone. Nothing lasts forever but memories

 

15 November 2025 Saturday

It’s the middle of the month already and no snow. I am fine with that.  I hate Winters in Utah... screw the Greatest Snow on Earth propaganda for the wealthy who can spend several hundreds of dollars to ski in the mountains while here in the valleys were deal with no sun and smog which is not allowed to be used in weather reports.  I grew up in California and I know smog... Salt Lake  has smog not haze.

Argenis and Leidimar must be fussing as he slept upstairs last night. Adrian took his mom grocery shopping but I was home all day

 

16 November 2025 Sunday

Much cooler today.  I took Yolanda to work but that was about the only time I went anywhere. We had a good rain shower this afternoon but now it's time to say good night Lulubelle passed away a year ago today.  She was probably 14 years old.

 

17 November 2025 Monday

This  morning I had to wake Adrian and Alejandro as Alejandro spent the night and he had blocked my car in when I needed to take Jefranny to school. She wasn’t ready and I had to go and get her downstairs to make sure she went to school. Leidimar must have felt guilty as she went and picked her up this afternoon so I didn’t have to. Not sure what is going on with Argenis and her but it’s not any of my business and Adrian gave me their rent of $960 for the month of November.

                This morning it was wet outside when I walked the pups so it must have rained last night.   I did talk with Mike Romero this evening and he’s going to come with me this Saturday to visit with Jim and TJ down in Daybreak.

                Still mostly writing up stories on the those shady ladies of the 1880s long forgotten.

Today was Adrians day off. I think he’s unhappy with his hours as he was promised a weekend day off and he hasn’t had one.

 

18 November 2025 Tuesday

Adrian sent me a message at 2 in the morning melancholy  saying “I couldn’t sleep! I decided to be alone tonight. The truth is I miss Kyle so much, I know he’s not worth it, but I’m too young to experience so many deep disappointments in this life. My heart bleeds and cried every day. I feel like I am dead inside grandpa.”

I wrote back the pain of young love is hard, Kyle was an illusion. I know that now. He was a charming dream but without substance and brought a lot of pain. I love Kyle and always will but he is a broken man and will always hurt those who love him.

I know this month is hard for it was 3 years  since you met him. These days of darkness is hard but the light will return.

Look how far you have progressed also. By the time I was your age I also experienced deep heartbreak and loss but time heals.

You will meet someone better than Kyle one day when you are ready to let go of those who hurt you.

I made an appointment to see Dr. Stoneburner for December 11 at 8:40 as a follow up since evidently they forgot to schedule me one in November.  

So this morning I went to Lee’s America First CU and deposited $760 into my checking account from the money Argenis paid in rent. I kept out $200 in order to give to Jeremiah Chesley whenever I see him again.  Then I decided to see if I could find the place that Kyle and I went to last July to try and sell the Ford Truck. I did and they remembered Kyle from last summer and I explained how I was trying to sell it after getting it back in my name. They said to bring it down and they would see what they could do.  I then went to Utah First CU and got the payoff on it and also documentation that I owned the truck through the CU.

At the house I called Michael Romero and he said he would go with me Thursday to take the truck down so hopefully I can finally sell it after paying thousands of dollars on it for years without any benefit of it.

I also called Jim McMullin about this Saturday but he said that he had fallen since I last talked to him and hurt his back so they never went to Lava Hot Springs and I said we would put off going to see them until when he gets better.

Adrian went to get a haircut and then off to work but Yolanda must have had the day off as in the afternoon she came home with Chuito.  Adrian said that she is homesick for Columbia which is understandable.

After going to bed I was woken by noise of Alejandro and Adrian in the kitchen. So I guess Alejandro came over for some nookie.

 

19 November 2025 Wednesday

Alejandro spent the night again with Adrian, leaving in the morning.  I didn’t do much today to even mention.

This time of year I used to enjoying baking, zucchini bread, pumpkin bread, apple pies, cobblers, pumpkin pies, and pecan pies. Not anymore. Those days are gone. Besides there's no one here to make them for.

My new Columbian family doesn’t celebrate Thanksgiving as part of  their culture and what I use to make is foreign to them.

Just as well I am too old to do all that fussing in the kitchen. I have lots of memories though of feeding my friends and community over the years.

I held gay community Thanksgiving events back in the 1980s for MCC, Unconditional Support cooking and supervising.  I helped out for a few years with the First Baptists Thanksgiving dinners. Those were fun times.

I cooked a lot of turkeys and cornbread dressing in my life time. Because I learned a long time ago that food was love and you love those you serve.

 

20 November 2025 Thursday

It was a gloomy day both in cloud cover and dashed expectations.  Mike Romero went with me to Utah Direct Auto in Bountiful. He drove the Work truck there and after speaking with Matt Erickson my expectations were dashed. I was hoping to sell it outright to them but what I heard was really discouraging. First of all I had to get the truck insured before I could sell it to anyone and also found out the DMV never sent me new plates when the title was put back in my name so the plates on the truck are invalid. 

                So Mike and I drove to Centerville and stopped at a State Farm insurance office and tried to get temporary insurance so I could sell the truck. I could but I had to wait a few days for approval as the Truck had the dump lift as an add on.  So we drove back to see Matt and the best offer he could give was between $5,000 and $6,000. I was really disappointed as that I owe $9,700 on it.  They suggested I go to Utah First and see if I could get a personal loan which was another disappointment when my credit score was run and it was down in the 500’s because of two charges that I had no idea that Kyle had put in my name for $34,000 which dinged my credit. There’s a possibility that I could refinance the FIT to get the $5,000 but I have to dig up my Social Security and Pension records to show I have income.

                Not only was I flattened by the additional news of more outstanding debt that Kyle left me, the process of selling the truck had become majorly more complicated,  I just came home after that As It was almost time to pick up Jefranny from School.

When I came home crushed, everyone was gone. I wanted to bawl but what good would that do. So I rested until picking up  Yolanda from Johana’s place and taking her too work.

                Logically I knew I was no worse off than yesterday. No one is suing me and I have $3500 dollars in the bank with most of my bills paid.  I even thought about just keeping the damn truck and making payments until I die rather than jump through all the hurdles I have to do to sell it.

                Interestingly the guys at Utah Direct Auto remembered Kyle trying to talk them into buying it last July for $6,000 and didn’t quite trust him then. I guess actually they are the ones who sold him the truck back in 2021 when he forged my name to get the loan from Utah First.

                I hate November. It’s always been a hard month for me. I am dreading all that I need to do to try and get rid of the Truck, an albatross that Kyle put around my neck.  So far I paid $10,000 for a vehicle I never used nor will I.

 

21 November 2025 Friday

There’s a dawn even after the darkness night. Today was a red-letter day for sure as I was finally rid of the Work truck. I was dreading this day when I went to bed last night unsure of any certainty. I was up by 5 but mainly just trying to get up the fortitude to do what needed to be done.  I found the Social Security and Pension statements  Utah First needed which was a relief and after taking Jefranny to school I got ready to go drop the statements off. I tried to see Adrian but he had his door locked so after walking the pups I left for Bountiful. I brought with me the police report I filed about fraud and papers from the Legal Aid so show that the I wasn’t lying about the dings on the credit report when I say they weren’t my debts.

                Anyway I was up there by 9:30 and Lydia the loan officer took a copy of what I brought in and said that by the afternoon I would know whether the refinancing of the car was approved.   I then went to Utah Direct and told Matt Erickson what I was told and said by this afternoon I would know whether I had the funds to pay the difference on the truck.

                From there I went to the Bountiful Smith’s Marketplace to buy ingredients to make Lasagna for Adrian and nearly $40 worth of doggie treats as I was almost out.

                I decided to go to the Barber School in Midvale because my beard was getting scruffy and it was the end of October the last time I had a haircut and a trim. I was down there by 10:30 and I was slightly disappointed that I was assigned a girl instead of a guy, only because I prefer the feel of a man.  Anyway the young girl also had dyed hair, lots of tattoos and a nose ring which always turns me off but I thought oh well, it’s just a haircut. She was sweet however and did a really nice job and for $14, I cannot kick.

                So then I came back home around 11:30 and rested some before heading out to pick up Jefranny for early out at 1:30. While waiting I received a phone call from Utah First saying I was approved to refinance the Honda Fit  but just needed to come in with proof of insurance and identification.  I called Mike Romero with the news and asked if he wanted come with me thinking it shouldn’t take more than an hour or so to finalize everything but I was wrong.  Utah First was quick but over at Utah Direct they were so busy with customers that we sat there for about 2 hours and Mike had an ‘accident’ from not making it to the toilet in time.  I told Matt that I needed to take Mike home and I would come back as fast as I could. Well it was difficult with all that going north bound after work traffic and I didn’t get back to Bountiful until 4:45.  However Matt’s brother Jason was freed up to meet me over at the Credit Union to pay $5000 to match the payoff of the work truck.  Fortunately the credit union didn’t close until 5:30 so it all worked out. The title was signed over to Utah Direct Auto and I was given a bill of sale. Then Lydia went over the terms of my loans of which I was really happy. The FIT was refinanced for 3 more years at $250 a month, which is totally doable as now the $400 payment on the truck is gone.

                I came home by 5:30 and Adrian was home eating his lunch on his break. I told him the great news that my long ordeal with the truck is over.  I was so elated but exhausted.

                Adrian said that Alejandro was taking the family to Olive Garden tomorrow at 11 for his birthday and invited me. After he left to go back to work I called Mike to tell him how it all went.

                I thought about posting on Facebook how ecstatic I was about having the burden of the truck lifted but decided not to. Not every little drama has to be known to everyone and what a fool I had been. There’s no fool like an old fool seems to be a truism on my part.

                It will take me a while to decompressed about the struggle of Kyle saddling me with that truck after he deserted us.

                I was so  tired I went to bed by 7:30 but woke up at midnight to say happy birthday to Adrian. Alejandro was already in bed with him LOL.

               

22 November 2025 Saturday

I was up early to go down to Lee’s Market to buy Adrian a chocolate birthday cake and to pull $100 out of the Credit Union to give to him as there was nothing I  could buy for  him. Lee’s didn’t have any cards so then I went down to Dollar Tree to buy him a card and a birthday  balloon.

                At the house I put a candle in his cake and wrote a bit in his card that I placed the $100 in. I brought the cake and card into his room and he woke enough for me to wish him a happy birthday.

                He needed to get up anyway to go get his mother to bring to the house so they both could get ready to go to Olive Garden.  Alejandro Puy wanted to have a birthday luncheon at Olive Garden for Adrian and his family.

                So about 11 I went to the Olive Garden in Bountiful in my own car because Adrian was taking his mother and Chuito.  Alejandro was there when I arrived and went inside to wait for the others to arrive. There were Milagros and Tutu, Johanna and Brayan, Yolanda and Chuito, Adrian and Alejandro, and me. I wanted to pay for my own dinner but Alejandro wanted to pay for all of us.  I just had chicken and dumpling type soup only with a glass of water and ate some of the bread sticks. That was more than enough for me. 

                Everyone was enjoying their dinners and speaking Spanish except me but I also sat next to Adrian and Alejandro so I could converse a bit also. Alejandro and I had a few things in common as we both were Mormon converts, graduated from BYU, and I told him that the boy I was in love with at BYU had gone on a mission to Argentina and had brought back a taxidermy penguin Mike Allred named Juan Carlos.

                Alejandro also said that he was attending the National Mayor Conference that was being hosted by Salt Lake this year. He mentioned that the city was floating around an idea of putting a history plaque to the original Sun and I said let me see what they were planning because it should be accurate.  I had to tell him where it was located.

