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Spring 2nd Quarter Journal 2023 April-June

 

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1 April 2023 Saturday

It was a cold day with the breeze but it was clear and there was no snow. This morning Kyle Foote came up with a $2000 check and wanted us to go to the credit union  to deposit it. We went to America First in Lee’s Market and I deposited the entire check in my line of credit but then had a certified check made out for $1800 to the Tooele Court that either we or I will take out on Monday

. Adrian Villalobos came up to fix himself some breakfast before heading off to the gym and Kyle was back downstairs all day working from home.

            When I took the pups for a walk this morning Peter and Brittany Nash were out in their front yard working and listening to the General Conference which was blaring on the radio. It reminded me of how Jay and Gisela used to have it on full blast back in the 1990’s when they lived across the street from me. The neighborhood used to be mainly Mormons back then but 25 years later its mostly Mexican and Polynesian. I think how over the same time period my folks home in Garden Grove went from being almost exclusively white to almost all Vietnamese and Mexican.  Places have their seasons. There are three stages of life.... wanting stuff, accumulating stuff, and getting rid of stuff... I am in the last stage.

            I really didn’t do much except my usual routine. Kyle came up around supper time and asked if I wanted anything from China Delight. I had just gotten up from too long of a nap and was rather groggy but I said sure and he brought me home some Pork Chow Mein. Adrian was out driving for door dash so I didn’t see anyone after that before going to bed.

            I watched some old movies on HBO I had put in my queue like Betty Davis in “Now Voyager”.  I still enjoyed the old melodrama and even with all the smoking that was meant to be romantic.

            At one point Maxx and TJ were outside barking incessantly and when I went to shut them up, I saw that they were barking at a dead squirrel that was lying in the little area where I had buried Buster.  It was way too dark outside so I covered the little creature so the dogs would leave it alone.

            I fell asleep on the lazy boy so around 10:30 got up to go to bed. In my room I heard faint music and was surprised to see Kyle and Adrian using the hot tub which they hadn’t since Adrian’s birthday last November. They were romantic and that made me happy that life goes on this first of April.

2 April 2023 Sunday

It was a cool day and kind of overcast but it didn’t keep me from walking the pups and burying the dead squirrel by the side of the house in the backyard. He was a big one, nearly as big as TJ so I had to bury him deep.  I went to Smith’s to buy the pups, some dog treats and some other groceries as well as going to Lucky’s to buy chicken which is usually cheaper.

            I never saw Kyle Foote at all today while Adrian Villalobos came up to put some groceries away, he had bought but after that he disappeared downstairs so I spent most of the day alone.

            When I took some trash out to the garbage bins, Carlos Bahena was outside with his family and said that he’s taking his family down to Mexico for about 2 weeks and asked if I would check for their mail like I did last time. His people live about 3 hours south of Mexico City so they will have a long drive.

            He also said that he had accidently left the garage door open the other night and some intruder came into their house around 4 in the morning but got scared and ran away. I guess I need to secure my house better.

            I posted my research on Henry Enoch Carter the so called General of the Industrial Army here in Utah in1894 and started in on his daughter Glenora Carter aka Lena Carter and Mamie Evans.

            I took a long nap in the afternoon and didn’t wake up until nearly 5 in the afternoon in time to feed the hounds. Not sure why I am napping so long now. My right bottom molar is getting more and more sore from the cavity and I hope I can stand it until I have my appointment at Roseman.

            Next week I need to go down to the DMV and renew my driver’s license. It’s been 5 years already.

            Kyle and Adrian had company over in the evening, probably Adrian’s in-laws but who knows I wasn’t invited.

3 April 2023 Monday

When I got up at 5:30 to fix some coffee and start breakfast I looked outside and the neighborhood was blanketed with at least 4 inches of snow and it was still snowing. I knew that it must have gotten really cold last night because when the pups came in from outside and hopped back into bed, they were chilly. I had a hard night as my jaw was sore from the cavity and I was up four- or five-times peeing. My right shoulder was really hurting also like bursitis so I slept with a heating pad on it.

            I worked on the computer posting This Day In Gay Utah History and posting the tragic life of Glenora Carter aka Mamie Evans on my West Second South Face Book page and to the People of Utah site.

            Kyle Foote didn’t want Adrian Villalobos driving in the snowy conditions so he took him to school. Around 10:30 there was a break in the weather enough for me to Shovel my walks so I could take the pups for a walk. The snow was really wet and heavy full of water. The state is worried about flooding if the snow pack melts too fast.

            Kyle and Adrian came home around 11 just as I had finished shoveling and I went with Kyle to go pay his restitution. We took my car so Adrian could use the Terrain which is a better car in the snow. The roads were clear until we reached Lake Point heading into Tooele then it snowed the entire time we were there. I was glad that Kyle decided to drive rather than me just going out there by myself.

            The trip gave me a chance to catch Kyle up about the Bahena family going to Mexico and Jim Dabakis sending me tickets to go see Hairspray at the Eccles Theater on April 16. Jim wanted me to go but I have no interest in going so I know Kyle will enjoy taking Adrian. We talked about going to the Texas Roadhouse for my birthday and he wanted me to invite Alan Anderson, and T.J Otaka and Jim McMullin also. I wasn’t planning on making it such a fuss  but agreed.

            Back home I fixed a meatloaf, potatoes au gratin, and deviled eggs for supper then I took a nap since I didn’t sleep well last night.

I thought a lot about Bill Poore today. It's been a week since he passed and there was no funeral or memorial service so it's kind of like he just went away. But memories are what are important, not funerals. Rich Butler thinks I should hold a memorial for him and Kyle asked if I had donated his paraphernalia to the Marriott Library yet. I know they mean well but I don’t have the emotional energy to plan a memorial which his family should have done nor am I ready to sort through the collection that I saved.

Kyle and Adrian came up to have some supper and Adrian kept teasing me about my birthday coming up. I love to hear him laugh. Its infectious and joyous.

After they went down stairs, I watch some television and looked out the bay window to see snow flurries here by the north Jordan River in Westpointe. If you were out in it, I am sure you would call it a blizzard. It is supposed to snow all evening and night long well into Wednesday. I am not bitching. My house is warm. I have plenty of food in the house and I have no place I have to be.

In the news Trump is in New York City where he will be indicted tomorrow, finger printed and have a mug shot.

4 April 2023 Tuesday

The snow storm must have blown horizontally instead of vertically last night as this is the first time my covered deck and hot tub were blanketed with snow when I looked out my bedroom door this morning.

It’s been a crazy spring. Here it is April and there’s no daffodils, no tulips, primroses, grape hyacinths, tree blossoms, or forsythia blooms. Trees have snow blossoms instead of cherry blossoms. Everything is late this year.

I made Adrian Villalobos some hard-boiled eggs for his breakfast and some pancakes for mine. When I went to work on my computer, Ancestry.com hadn’t received my renewal, so I took a break from doing any research. 

It's been snowing all morning nonstop and I didn’t even got out of my night shirt until 5 in the late afternoon just watching the tube and Trump getting indicted in New York City.

All winter I never seen the snow fall continuously as it has today. There was never been a break in the falling snow, only a let up to flurries, but never a complete stop until around 5 in the late afternoon. The Sidewalks are buried so the pups did not get a morning walk but by Thursday hopefully, the snow it will all be gone I am sure of it.

Adrian came home after school and came upstairs to fix something to eat and he zoomed and talked with his sister for a long time. I have no  idea what they said but he was animated and joyful.  I never saw Kyle Foote all day.

The pups slept most of the day or watched the snow fall outside the bay window. But at 5 there was a break in the snow storm so Taco insisted we go for a walk. Snow was at least 5 inches deep and I had to carry TJ for much of the way wherever the sidewalks had not been cleared. Maxx and Lulubelle raced through the snow-covered walks from one clear patch to another and I was pooped myself from trudging through the snow.

I really didn’t eat anything substantial today. Only had some tomato soup and snacked. I didn’t feel like cooking anything but just snuggled in the lazy boy with Taco and TJ in my lap.

I watched most of “Merry Christmas, Mr. Lawrence” which I had never seen before but heard of. David Bowie and Tom Conti are British prisoners of war in a Japanese camp in Java.  I watched most of it but didn’t finish it as it got too intense for the mood I was in. So instead, I watch some old shows like Glee, The Golden Girls, and Community before calling it a night.

I hope no one has to go out tonight. It looks really scary out with another 5 to 6 inches falling just this evening and more is predicted overnight. Kyle’s Terrain was gone all evening which made me a bit nervous if he was out driving in the storm but as I was going to bed around 9:30 I heard the vehicle pull into the driveway.

I was 6 days from my 17th birthday when Martin Luther King was assassinated in Memphis, Tenn. I had some pretty racist views 55 years ago as a kid, coming from a misguided sense of being Southern and all the race riots that were happening in the Sixties. I was pretty clueless and atoned by going to hear Coretta King speak at the First Baptist Church in 1987. People can evolve and change and admit their foolishness.

5 April 2023 Wednesday

Looks like Santa's big scene instead of the Easter bunny this morning here by the Jordan River and the airport in SLC. There is snow everywhere although it wasn’t snowing this morning. I fixed Adrian Villalobos some breakfast to take off to school. He likes 3 boiled eggs and then whatever else, sometimes rice sometimes pancakes.

            I had a phone call from Jim McMillan returning my call from yesterday and we visited for about a half hour catching up. He and TJ Otaka will join us for Alan Anderson and my birthdays at Texas Roadhouse. He did suggest that we make reservations for that large of a crowd as there will be 8 of us. I later texted Kyle to make reservations and he said he would. I hope he remembered.

            About 11 the pups were dying for a walk so I put on my snow boots and took them around the block. The snow was already getting slushy. Then back home I shoveled my steps, and the entire side walk. The snow was really heavy from all the water content. I didn’t do the driveway because I wasn’t going anywhere and knew as the day progressed it would probably melt and I was right. Besides, I have two men 20 and 40 years younger than me who should be doing it.

            Kyle stayed home working downstairs for much of the day although around 1 we went to Exxon together to get our Dr. Pepper fix. Kyle had a call from a guy about a pizza oven for the new job helping opening a pizza and sandwich store in South Jordan so I didn’t see him after that for the rest of the day and just Adrian for a bit as he brought dishes up for me to wash from downstairs before he went off door dashing. I guess I am the mamacita cooking and doing dishes but you serve who you love.