                Dinner lasted until around 1 and then I went home. The traffic at the Costco parking lot where Olive Garden is located was crazy and packed so it was even difficult to leave to get back on to 500 West.

                Anyway back at the house I took a nap. I must have been tired as I slept until about 4 before getting up to walk and feed the pups.

                Alejandro came back over around 5 from attending the Conference closing party and took Adrian out to dinner just the two of them and by 7 I was already back in bed with the pups.

                In the news Marjorie Taylor Greene’s 15 minutes of fame is about up as she made a surprise announcement that she is resigning from Congress in January due to her beef with Trump and Mike Johnson. Trump is trying to force The Ukraine to sign a peace deal that would essentially give up territory to Russia.   The worse crap is that he said that members of Congress who said that the military was obliged not to follow unlawful orders should be executed for treason.

 

23 November 2025 Sunday

 Michael Romero came over around noon and we went down to Daybreak to visit with Randy and Kimberlee Gile. I said I would go with him as long as we left by 3:30 so I could be back in time to take Yolanda into work.

                We had a nice visit and I was able to see the whole gang as that Alyese and Shirly was there as well as Gay and even Kayla came up to say hi. Hard to believe Kayla is nearly 30 when she was not even 1 when the Giles moved in next door in 1997. Alyese was in 4^th Grade.  They invited me out for Thanksgiving along with Mike but I told them I would probably just stay home.  It was really gloomy out today and felt damp like it might snow or rain but never did.

                I took Yolanda in at 4:30 and traffic was light. Adrian had already gone to work. I think Argenis was off today. Still not sure what is up with him and Leidimar but it’s none of my business. This morning he was in visiting with Adrian for a long time.  When I was fixing the dogs their supper, I noticed he was up looking for something to eat and as I had an extra chicken thigh I gave it to him and he had a bowl of frosted flakes.

                TJ didn’t want to eat so I put his food away. Not going  to force him if he’s not hungry. The rest had no problems scarfing down  their grub.

                I retired to my room and was in bed by 6:30 with all my pups. I just looked at Facebook and played some of the Block Q game that I am kind of addicted to. It helps I think with my spatial awareness.

 Well the month is almost over and we have had no snow and the weather generally has been quite pleasant in the mid 50’s or even 60s some days. There are some trees with leaves hanging on but most of the deciduous ones are bare for the rest of the year until spring.

 

24 November 2025 Monday

I went to DI this morning and bought some more Christmas lights and other stuff including a warm pull over shirt and more Xmas stuff.  Adrian had the day off and was in bed all most all day. Not sure if tired or depressed because of his mood swings so I left him alone. What I did was reorganized the kitchen cabinets and pantry. I went through all the food items and took them out of the kitchen pantry and placed in the hall closet that I used to use. Its larger and easier to see what I have. So much gets shoved into the back on the pantry. I moved all the plastic containers and moved them in to the small storage space that used to be a closet before the bathroom was remodeled for the washer and dryer.

                I also took a tray of unsweetened apple sauce cans and two bags of Belgium Waffle mix over to the Rose Park community food pantry. I knew I would never use them and hoped some one else will.

                So that was the extent of my day.

The incompetence of the Trump regime has no parallel as he only hired sycophants who have no expertise in what they were hired to do... none of them are interested in helping America just enriching themselves and promoting the billionaires ideology

 

 

25 November 2025 Tuesday

Not a whole lot going on. This morning I made a date nut bread loaf that turned out delicious. I took Jefranny to school and back but she will be off for the rest of the week for Thanksgiving. I bet the teachers are happy. I know I was.

                I did go to Sutherlands to buy a couple of 10 feet extension cords but after reconnecting the lights I didn’t need them after all. I strung some more white lights I bought from DI yesterday.

                I was surprised that Adrian had the day off and went and brought Yolanda and Chito home after first taking his mom grocery shopping. I took all the plates and bowls and other stuff that Kyle had bought two years ago for Thanksgiving and gave them to Johanna’s family as Adrian said they could use them. They were just sitting up in cabinets gathering dust.

                Sometimes I feel like I am in future shock with so much having changed in such a short time.

26 November 2025 Wednesday

I was up early even though I didn’t have to take Jefranny to school. While working on the computer I heard Chuito moaning so I went in to check on him and he was half way off the bed. Yolanda must have gone down stairs so I pulled him back onto the bed and straightened up the blankets he had gotten tangled up in. It kind reminds me of the one day I worked at the State Mental hospital down in American Fork over 50 years ago.

                I wanted to give Mike Romero a bottle of wine to bring down to the Giles from the stash Kyle had downstairs. I also wanted to buy a bottle of Sangria for myself so I stopped at the state liquor store on North Temple. Going that way was a big mistake as they didn’t warn you they had the east bound lane shut down to one lane and traffic was backed up all the way to 9^th West but when I finally made it to the liquor store I didn’t have an issue there even though it was super busy for the holiday.

                From there I went to DI just to see what they had and I bought another string of colored lights that I strung along the stairs banister.

Then power went off for nearly 2 and half hours this afternoon. Milagros was over visiting with her mom and I decided to take a nap as there wasn’t much else I could do. I did walk the pups before it gets dark just in case the power didn’t come back on. I unlatched the garage door and drove down to Dollar Tree to buy some candles because I am woefully unprepared for a night with out power. I could see they were working on a power pole on the corner of 10^th North and Redwood so maybe a transmission box blew. Anyway when I came back home the lights came back on after I had lit all the candles.  I guess Smith’s grocery store lost power and what a mess that must have been the day before thanksgiving.

 In the late afternoon before the sun went down I trimmed back my rose bushes in the front yard for the winter. I had been putting it off but the weather is supposed to change this weekend.

                Anyway it was a far less eventful night.

 

27 November 2015 Thursday Thanksgiving

A year ago Maxx made a sudden decline in his health and I stayed up with him all night until he passed away on the 29th. With Lulubelle passing away two weeks earlier and Adrian and Kyle fighting over Juan Pablo it was a horrible month for me and I didn’t know how much more I could endure. It was a hard time but it passed.

                Well here it is another Thanksgiving and the first one in 5 years without Kyle. Oh well he left me. I never left him. Argenis was off today as was Yolanda but Adrian had to work today but went in at noon.

                I called my sister Donna Jones and also James and Denise to wish them a Happy Thanksgiving. I know they are at a point in their lives where reconnecting with family that is left is important.

                Argenis was upstairs a lot and blasting Latino music but rather than being annoyed I just thought this is probably his one day off and a connection with his roots beside the pups were being serenaded by his singing to his songs. This morning I baked a pumpkin

Chocolate chip bread rather than a pumpkin pie as these Columbians are not much of a pie eating bunch.

                The other day, Adrian and Yolanda bought an eight gallon huge aluminum pot that she was cooking a soup or stew of some kind. She was cooking for most of the day.  I ate a little of my crockpot corn bread dressing, candied yams and bacon sauteed green beans for my lunch as I had no idea what the rest were up to or even If they celebrate Thanksgiving but because any reason for a fiesta about 5 all the Villalobos except for Adrian who was working came to the house to enjoy a Columbian Thanksgiving. Everyone was here except Luisana and Adrian. I had 13 Latinos in the house including two children with lots of laughter and music, and South American food.  Milagros came with Luis, Tutu, and Luis Jr. Johanna came with Jesus, Gabriel and Brayan, and Argenis was up with Leidimar and Jefranny, an with Yolanda and Chuito that made 13. Adrian was able to be home around 7:30 and Alejandro Puy came over to join him.

                While the Villalobos had full run of the house I retired  to my bed, thinking how lucky I am at 74 to have a house full of joy and merriment even if I don't understand a word of it lol. All this because Kyle brought home a boy from Club Verse 3 years ago.

My microwave is falling apart. The door has come loose although Alejandro said he could fix it. I’d rather just buy a new one but I wouldn’t know how to install it. When I moved into this house 29 years ago my folks gave Mike and me a used over the oven microwave from their Palmdale home, that lasted 23 years. Kyle and I replaced it in 2020 and it's already broken. Built in obsolescence I guess.

                 A year ago I was up all night with Maxx who passed away in the morning  on the 29th. He was buried next to Lulubelle. Now I have Jack who has to be by myside in bed. TJ gets jealous. Typical boys.

If you want to feel old the Beatles Magical Mystery Tour Album was released 58 years ago today. I was sweet sixteen and never been kissed. I may be disparage as a "boomer" but we had better music back then and we fought for equality,  ended a war, gave 18 year olds the right to vote and brought down a president all without social media lol

In the news a young national guard woman from West Virginia who was illegally deployed to Washington DC died from wounds from a shooter near the White House from the other day.  Trump and the Governor of West Virginia I think are totally accessories to her killing for sending and keeping her in DC when a Federal Justice said it was illegal for the national guard to be deployed there. The shooter is an Afghan refugee who was a helper to American forces and was allowed to come to the US after we left. Trump is blaming President Biden however it was Trump who last April gave this man asylum.

 

28 November 2025 Friday

I woke up around 4:30 and decided to get up and clean up the rest of the kitchen that the gang didn’t get to. That’s what I have always done, clean up after the party’s over. I decided to get rid of the crock pot that I have had probably for 10 years because it was all crusty from cooking the dressing in it. I bought it to bring food to Gay Men Aloud for our pot lucks. I need to just get a smaller one anyway as I am the only one who uses it.

                Alejandro Puy spent the night with Adrian and left out early to get on with his day.  When Adrian was on his way somewhere he said there was a dog in the back yard. I went and looked and sure enough there was a Scruffy thing there about the size of old Buddy and all matted and even had leaves stuck to him. He looked like a poodle schnauzer mix.. He was very skittish and while he would sniff my hand he would not let me touch him. So I took my pups for a morning walk and let him out thinking he might go home as he had a collar and tags.

He followed us all the way around the  block wanting to play with Lucy and Jack but they weren't having any of it. Especially Jack who would warn him to stay back.  Scruffy followed us all the way home. So after letting the pups back in,  I kept the pup in the front yard and then scruffy started barking so I let him back into the back yard.

I put water and food out for him and then tried to leash him to take him down to see if he had a microchip but he just would  not let me near him. I posted a picture of him on a community FB page but then also  I called animal control who said they would  pick him up to see if he's chipped and to keep him if someone is looking for him.

                About noon two animal control officers came and when I opened the back gate to let them in Scruffy just took off and the two went after him but he was scared and was running. They went after him and since there was little else I could do I just hoped the little guy gets rescued.   He did look like he had not been well taken care of and may have been out on the street for a while.  I think I did the right thing but still felt bad that he had escaped.

                I needed to get away so I went to Deseret Industries to see if they had any decent used crock pots but they didn’t and so I just ended up buying another Holiday signage that said let it snow.

                Jesus came by to take Yolanda and Chuito over to Johanna’s as Yolanda had to go back into work so I was home alone for most of the day. I worked on writing up an essay on this Hispanic Man named Louis Benites who came to Utah from California in 1872 and eventually operated several businesses on the corner of Second South and State Street  including the notorious Benites Saloon. I discovered him while researching the notorious women of the  1880s. I posted it on my history site in the evening.

                I want to buy a crockpot and a small counter microwave but not today as its Black Friday and the shopping would be crazy. I did, however, also wanted to buy some oil lamps as the one I had for years finally came a part. After the last power outage when I went and bought candles I thought I should be better prepared. I saw that Walmart on line had some so I opened an account and bought two that I will pick up tomorrow.

                I hardly saw Adrian today and he seemed to be moody so I just let him be.

Odd that it was 7 years ago I adopted Buster and just a year ago that Maxx was failing and would pass away the next morning that I had a little adventure with a pups that felt my yard was safe. I feel like I let him down however. .

 

29 November 2025 Saturday

I woke up really early around 3:30 restless I think, thinking about Maxx and how he died about 4:30 in the morning last year. I noticed that Adrian wasn’t home. After my morning routine I went shopping for the first time in months for big items. I bought two oil lamps on line at Walmart for $45 and while there to pick them up I went inside and bought a counter top microwave and an air fryer oven and some floor mats for the kitchen. I spent around $140 on those items.  Anyway when I came home with them Adrian was back from spending the night with Alejandro and said that they were going to fix the broken plastic on the above the oven Microwave. I said it didn’t matter that my microwave was only $50  and I can give it to Johanna if they need it. Actually I think I will use it more than the old one.

                Anyway I made Adrian some Lasagna since I was going to do it last Saturday. He brought Yolanda to the house for a bit and I showed her the new kitchen gizmos I bought and since the Lasagna was done both Adrian and she ate some of it.

                I was home after they left for much of the day, kind of cleaning and moving room in the kitchen. I really don’t have much counter space.

                Today is my cousin’s Stephanie Williams birthday and I think she turned 68. Its also my cousin John Johnson’s son Chris’ birthday and I think he turned 59. I sent them both birthday greetings.

 After walking and feeding the pups I went to the grocery store to buy some chicken for the pups and it was already dark at 5:30  coming back. I was surprised to see Alejandro in my garage as he was looking for some sandpaper as he had epoxied my microwave door while I was out.

                We sat and visited some and Argenis came in about then, and I finally found out what was going on between him and Leidimar. Alexandro and Argenis were talking to each other  and Alejandro confided in me that Argenis is upset because he’s broken up with Leidimar and she won’t leave so they are having issues. Also Leidimar was in the emergency at Holy Cross I guess because she fainted at work and Argenis had to go get her. I know that Jefranny was downstairs all day because I heard the television going.  Its kind of a mess but there’s nothing I can do about it.

                In the news its been reported that Pete Hegseth ordered the Venezuelan survivors of the first attack to be killed which is a war crime to kill them.  Trump ordered there be a non-fly space over Venezuelan which he has no legal authority to do. Everything is a distraction.

 

30 November 2025 Sunday

Well winter has arrived this last day of November. I doubt whether any of it sticks as it has been so warm. I  was typing this morning when I looked out side I saw that it was snowing. It surprised me as I hadn’t heard any weather reports that it was going to  snow.  As I thought none of it accumulated but melted away.

                Adrian was gone all morning and didn’t spend the night so must have been over at Alejandro’s place. He came home around 1 with Yolanda so she could cook some meals for him.

                I used my new microwave and air fryer oven today after getting rid of my toaster oven. My banana bread recipe said to bake for 60 minutes and I checked on it after 30 and it was already done and a little dark on top. I am learning as I go. I didn't know it would bake in half the time.

                I have a head cold that I must have picked up somewhere.  Not really sick just a cough in my throat and a runny nose.

                I took Yolanda into work and stopped at Luckys on the way home to get some eggs and other items. Argenis had the day off and stayed up in Yolanda’s room. I guess he will figure out what he wants to do with Leidimar without any involvement from me.

We have had a lovely November here in Salt Lake with nary a flake of snow that I can remember and just a few rain showers. Only a day or two of gloomy skies.

We have had some gorgeous sunsets and about a week ago while I was walking the pups I witnessed one of the most gorgeous sunset I've ever seen. It was not one of the entire sky being lit up yellow, red, and orange, rather the sky's background was a Robin egg blue with the wispy clouds being two toned  the top a dark lavender and beneath a majestic tangerine.  It was so beautiful. I didn’t take a picture because I knew my camera would not have captured how spectacular it was.  I walked enthralled looking at the sky while the pups sniffed the ground impervious to the glory above them. It's the wonders of nature for which I am grateful for, getting to be a sentient speck in a great big universe.

Sometimes you have to accept the fact that you can have room someone in your heart but that you doesn’t mean you have to have room for them in your life.

 

December

1 December 2025 Monday

The first day of December and I have a miserable head cold. It started with a scratchy throat a could of days again but has become a runny nose and congestion head cold with a bit of a sore throat.  It kept me home for most of the day except to take Jefranny to school and  back. I barely wok e up at 7 so I must have been tired.

                Adrian had his day off and was coming and going. He said that he had a cold last week so I probably caught it from him. I did manage to walk the dogs twice and take a couple of naps.

                In the news it’s been acknowledge that the Trump Regime killed two survivors of the initial attack on a Venezuela boat in September which if we are at war is a war crime and if not just plain murder.  Trump is blaming Hegseth and Hegseth is blaming a general Bradley.

 

Well Christmas is officially on its way. I don't give a fig about a white Christmas as I grew up in Southern California and I was 13 years old before I ever saw snow and that is because my folks took us up to my neighbors cabin at Arrow bear  in the mountains to go tobogganing.

                Christmas was snowmen to me made of tumble weeds stacked, palm trees wrapped like Candy canes, and fake evergreen boughs across streets swaying in Santa Ana winds and lots of Christmas shopping at indoor malls. 

We would drive around to see Christmas lights at night  and visit relatives for chili and pinto beans, cooked separately of course  the Texas way.   We never had pumpkin pies ever, just pecan pies, chocolate pies, and cherry pie and lots of hard candy as well as fudge, divinity, peanut brittle, and rice Krispies bars. 

Mom always put an orange in our stockings which I never could understand as a kid because orange groves were still everywhere and many of our neighbors had oranges, Lemons, and grapefruit trees in their yards.

Only later did I learn it was mom's kid memories of the Great Depression when having a single orange at Christmas was a real treat and expensive on the farm.

Christmas cards sent by friends and family by the scores were hung from twine  as mail was only a nickel at the most and that was only after 1968.

Christmas was Folks coming out from Texas to spend the holidays with us and taking Grandma Johnson to the beach as she loved to see the ocean and the ships in port.

Christmas was an aluminum tree with a color wheel rotating on it and a 5 foot poinsettia bush blooming at the corner of our entry way.

 It was having to put on a wind breaker jacket and put on long pants when it dropped below 70 degrees.

My childhood Christmas memories are so different than my Utah born friends. Snow to me is just something you have to shovel  as I never played in it.  I never dream of a White Christmas.

So I am enjoying this tropical weather we are having in Salt Lake City. It won't last long. Orange County in the fifties and sixties

 

2 December 2025  Tuesday

I took Jefranny to school this morning and then walked the pups. That is my life. I went out only to go to Luckys and Dollar Tree. That’s my life also.                I have been laid up with a head cold. Not deathly ill just a nuisance.

You know damn well MAGA Republicanazis don’t give a shit about the law when the scream about "illegal" immigrants and say not a word about war crimes since they voted for a pedophile convicted felon.  The MAGA Regime claim they are blowing up Narco boats in the Caribbean  to keep drugs out of the United States while pardoning major drug traffickers.

                There’s a lot of outrage over the murder of two survivors of the first attack on a speed boat which either way was a war crime or plain murder.

 

3 December 2025 Wednesday

Well today might be the last time I take Jefranny to school and pick her up because Leidimar packed her car and took off with her and when I was walking the pups this afternoon.  Not even a goodbye. I had  no idea whether she was gone for good or Argenis and she are just taking a break from each other.  When I asked Adrian about it he was rather vague so either he doesn’t know or doesn’t care one way or another.  Leidimar seemed pleasant enough although I really didn’t interact with her much and Jefranny was kind of a strange but a  sweet girl.  Oh Well.  I think the family was surprised when she followed Argenis here to Utah from Virginia.  Argenis did this even come into my room when I was already in bed and did a translated text saying the Leidimar was gone and that he met a woman at his work he is interested in. Life goes on.

                It was a chilly day today walking the pups and I think it may have rained last night because this morning the ground was wet.   I don’t have much else to write about. Head  cold is hanging on so I made some chicken soup. Really no appetite to speak of.

 

4 December 2025 Thursday

Adrian went into work early this morning at 5:30 having switched a day with a co-worker.  The other day he said that he’s going back to New York City December 27 for a few days to see his friends he has back there.

                Seems a little strange not taking Jefranny to school this morning but that short chapter is over. I hope everything works out for her and her mother but there’s nothing more I can do. I may have to contact North Star Elementary to let them know Jefranny doesn’t live here anymore.

 

5 December 2015 Friday

I was day behind all day thinking it was Saturday. I think not taking Jefranny to school anymore has really thrown off my daily  routine. I really don’t have a Monday through Friday routine any longer. Just taking Yolanda to work on Thursday and Sundays is my only commitments any more and this past Thursday, Milagros took her so I didn’t have to.  Alejandro spent the night with Adrian and I guess he’s leaving for a Vacation in Israel and then home to Argentina to spend time with his family down there so Adrian will be lonesome this month.

                It was really damp out this morning and chilly walking the pups and when I came back to the house I went and climbed into bed with Adrian just to hold him but he had me suck him off which I am always obliged to do.  After he went off to work I was home all alone for the rest of the day and evening since no one was down stairs and Yolanda and Adrian were at work.  I noticed while picking up dishes and trash that the downstairs television was gone. Not sure  whether Argenis gave it to Leidimar or she just took it but the wall is empty where it used to be.  Oh Well.

                I called Mike Romero just to visit in the evening and I am sure he thought I was nuts because I kept thinking today was Saturday. I made some chocolate Chip cookies and a pot of Chicken and dumplings from the dripping and scraps left from baking chicken for the pups supper. So that was as much excitement as I can handle I suppose. My nagging head cold is breaking up but has turned into a cough now.

 

6 December 2015 Saturday

It was a beautiful day with bright blue skies compared to the gloom yesterday  but it was not very warm.  I never went anywhere besides the usual walking the pups. I stayed home working on the life of Anna Johnson Liday who once ran businesses on Block 63 and whose husband murdered her 5 year old son and then committed suicide after shooting a man he was jealous of. The murder made national news.

                Adrian left for work and I tried taking another nap. Around 4:50 I decided to walk the pups before the sun disappeared and I noticed that that garage door was still open. As I walked down to Daleridge I saw that police cars had blocked off Fernleaf with flashing lights. I hurriedly walk the pups around the block then went over to see Peter Nash. He didn’t know much but evidently someone was being  chased and crashed into a fence and took off running so the police were out in force.

                I stayed home for the rest of the night by myself until Argenis came home from work around 9.  I was in bed by then.

                I didn’t hear Adrian come in as I had taken some cold medicine but .about 1:30 I was woken by the pups going crazy barking.  So I got up to hush them and they were barking fiercely out the bay window. I looked I saw someone standing at the front door and ringing the bell.  I couldn’t tell whether it was male or female but there was no way I was going to answer the door.

About 25 years ago when my folks lived at Palmdale, dad opened the door to someone in the middle of the night and three teenagers rushed inside. They wanted money but Mom and dad had none in the house so they kidnapped them forcing them to drive their car to an ATM.  Fortunately a police car spotted their car going so slow in the middle of the night and stopped them. The teens bailed but  mom and dad were rescued unharmed.

Then  the first year I lived in this house in 1996 some young woman pounded on the door in the middle of the night wanting  to use the phone as she said she was being followed.  At the time there was only about three houses including mine occupied.  I said to stay on the front porch and I'd call the police for her but then she left. I had heard of robbers using decoys to get inside a house.

Thirty years ago we were on the outskirts of SLC, far away from any foot traffic and other houses so I was reluctant to let someone inside as I knew no one would have been randomly out in this isolated area back then.

No matter what I will never open my door in the middle of the night to strangers and neither should you. I am Grateful I have 4 pups who alert me to stranger danger.