            It got up to 40 degrees today and much of the snow outside had started to melt and actually it was a very pretty day with blue skies against the blanched mountains.

            The tickets that Jim Dabakis sent me for Hairspray came today via email finally and I had a surprise text from Kimball Edwards asking how I was and that we should get together when the weather clears. I will respond back maybe next week.

6 April 2023 Thursday

            I fixed Adrian Villalobos some boiled eggs and me some breakfast this morning. It turned out to be a nice sunny day and only patches of snow are left on the ground so the pups got two walks today.

After working on Warren Foster’s research, who was a Utah Candidate for the Progressive Party in 1896 and 98, I decided I ought to go and renew my driver’s license which expires on Monday. The office is at The Fairgrounds so it’s not far at all. It wasn’t too bad of a deal as you filled out your application on a kiosk and then went and had  your picture taken.

You know you are old when you don’t care what your new driver’s license picture looks like. I mean it’s not like if I get stopped the cop is going to look at my license and ask me out on a date.

I passed my eye examination which I knew I would,  paid my 27 dollars, and then got my temporary license which is good until my new one comes in the mail.

Since I was out that way, I went to Rancho Market on North temple and 9th West. The old parking lot to the north, where Walgreens used to be, had a four-story apartment complex  going in that dwarfs the store. I just bought some fruit and vegetables for Adrian.

After coming back to the house, I stayed home the rest of the day. Chuck Whyte called to visit to see how I was doing because he was thinking of Bill Poore, and I said I was fine. I know Bill’s illness is over now.

In the evening I heard this weird repeating sound so investigating, Adrian was in the guest bedroom studying his English lessons which he had fallen behind on. So, I sat with him and helped him, using my teaching skills and teaching him how to pronounce certain sounds in English.

When he was tired, we quit and Kyle Foote came up around 8 to fix some supper and that was about the only time I interacted with him.  I watched  a little television but went to bed around 10.  Not an exciting day but that is certainly okay. At least I had my driver’s license taken care of.

7 April 2023 Friday

When I checked the mail after walking the pups there was a letter from the Third District Court in Tooele saying that Kyle Foote hadn’t paid his restitution when I had the receipts that he had.  Evidently because we paid at the end of February for March and didn’t pay April until the 3rd, they were claiming we didn’t pay for March, so screwed up. His lawyer is going to have to straighten them out.

            Then when Adrian  Villalobos came home from school, he had a friend come over to help him with his Spanish. They sat at the kitchen table while I kept the pups in the bedroom with me while I worked some more on Warren Foster’s story. This guy I guess is the father of a friend of his and he’s working on a book about Latin Migration and he’s written it in Spanish and he asked if I would read his English translation for corrections. I had him email it to me as I said I would.

            I was in the mood for something tasty so I went to Lucky’s and bought fixings for Strawberry Shortcake  I also bought a Red Barron single size frozen Pizza and surprisingly it was tasty and just enough to satisfy my craving for Pizza.

            In the evening I watched a Paramount Plus new show called the Rise of the Pink Ladies as a prequel to the movie Grease. The sets and costumes were bright and colorful and the dancing great but the lyrics to the new songs were kind of weak in my opinion. I watched two episodes and will watch it, I think, some more, as something to do in the evening.

            The fascists GOP in Tennessee expelled two black Democratic legislators for protesting for Gun reform and not the white woman who did the same. The protests stemmed from the mass shooting at a Christian school in Nashville.

8 April 2023 Saturday

I finally finished compiling the research on Warren Foster and posted it to my history Face Book pages. I do it to preserve my writings more than anything. I later did a quick write up of a 19th century English Mormon Convert William Fidkin who was a volunteer fireman in the 19th Century who lived in Block 64.

            I went to Walmart in Centerville and it was crowded as all get out with last minute Easter shoppers. Most Mormons observe Easter egg hunts today rather than on Sunday. I bought a pair of slip-on sneakers to wear now the weather is warming to put on to walk the pups. I also bought them more doggie treats. Their lives are short so why not indulge them?

            I guess Kyle Foote and Adrian Villalobos went shopping too and spent much of the day cleaning downstairs. They brought a lot of Adrian’s winter clothes up to store in the spare bedroom and retrieved his summer clothes.

            I made two batches of rice, one white and one yellow today but besides cooking the pups their chicken, I didn’t take anything for Easter. I don’t feel like cooking anything. Even if I did, probably the boys would eat it down stairs. Besides Kyle doesn’t care for ham and that is what I usually make for Easter.

            It was nice out walking the pups, not really warm but not chilly either. There’s just small patches of snow left where it had been piled up. Still no tulips, daffodils, or other spring flowers. It’s the latest I have ever noticed Spring flowering. Even the forsythia’s which always flower in March haven’t even begun to bloom.

As I approach 72 years, I can look back and know I did some good in this old world.  Teaching was the hardest and most rewarding job I ever had. All through my teaching career though, I had to hide that I was Gay which attributes were the very thing that made me a nurturing elementary teacher. 

       I stayed in the closet at work because I knew I could do more good as a teacher than in any other job  I had previously, but it was very stressful especially because out of the classroom I was a Gay Activist in Salt Lake and could have been exposed at any time and fired. Times have changed... thank Providence and Wendy Weaver.

9 April 2023 Easter Sunday

Easter was always a big deal in my family growing up. Not as a religious observances but as a family affair. There would be pictures of us kids in our new Easter Clothes, Easter baskets, Easter egg hunts with all the cousins, and extended family picnics at various parks in Southern California. I especially remember Hill Crest Park in Fullerton and rolling down the hill with my cousins.  It was a time to see and be with all my aunts and uncles on my Williams' side of the family, all who are gone now with very few cousins even left now.

 I rarely associated the day as having any religious meaning although my family were staunch Church of Christ members. We never went to church on Easter. That seemed too Catholic somehow.

Family was always more important to my Grandma Williams than any dogma that might keep any of her family away.  We never talked about religion or politics at family gatherings. Sports and work was safe topics for the men and among the women food and their kids.  While my boy cousins played or watched sports I always hung out with my mom and aunts because that was where the food and gossip was. Little Junior was a peculiar child.

It was a quiet day here on Fernleaf. I walked the pups twice, went and got a Dr. Pepper with Kyle Foote, saw Adrian Villalobos for a bit but they stayed down stairs most of the day together.

I was listening to Jesus Christ Superstar which I like to do on Easter. I first bought the album in 1971 and it kind of changed my life. I had surprise visit from Roy Zang and his Chinese Husband, Tony. We had a nice visit, gossiping and catching up. Roy is now an apartment manager of the new apartment building located on the north east corner of 6th West and 2nd South in Lot Four of City Block 64 right across the street from where the In Between used to be. 

 We dished on Rocky O’Donovan which is always fun recalling what a free loader he is and desperate to be relevant. Roy’s mother is in the Senior living community down on 10th North and Redwood Road so when in the neighborhood he comes sees me.

He said that he thinks there has been a complete turnover of directorship of the center since Robert Moolman was ousted. I said I don’t keep up with their shenanigans anymore because the center is just not relevant to me anymore and if the Gay Men’s support group was not meeting there I would probably never go back again.

After they left, I fed the pups and watched some television by myself. This guy from the Salt Lake City Weekly, Wes Long wants to meet with me this coming Thursday at the Rose Park library to pick my brain about MCC in the 70’s and some kid from Eric Peterson’s U of U investigation class wants to video tape me on some history.  I guess I have lived long enough to be the keeper of ancient history.

This is the last day I will ever be 71. I did call my sister Donna down in Bullfrog Arizona. Nothing is new there except my grandniece Dee Jones who will graduate this year from high school.  Grandmas sit in chairs and reminisce and the Beat Goes On.

10 April 2023 Monday

72 years ago, I was born in a little co-opt hospital in Amherst, Texas. My folks were farming about 20 miles south of Olton where they were married in 1946. I was born in Lamb County because I am such a little lamb.

            I fixed Adrian Villalobos some breakfast to take to school and he gave me a long  deep embrace saying happy birthday to me and that he loves me. What more does an old man need?

            It was a pretty day and reached over 75 degrees. In fact, it was nice enough outside for me to clean out some of the flower bed this morning, mostly leaves from over the winter.

            I started having many birthday wishes from Face Book friends and worked a bit on the computer. Michael Romero came over at 2:30 with Coco to drop off and we went with Adrian and Kyle Foote in his Terrain although he wanted me to drive as he was expecting a call at 2:30 about work.

So, I had a nice birthday dinner at Texas Roadhouse on 47th South off of Redwood  with good friends who are more like family. Because it's Alan Anderson's birthday too we celebrate together when we can. T.J. Otaka and McMillan joined Alan and Kyle G. Daniels along with Mike, Kyle, and Adrian. Of course, I didn't eat much but the company is why you go out. I just ordered some potato skins and filled up on bread. I think everyone else had steak and had a good time. We stayed for almost two hours and when we left TJ and Jim even gave me some beautiful flowers and jelly beans.

So, I had a very nice 72nd birthday and in the evening, Kyle came up and visited a bit while Adrian was out driving for door dash. He wanted me to know that he had called his lawyer about the notice he received last week that the court hadn’t received a payment in March which we had and was told not to worry about it. He told me a little bit of his working as a restaurant consultant which is his latest gig. He wanted to know if I had a nice birthday and it was his way of showing that he cares for me even if our relationship has its ups and downs.

I been noticing that Deb Hall’s Seniors Out And Proud [SOAP] group is expanding into St. George and they are having several events at Club Verse. I have nothing against Club Verse at all but I am reluctant to go to any function there after they had let Kyle go. I wish them well, however.

I am meeting with a man this Thursday at Rose Park Library to share what I know about MCC in the 70’s and some student from Eric Peterson’s Investigation class wants to interview me also. So, I guess they want as much as they can before I kick the bucket.

My dentist appointment at Roseman is on Wednesday.

11 April 2023 Tuesday

I was up late today, nearly 6:30 and fixed myself and Adrian Villalobos some breakfast. He takes his as he runs off to school. After doing my computer gig, posting this Day in Gay Utah History, writing in my journal, posting on my West Second South site and to the People of Utah site, I decided to walk the pups and do some yard work.

            I first went to Sutherlands to maybe get some spring plants but they had hardly anything just some pitiful looking wilted pansies and primroses. I was also going to get some mice traps but they only had two checkouts open with about 10 people in both lines so I just left. There was nothing I needed that much to wait in line. So, I just left and went to Lucky’s to buy groceries and I also bought me a cake since I didn’t get one yesterday. What is a birthday without a cake?

I then came home to work in my front yard, cleaning out flower beds and shoveling and leveling piles of soil that Kyle Foote and Adrian had dug out of the area where my tree use to be between me and my neighbor and had just dumped. Two hours about done me in. I ain’t a spring chicken anymore and the work about done me in.

I had bought some white fish also while at the store which I fried up for Adrian’s lunch and then took a long nap in the lazy boy. I must have been really tired as I slept for almost 2 hours. At 5 I groggily walked the pups, had a bite to eat before heading out to the Gay Men’s support group that meets at 6:30.

I also texted Kimball Edwards hoping he didn’t want to meet tonight because I was not feeling up to it and we postponed it until tomorrow night. The meeting was really pretty lively perhaps 12 to 15 men there. It didn’t matter what the topic was because we usually become very eclectic. I sat next to Dwight Wood tonight and we are usually bad boys together. One of the topics that this cute young man wanted to know about was the sex phone lines we older Gays used. 

I came home around 8:30 posted the story of John McKeever a man who once lived where the Mexican Civic Center is today  before going to bed around 11.

It was a gorgeous day in the mid-80s but another storm is expected by Thursday, mostly rain.

12 April 2023 Wednesday

I woke up having the strangest dreams lately like I am observing other people’s actions instead of me being in them. When I finally woke up, I was kind of groggy, I had a pain in my chest hoping I wasn’t having a heart attack. Not that I was fearful for myself but worried about my pups. I think I may have just been gassy as I belched a lot. It’s always something.

            The pain eventually went away and I made Adrian Villalobos and Adrian Villalobos some breakfast.  Kyle Foote has been leaving early to go to Lehi to take this class on cooking. He has to take for his work and is gone by 7:30. Adrian fell back to sleep and missed going to school. I didn’t know it until I saw him around 9:30 when I had to start getting ready for my appointment at Roseman.

My Blood Pressure was 147 at home but down there it was over 175. After letting me sit for a while it was down in the 150’s good enough for them to see me. They just did a periodontal check up with X-Rays to day. I had a guy named Jordy who was assigned to me. I asked him if he was going to stick around and because last times, I was here they kept switching teams around. He said he was so I hope so.

Anyway, I didn’t get my cavity taking care of just that X rays showed I had two on my bottom molars, below some caps. I decided just to have them pulled instead of trying to save them, which they might not be able to do anyway. Down the road I may have to have partial dentures. But I made it to 72 so far. I made an appointment for April 26 for a cleaning and then after that I will have the extractions. Ouch.

            Afterwards I went to Lucky’s and withdrew $300 for Adrian. He said he was short this week from Door Dash and needed to pay his mom and some other bills and he’d pay me back on Monday. I just gave him the money. I love him and the money won’t do me any good when I’m dead like Bill Poore.  Besides, I gave Kyle 10 times that amount paying his restitution in February and March.

            It was a nice day but windy ahead of a storm. I started gathering information on MCC for my appointment tomorrow for the rest of the evening and tried to take a nap in the late afternoon but didn’t really sleep any because Kyle came home. I had my date with Kimball Edwards at 9 so I wanted to rest some but didn’t.

            I watched some television in the evening after feeding the pups and having walked them twice because it was so nice out. Then I got really tired around 8 and almost canceled my date until I saw that Kimball texted me and asked if I was still coming over so I did. How can I turn down a 25 year old boy wanting to be with me at my age?

            So, at his place I could tell he was happy to see me and we got naked and into bed. We visited and talked for a while. He wished me a happy birthday. While visiting  He revealed that he has met other older old guys on Grindr that he went to Club Milk with and another who comes over who only has sex and leaves. He doesn’t cuddle and caress Kimball like I do, which I know why he enjoys me. I wasn’t jealous and told him that variety was the spice of life.

I had known it was an illusion that Kimball was going to be a boyfriend. He’s just a sweet man who is a lover occasionally and I don’t know if I really want more than that. I’d say he was a fuck buddy but we never fuck. We usually do what I did for him tonight and suck on him until he ‘cums’ and then relaxes. I also always give him a good massage and hold and kiss him, which I know he really wants and needs. Well so do I.  He lets me nibble on his erogenous zones which he loves which I love because I am so oral.

            Around 11 I left. I usually leave after two hours because he gets sleepy and I do too and I have to drive home.          

Tomorrow is going to be busy as I am meeting someone from City Weekly at 1 and at 5, I need to be up at the U of  U to be interviewed for Eric Peterson’s students.

13 April 2023 Thursday

Snowing quite a bit his morning here between the airport and the Jordan River.  They said it might rain but did not predict snow in the valley so that was a  surprise. The temperature really dropped also  as it was only in the 40’s today.

            I worked most of the morning compiling information on MCC to give to Wes Long who I met at 1 at the Rose Park library. He was a young man I’d say in his late 20’s, handsome, and a journalist for the City Weekly who is doing a story on MCC in SLC. We visited for about 2 hours and it was so easy talking to him as he was also a history major. I talked about Bruce Barton and Bob Waldrop a lot and the ebb and flow of MCC in Salt Lake.

Then at 5, I went up to the U of U to be videotaped and interviewed by some journalist students in Eric Peterson’s Investigation class about Gay SLC in the 70s and 80s. It’s such a pain to cross town to get up to the University from Rose Park but worth it if I can help out at all. It was energetic being around the young college students who treated me like a treasure.

Well, I was home by 6, fed the pups, watched some television, and then went to bed as I was really tired. Actually, I fell asleep in the lazy boy.

In the news they caught the person who leaked all the Pentagon military documents. It turned out to be a 21 year old national guard kid who had national security clearance who just shared them to impress these teenage gaming boys. Strange. Wasn’t a big espionage case at all, just some stupid kid who will probably now spend 20 years in prison.

14 April 2023 Friday

I was rather lethargic today, not having much interest in anything after having such a busy day yesterday. Today was really low key and I only left the house to walk the pups.

 It was another cooler day only in the 40’s. I didn’t seen either Adrian Villalobos or Kyle Foote today except briefly when Kyle came home and asked if I knew where Adrian was.

I didn’t. I mainly worked on researching an early Utah newspaper man named Norman McLeod who lived in the Rio Grande Area of Second South. I think his second wife was a lesbian but that just speculation as that she only married older men who when the last one died, she never remarried and she was a professor at Missouri, Montana and is only mentioned in the company of women. Oh Well.

            Parts of Salt Lake City are being sandbagged in order to stem the snow melt flowing into the city’s creeks.

15 April 2023 Saturday

The only energy I had today was the go shopping and rearrange the kitchen. I went to Lucky’s to buy chicken for the pups and groceries for Adrian Villalobos. He’s part of my family now so I want to feed him. I also made a kettle of black beans and some yellow rice. I always need to have them in the house as those are the main staples of his diet. When He came home from the gym, he fixed some breaded fish I had out for him. I made me a cheese hamburger  for my lunch. Actually two, because I had another one for my supper also. 

            After he left to go to work, I cleaned the kitchen wiping counters of mice droppings and putting out more bay leaves that I read would repel mice. I also went through the cupboards to get rid of dishes that I don’t use anymore to give to D.I.

            That about wore me out so I quit and worked a little bit on writing up a locomotive engineer named Henry Newcomer who lived in Block 63 for at least 20 years.

            It was a nice day out and I walked the pups twice. It still was cool out but not frigid. People’s lawns are starting to green up and a few trees have started to bud. I haven’t seen any real spring flowers. Everything is so late this year. I have never seen anything like it. No daffodils, tulips, or grape hyacinth, and my forsythia is just beginning to bloom which usually would have been 2 weeks ago. I want to do some more yard clean up but still kind of chilly out to stay outside too long.

            In the evening when Kyle Foote came home, he came upstairs to tell me about his day and that he may be getting an additional consulting job with the brother of the woman he is doing a Pizza shop for. This man runs several Mexican restaurants called Mi  Ranchito owned by the Armenta family.

He then asked if I’d go with him to Smith’s to buy some flowers for Adrian. He met him on November 15th so this is kind of an anniversary for them. Kyle bought some pink tinged yellow roses and arranged them back at the house. Kyle said that at the end of the month he has to fly to Denver to learn how to operate the oven he is having the Pizza place purchase. He will also be going to Las Vegas again and also to Dallas. I think he found a niche that is making him happy.

            When Adrian came home, he came up for some supper of stewed chicken and yellow rice. He was clinging on to Kyle which made me happy to see. I just wanted us to be a family.

16 April 2023 Sunday

The Bahena family from next door came home from Mexico and I brought over their mail and packages this morning.

I didn’t see Kyle Foote and Adrian Villalobos but once when they came up stairs shortly before leaving for the Eccles Theater to see Hairspray using the tickets that Jim had given to me.

It was a beautiful day and finally I felt energetic enough to work out in the front yard. So, I cleaned out some more leaves from the iris flower beds along the side of the porch steps and in front of the porch. I then decided to mulch them instead of putting them in the debris waste bin.

Well, that meant I had to spade my 10 x 10 feet garden space where I decided to plant my vegetable garden near the blue spruce and retaining wall on the south side of my yard. This also meant I had to rake it and pull grass. I wish I had my old rotor tiller that Kyle got rid of which would have made it so much easier.  That was a lot of work for an old man turn the dirt over.

After I was finished with that I  went and leveled these mounds of dirt piles that Adrian and Kyle had dumped where my tulip beds used to be. Many of my tulips were coming up so I didn’t want them getting crushed. I was happy to see that some of oriental poppies were coming back and before I knew it, I had been outside for  3 1/2 hours.

This winter has been harsh with the freeze thaw cycle  which broke a few of my ceramic planters and I think the heavy snow killed my large rosemary bush that I had for 10 years. Everything in its season.

 I was really pooped but managed to give the pups a second walk before calling it a day and resting after feeding the gang. Kyle and Adrian were home by 5:30 but never came up to see me and tell me how they enjoyed the show or didn’t. I saw the performance with Alan Anderson and Kyle down last year in Draper, which I thought was great.