Adrian heard the doorbell ring and was still up so I went to lay down with him. I could tell he had been sobbing. He was still  crying over Kyle, missing him. I held him and said I miss him too but Kyle doesn’t care about us or he would have contacted us somehow to let us know he’s okay.  I told him that with Kyle gone I no longer stress about answering the door in the day time from the police, or warrant server, or bill collector showing up.

Adrian did tell me that Leidimar had texted him saying she’s back in Virginia staying in a trailer Argenis and she lived in before coming to Utah.  I said that being useful and having a daily purpose taking and picking up Jefranny is gone now.  I said I will go to NorthStar Monday and let the school know that she won’t be attending any longer.

So many changes in such a few months. It's always something

 

7 December 2025 Sunday

Adrian had the day off as did Argenis but Yolanda went into work at 4:30 and after driving her down town,  I noticed that none of the lights on Main Street are decorated for Christmas this year. I wonder why?

Earlier when I went grocery shopping at Smith’s and Lucky’s,  drove down Fernleaf and saw someone had smashed through two mailboxes and crashed through a chain link fence... that must have been what all the excitement was about yesterday with the cops.

                I watch an old movie from 1943 Call The Gangs All Here a War Time musical with Carmen Miranda, Everett Horton and Alice Faye directed by Busby Berkely. That was fun. I was doing all I could to stay up.

I didn’t Take a nap or anything today but rather chose to stay up all night so I could take Mike Romero down to the Amtraxx Train station.

 

8 December 2025 Monday

I had more weird dreams but no sense writing down as I don’t think they mean anything except I was correcting someone for being racist and supporting the Confederacy.  See I said they were weird.

I am surprised that I accomplished as much as I did with only 3 1/2 hours of sleep. I took Michael Romero down to catch the train to Denver at 3:30 this morning and stayed up to make sure I didn’t fall to sleep.  The Amtrak going east only reaches Salt Lake at that time.  Spooky part of SLC that time of night so I sat with him in the car  until the train arrived.

I couldn't sleep past 7:30 so was up and at 'em. I decided to just get up and started cleaning the kitchen and making some coffee. I was surprised that Adrian was up about 8 and said he was hungry so I fixed him a breakfast before I made one for me.   Then he took off somewhere. He didn’t tell me and I didn’t ask. Yolanda must have spent the night at Johanna because she and Chuito weren’t here.

                About 10 I walked the pups and then went down to NorthStar, and as I thought Leidimar had not checked Jefranny out.  I had been taking her to school since September and she left with her mom back to Virginia.  So no young'uns in the house anymore so I guess i am truly done with elementary school 10 years after retiring. The Secretary kind of remembered me and I said that Jefranny and her mother had moved back to Virginia and they could contact Argenis for more details.

Since I was up and about I went to Deseret Industries to drop off about 5 jackets that Leidimar was just going to throw away and while there I looked around and bought a warm pull over jacket and some fleece lounge trousers for the upcoming winter months.   I also bought a cane seated bar chair for Argenis room down stairs as I saw that he had put in a  small round table.

                From there I went to the Chef Store for the first time since last summer only to buy a 20 lb. bag of rice since my Columbians eat so much rice. It pinged my heart just slightly being there but it was just more nostalgia than pain.

 Then I went to the Glendale Smiths bought some more groceries and soda pop before coming home around noon and Adrian still wasn’t home. So I did up all the dishes and cleaned house really well. I need to do my bedroom for sure but one thing at a time I suppose.

                The garage door is still being finicky but as long as we don’t let it completely close to touch the floor it stays close.  

                In the late after noon after eating some lunch I went to Common Cents to get a drink and I saw  gas prices over here have dropped 20 cents this week to $2.79.

My cold is finally breaking up but went to my chest but hopefully completely over soon.

                I guess Adrian had the day off but after fixing him breakfast this morning I didn’t see him again until the evening. I made him some lasagna but he had ordered a Little Caesar Pizza which door dash delivered. The service probably cost more than the pizza itself.

                It was a fairly warm day almost 60 but I am staying away from crowds this season as much as possible. My pups are company enough for me. Also my cold is breaking up and has gone to my lungs so I have an irritating cough, Hope to be over it soon.

I still visiting my time machine and reading about a Salt Lake 17 old gentile teenager who rode his bike back to the Chicago World Fair over 1900 miles following mostly the rail lines as there wasn't any interstate roads back then. He did it for the pleasure of it and his arrival in towns was news worthy. He only weighed 110 lbs., lean and all muscle. He later had a career as a locomotive engineer

I discovered him by reading about his mother who operated a restaurant and boarding house on sixth West almost exactly across from where I was with Mike. The Intermodal Hub used  be the where the Rio Grande depot was first built. In 1891 this boys stepfather tried to kill his mother, did shoot a man at the breakfast table before killing his 5 year old son and then committing suicide.

It was sensational news and made the papers in 20 states and territories. His mother remained  in the Second South area operating a series of cafes and hotels in Greek Town.

In the pitch black night it was kind of eerie knowing just across the street a crime called the worse in the annals of Salt Lake took place long forgotten by everyone but me

What women had to do to survive ...  I am such a history nerd

John Lennon was murdered 45 years ago today... I will never forget it. He would have been 85 years old if still alive...

 

9 December 2025  Tuesday

I went to bed by 10 last night and only woke up a few times. I was  awake by 5:30 after having a weird dream about people from Bewilder coming over to help me around the house and yard  and talk about what Kyle did to us. I told you I was having weird dreams.

                Did some shopping today as I went to Ross Dress For Less in Bountiful and bought a good pair of leather slip on shoes for winter walking. I also drove around looking for lamp oil and finally found some at the C A L ranch Store on Mainstreet in Bountiful. Both places kind of pinged my heart as Ross was where I took Milagros’ family when they first arrived with nothing from being incarcerated by immigration but for flip flops for footwear and the clothes on their back. . The CAL Ranch was right across from Baskin Robbins where I went so many times for Kyle to get his chocolate shake.  Like that old song Everywhere I go I see your face. I have seen you in the evening In the morning light you hold me Closer than the air around me You surround me always Everywhere I go I see your face, through the crowd I hear your voice clear and loud You are the light that I see You have found me… but he has now lost me.

A Charlie Brown Christmas premiered on December 9,  60 years ago in 1965. I was 14 years old and we all gathered around the new color television wooden console to watch in the front room. 

The 15 inch screen television had color tubes in the back which you could test in a  grocery store and replace if the color went wonky.

The tubes were red, blue and green, which I could not understand why green instead of yellow. 

I was a freshman in high school back then and my oldest sister was out of school and my middle sister was a Junior but we still watched Christmas shows on our color television in "living color."

I have a copy on DVD that I watch still and for  the entire time I taught school I would show my students it on video tape before Christmas Break now called the Winter Holiday Break, you know because of the war on Christmas not because of Hanukkah and Kwanza LOL

 

10 December 2025 Wednesday

Some days there’s nothing much to write about however other days its like an overload. This was one of these days, This morning Adrian hits me up with the news that Argenis wants to bring his new girlfriend from work here to live and she has two kids.  Argenis said that they would pay me $1200 a month to stay here. I asked Adrian what did he know about her and he said both Johanna and Milagros met her and liked her. I asked if the kids were in elementary school and were. He said the woman would pay Yolanda to look after them.

I agreed on several conditions that Yolanda quits Bodega in January and stay home to look after Chuito and the girls. I said I don’t charged them any rent and between her two sons and money from Babysitting she would be fine. Also I said Argenis and his new crew will have full use of the house as long as they help keep it up and treat the pups well.   So I am not sure when this will happen but if the girls are of grade school age its back to be a chauffeur to North Star.

                Yesterday I cleaned  my room really well but left changing the sheets and making the bed up for today. I was going to mop the floor but decided to put it off until tomorrow.

                Yolanda had her day off but Adrian went into work. I went to Dollar Tree and bought a small collar for TJ because I took him out of his harness that he gets tangled up in and I also removed Lucy’s harness as she was getting too big and it’s too snuggly on her. So all the pups now are just on collars.

                I laid down for a nap when Adrian called me a quarter to 4 saying that Luis Jr had been arrested for driving without a license and wanted me to go help Milagros to translate help her find out what was going on. Lius was down at the Juvenile facility at 3400 South and 900 West and after finding the place, rang the bell to be let in as the doors were locked. The woman answering me informed me that since I wasn’t a parent or a guardian I wasn’t allowed in to help. She was really not nice about it either, which was frustrating. Fortunately Luis Alberto and Milagros showed up about then and after telling the unhelpful desk clerk that Luis parents were here, she let us in and we sat in the lobby.

                Luis Jr. was being booked and we had to wait until they had finished with processing him.  A young kid came out and told me what was going on and I was shocked to find that because Luis Jr. was charged with a felony he had to be booked and processed for a court hearing.   So we waited until nearly 5 when an officer brought Luis out and told me what the charges were so I could translate. He was charged with failure to signal when changing lanes and the failure to respond to the officer . The report I was given didn’t list marijuana as a charge but drug use was noted on his evaluation.   I basically think Luis was stopped as being a Latino teenager because he didn’t signal a lane change and not knowing any English didn’t know what the police wanted of him so he resisted and was arrested.

                I took Milagros and Luis Jr back to the house to wait for Luis Alberto to come get them. It was nearly 5:30 and too late to walk the pups so I just fed them and called it a day. 

It was 14 years ago in December, when I went to visit Kyle who had just been arrested and in the county jail. He was so ugly to me as he had wanted Marty Alder to come see him and since they only allowed one visitor per day he took his anger out on me which broke my heart. How different my life would have been if I would have just walked away or if in 2012 the letter that had been sent to a neighbor by mistake hadn’t made its way to me and I forgave the rogue that  I loved and still do but will not let him ever back into my life since I know  I am better off without him in every way.  The head is so often in conflict with the heart.

 

11 December 2025 Thursday

What is going on with Salt Lake's weather? It was over 60 degrees yesterday, clear skies and the most beautiful sunsets.

I made an appointment to see Dr. Stoneburner for today as a follow up since evidently they forgot to schedule me one in November.   Anyway I had my follow up visit to check my blood pressure this morning and I thought Dr. Stoneburner would be so proud of me. Anyone who knows me knows I hate taking pills but I have a great doctor and last October he wanted me to make sure I was taking my blood pressure medicine so I was good at taking three pills every morning for cholesterol, blood pressure, and a happy pill.

I weighed in at 187 pounds however the first time a reading was taken, I was over 200 but they finally got me down to 176/86  which was still way too high.  I thought how could this be because i had been so good but  then doctor Stoneburner explained I should have been taking 4 pills,  two blood pressures pills that worked together.  I said I didn't have any lisinopril so he wrote me out a prescription. I made another appointment for January 22 at 8:20.

                Since I was out and about I went to Deseret Industries looking for some smaller plates but larger than saucers. I found a few and some other single serving bowls as well some artificial poinsettia plants, a string of decorative evergreen garlands as well as some really nice unused holiday socks and a knitted cap for Chuito. Now that its winter he will need to have his atrophied feet kept warm and his head.

                I then went to Rose Park Smith’s pharmacy to place an order for my prescription of Lisinopril.  They said it would be 20 minutes so I did some shopping for more Soda Pop that was on sale, eggs, bread, a pineapple, seedless grapes  and some other things. When I went up to the Pharmacy counter they still hadn’t anything ready so I just left.

It was another California weather day in the City of the Saints, over 65 degrees and the air  so clear you could see Ogden's Mountain range 50 miles to the north and the Stansbury Mountains 50 miles to the west. The tallest peaks here along the Wasatch are frosted with snow.