The Salt Lake Tribune had a front page story on Drag Queens in Utah and among the photos was Courtney Moser aka Petunia Papsmear. The state legislature is considering banning minors from attending drag shows.

17 April 2023 Monday

I fixed Adrian Villalobos scrambled eggs for him to take to school then spent much of the morning researching the Priday family whose daughter shot her first husband. I also went to Lucky’s to buy some more boneless chicken thighs.

After Adrian came home from the gym, I fixed him the rest of the lasagna I bought the other day and I had a cheese burger. I have been in the mood for hamburgers lately.

            After he left on an errand, I stopped what I was doing in the house and went outside to work in the yard some. I raked out all the leaves and debris along the drive way where my mungo bush is. It’s the last of all the ones I planted back in 1996 and its grown quite large and has spread out. I dumped the mulch into where my garden area will be and hoed, to break up some of the clods.

            Finally, some of my daffodils are blooming and some spring hyacinths. My one forsythia left, in front of my steps, is blooming also. All of these plants are at least 2 weeks late. Even the trees haven’t begun to bud.

            I was tired after working about two hours in the front yard. That is about all I can do these days. I’ve given up on the backyard that is like a moon scape except some weeds have taken root. I used to have a lovely yard but doubt if I ever will again.

            In the evening I watched some television after feeding and walking the dogs. They didn’t care much for the chicken and rice I made for them.  Oh well they will eat when they are hungry.

            I breaded some pork chops and fried it up for Adrian’s supper. We visited some on our Say Hi app and he asked about Mike Romero and me and I told him how I have always been the home maker even when I lived alone. Where ever I have lived, I had tried to make it feel homey.

            I watched “Charlie Wilson’s War” with Tom Hanks in it that I had never seen before which was pretty good about ending the Russian invasion of Afghanistan in the 1980s as a covert operation.

            Kyle Foote finally came up around 8 when he came home and we visited about some of his prospects. He needed $600 to buy a plane ticket to Chicago for some National Restaurant Association Convention in May. He first said he needed to attend an NRA convention and quickly had to clarify it wasn’t the National Rifle Association. I used to say “borrow” but I rarely get paid back so I just give it to him if I can. I gave $300 to Adrian earlier this month and the state took $800 from me in Taxes and I paid nearly $300 to renew my subscription to Ancestry.com so it’s been an expensive month.  I use ancestry.com nearly every day so it’s worth the expense. Besides, I often think of Bill Poore and how money has no use to him anymore.

18 April 2023 Tuesday

I fixed Adrian Villalobos his breakfast to take to school and some for me before working on the computer this morning. I was surprised to hear it thundering and lightning as well as raining this morning  with booms to shake the entire house. The pups were not happy because Taco wanted to go on a walk.

            I was going to do a bunch of running around to do some errands but the weather kept me home. So, I cleaned the front room, did some of the dishes and mopped the floor. I also did some laundry, just housekeeping chores.  Around noon there was a break in the weather enough to take the pups for a jaunt around the block. Lulubelle must have been weirded out by the weather as she was in a hurry to get the walk over and back to the house.

Then Lightning struck not far from the airport and it lit up the house. I pity the animals and folks caught in the storm. It was kind of hailing also. I had all the trembling pups under covers in the bed.

            When Adrian came home from the gym, we visited a bit while he fixed himself some lunch and then we were hit by a hailstorm this afternoon. I was glad the pups and I had finished a walk around the block earlier. The little time I had the door open to film the storm to put on Facebook my kitchen floor got pelted with hail. The whole yard and street turned white from the hail.  However, by the late afternoon it had cleared up and all the hail stones had melted away. I took the pups for another quick walk around 5 in the late afternoon and then fed them so I could get ready to go to the Gay Men’s support group.

            I made the mistake of taking the 13th South exit from the freeway and was caught in a horrible traffic congestion as that 13th and 3rd West were all down to one lane and lights not being synchronized had people out in the intersection so when the lights were green you couldn’t get through the intersection. It was so frustrating to go the 4 blocks to Main Street, taking 15 minutes and sitting through many green lights because you couldn’t move.

            I had left the house at 6 thinking I had plenty of time to get to the Pride Center by 6:30 but I barely made it. I think Bill Blevins was a little disappointed that there weren’t all that many here tonight, maybe 10. The topic was “masculinity” and we had a pretty good discussion among those who attended as we opened up and shared more personal things about our lives as Gay men.

            I was home by 8:30 and watched some episodes of Frazier, The Golden Girls, and Community before falling asleep in the lazy boy. I woke up around midnight and  turned off all the lights and went to bed.

            In the news Fox News settled out of court a lawsuit by Dominion voting machines for $800 million because they didn’t want to put their actors and management on trial.

19 April 2023 Wednesday

It was another cold day and only reached into the 40’s. I fixed Adrian Villalobos an omelet with hash browns and diced ham for his breakfast. Just because I don’t eat much anymore doesn’t mean I don’t like to mother him.

My forsythia bush out-front is finally blooming three weeks late. It usually starts to bud at the end of March. My daffodils and hyacinths are flowering just too but no tulips or grape hyacinths. It’s a very late spring. Fortunately, the hail yesterday didn't crush anything.  I wonder if we will be able to even plant tomatoes by Mother's Day this year.  The fairy in me has to have a garden. God created a garden before he created people so said the ancient Mesopotamians.

I took a bunch of clothes and dishes to D.I. this morning then went to Western Gardens on 6th East to get a rose bush to remember Bill Poore by, as he always brought me flowers.  They had but a poor selection so I went to the Garden Center at Smith’s market place and bought a Mr. Lincoln red rose for Bill Poore.  I then went to Sutherland’s to see what they had in the way of spring flowers and bought some pansies for me and mouse traps.  Sutherlands also had their tomato plants on sale again for $2.50 so I bought two. It is way too early to plant them so I will have to set them out and bring them in at night.

I planted the rose bush in the front yard in one of my planter boxes and the pansies in containers on the front porch by my door.

I took a very long nap this afternoon nearly 3 hours. I don’t know why I slept so much but then got up around 5, took the pups on another walk around the clock and then fed them their supper. I had a hamburger for my lunch so didn’t feel like eating this evening. 

The only time I saw Kyle Foote was in the evening when he asked where I bought the Lasagna that Adrian ate the other day because Adrian really liked it. So, I took him to Lucky’s and showed him and bought a few groceries also. Kyle has to go down to Santaquin tomorrow to meet with a potential client.

When Adrian came home from work, he and Kyle were in the kitchen smooching and microwaving Adrian’s supper and I just watched some television in the lazy boy. I stayed up until nearly midnight before heading for bed.

20 April 2023 Thursday

Another really cold day for April especially with the wind chill while walking the pups. I fixed Adrian Villalobos his breakfast to take to school and worked some on the computer but needed to take a break from the research I was doing. I went to Lucky’s to buy some red bell peppers as that Kyle Foote asked me to make some stuffed bell peppers.  I also made a pot of lima beans and ham as that sounded good on this cold day.

Then I was home for much of the afternoon and just watched some television shows like the Marvelous Mrs. Maisel and other shows. I think I might be lethargic from a virus or something as in the evening I had stomach cramps and diarrhea.  As I was getting ready to go to bed heard Kyle and Adrian use the hot tub. I suppose I should check on the water levels. Can’t think of much to write about that I want to remember.

21 April 2023 Friday

I didn’t realize that Adrian Villalobos had school on Friday so when I was fixing my own breakfast he came upstairs and I threw a breakfast of three scrambled eggs, frozen waffles, and fruit together for him. I know he could have made his own breakfast but it makes me feel useful and I enjoy his hugs in the morning. So many old Gay men live alone without someone to care for and be cared about.

            After working at my morning computer routine, I took the pups for a morning walk on another chilly springtime day. Still, it’s been only in the 40’s for a high. Then I made some stuffed red and yellow bell peppers for Kyle and a pan of lasagna for Adrian. Kyle and I went to get our Dr. Peppers  and I took a nap and woke to hear it raining outside. So, the pups didn’t get a second walk as it rained much into the evening.

            Lulubelle is not feeling well again and threw up. She also didn’t eat any supper before going to bed. In fact, around 9:30 while I was watching TV she kept coming into the front room and then running back to the bedroom as if she wanted me to go to bed so I did. She seemed to nestle in then

In the news the Supreme Court temporarily allowed the use of the abortion pill and Florida is passing many anti-Gay and trans bills. No one seems to be fighting them.

22 April 2023 Saturday

Another chilly day but the pups got in their two walks. I went with Kyle Foote and Adrian Villalobos to get a drink around noon but was the only time I went anywhere.  I finally finished and posted the life of Henry J Rudy on my Facebook pages. The Salt Lake Marathon was held today but since I didn’t have to go anywhere downtown it didn’t impact me at all.

            I would like to work in the front yard some but don’t have the energy to bother with the weather.

            Florida’s DeSantis came to Utah for the Republican Party here. He said, “Florida is the Utah of the Southeast.”

23 April 2023 Sunday

I really didn’t do much today except work on the Swedish Sandberg Family and walk the pups. Kyle Foote said Adrian Villalobos brother in law came over to look at the work truck and see how much it would cost to fix it since the catalytical converter was stolen some time ago and it’s just been sitting on the concrete pad to the south of the backyard.

            Kyle asked if I wanted to go with him and Adrian to the state capitol to look at the cherry blossoms that were in full bloom. I went just to be with them.

            It was very crowded with lots of people walking the promenade and there was a group of Armenians, probably around 100, with their flags, holding a rally for Armenian Genocide Remembrance Day.

            Kyle really wanted to be at the capitol just to take many pictures of Adrian and him posing. They were so cute but they weren’t the only ones taking pictures. Lots of graduates and others were using the occasion for their photos. We were up at the capitol at 7 because Kyle said that was the best time for lighting. I had a few pictures taken with them too and I could tell I was tired and looked old.  We walked around and it was truly nice being out but it was getting chilly as the sun was going down.

            After we left, we went to McDonald’s on 7th North because Adrian was hungry so I also ordered a happy meal because I hadn’t eaten much all day. They finished off the lasagna for their lunch.

24 April 2023 Monday

It’s almost the end of April and still no tulips and the neighborhood trees are just beginning to bud out. I was up early around 5 this morning and fixed myself and Adrian Villalobos some breakfast but he had a text saying his teacher canceled class today so he went out working instead.

I finally finished my research on the Sandberg Swedes from the 19th Century SLC and posted it before taking the pups for a walk this morning. It was a pretty morning, bright and sunshiny.

            I then went to both Smith’s and Lucky’s to get some treats for the pups and groceries for the house. I only saw Kyle Foote once when he came to the house to retrieve an extension cord and some string for some project.

Then this afternoon the house was a rocking and a rolling with a storm that blew in with thunder and lightning. The pups were really frightened. It rained again in the late afternoon so pups only got a morning walk. I made a pork loin roast with taters, apples, carrots, and red bell peppers for supper. I wonder if I will eat any of it.  When Adrian came home at night, he had some but Kyle didn’t at all.

I relaxed watching the news and my favorite comedy shows and the apocalyptic “Don’t Look Up” kind of spoof of the end of the world, before heading to bed.

The biggest news item today was that Tucker Carlson was fired from Fox News. It kind of overshadowed that news that Don Lemon was also fired from CNN.  

Locally Roy Zang said he quit the “Parasol Patrol” group that he had recently been promoting. I wonder what that is all about.  He later wrote me and said, “Long story short, Andy Dalrymple and I spend days promoting the Utah chapter of the Parasol Patrol. We were going to go to an event on Sunday. We invited hundreds of people and had hundreds of people accept  the invitation. With that being said, there is a trans man who is the admin on the chat channel that we were in and he decided that he was going to spend 3 to 4 hours, scrubbing through all of our invitees, and deciding if they should be part of us. He only approved women and trans people and dismissed every single other person that we had invited and we were talking over 200 people. When I asked about it, at least for me, because I asked him directly, he told me "quit attacking me"

25 April 2023 Tuesday

It was chilly but nice out this morning when I walked the pups after fixing breakfast for Adrian Villalobos and myself. However later around noon it began to rain again and misted for most of the afternoon.

            For lunch Kyle Foote asked me to go with him and Adrian Villalobos . They went to Barbacoa in the 9th and 9th area but I didn’t eat as I had fixed myself some tacos earlier. I just went for the company.

            Adrian was so sad because Kyle is leaving for Dallas and won’t be back until Friday. They spent a lot of time together downstairs later when I went out to walk the pups again when there was a break in the rain.

            I never got to take a nap because I had to go with Kyle and Adrian to the airport around 4 so Kyle could catch his flight. Kyle did ask me to take Adrian to the West Valley campus of SLCC tomorrow to register him for ESL classes.

            After feeding the pups I was tired from no nap but decided to go to the Gay Men’s group anyway because I needed the social interaction of Gay men. I sat next to Paul Milne this time and much of the discussion was on different types of Gay relationships. It was a good meeting and I am starting to get to know some of the regulars and interact With them.

            When I came back to the house, I just watched a bit of television before heading to bed.

26 April 2023 Wednesday

I made Adrian Villalobos some breakfast but he didn’t get up to go to school so he had it later. I had to be down to Roseman Dental School by 10:30 for a cleaning. I had a new crew working on me although I was told I would have the same one as last time. Oh Well. They did a fine job and my insurance paid for it so I can’t kick. I made an appointment for May 15th to have my two teeth extracted. It will be a two hour procedure ugh.

            When I came home, I notice that the plastic cover beneath the FIT had come loose again and was dragging. The car sits too low for me to crawl beneath it or I would just take it off.  Another thing for Kyle Foote to look at when he comes home.

            Adrian was out when I came home so texted him and said I was home and for him to come home so we could go register him for summer classes at SLCC. When he did, I drove Adrian in Kyle’s car out to 54th West and 35th South to the West Valley Campus where they were doing a special all day registration. I went mostly to translate where I could and help  but I had no idea how much Kyle had already did on line.

Anyway, we met with a counselor and although he spoke no Spanish, we were able to get him partially registered and I paid $500 for his classes so we could finish registering. He's taking three classes Speaking, Listening, and Grammar Monday through Thursday. A Spanish speaker woman assisted us with the rest of the actual registration  so by 4 o’clock we were done. We were down there for at least 2 and half hours but it’s done and I saved his SLCC student number and password in case he loses it.

            It’s been a very long time since I had to register myself or anyone else in college but as registration goes, it wasn’t too difficult. I hadn’t planned on paying Adrian’s tuition but since Kyle hadn’t and we had to before we could finish up, I went ahead and paid. It’s been an expensive month for me between the boys, as I gave Adrian $300 at the beginning of the month and just paid $500 today and Kyle had me buy his plane ticket to Dallas for $600. 

Well, the money just sitting in my savings doesn’t do anyone any good there. I could be just living all alone with money in the bank or have these boys here to love on.  They are my family and family looks out for one another. 

When I called Kyle to let him know how things went, I also told him about the FIT and he said Adrian’s brother in law is coming over this weekend to look at the work truck and he will have him look at my car too. I hope.

            President Biden made an announcement yesterday that he will run for office again in 2024. Makes no difference to me and I will vote for him unless his health fails. Trump’s rape trial is going on now and none of it is making very much news.

27 April 2023 Thursday

It was a very mild spring like day in the lower 70’s so it was nice out walking the pups. Adrian didn’t go to his English classes today. I think he is done with them since he knows he has to quit Horizontal to attend SLCC. I was on the computer much of the day writing up the story of Ed Sandberg, a bad boy hack driver from the turn of the 20th Century. So, I could post it on Face Book.  I didn’t really interact much with Adrian as he was in in his own world for much of the day. Except to go walking I never left the house today.

            In the news Mike Pence had to testify before a Grand Jury today against Trump and the infamous Jerry Springer daytime shock television personality died at 79.  People would watch for chairs and punches thrown.

28 April 2023 Friday

Kyle called me this morning asking if I had lint roller and if not, would I go to the store and buy him one. His only black sweater that he wanted to wear to his Mission President’s funeral was covered with Persephone’s cat hair.  So, I got dressed and went down to Smith’s at 7:30 this morning, bought one, and returned to make Adrian Villalobos some breakfast which again he never got up to eat. I went downstairs at 9:00 to wake him up saying he needed to get ready just in case Kyle’s plane landed early before 10 as that Kyle needed to rush home and change for the funeral at 11.

            Kyle called about 9:30 and said his plane had landed so a little bit later I drove Adrian down to the airport and picked Kyle up at a little before 10. Adrian was so happy to see him again. I let Kyle drive home and then I went back to my computer while they left to attend the funeral.

I wrote up the story of the two interracial couples who were caught by the police in 1893 at the Albany Hotel and charged with fornication.  I posted it to the People of Utah history site then decided to go to Sutherlands.

            Sutherland had their large geraniums on sale for $4 so I bought 4 plus other flowers to spruce up the front yard. I’d rather have flowers when I am alive than when I am dead.

I have looked all over for my hand spades and can’t find them anywhere so I dug the moist soil mostly by hand. I also bought a green bell pepper plant and a red one too. That pretty wore me out. While I was out Jim Dabakis called but I missed it. His message said he was leaving Paris and was just wanting to check in with me and see how Taco was doing.

            Adrian went with Kyle to the funeral and later door dashing. When he came home in the afternoon, he said he saw a lot of squirrels in the back yard and thought they were dangerous because of their claws. I laughed and said no, squirrels are not dangerous, a nuisance at times, but mostly harmless except how they can chew up property. He must have had a sheltered life as Kyle said he’s deathly afraid of birds.

            Anyway, I watched television after feeding the pups and finished watching “Transatlantic” the series about the efforts at saving intellectual and artistic Jews from Free France during the 1940 Nazi occupation. It was interesting but some of the dramatization was slow. Then I started to watch an episode of “The Diplomat” also on Netflix about a female American ambassador to the United Kingdom. It was entertaining so I might watch the series.

            Kyle came up before I went to bed to tell me a little about the David Finn Peterson’s funeral and how much he hates Mormon funerals but went out of respect to his former Mission President and widow. He has to pay his restitution for May this weekend so I hope he has it. 

29 April 2023 Saturday

            After fixing breakfast, working a little on the computer, and walking the pups I went out to work in the front yard garden. On the south corner near the blue spruce, I dug several rows and built mounds to plant zucchini and summer squash seeds and I put the bell pepper plants and Tomatoes plants in the soil. I then did some raking and cleaning out weeds when Kyle Foote and Adrian Villalobos came home.

            Adrian was telling me that fish was one of his favorite meals and asked me if stores sold coconuts here. I told them they did and he said he wanted to make a rice dish with fresh coconut.  He made himself a Columbia chicken dish he likes for his lunch and since I had to go to the store to get food for the pups anyway, while there I bought him a coconut. I spent nearly $75 on groceries buying food for Adrian and the pups.  At Lucky’s there was a young street woman huddled by the front with two small pups. She looked a mess and probably homeless and on drugs but when I left, I gave her $20 for her and her pups. She may spend it on drugs rather than food but I didn’t give to be her judge.

Anyway, Kyle Foote was gone buying outdoor seating tables for Loco Burger on 17th and while out I had him buy me some hand spades as I can’t find any of mine. When he came home with them, I asked if he would set the spring snap mouse traps because when I did, they kept snapping. I noticed mouse droppings under the lazy boys  and after cleaning and setting the trap there almost immediately it caught one. I feel so guilty. Kyle said that when I hear the snaps on the ones he set don’t look right away as I might still see them struggling and he knows how tender hearted I am about killing the mice and how guilty I feel. He disposed of the mouse for me.

When Kyle and Adrian came up to see me this evening, Adrian had his acceptance letter to Salt Lake Community College and was just jubilant. Adrian was also so excited that I had bought him a coconut and a plantain banana that he cooked his coconut rice and fried plantain along with the fish I had breaded for him with his spices earlier for him while he was out door dashing.

He posted on his Facebook page his meal and he was so cute sharing it with his Latin friends. He said that the food was nostalgic for him because his grandmother used to make it for him.  Well, he had sent me a text message earlier calling me his beautiful grandfather. That was touching. How lucky am I to have people to care for at my age?

Fran Pruyn contacted me for Walt Larabee info so he could vote for the Kristen Ries Award nominations. She sent me this that I passed on Face Book for friends of Walter.

"I just talked with Walter – he sounded really good.  He is going into the hospital in mid-May for a stem cell transplant to address his cancer, but it has worked in the past, and he is optimistic that it will knock it out for good."