I strung the evergreen trim along the fence but realized I was still short some so I knew I needed to go back to DI and buy the other bundle .

Adrian left for work at 2 and Chuito and Yolanda went over to Johanna even before that.  TJ and Jack insisted that I lay down with them. Who am I to say no to them? I still have a remnant of the cold I have had since December 1^st also.

Initially Adrian said to go get Yolanda at 4:30 to take her to work but at 3:30 he called and said he was mistaken that she needed to be picked up at 3:30.  So I rushed down to the Grove apartments at 3:45, retrieved her and got her into work minutes to spare by 4 o’clock.

Since it was still early I went back to DI thinking I would buy the other bundle of evergreens but it was sold. That was disappointing but the real frustration was going back to Smiths.

Well the pharmacy said that my insurance wouldn't cover the Lisinopril as supposedly I had picked some up in October and I couldn't have a refill until January.  I argued that well I don't have any now and the doctor wants me to have some. They would not relent so I went home mad.

I took the dogs for their walk begrudgingly still upset. Well I checked all my damn medicine bottles only to discover I had been taking only Lisinopril all this time when I thought I was only taking amlodipine which I hadn't at all.

I felt like a foolish old man having  given the pharmacists such a hard time when it was my own fault for not paying attention to what medicine I am  taking.

So now I am all good and taking my 4 pills a day so I don’t stroke out but if I do, at least I will have a smile on my face from  my happy pills. It’s a bitch getting old. I guess I am just too damn healthy and stubborn to pay attention to my medicine.

I cooked the hounds their supper however TJ must not have been hungry as he just picked at his food so I put it up so Lucy wouldn’t get to it. Like Daisy was, Lucy is a chow hound.

I made a pot of Chicken and dumplings from the drippings from the thighs I baked for the pups. I prefer that over Chicken soup.

I was home by myself for the rest of the evening and noticed my stomach was a bit queasy so I was grateful to be alone so I could sit on the pot as long as I wanted. Small things are sometimes the best.

I was in bed and didn’t see Argenis or Adrian when they came in.

12 December 2015 Friday

Adrian was up and about the kitchen at 3:30 so I got up to see if anything was wrong. There wasn’t he was just on the phone with some one so I went back to bed but couldn’t fall back to sleep for a while. I  finally was up at 5:30 and made my mocha coffee with mini marshmallows. Michael Romero is returning home from Denver and I will pick him up around midnight.

                It was another warm day but I stayed home mostly working on my research. After Adrian went off to work I was home alone for much of the evening although Argenis came in around 5 but stayed down stairs so I didn’t see anyone.

                I stayed up waiting for Michael to call, which he did around 10 saying he was at the point of the mountain so I started to head down there about 11 because he said he would be in around 11:30 but on the way over, at 11:15, he said he was already at the Amtrack station so I was on my way. He was there waiting for me so I took him home and we visited a bit in the car at his place before I was heading back home at Midnight, I was in bed when Adrian around 1 came and said he was having company come over so he put the dogs in my room and shut my door.  The guy must have been pretty good because I could hear the bed squeaking from the ass pounding trough the walls.  Its their time to be young and lusty before they get old and dusty like me.

 

13 December 2015 Saturday

This morning around 9 I climbed into Adrians bed and snuggled with him and rested some. I had been up since 5:30. He was nude in bed so when he stirred I gave him a really good back and foot massage which is often better than sex which I am sure he got plenty last night. Then around 10 I decided to go to Ross Dress for Less in Bountiful to look for a Winter Coat. I found two I liked and a pair of lounge pants and I also bought a new wallet because my old red one was getting worn. I bought one with a key ring already attached so I can put my keys on them. I like to keep my wallet and keys together because it’s one less thing to worry about. Actually it was probably a women’s wallet but it suited my needs just fine.

                It was another unusually warm and pretty day for mid-December.  When I tried one of  the jackets I bought, it was a bit small across the chest so I went down to the Grove Apartment and gave it to Gabriel hoping he could wear it. I also brought a tin of Danish Christmas cookies for Brayan

                When I came back home Argenis introduced me to his new girlfriend named Jennifer who solo habla un poco de inglés, pero principalmente español.   They were on their way out so I was home again all by myself to research Anna Liday’s history for my writings on forgotten women in Salt Lake City’s history.

                I went to bed early and was up after Adrian called and said there was a delivery at the door he wanted me to put in the refrigerator downstairs. Some woman was dropping off a bunch of Latino frozen foods.  When he came home around 10:30 be brought me Argenis rent of $960 in cash.  Adding that to the money I had in my wooden cash box I had just $20 shy of $1200.  It’s the most money I had in the house in years.  I am slowly recovering from my life with Kyle financially as well as emotionally.

                Ten years ago we had four inches of snow on my deck but this year it's been in the high 50s, bright and sunny. It's the middle of December and my snow blower is gathering cob webs. I am not complaining.   The sun is setting before 5 now a week before the Winter Solstice returns the sun.

 

14 December 2025 Sunday

It was Adrian’s day off today but he was out somewhere doing his Adrian thing I suppose. Yolanda came over with Chuito and was cooking for her boys all day and I took her into work at 430 after I spent nearly $100 on groceries as the Lucky’s. I mostly went to get  items to make some Vegetable Cabbage soup that I learned to make from dad.

                Taco was the only one who didn’t eat any supper so he might not be feeling well.  My cold is breaking up in my lungs and mucus myself.  I guess there is a major outbreak of measles in South Carolina due to idiot anti-vaxxers

There’s  a lot of sad news with actor and director Rob Reiner and his wife being murdered by their son. There’s not much information why.  He was a great social activist and humanitarian and I always  enjoyed his antifa posts against the Trumpian Fourth Reich.  Then in Australia two terrorist gun men slaughter 15 Jews on a popular beach there while celebrating the first day of Hanukah.  A gunman killed two people at Brown University and American soldiers were killed in Syria not long after Trump invited that countries leader to the White House.

 

15 December 2025 Monday

Well it was a good day and a bad day. The good part was going to America First Credit Union to deposit Arjenis rent money and now I have about $5000 in the bank again so finally recovering a little bit at a time from being completely wiped out last August. The bad news was that I was issued a summons as I am being sued for $11,000 for a debt that Kyle had taken out in my name.

                Hopefully I can contact the attorney that filed the suit and show her all the fraud that Kyle had done in my name. I am not terribly worried as the most that could happen if I lost in court would be a lien against the house. With any luck it will not go that far.

                I made some stuffed Bell Peppers this morning. That sounded kind of good. Adrian had the day off but stayed in his room almost the entire day.

I was feeling pretty good about America First and even went to shopping at Deseret Industries’ looking for some Christmas theme plates as I want to make the Nashes some Rice Krispie Treats as Brittany came by the other day with a little Potpouri gift.

                I was home stringing up some more Christmas Lights on the porch step’s  railingwhen I was served.  I knew I was in trouble when she asked for an Edgar instead of a Ben.  At least it was a civil summons and not a criminal one.  I didn’t let it ruined my day. It was just part and parcel of my tumultuous relationship with Kyle.

                Argenis brought Yolanda and Chuito back home this evening. I guess her day off is tomorrow.  The Villalobos were all having a family discussion.  That’s when I sometimes feel isolated as I can’t participate or even understand what is going on. My only clues are laughter and smiles otherwise I am completely clueless.

                Bobbie Smith posted an interview he did in Minnesota for a Podcast back there talking about his coming out experience in Salt Lake City and I was surprised how much he attributed his community activism to me and even said every gay person should be so lucky to have someone in their life like me.  So I got to hear a bit of the ripple effect on my days as a community builder as far away as the Twin Cities.

                In the news Trump posted a vile comment about the death of Rob Reiner saying that Reiner suffered from Trump Derangement Syndrome, which he claims is a mental illness. How despicable and loathsome does a person have to be to take the tragic murder of a true humanitarian artist and his wife and make the family's tragedy all about him?  Probably as despicable and loathsome as the sociopaths who still love this abomination in the  exective office.

 

16 December 2025  Tuesday

There’s nothing to write about today just the same routine as yesterday. Never left the house except to walk the dogs and put the trash cans out.  Sometimes it’s a good thing not to have anything to write about

I was informed by Robert Whyte  that Brook Heartsong passed away December 15, 2025 in Oregon hospice care.  She was born 4 July 1944 and was the chair of the Utah Stonewall Board of Directors in 1997 and over saw the transition of the closing of that facility to the Gay and Lesbian Community Center in 1998. As her health declined she left Utah for her home in Newport, Oregon.  Brook and I did not often agree when I served on the Board of the Utah Stonewall Center and was adamantly opposed to closing the center without appealing to the community for financial aid. Brook could tell the Stonewall Center was in serious financial stress and thought the only way out was to close and regroup. All those who had deep pockets back then had no interest in helping the struggling center until later when Jim Dabakis returned to Utah and stepped up to reinvent the community center as the Gay and Lesbian Community Center of Utah with Charles Frost.  Brook owned  and operated Heartsong Enterprises Inc. and did Bookkeeping and income tax service  by profession. She also volunteered to do the taxes  of several Gay nonprofits in Salt Lake.  In 2001 she was the recipient of the Dr. Kristen Ries Community Service Award.

I knew her as a good friend of Chuck Whyte who passed away earlier this year in August.

Won't be long until all of us who fought the good fight here in Salt Lake will be just distant memories to a few and just names in history accounts to others.   The Circle of Life.

 

17 December 2025 Wednesday

It was quite warm and windy today in the low 60’s with threatening rain clouds and it did for a bit. I wanted to give Mike Romero a quart of the cabbage soup I made, as I know no one at the house will eat it nor the stuffed bell peppers so I brought him one also.  The Columbians rarely eat what I make and I theirs. Cultural differences I suppose.

                I called Mike and since he didn’t answer I went to Deseret Industries and where I bought some fleece lounge pants, a winter scarf and gloves as well a really nice jacket vest which was like brand new.  Also a couple of Xmas long sleeve tee shirts for fun. At $3 each I can just wear them for the holidays and donate them back later.

                After that I went to Glendale Smiths and bought chicken for the pups and more 12 packs of soda pop as we are all out. Then Mike called me back so I stopped in for a bit to give him the soup and bell pepper. He thinks he’s coming down with a cold or flu

                Back at the house Adrian was sad as that he canceled his trip to New York next week. He was so excited to see friends and even had bought tickets  for a weekend there but was warned  by friends to cancel as that ICE  gestapo agents are now targeting airports.

He's here legally through proper channels but is afraid he might be kidnapped because the Trump regime canceled Biden's protective status for Venezuelans. The Trumpian Supreme Court gave the green light to racial profiling so these bounty hunters have carte Blanche to do anything with immunity. ICE is nothing more than a racist domestic terrorist organization bent on ethnic cleansing of Hispanics.  I wouldn’t be surprised if Gays, Muslims, and blacks are on their wish list also. Jews can't be far behind under the Christian Nationalists whose flag flies in the office of the Secretary of Education.

                Yolanda had the day off but Adrian had to go into work. I could tell he was bummed out about canceling his trip but doesn’t dare travel right now.  Alejandro Puy went to Israel and then to his home in Argentina for Christmas. He’s probably there right now. I hope he has no trouble getting back in to the country. We live in trouble times.

                Roy Zang wanted to talk to me so I called him and we bitched and gossiped for about an hour. He just needed to let off steam about him hearing negative comments from someone he thought was a friend.  We all need an outlet sometimes.