 Walt doesn’t do social media but I know his friends would like to hear about him and how he is doing. I also posted a picture. “This is Walt at Beyond Stonewall a Gay summer workshop retreat at Camp Rogers in 1989...he’s on David Estes’s lap and next to him Val Mansfield and standing next to me is Neil Hoyt and I was in my Sacred Faerie stage lol.”

30 April 2023 Sunday

Well, here it is the end of another April. The weather was the warmest it’s been all year so far in the mid 80’s. Adrian Villalobos and Kyle Foote did their usual Sunday brunch at Our Kitchen in Foxborough and came home when I was out walking the pups.

            Since Adrian has been using the back deck a lot lately, I thought I ought to clean up the messes the pups have made because they are too lazy to go down in to the yard. I swept, scrubbed with bleach water, and made it presentable.

            Kyle wanted to get a Dr. Pepper so we did and Adrian had a happy meal and sundae from McDonalds. He’s gloomy again because Kyle was leaving for Las Vegas again. 

Around 4, Kyle came up to talk to me. I know sometimes he gets irritated with me but still I am the closest thing he has to family. Anyway, he told me seriously how he is considering marrying Adrian as they had been together for nearly 6 months and that he loves him and it will help secure Adrian from ever being deported. It didn’t surprise me at all and I think it is the right thing to do and I asked if Adrian knows all the baggage you carry and Kyle said he did. Kyle said he doesn’t want anyone to know them getting married and that they probably will just get a secular marriage. He also did say that he probably will take Adrian’s last name as “Foote” carries so much baggage.

            I asked Kyle if he paid his restitution for May yet and he hadn’t but said that the link so he can pay on line is working. He sent me $400 a week ago and said he would send me another $600 so I agreed to front the $1800 again although I said he needed to make sure he has $1800 put away each month before anything else. I doubt whether he will.

            So around 5 we went to the airport and Adrian was mopey of course but Kyle will be back Tuesday. I ended up watching television the rest of the evening and finished Netflix’s The Diplomat before calling it a day.

            So, Kyle is getting married. Well, I hope for the best for them and our little family.

 

MAY

1 May 2023 Monday

I fixed myself and Adrian Villalobos some breakfast this morning but he didn’t get up to go to school until 9:30. So he ate his late. I only wrote in my journal and posted to This Day In Gay Utah History as well as wished my friends Happy Beltane. I haven’t felt like researching Elizabeth Metz the madam who operated a whore house on the north side of Second South in the 1890’s. Kind of mentally fatigued I suppose.

            Instead, I went to my Vietnamese barber because I was getting rather shaggy. It’s been since March 6th and that’s rather too long to go as I was looking woolly. I should just get a haircut on the first of each month. I remember how wild Bill Poore had gotten and I don’t want to be like that. 

Afterwards I went to America First in Lee’s Market and deposited a $37 check that was sent to me and while there I bought some gluten free lasagna noodles that I couldn’t find at Smith’s or Lucky’s. I then went to Smith’s and bought ingredients to make some lasagna for Adrian and also bought gas. Prices have shot up again to $3.89 a gallon but at Smith’s I got a dime off so I saved 80 cents. Big Whoop.

Spent the rest of the afternoon cleaning the kitchen and making the lasagna and some other rotini pasta with left over sauce. That about wore me out to do much else. Adrian was out and about for much of the day so didn’t see him much. When I did, he in his broken English asked if I had long to live. LOL, I think he meant to say how old was I and he was concerned about how long I’d be around.

In the mail I finally got my driver’s license. I was really surprised that the expiration date was for 2031. 7 years from now instead of the regular 5. I will be 80 years old when my license expires if I don’t expire first. I saw that Gordon Lightfoot the singer died today. I always liked his voice and music from the early 70’s especially If You Could Read My Mind.

It was quite warm today. They say 87 degrees so in the evening I watered my plants I planted and some of the flower garden and decided to do some spading of the high walk area in from of the fence that was uneven and starting to get weedy. The warm weather is making everything pop finally. My tulips are in full bloom. I wanted to do more but then fagged out. My mind wants to do more than my body will let me.

Carlos Bahena was out this evening cutting down more of the globe willow between our two houses and his son brought me over some pineapple cupcakes for watching their mail while they were gone.

Adrian finally came home around 8 and had some of the lasagna I made for him. I had eaten a salad and a small portion of it earlier.

So that was the first day of May 2023.  

2 May 2023 Tuesday

I had strange dreams last night and actually slept in until almost 6;30. The most memorable dream was of John Cunningham and me. I haven’t dreamt of him in so long. We were both in college and he apologized for manipulating me so much and as he left, I kissed him slightly goodbye knowing that it was a mistake to do so. Dreams are the only way I see people I love who are gone.

My neighbor Carolos Bahena is taking out the rest of the globe willow between our driveways. He hired some guy with a tractor bucket to dig out the stump and roots. Kyle Warren and Adrian Villalobos have already removed the  tree and barberry bush I had for 25 years.

It was a beautiful day for it and such a pleasant morning here in the Rockies that I had to be outside spading up the top terrace by the front yard fence, leveling it and raking. I replaced all the stepping stones but two and a half hours is plenty for a 72 year old man to be doing such lifting.

I planted my vegetable garden out front this year so there has been lots of changes to my front yard over the years. Richard P. Butler taught me the importance of curb appeal years ago. So, I am enjoying grubbing and seeing my pretty tulips that have finally come up. It won't be long until they are gone but my oriental poppies have come back.

I rested for much of the rest of the afternoon, walked the pups, took a nap, and in the evening, I went to the Gay Men’s Support Group. Bill Blevins ran the meeting and it was his birthday. I think he said he was 77 years old now. The check in topic was rather we thought prostitution should be legal. Everyone said yes of course but I was the only one who was concerned that some people used prostitution for a form of supporting a drug habit and are controlled by pimps.  The rest of the meeting was mainly talking about flight attendants as two of the new people, one a 21 year old and another probably 50 years old, work or worked for Delta Airlines. It was a much smaller group tonight about 11 when we had 18 last week but perhaps the nice weather is keeping people away.

When I came home, I watched an episode of the Good Omen and around 9:30 Kyle Foote called and said his plane had landed so I gathered up Adrian Villalobos and we drove out to the airport. I was rather tired so probably wasn’t as enthusiastic as I could have been. I guess Las Vegas was a good conference for him and Kyle learned a lot. Adrian said he was hungry and so we went through the drive thru at McDonalds and I couldn’t believe how busy it was still at 10 at night. Kyle just said I don’t get out much. Probably true. As soon as we were back at the house I went to bed with the pups.

A gunman shot and wounded 2 people on a soccer field at 17th South in Glendale and was on the loose.  However later at night I heard they had captured him. No where is safe in the NRAmerica.

3 May 2023 Wednesday

It was a cooler day but still quite nice out for walking the pups. I was up to fix Adrian Villalobos his breakfast for school and I can tell he happy to have Kyle Foote back home. I suppose Kyle doesn’t have to leave again until the 19 of May for almost a week then.

            I didn’t go anywhere today, just stayed around the house. I didn’t want to drive the FIT because the plastic casing beneath the engine had come loose and was dragging a lot. When Kyle came home from work he got under the car and was finally able to remove it.

            Adrian and Kyle ate some of my lasagna on the back veranda and I just watched some shows before going to bed. In the news the Republicans and President Biden are going to negotiate to raise the debt ceiling or the government may default as early as June.  The Fascist Party would destroy the country before letting Biden succeed.  How it would affect me is that my social security would be held up and while I think I might be okay for a couple of months it would be devasting to millions of others.

4 May 2023 Thursday

I went shopping this morning and bought two lilac bushes since Kyle Foote removed all of mine last year. I might not live long enough to see them mature but someone will be able to smell and enjoy them after I am gone. Also, I went grocery shopping for Adrian Villalobos and the pups. I rarely shop for Kyle anymore only because he’s rarely home to eat.  Or like this evening he bought a Mod pizza for the two of them.

            Adrian wrote me this, “hello grandpa ben my friend, I'm sorry I couldn't cancel the money you lent me last time before, but I've had very low Door dash weeks and few hours, it's been under business but here I have something to give you so I don't owe you so much. I really thank you for taking care of me so much and being aware of me

Write to Adrian Villalobos.”

            What he was trying to do with give back some of the money I gave him last month but told him to keep it because he will need to buy a parking pass and books next week when he starts school at Salt Lake Community College.

            I made some sugar cookies this evening from a mix but they just flattened out. LOL oh well. I talked to my sister Donna Jones for a bit this afternoon as she accidentally called me so I called her back and all is fine down there in Arizona. My cousin Larry Fagan’s son Aaron texted me a message also asking how I was doing . That was curious as I hadn’t heard or seen him in years.  In the evening I called Chuck Whyte back as he had asked whether Michael Aaron had ever received a Kristen Ries Award so I told him that he had.

            It was a much cooler day and it looked at one point that it might rain but it never did.

Fifty Three years ago I was a freshman in college when students were being shot at Kent State for protesting the Vietnam War.  I will never forget it was the Republican response and it solidified my opinion of that fascist party.   Nixon, Agnew, John Mitchell were all criminals. The Party has not changed only the faces.

5 May 2023 Friday

It was downright chilly today and I had to wear my beach comber poncho when I took the pups for a walk and it was too cold out to do any yard work. I stayed home and mainly wrote up my research on Elizabeth Metz, the woman who went to  prison in 1895 for procuring teenagers as prostitutes at her whore house on Second South.

            Took a long nap in the afternoon and still felt tired so it was one of those blah days. There was lots I could have done like cleaning the house and such but just bundled up in the lazy boy and watched television mostly.

6 May 2023 Saturday

It was a cooler day and in the evening it finally rained. I went with Kyle Foote and Adrian Villalobos to Salt Lake Community College so Adrian could find his classroom. He will start on the 15th. Afterwards we went to Mi Ranchitos down around 10949 South Redwood Road in South Jordan. Kyle is working for the people there helping to improve their menu and on a pizza place at the same location. We ate lunch there but only Kyle and Adrian ordered and I just ate some rice and beans from Kyle’s meal. He wasn’t all that hungry and I was filling up with chips and salsa. Surprisingly learned that Adrian doesn’t like Mexican food too much and said he’s a “Gringo” lol. I guess what they eat in Columbia is quite different. I thought the food was delicious myself what I ate of it.