 

18 December 2025 Thursday

Some changes with the Villalobos but not sure what. Milagros came over to see Yolanda all upset about something. Adrian said something about Luisito having to wear an ankle monitor at school. Also Johanna is really sick with a stomach virus, perhaps flu, not clear what. Then Adrian said that Luisiana is going back to Venezuela. He left to take Chuito and Yolanda over to Johanna’s

                Yolanda didn’t go into work so she could take care of Johanna so I didn’t have to take her. When she left and Adrian and I were alone, he wanted me to blow him which I did before he went off to work. What a life.

                This evening after feeding the pups I watched a series on Netflix about the early reign of Queen Victoria. It was so good that I binged watched several episodes before retiring.

I was 15 years old when I watched How the Grinch Stole Christmas  for the first time in "Living Color" as my folks had bought their first color television console in 1965. I am 74 years old and still watching it.

Becky Moss once taught me a drinking game back in the late 80s of having a large glass of an alcohol beverage and you had to take a sip every time  "WHO" was spoken. At the end of the program we were more than tipsy. 

I might try that these days but with hot chocolate as I watch it on DVD.

 

19 December 2025 Friday

Leaving the house I noticed that the garage door was not closing. Half way down it would go back up. So I unhooked it to keep it down and called Precision doors and they are sending someone out on Monday to look at it.

I went shopping today down at Lee’s this morning to get some fritters for Mike and me and some homemade flour tortillas and ended up buying a case of Sunkist Oranges then to Luckys to get chicken for the pups and general shopping. I noticed that gas prices are down to around 2.59 a gallon. 

                I checked my phone and had a message from Sal showing me a picture of Persephone beneath a Christmas tree. I am so glad she found a good loving home. Then I saw a long message from Adrian wanting to know if it was okay if Johanna’s crew moves into the house because they just can’t afford the $1800 they are paying for rent with Johanna sick. He wants to use the garage and build a temporary bedroom for himself.  I said I didn’t care what he did as long as I didn’t have to do anything.  Adrian kept saying the house was big and I thought not really but we will make it work. So with Adrian, Yolanda, Chuito, Argenis and his new girlfriend Jennifer and her two girls, and Johann, Jesus, Gabriel, and Brayan and with me there will be a dozen people in the house. Oh well, like I told Mike at least I get to know the people who will be in the house after I die and they will remember me.  Maybe. I always thought it would be Kyle.

I took a long nap this afternoon nearly 3 hours. I must have been tired. It was really damp out today and looked like rain but it never did. It was warm enough in the mid 50’s. I wonder if we will have a White Christmas this year.

I made some onion soup in the crock pot I bought at D.I. the other day. Should be good and ready tomorrow.  Argenis brought over his new girlfriend but they were downstairs all evening so I was mainly alone.  I guess I should treasure these moments as soon it will be total Latino Mundo at the House of Barking Dogs and Habla Espanol.

I was in bed by 10 having weird drams again, maybe from the eggnog I drank before going to bed. Ha! I woke up at Midnight hearing Adrian up and about so I checked in on him and he said that Johanna went back to the Emergency room.

It’s been 3 years since built and I painted at Club Verse for an employee Christmas party in 2022. So much work and now all gone... high expectations dashed when co-owners became sick and one died. It's no longer a Gay Bar and I heard all the construction we did had been removed. Oh well memories are the only thing that last.

 

20 December 2015 Saturday

Today is the 13^th Anniversary of Judge Shelby declaring Utah’s Amendment 3 being unconstitutional allowing Gays to legally marry in Utah

Today is the last day of Samhain and Autumn tomorrow is Yule and the beginning of Winter when the northern hemisphere goes to sleep until Spring or Ostar.

                It was another damp day and I tended to stay home rather go anywhere. I mostly watched several episodes of Victoria a Netflix masterpiece Theater program about Queen Victoria’s early reign.

I am old enough to remember when Thomas Eagleton had to resign as George McGovern's vice-president running mate in the 1972 election because he suffered from bouts of depression throughout his life, resulting in several hospitalizations, which were kept secret from the public. When they were revealed, the McGovern campaign was humiliated, and Eagleton was forced to quit the race.

Instead of electing a decent man like George McGovern American went with I am not a crook Tricky Dick Nixon.  Republicans  have not elected an honorable man since Eisenhower. Ford doesn't count because he was never elected.

Then Reagan was elected over a decent man like Carter. Reagan lowered Tax on Billionaires from 70% to 30 % and  in his second term had clear signs of dementia kept hidden by the  Trinkle Down Billionaire class.

Now the Republicans have  surrounded themselves with people who are obvious mentally ill, like Trump and Kennedy as well as drunkards like Hegseth who had to swear to  lay off the booze to be confirmed. 

I remember stuff and that's why I NEVER EVER vote Republican and think people who say they vote for the man and not the party are foolish and ignorant  about how governance works.  The majority party ALWAYS control the agenda and Republicans have never cared about Main Street Markets of 90% of Americans  only the Stock Market of the 10 percent.

Oh well I will be dead in a few years and it won't matter to me anymore.

Even at my age I hope to be on the right side of history  unlike all these deplorable Trump voters who are now singing jeremiads about how wrong they were to vote for his Mad Reign of Vengeance and humiliation.  They had a previous 4 years to know how evil this  psychopathic man is, whom they thought  was the new White Messiah.

Sorry you are not forgiven for destroying our America and loving a tyrant more than the Constitution for which so much blood was shed just because the price of eggs was too high and you could not stand for an intelligent black woman to lead this nation in its recovery from the mad would be king's first 4 years.

 

21 December 2025 Sunday

Well it’s the beginning of Christmas Week and its been windy and blustery all day. Its like a storm wants to come in but there’s been no rain or snow just leaves being ripped from trees, any that are still left.  The only time I left the house was to take Yolanda into work at Bodega. She’s been staying at Johanna’s place as she’s been so sick.

                Argenis had the day off an I noticed he brought in a bed frame and mattress into the Casita. I imagine its for the girls. He and Adrian were out and about but not so much me this first day of winter and Yule.  I am finally over my cold. I took long enough I suppose. I am definitely not in any Christmas spirit but then I rarely am. I haven’t even watch any of my Christmas shows so far.  I made some chicken and dumplings today but it wasn’t as good as before. Even my onion soup I made earlier last week seemed rather bland. I bought some peanut brittle probably as nostalgia as I haven’t eaten any yet.  I saw a couple of email about my summons. The one I sent using their email address was undelivered and one from Carson said to make sure I answer them so I guess beside getting my garage door fixed tomorrow I will have to deal with that.

 

Hi Edgar,

Please be sure to Answer this Summons/Complaint that you were served with on December 15.  Because we are no longer representing you (our representation was only to create the reports and affidavit), you remain wholly responsible to file an Answer and represent yourself in this matter. FYI: If you were served on December 15, your Answer will be due Monday, Jan 5, 2026. Please follow these instructions carefully on filing an Answer: https://www.utcourts.gov/en/self-help/case-categories/family/answer.html. It is absolutely crucial you file an Answer ASAP to avoid a default. I would not delay.  All the best,

 

To whom it May Concern,

On December 15, I was served a summons dated December 8 in a suit filed by Velocity Investments LLC regarding a loan from WebBank with a balance of $11,305.44. I never authorized a written agreement with WebBank and the summons was the first I learned of it.

 

I have been a victim of identity theft and fraud by Warren Kyle Foote alias Warren Kyle Villalobos who used my name and credit to acquire loans and business licenses under my name. I have filed with the Federal Trade Commission Report for Fraud number 193110837

I have filed with the Salt Lake Police Department a Fraud-Identity Theft complaint GO#SL 2025-217655

Mr. Foote fraudulently operated a business called Papi's One Stop filing a fraudulent business license in South Salt Lake. I reported that also to the South Salt Lake Police jurisdiction LK 2025-28176

Additionally Mr. Foote filed a Title for a Ford F-350 truck that I had to have police notify the DMV to have the title returned to me so I could sell it.

I obtained Carson Robb a lawyer through the Utah Legal Services  801-328-8891 who compiled Identity Theft Affidavits for me regarding Papis.

Additionally Mr. Foote had  a business called Kitchen Operators that operated a kitchen out of Bewilder Brewing owned by Cody McCormick using my credit to purchase supplies. He left owing payroll and thousands of dollars to creditors.  Mr. McCormick also filed a charge against Mr. Foote

Additionally Mr. Foote fraudulently emptied my Fidelity Investment account of all my 401 K savings.

My credit score report is in the 500s as it shows five dings to my credit from fraudulent charges that I am challenging

I am a 74 year old retired man and have also filed a complaint with the Utah State Office of Elder/Senior Abuse

I have no assets or income except for Social Security and a state pension

As far as I know, Mr. Foote, traveling under the name Villalobos moved to Mexico July 31st still owing the Third Judicial  District -Tooele District Court  case number 211300419 $9,000 in restitution.

He was incarcerated in Utah's prison system from 2011-2019

Thank you for your attention in this matter.

Sincerely

Edgar Williams

 

22 December 2025 Monday

Today was rather eventful with lots of projects needing to be done. I did get a peek at the spectacular dawn as the sky was covered with dark clouds lit up underneath by the colors of the sun not yet over the Wasatch Mountains.

 I spent much of the early morning filling out a form to contest the summons I was given last Monday. I was up early by 5 having a somewhat disturbed sleep. I was finishing up scanning the document to have in my files when after 8 the Precision Door man arrived and was able to adjust the garage door without much effort and after paying the bill I gave him $10 just for him. He said it made his day. 

I then decided to gird up my loins and go to the Matheson Federal Court House on State and 4^th South. The last time I was there was 15 years ago to see Kyle who was being sentenced.  Now I feel like I am being sentenced for loving so unwisely.

I was kind of taking back that there was a security guard posted at the entrance to the public parking who abruptly demanded if I had business at the courthouse. I said I needed to see the court clerk to file some papers. Then he told me to roll down all my windows open the hatch back and used a mirror to look beneath my vehicle.  Fifteen years ago there was nothing akin to this almost like I was going out to the prison years ago.

Even inside I had to pass through a scanner but this I was used to after having gone out to Tooele so many times. Anyway the clerk window was very brief and helpful and my case had been assigned a number 259933845 with Judge Vernice Treast. I was told it would probably be after the holidays that I hear anything back.

So it wasn’t as harrowing as I thought it would be but still so unnecessary that Kyle would do this to me. Oh well. Trust in providence.

My lamp by my computer seemed to have stopped working so I dropped by DI and bought a desk lamp for $8. At the check out they only had two people working and they were dealing with people with issues so I was in line waiting for a cashier to finally help me with my one item. It was annoying as I never had to wait that long before but as I was mentally tired it probably was not as aggravating as I perceived.

Back at the house Adrian had his day off but was sleeping in late so after having a bite of lunch I went and laid down with the pups and actually fell  asleep for almost 3 hours at 4:30. I groggily got up to take the pups for their afternoon sniff-a-long. The small collar I bought for TJ is still too big and he slips out of it so much that I let him go most of the way unleashed. He knows to stay on the path and at his age I bet he enjoys the little bit of freedom.

This morning it was quite windy and overcast and a lot of people’s lawn decorations were blown over. However in the afternoon the wind finally stopped and the clouds disappeared and it was 65 degrees out. There will not be a White Christmas this year. The first full day of winter is blustery and windy here in Salt Lake with nary a drop of a snow flake, much too warm as it's been in the sixties. I am not complaining I have no nostalgic feelings for snow or a white Christmas.

After feeding the pups I decided it was time to make the rice Krispie treats for the Nashes. I made two batches one with green food dye and one with red. I served it on a snowman platter I had bought at DI.  It was after 6 and then I fed the pups who said they were starving.

Jeremiah Chesley came over finally to look at why the outlets on the northside of the garage were not working. I showed him where all the outlets were that Kyle put in but he was mystified to why they weren’t working until he found that they were tied into the outside power box where one switch had popped. So he was able to get everything back to work so Adrian was extremely happy.

I gave Jeremiah a lot of the camping equipment that Kyle bought with my money and never used like a full size off the ground camping bed, a 8 man tent, a Dutch oven, and a picnic back pack and a couple of other things. I am sure they were worth around $500 or more and had never been used. I told him that he goes camping or at least knows others who do so I was happy to let him have it all from all that he’s done for us for free, well perhaps not totally free making love to Adrian.

So that was that and by 8 I was in bed again with the pups and then woke up at midnight  hearing this scraping sound like a broom being pushed over the floor. I got out of bed and noticed the lights were on down in the garage so I went down.

There I saw Adrian and Argenis washing and scrubbing and mopping the garage floor and they had removed all the stuff piled along the north wall. So ambitious but it was 60 degrees out.

Adrian earlier told me that Johanna went back to the emergency room tonight.

I went back to bed with the pups, Jack always having to me on my left snuggled next to my body and TJ on my right by my head.  I am so blessed in my old age no matter what Kyle left me to deal with. It was my choice to love a scoundrel.

23 December 2025  Tuesday

I heard someone say if tomorrow is Christmas Eve than today must be Christmas Adam. I heard later tonight that Johanna was getting better. Yolanda and Chuitos stayed at the Grove all day even though I think it’s her day off.

                This morning I cleaned off the work bench as Adrian and Argenis worked so hard yesterday cleaning out the garage. They even put up the Christmas Tree that Kyle had bought for Adrian’s first Christmas at the house. I had thrown out all the Christmas ornaments but kept the tree. I am glad I did although Adrian later told me that he wept a bit from the memories of Kyle.

                It was another warm day in the 60’s when I walked the pups. I let TJ go without a leash now because he stayed up with us and I guess in his old age he deserves a bit of freedom.

                I went to Dollar Tree to buy some Christmas hot pads and to Lucky’s to buy chicken thighs and eggs and a few other things. Otherwise I was home for most of the day.

                While I was in the kitchen doing the dishes, Adrian came up behind me and hugged me then I noticed he was sporting his hard on. I am not a genius but I knew that he needed some attention before he went off to work. I guess that puts us on Santa’s naughty list.

I was home by myself for much of the rest of the day.  Still haven’t watched any of my Christmas shows this year.

I fell asleep around 9 but was woken by some cramping and charley horses so I got up around midnight. I heard the guys down in the garage so I went to see what they were up to.  They were putting up a sheer curtain and Christmas lights and decorating the Christmas tree. They also carried down my dining table to the garage which is the first time moved out of the dining room since I brought it home.

I finally went back to bed and to sleep.

 

24 December 2025 Wednesday Christmas Eve

Well it was a busy Christmas Eve and by the time I called it a day I was exhausted.  Adrian had to work today and Argenis was working also so it depended on me to make sure the garage was cleared out of all stuff so it looked festive with strings of Christmas lights  and decorations.  That took most of the morning.

Then I decided to go to Walmart to buy three area rugs for the garage floor so as  to cover some stains. I know it was crazy going to Walmart on Christmas eve and while super crowded, the place had enough cashiers and self-checkout lines open that it went pretty fast, faster than Deseret Industries yesterday.  

Chuito and Yolanda were back home and I was pretty pleased how the garage turned out. Yolanda set the dinner table with maroon table cloths and gold colored paper plates as well as wine glasses Adrian had bought for the occasion.

I was having what I thought was only 16 people over for a Columbian Christmas Eve dinner all of Adrians family. Adrian, Chuito, Yolanda and I were four, Johanna, Jesus, Gabriel, and Bryan were another set of four, Milagros, Luis, Tutu, and Luisito were another four and however Argenis surprised me by his girlfriend Jennifer having three girls not just two. Chystal and Sophia looked like fourth and first graders but little Ruby was preschool and if four years old I would be surprised.   Additionally Tutu brought her friend and another guy over. I knew there would be a lot with Yolanda’s children and their families so that was why we couldn’t hold the party upstairs and why we cleaned out the garage to hold the fiesta down there. It 65 degrees today so it wasn’t chilly in the garage but I was exhausted

Columbian Christmas is a bit different from my Texan Christmas Eves with grandma and grandpa, lots of music, lots of dancing and lots of exotic foods. Not to them but me, I suppose. No Texas Chili and Grandma’s pies anymore.

It was the first time ever hosting Christmas eve in the garage. Also there will be for the first time children opening presents. That was another first in the house of the Barking Dogs.

Christmas Eve dinner consisted of  down South American way cuisine, roasted pork, tamales, lasagna, potato salad and deli meat sandwiches. Adrian fixed me a plate which was way too much but shared what I didn’t eat with the pups.  Adrian had baked a flan of some type for dessert otherwise no pies or cakes, or Christmas candies.

I just sat on the Kyle’s couch surrounded by TJ, Taco, Lucy and Jack who I brought down to be with me. Jennifer’s girls were taken with Taco who enjoyed their attention. While everyone seemed to be having fun chattering away in Spanish, I  just smile and nodded a lot. I didn’t need to understand anything to know they were having a wonderful Christmas being all together even with Argenis this year. I did have Adrian come over and I had him toast with me to Kyle who without him none of this would be happening.  But I didn’t let his absence spoil the occasion.

                I didn’t stay for the opening of presents as the dogs were ready for bed, past ready, as was I. So around 10 I said Ciao and Feliz Navidad and retired to my room while the party continued unto 2 in the morning.

It sounded like it was getting wild down there in a very South American way... who would thought this would be my life in my old age. Feeling blessed this Christmas Eve

                I’ve been seeing posts of the torrential rains in Southern California that hit on Christmas Eve.  I guess Huntington Beach only a few miles from where I  grew up was especially hit hard as I recognized all the street names.  A soggy wet "Christ-mess" for  Californians.  Of course our Pedophile of the Divided States  won’t say a word or declare California communities a disaster area. I hope my California relatives and friends are safe and dry.

 

25 December 2025 Thursday Christmas Day

I slept in until almost 8, achy and stiff and with a little bit of Sciatica. The house was extremely quiet with no one stirring probably just the mice.  I fixed a breakfast burrito and coffee and then took the pups for their morning constitutional. No one was out but us. It was a little cool with the breeze but still in the fifties. Not a flake of snow this year.

                When I came home, I decided to clean up a little bit from the garage where there were an excessive amount of Corona Beer bottles, wine glasses, and soda pop cans. I brought the dirty dishes up stairs and washed  them up.  I didn’t completely clear everything but got the majority of the remains of the fiesta cleared.

                Yolanda was not up until after 10 and Adrian was sleeping in until 11:30. He said he had to work today.  Christmas is always anti climatic for me. 

                The pups are sleeping a lot, I guess wore out from last night.  Argenis crew were up today using the kitchen and for the girls to get used to the house. Brayan came over today with Gabriel and hung out. Interesting having children in the house.

                I called both Jim McMullin and Mike Today for Christmas. Jim had surgery last Tuesday on his back but is feeling better. Mike went down to the Giles for Christmas and had a nice time.

                I actually had a very quiet Christmas just cleaning up downstairs. No Christmas dinner nor did I care. So this was Christmas 2025.

26 December 2025 Friday

Blustery day and the wind chill made it much cooler today although we were in the mid 50’s or more for much of the day. Both Yolanda and Adrian went to work today. I had to pick Yolanda up from Johanna’s to take her in at 3:30 and before Adrian left, he needed a blow job. Just needed a young man’s physical release.

                Argenis was home all day with the girls and in the evening they were upstairs so getting used to the voices of youngsters around the house. In the evening even Brayan was over so had 4 children being rambunctious.

                Adrian and Argenis finally brought the kitchen table back upstairs after I brought up all the chairs so that’s all out of the garage now.

As this year is winding down, it's often a melancholy time for me as I am missing so many people.

My father passed away the day after Christmas in 2003. Salt Lake was hit with a massive snow storm that  took out power across the city. We were without power for 3 days in the cold and I could not catch a flight home to be with my mom until the airport was up and running again.

                My neighbor Kimberlee worked for Jet Blue and only by her was I finally able to catch a flight home to California after several days of cold dark nights without electricity.  I was outside shoveling a foot or more of snow from the driveway when I heard the news.

Since then it seems like the world has gotten empty of the generation of my childhood. I feel at times that I am an orphan as all parents, aunts and uncles, grandparents and most of my cousins, and having my closest peers and confidants gone. I only have a sister and 3 female cousins left on this earth.

Even now many whom I knew from my generation are one by one in every direction leaving this world, first from AIDS, then Covid, and now just from  being elderly.

Nearly all who knew me in my prime are gone, which a younger generation can never replace. So many friends and lovers gone.  For some of my senior friends everyone they cared about has died.  I am almost there myself.

The hardest part of getting old for me is not just aging it's the loneliness of missing  people and animals you loved as they are just memories now.

In the news Trump ordered bombing in Nigeria against Islamic extremists Dementia Donald spent the Christmas holiday bombing Nigeria with overpriced and scarce long-range Tomahawk missiles  between social media attacks on Somali immigrants, rationalizing his attempted 2020 election steal and reposting calls to jail his political opponents.

 

27 December 2015 Saturday

Adrian was supposed to have left for New York City to visit friends today except he had to cancel because he was warned that Gestapo kidnappers were at the airports and Adrian did not dare take the chance.  Adrian looks whiter than me but speaking Spanish is all that is needed for goons to make you disappear.

                It finally is raining some this morning as it’s too warm to snow.

                I am having to get used to the fact that young girls are living in the house now. While watching a show, Sophie, I think the middle girl came up and was playing with the pups and then the youngest Ruby, not more than a toddler was up banging on a toy keyboard. I was annoyed because I am a grumpy old man but just went with my new reality.  When Argenis and Jennifer came up to use the kitchen I gave up and went to my room. I was already in my night shirt in the front room. The pups were happy for me to go to bed around 7 and I just read Facebooks postings and played picture puzzle games on my tablet.  I have found that arranging the pictures that are all scrambled relaxes me and also I think it helps my cognitive perspective that I could still piece images together.

                Besides walking the pups never left the house today nor did any house cleaning. It was chillier walking the pups and it looked like it might snow  but never did down here but the ski resorts finally got a storm. 

I was alone for much of the day as Yolanda and Chuito returned to stay with Johana and the crew downstairs were gone a lot.  I was napping when Adrian left so Really did not get to see him much either.  I think I am finally done with the chapter on Anna Liday and I just need to proof read it.

For much of last year i had been following the adventures of a silly but loveable rescued bullie nick name Mr. One Toof. He had millions of followers and i looked forward to each post because it made my heart smile. Tragically he died  in a dog attack on Christmas Eve and now tens of thousands are posting and grieving for a gentle soul who was one of bright spots in 2025.  Goodbye  sweet Raffie.. gone too soon.

Maren Peeter, who shared her love for her bullies that she rescued from being bait dogs on the internet  must be totally heartbroken losing Odin and Raffie. Anyone who loves dogs understand her loss. Odin passed today attacked for trying to protect Raffie Mr. One Toof...they were separatable in life and now death. So  tragic

 

28 December 2025 Sunday

The end of the year is getting stranger and stranger for me. When the house quieted down, I went to bed at 10 last night and didn’t hear Adrian come home until midnight. He took a shower which usually means he was expecting a gentleman caller. Yolanda and Chuito were over at Johana’s as she was in the emergency room again for stomach pains. I am sure the doctors have ruled out appendicitis that  Milagros had a while back.