            I was awake way too early this morning around 4:30  although I didn’t get up to start the day until 5:30. I posted to This Day In Gay Utah History, wrote in my journal and finished writing up about Annie Baumgarten the 16 year old protégé of Elizabeth Metz in the whore house on West Second South. I walked the pups twice but had to wear sweats as it was rather cool out and looked like rain for most of the day.

            Kyle said that he and Adrian went to the movies last night and saw the Mario Brothers  Movie that was out and then went out to eat. However, he was sick all night and throwing up. This evening around 7 Adrian came up and was wanting soup for Kyle as he was sick again. He wanted plain chicken soup with rice which I didn’t have so I went to the store and bought him a can of Progresso Chicken noodle soup and drained the noodles. I hoped that helped.

            I spent the rest of the night writing up my research on Cladia and Mamie Metz,

the daughters of Elizabeth Metz. I noticed that it was raining pretty good outside when I went to bed around 10.

7 May 2023 Sunday

I made me a breakfast of biscuits and milk gravy and baked some chicken thighs for the pups. I also made a kettle of chicken soup for Kyle Foote before working on the computer. I discovered while researching the family of Elizabeth Metz that her only grandson was also in trouble with the law since the age of 8 and upward until he reformed after he married and settled down.

            I took the pups for their morning stroll around the block and after taking them home I went and dug up the castle bricks that Carlos Bahena said I could have that Randy Gile had put down so long ago between our houses. The Globe Willow has been completely removed and in the space between our drive ways, Carlos is having Lani the Polynesian guy who poured our concrete, pour an addition to Carlos driveway. Lanie will also pour concrete into the little triangle by my driveway where the flowering tree and barberry bush used to be.

            I hauled all the bricks into my yard and built up what I already had when Kyle Foote, Adrian Villalobos and I went to get a Dr. Pepper and then to Smith Grocery Store. When we came back Kyle decided to move my mailbox, that had been next to the one next door for 25 years, over to the parking strip in front of the house. He moved all the large rocks that had been piled around the mailbox post to my garden area. I did not help at all because I was tired from moving castle bricks and also this was his project. Instead, I cooked some breaded pork and scalloped potatoes.

            When Adrian and Kyle were finished installing the mailbox in its new location, they came up to eat Sunday dinner but I didn’t have any. I went outside and transplanted the Red Hot Poker plants to save them and also some small shoots from the root of the tree that Kyle had removed.  Kyle had also added a little sign on the Mailbox post with our address of 1633.

            Later in the afternoon Kyle and Adrian used the hot tub and wore swim suits. I asked when I saw Kyle later if the water was low and he said yes so, I guess I will drain and clean tomorrow.

            So, it was a very productive Sunday for a change. The weather was mostly nice but clouded up for a bit but no rain. Kyle wants me to make an appointment for Persephone around June 1st, maybe on a Saturday, for her checkup.

Yesterday was the coronation of King Charles III, however I never watched a bit of it. His ancestor King George III killed my ancestor Britton Williams.

8 May 2023 Monday

Adrian Villalobos and Kyle Foote went this morning to have Adrian fingerprinted as part of his immigration process. Kyle said it only took a few minutes but they were gone all day to school and at work. I did my morning routine and tried writing up some of the research I’ve done on the Cladia Metz family until around 10. I then walked the pups and coming back to the house I began to drain the hot tub so as to clean it.

            The day was nice out so I dug up some of the wild geraniums where the only mailbox was to replant and watered a bit in the front yard. While pulling weeds on the southside Peter Nash came over and we visited for a bit about our yards. His wife is having large garden redwood planter boxes put in their front yard so we are both making changes. He wanted all the dead arbor vitae bushes to user as filler in the boxes. He also said he would help me take the old chain fencing to the dump in his truck someday.

            I cleaned and wiped down the hot tub and refilled it this afternoon and called it quits then and took a nap.

            Waking up went for another walk with the pups and fixed them their supper. Adrian was out ‘door dashing’ when Kyle came home to have some of the soup I made yesterday. He reminded me that he’s leaving again tomorrow for the day to fly into Denver and back.

            I watched some of “American Graffiti” the 1973 George Lucas film that made stars out of a lot of folks.  I didn’t finished it as I was tired and from waking up at 4:30 this morning so I went back to bed.

Wes Long, who I helped with material for a story he was writing on MCC for the City Weekly wrote me “Hello Ben, I hope you've been well. I wanted you to know that I have completed a first draft of my article for the Pride Month issue and have enclosed it below. I would appreciate your thoughts on whether I have represented you correctly. I intend to submit this to my editor by early next week, so if you can, feel free to let me know your thoughts any time before Monday/Tuesday. With regard, Wes.”

I read his story and wrote back “Excellent write up...I even learned a lot from your research...thank you. I know both Bob and Bruce would have been happy with your portrayal . Thank you”

He responded back “Thank you so much, Ben! I’m deeply humbled that you feel this way and I dearly hope that it may do some good for people. I’m still just riding the high of getting this all down on paper. As I’m sure you understand, it’s a relief to no longer have this vast subject floating about in my head.  I’ll keep you in the loop for when this article releases and will have a physical copy saved for you if you’d like. Wes.”

9 May 2023 Tuesday

I had to take Kyle Foote to the airport around 8 this morning as he was going to Denver for the day for his Pizza consulting for “Lulu’s Hot Oven” business down in South Jordan.

            I am still researching and compiling information on the Metz family which I did for much of the morning before walking the pups. It was kind of cool out so it was a light jacket weather. I didn’t do any yard work and didn’t see Adrian Villalobos much today although I was up early to fix him breakfast.  He didn’t go with us to the airport because he didn’t get ready in time and Kyle was anxious to be at the airport.

            I took a nap in the afternoon but was wakened by the sound of a chainsaw and when I looked outside, across the street, the forty foot poplar tree that we planted in Yvandro’s yard 25 years ago from one of my shoots was being taken down. It was mostly dead anyway and needed to be removed.

            I went to the Gay Men’s Support Group this evening and there was about 12 people there. Blair Bateman brought in a large poster that was in the center’s vault storeroom of me that he said was at Pride Day last year in their history section. I didn’t know it was even there as no one told me. It was kind of fun to see that.

The opening topic was on who do you admire and I said there’s too many but the main attribute they had in common was kindness. The meeting was kind of fluid with topics ranging from political news about Trump to Conversion Therapy and to Gay men innate biology versus culture. I said that being Gay is not about sex it’s about who you fall in love with and who can break your heart.

            After coming home, I had to stay up past 10 to go pick Kyle up and Adrian went with me this time. The airport was super busy for some reason with both arrival and departure lanes crowded. I know Kyle was glad to be home and complained liked everyone does about the distance of the Denver airport from Denver.

            In the news a New York jury found Trump guilty of assaulting E Jean Carroll back in the 1990s and defaming her by denying it. He was ordered to pay her $5 million. His lunatic supporters said it was a victory for Trump because he wasn’t convicted of rape. Like everyone else who has sued Trump, I doubt whether she will see a dime. Also, George Santos had criminal charges filed against him today but what for is sealed for now.  

10 May 2023 Wednesday

I finished my long research on Cladia Metz and posted it on West Second South and on People in Utah History when it was flagged by Face Book as going against community standards but only on the People’s page.

            I received this message from Vikkie Housley Smith, the owner of the History page. “Hey Ed... I just read my notifications and saw Facebook has removed 2 of your posts. I have no way (that I can see) to even see what they were. I can't even imagine why they would care about people.  But I wanted you to know that so far, I have LOVED every story you have put up here.  I also didn't know if they notified you...  but I wanted to let you know I am sorry that it happened. if you want to repost them ... that is ok with me.”

            I responded to her “Yes, the story I wrote about Elizabeth Metz daughter Cladia and her outlaw husband Ed Young was flagged as hate speech with no explanation... I tried to be careful, objective and no judgement just historical facts. Ed Young was convicted for setting fire to the Ogden court house and their son Howard built a series of underground tunnels in SLC. Forgotten histories of perhaps not sterling citizens but our history none the less... crazy that I posted the same material on my West Second South page and it wasn’t flagged at all...but when I said FB was arbitrary on my own page, they said it went against community standards and it was removed...It would be nice if a real person read these and not an algorithm...

Vikkie wrote  back “well here is the thing. I want you to put it back if you haven't already.  I will deal with them if they do it again.  It makes me angry because I had a post removed from my personal page that was a recipe. So, I know there really isn't a "rule" and I don't think anyone has reported your posts.  not that I have been notified of. 

I just wanted you to know I did not approve of the removal and want you to put it back.”

I responded “Thanks I am writing up Mamie Metz who was the younger daughter who led a tragic life... I think I will use the word courtesan instead of prostitute as that might be what’s against community standards and considered hate speech.

I disputed Facebook decision to flag the story and evidently someone looked  at it and it was reposted to the People History Site.

I went to the stores this morning to get some groceries but other than walking the pups that as about all I did outside of the house. I didn’t see Kyle Foote or Adrian Villalobos much today but in the early evening Adrian came up to eat and he fried up some Salmon I had thawed out for him.

He seemed rather pensive and I asked him if he was sad and then he told me that his ex-boyfriend found information on Kyle’s criminal background and had been trying to upset him about it. Adrian said that Kyle had already told him although I am not sure how much. Adrian was upset because this guy told his family in Columbia and Adrian had to deal with that but they were supportive of him. I told Adrian that Kyle had made some really big mistakes in the past but we have to hope he has put all that in the past.

Kyle came home about that time so we stopped talking about it and we visited with Kyle about his day at work. Kyle said that he is planning to ask Adrian to marry him this Monday.

After they went down stairs, I just watched some television mainly a French Mae movie called The Big Bug” about the future in 2045 when Artificial Intelligent Robots try to replace humans. It was more of a black comedy than a dystopian future.

In the news, George Santos has been charged with 13 felony counts but was released on a half a million dollar bond and plans on voting in Congress.

11 May 2023 Thursday

I started pulling out all the dead arborvitaes and throwing them over onto the parking pad because Peter Nash said he’s like them to help fill in his planter boxes. The back yard has sprouted so many weeds, especially rag weed.  I yanked the bushes out mostly by hand so later my left shoulder was extremely sore so I overdone it for sure. I called on the Dog Grooming School again and no one answers so I will go down there tomorrow and see what is going on there. Lulubelle is needing a grooming.