                Any way around 12:30 I heard the dogs barking profusely at the doggy gate I have at my bedroom door so I got up to shut my door to stop them and when I did I saw Adrian on his knees blowing this young guy. I was taken back but excited to see Adrian enjoying this man.  So I went back to bed when to my surprise Adrian came and asked me if I wanted to watch them have sex. Well my mother never raised a fool so I went into Adrian’s room and sat in a corner to watched him suck on this Latino boy. 

                When Adrian turned over on his bed, this guy penetrated Adrian and I went over and began to suck on Adrian’s cock while he was being pleasured. The Latino came and shot his load all over Adrian’s backside and I grabbed some wipes to clean him off. 

                Adrian wasn’t done and began sucking on this boy while he jacked off spewing his cum. I then left to go back to my room so they could have some time to visit. The reason I knew this boy was Latino was he spoke Spanish with Adrian and Adrian had asked him at first if he minded me coming to watch them. He evidently didn’t or thought Adrian was too damn handsome to refuse him anything.  Later Adrian said that this kid was not a trick from Grindr but someone he knew before.

                Anyway I was horny from that midnight delight and jerked off to try and release my own  tension.  I thought I would just fall back to sleep but I was too wired up. Adrian and his El Salvadoran friend visited for nearly a half an hour after having fucked were both dressed now. 

After the boy finally left,  Adrian came in to my darken room and asked if I was tired as he asked if I would come and give him a foot massage as his feet were sore.  After the delightful experience of inclusion how could I say no? I wouldn’t have anyway. 

So I went into his darken room and for the first time I joined him in the nude. I massaged his feet really well hearing him moan in pleasure and then gave him a full body massage from head to toe from fingertip to fingertip. Its an intimacy I enjoy as much as he.

                Finally it was after 2 when I tucked him in, kissed his forehead and joined my canine companions in my own room.  It felt like I had experienced a Christmas Miracle. I know puritans believe sex is only for procreation but the sweetness of Gay sex is that it’s for recreation and also bonding.

                Adrian has allowed me to bond with him in such a way that was impossible for Kyle to share with me as much as I loved him. The few times I saw Kyle have sex with someone while in the hot tub, it was furtive and even felt intrusive but it was the only way I could experience vicarious sex with him besides viewing the sex scene he had taped fucking this guy that he had downloaded on his old computer that he did when he was in his twenties.

                Adrian once told me that he wanted Kyle to include me in a romp but Kyle would have none of it. Unlike Adrian Kyle only like young men.

                Oh well what a way to wrap up the year.

                It was nearly 3 in the morning before I finally slept and I woke to strange dreams of grocery shopping and also wanting to move to Rawlins Wyoming to live with Mike Romero’s parents. I wonder what that was all about.

                So I got up at 8 did the kitchen dishes up while my coffee was brewing and made myself some breakfast.

                Then I decided to go to Sutherlands to buy a sink stopper as the cheap one I had bought at Dollar Tree had broken. While there I also bought TJ a collar that actually fits. I have started letting Taco go with just a leash like Jack and Lucy on our walks. That way he can stop and sniff at his heart’s content rather than me pulling on the fishing line. We have walked the same route for years and they have marked their trail that I am not worried about them running off.

                After that magical event of last night Adrian stayed in bed nearly all day tired out and I think a little depressed that he wasn’t spending time in New York with his friend Axel. I went and laid down with him through out the day and took Yolanda to work from Johanna’s place.

                I fixed a pot of pinto beans and saved what I could of the left over pork roast from Christmas Eve.

                When Adrian started moving and fixing himself some rice pudding, we had a serious talk about Kyle and said no one will ever know how we can still love him knowing what we know. Adrian told me how much he loves me and that he never knew any of his grandparents and I am like the only one he has had.  He also told me in confidence that Jeremiah Chesley, who has a house in Bountiful, said that Adrian will always have a bedroom for himself there.

                He also said the family is worried about immigration as someone he knows from work had a relative deported and he thinks that Luisiana’s boyfriend was going to be arrested so he self-deported to Venezuela.  The family is just in an anxious state under this terror regime.  Who knows what 2026 will bring as all my Columbian family may be deported even though they have all gone through all the legal channels.

                In the evening Yolanda and Chuito came back home and its getting a little annoying for me getting used to the little girls as I had to get after them for messing with the pups so that Jack snapped at them. I said they could pet them but don’t try to play with them as they are not used to children and are very protective of their space.  Also the youngest preschooler cries at times and has a musical keyboard that plays The Wheels on the Bus Goes Round and Round and other little kid songs LOL.  I guess I should be used to it but I taught upper grade kids for this very reason to avoid the younger one.

                I was in bed around 11 I heard Adrian sobbing in his room and he was in bed with his mother who was trying to comfort him. He was still weeping over Kyle so I held his hand and just said that Kyle is not worth your tears, nor mine.

 

29 December 2025 Monday

At my age Snap, Crackle, and Pop is no longer a kiddie cereal but how I get out of bed in the morning. But at least I am still moving.  It was a much cooler day down in the 30s for most of the day. I have been putting off contacting the collection agency that is suing me, procrastinating probably due to the holiday week and nothing would get accomplished anyway.

Adrian would have returned from New York City if not for the fact Fascism is in control of the government. I went to D.I. this afternoon without any expectation of it not being busy. I realize now it’s the economy and more and more people are shopping there out of necessity unlike me who is mostly a browser. I did go with the objective of looking to see what kind of used furniture I might fine for the garage if Adrian turns that into a bedroom. Well I did I found an upright chest of drawers in not bad condition that I bought for $45. I also bought some more smaller  cooking pots as we were down to two and Yolanda uses them a lot for various things

30 December 2025  Tuesday

I was so angry this morning as when I started walking the pups I saw that a Rottweiler was on the loose at the corner of Daleridge and Fernleaf.  I was able to get the pups home without incident but wanted to find out where that dog lives. I followed him in the car and he kept snarling at me showing his teeth. Found out that he lives at 1634 Fernleaf across the street from me where the people there don’t even have a fence in their yard. I went to the house upset to tell them their dog was on the loose. He denied that his dog had attacked anyone and was harmless even though it was snarling at me and a Facebook post said that a man had been attacked by it while running. The jerk acted like the dog had just gotten loose when without a yard I know they just let him out because too damn lazy to walk him.

I told him he shouldn't have a dog if he can't take care of it properly. He was not happy with me. I thought about filing a complaint with Animal Control but thought not to escalate bad feelings between neighbors unless I see that dog out again. I don’t blame the dog just its owners.

I am all set for New Years Eve as I went to the Lords State liquor store when they opened at 11 and bought my bottle of Mogen David and Spanada.   Ben Barr used to call it Mogen David Jewish Kool-ade because it’s so sweet. The cashier looked at it and I said I am a light weight lol. I mostly want to have it for a sip at bedtime to sleep better. I did restrain myself from buying a bottle of Boone Farm strawberry wine because I didn’t want to become a wino.  LOL I think if drinking wine is good enough for Jesus it's should be good for me also.

Once I was home, I stayed in for the day and tried to nap but when the girls where upstairs making a racket and going up and down stairs I went and complained to Adrian. I said I didn’t sign up for the house to become a daycare center. At least Jefranny was quiet most of the time. I really wasn’t upset with the girls as they are just being children but there has to be some rules set up so the house isn’t in an uproar.  Yolanda was basically having to baby sit them all day and feeding them. I said I certainly hope she is being paid for watching Jennifer’s kids. I am kind of annoyed with Argenis for bringing home a woman with three young children when we were told only two were coming. It was the same with Leidimar he never told us that Jefranny was coming also.

Adrian went to the doctors today to have his thyroid checked as he’s been feeling really tired and his sister Johanna has had thyroid issues. He said he had spent the night with Jeremiah Chesley in Bountiful.

I spent much of the day creating a time line for 16 year old Arthur Liday’s bicycle cross country trip from Salt Lake City to Chicago and back in 1893.

This evening Adrian, Argenis and Brayan went Ice Skating. I was up and down most of the night with people coming and going.

 

31 December 2025 Wednesday

It's been an incredible December with no snow and temperatures mainly in the 50s and 60s here in Salt Lake. I've had Xmas lights up since November, I guess it's about time to take them down while the weather still holds.

                After walking the pups I decided to go to Rose Park’s Smith to see if they had soda pop on sale. The sign said buy two get two free. So I loaded up 4 of them and when I got to the self-checkout it didn’t give me the sale. So I called the assistant over who looked 18 and wearing sweats and said the Pepsi didn’t count even though the sign said it did. Frustrated as it kept ringing me up as $40 instead of $22. The kid was no help saying that sale was buy 2 get one free. Since I was already charged $40 he said to go to customer service but once there I realized I left my debit card at the checkout. Ugh! Fortunately it was turned in.  So After 30 years I am done with Rose Park Smiths and just will either use Glendale or Bountiful. So frustrating the lack of customer service at that store.

                Anyway I calmed down and made some banana-blueberry-nut bread which turned out really good. I also made another pot of Chicken and dumplings which hit the spot.

                Adrian had to go into work but said he should be home a couple of hours earlier. Yolanda had the day off.

                I started reviewing my journal from 2025 and only got to April 1^st. It was almost like I was under a spell how much money I was spending for Kyle and the amount of work I was doing for him.  He completely remodeled the kitchen at Bewilder at the time and what do we have to show for that?  Nothing.

                I did go to the library and checked out a few library mystery novels. At the beginning of the year Kyle was using my FIT all the time so I was home a lot and was a voracious reader as I could do much else.

It was 2026 somewhere in the world so I decided to just go to bed  at 7:30 with the pups. Good enough for me. Well I thought I'd be in bed by midnight but Adrian wanted me to join those who didn’t have to work tonight down in the garage. Of my pups only Lucy and Jack came down to visit the crew. Jack, however, wanted up in my lap.  I hoped I could stay awake as my thimble full of Mogen David was making me drowsy.

Adrian had cleaned up the garage a bit and those over were Luisito, Johanna, Brayan, Gabriel, Chuito, Yolanda, Argenis, and Jennifer. I just sat with Lucky on my laps and took videos of the dancing and singing. Brayan was so cute swaying to the music.

Now that I think  about it, I didn’t think or miss Kyle at all. I barely knew it was midnight until the gang stared counting down and then  everyone wishing a Happy New Year. I certainly hope it will be one. Everyone clicked glasses and hugged each other at the stroke of midnight. Even Argenis gave me an embrace which kind of surprised me. I asked Adrian if I could go to bed now said Ciao and went back upstairs  to join my pack in my bed.

This year was such a transitional one with one Kyle crisis after another and me trying to keep everything afloat. He disappeared at the end of July and I have heard nary a word whether he’s alive or dead.  I suppose it really doesn’t matter anymore. This year slammed the door shut on my 15 year obsession with Warren Kyle Foote alias Villalobos.

The year saw the rise of fascism and oligarchy in America with tariffs, ICE terrorism, Department of War and our health system collapsing.

"The U.S. surpassed 2,000 measles cases this year for the first time since 1992 under the public health stewardship of Health and Human Services Secretary Robert F. Kennedy Jr." Between eliminating the agencies that could have helped stop the spread of Covid, putting a lunatic like Kennedy in charge of America's health and allowing Congress to kick millions off of the Affordable Care Act it should be obvious except to psychopaths or braindead that Pedophile Trump doesn't give a shit about Americans except as fools to engorge himself with gold.

People who act like Measles are no big deal never read Gone With the Wind where Scarlett's first husband Charles Hamilton died of Measles contracted in an army camp.  Measles can be deadly as well as it leaves lifelong health issues.