            Everyone here is busy with work or school except me. I did post the tragic story of Mamie Metz Steele who committed suicide in a SLC bordello in 1902. Other than that, not much else is happening. If the Republicans hold raising the debt ceiling hostage, I might not be getting my social security check in June.

This afternoon I did a little yard clean up and dragged the remnant of the chain link fence that had been left in my side yard and managed to put it in the trash bin. The rest of the poles I put along the curb. Maybe someone will take them for scrap metal, if not they will go to the dump.

            In the evening I did watch the 1970 Airport movie with an all-star cast mainly featuring Burt Lancaster, Dean Martin, and Helen Hayes. It was a big budget Hollywood film that at the critics hated but audiences loved. Helen Hayes won an Oscar for her role in it. Funny how that made adultery and divorce seem kind of cool and grown up. Flying sure has changed since then and not for the better.

12 May 2023 Friday

Chuck Whyte called me this morning after seeing the ticket prices for Gay Pride this year. I looked at their page too and interesting you can pay $5000 for a UTAH PR!DE LIVE! VIP BOOTH Ticket  that includes six VIP tickets, VIP reception, delicious food, hosted bar, your own server, meet the artists, and after party with the Lineup: MONÉT X CHANGE, Ultra Naté, Dana Goldberg, Brian Justin Crum, GSP. I remember the days we barely put on Gay  Pride Day for $500 and it was free to attend.  Also, I remember when we didn't have VIPs at all because everyone was a very important person.

I see that they have a $10 pass for Gay Youths 13-20 but only a $5 discount on a $20 admission for Seniors on a fixed income.  And the money keeps rolling in. I remember when Pride was more than a party.

            After working on the computer this morning, I decided to drive down to the Dog Grooming School. Passing by the Fairgrounds there must have been thousands of young people attending a music festival put on by Kilby Court. At the school I saw that it had closed down, which surprised me but there was no signage saying why.  So, I guess I will see if I can get Lulubelle in back at the dog park.

            On the way home I stopped in at Sutherland’s where their parking lot was filled with their mother’s day sale of plants and flowers. I was amazed how many people were there already, probably fifty or more. I bought some vegetables, zucchini, and summer squash stars, as well as some peppermint and a rosemary herb. I think my huge Rosemary bush did not survive the winter. I also bought some more mice traps.

            About noon after finishing my planting, Kyle Foote called and wanted me to go with him to American First because his paycheck was not automatically deposited but was written out. He wanted me to deposit it into my account so we went to the credit union at Lee’s Market. I didn’t see him again until this evening.

            While watching the news I heard a mouse trap snap that I had set in the kitchen by the stove. I was hoping to leave it there until Kyle came home but when Adrian Villalobos came up to fix himself some supper I had to go see and there was a large mouse that was killed but had dragged the trap a distance before it died. So, I disposed of the whole trap instead of reusing it.

            I have been having hamburgers for my lunches lately and that is what I had but for Adrian’s supper he had a fried steak and this cornmeal bread he fried. It’s made from that maize mix called “Pan”.

            Kyle came home after 7 this evening looking for Adrian who was out on the veranda eating outside. I just curled up with the pups in the lazy boy and watched some TV. I have been watching on HBO a series called The Plumbers about G Gordon Liddy and Howard Hunt’s break in at Watergate in 1972. It’s pretty good. Kathleen Turner played Dita Beard and she is almost unrecognizable from the svelte sexy thing  she was in Body Heat and Romancing the Stone from 40 years ago.

            Michael Romero called me back while I was watching  the show and we visited as I hadn’t heard from him in a long time. He said he was well and that his camper trailer’s refrigerator wasn’t working and a new one had to be ordered so that is why he never brought it over to park it. He sounded like he might not go anywhere this summer as so many campgrounds will be closed because of late snow and those open will be crowded.  He said he’s come by tomorrow to visit.

This is the response from a queer youngster to my posting of the Rainbow Flag meme "I think the inclusion flag is better because white queers have a legacy of socialized racism to contend with a side of transphobia. Our progressive gains are only on the backs of gay POC. Trans sisters were the first to riot on pride. Period." This sadly is what so many brainwashed young queers think today.

13 May 2023 Saturday

It rained for most of the morning I would say until nearly 11 before I was able to walk the pups and even then, I bundled up. Mike Romero came over in the afternoon to visit, bringing Coco with him. He said he’s gotten use to the catheter and feels pretty good although his diabetes is still acting up. He said the reason the trailer was brought over was that the refrigerator was broken so it’s still down at the dealers to get that fixed.  We had a good visit catching up I suppose.  He said that he’d bring his lawn mower over tomorrow as he doesn’t really use it anymore and Kyle Foote has never put together the one he bought last year. I only have a little bit of Grass left in the front yard and I might even get rid of that.

            Adrian Villalobos and Kyle were working on washing and cleaning Adrian’s KIA much of the afternoon or working in South Jordan. They blocked me in a lot, by parking behind me in the drive way so I never went to get groceries. I need to get the pups some chicken for tomorrow.

            My first love John Francis Cunningham died this day in 2007. I fell in love with him my Senior year in high school and we went to Cypress College together in the fall of 1969. He was the first boy I ever told him that I loved him. It did not go well. It was 1970.

He enlisted in the air force in 1973 while I left for Utah to attend BYU because California held too many sad memories of John for me. When he was discharged in 1977, having made the rank of sergeant, I was a married man pretending to be "normal" in Utah.

I had lost all track of him until 1983 when we reconnected by phone. We stayed in touch during the 1980's, told him I was Gay and that I still loved him.  He never married, became an alcoholic, lived in a male barracks as a firefighter. I lost track of him again when he  moved again and I didn't even know that he had died until 5 months after his death.

JOHN CUNNINGHAM OBITUARY-Jan. 9, 1951-May 13, 2007 John Cunningham, 56, of Oceanside died May 13. He was born in Glendale and was a federal firefighter. He served in the Air Force." This was all that was written and no service was held by his mother and two brothers.

            His veteran application for a marker stated he died of natural causes  but his brother told me he had committed suicide.  He was only 56.  He's buried in Fort Rosecrans National Cemetery in San Diego, PLOT SECTION CBI ROW 3 SITE 422.

I still think about him nearly daily.  I became a Gay activist so that young  people wouldn't have the same stigma and shame that kept John and I apart  50 years ago.

14 May 2023 Sunday

It rained for much of the morning again and at night we had a severe lightning and thunderstorm that lit up the skies over Salt Lake that I watched through the bay window.

            I did manage to take the pups twice on walks during the breaks and I let Mike Romero know not to bother with bringing the lawnmower over today because there’s no way I would mow.

            Kyle Foote asked if I had any breakfast food in the house because he wanted to fix him and Adrian Villalobos breakfast here rather than going out. Of course, I did. During the break in the weather, I also went to Lucky’s to buy chicken for the pup’s supper, some fruit, and eggs for Adrian’s breakfasts next week and I bought some carnations because Kyle said he was taking Adrian to his mother’s grave for Mother’s Day and I tagged along in the back seat.

            For much of the afternoon it cleared up and it was nice out. It was only in the evening did the thunder storm roll in while I was watching a 1946 MGM bio flick on Jerome Kern with lots of MGM stars like Judy Garland, and others singing the composers songs. Like almost all bio pics of popular composers the film was mostly fictional.

            On the computer I posted pictures of all my aunts, my great grandmothers, grandmothers, my mom, and my sisters for Mother’s Day. I even sent my niece pictures of her graduation from mechanic school I took. Ancestry.com has a feature where you can colorize black and white photos and that was kind of cool turning old portraits into color ones.

            Tomorrow Adrian starts Salt Lake Community College and I have to go to Roseman to have two teeth pulled that I am dreading because last time I had dry pockets that hurt really bad.

            I had a notice that Ross Poore is having a  memorial for Bill in June but he never said where or what time.

15 May 2023 Monday

It was an eventful day for Kyle Foote and Adrian Villalobos as that Kyle asked Adrian to marry him. It was the 6th month since they first met.

I fixed Adrian a breakfast of boiled eggs, rice and beans and fruit for his first day of classes at Salt Lake Community College. His classes now start at 8 so has to leave the house around 7:30. I got ready to go down at Roseman Dental to have two molars extracted. I have been dreading it because last time I had a tooth pulled I had a dry pocket that was very painful and they said to expect 2 hours in the chair while they yank them out.

So, I was down there at 9 and if I ever have a tooth pulled again and they assign a woman team to me I will just go home. I have had good luck with cavities, cleanings,  and etc. with women teams but they don't have the strength to pull my teeth which have strong roots.

To begin with, they didn't give me enough Novocain to deaden the nerves so all through the long process of pulling the first tooth I was in discomfort and actual pain and they had to keep giving me more and more shots while they chattered back and forth. An hour and a half of them trying to pull the tooth was exhausting for me. Call me a misogynist, I don't care. Whenever I had male dentists, the tooth came out quickly because they had stronger force. I just hope I don't have a dry pocket like the last time a gal pulled just 1 tooth.

Anyway, I was home by 11 and still exhausted. I walked the dogs around the block while Kyle Foote left for work. I didn’t want to just be inside because it was a beautiful 80 degree day so I decided to pull all the over grown weeds in the south side parking strip.

While I was outside, 5 middle school boys of various ethnicities asked if they could have a drink from my hose because they said they were hot from walking to school.

I went back to working in the yard for about 3 hours and that was enough. I probably shouldn’t have doing anything thing after what I went through this morning.

When Adrian came home from his first day, he fixed himself some fried fish I had breaded for him last week and had put in the freezer for him. I just rested in the lazy boy too tired to visit with him.

Later Kyle called and said he wanted me to distract Adrian by having him come up stairs when Kyle came home. So, I did and they were both nicely dressed. Adrian, I suppose, thought he and Kyle were just going out for an anniversary dinner.

I just watched my shows while they were gone for the evening but when they came home around 9:30 Adrian was so excited and had to show me the ring with which Kyle proposed. He could hardly contain himself and I hugged them both and said congratulations. If I hadn’t been so tired from my extractions today, I probably would have shown them both more enthusiasm but truly I am happy for them both. It’s what I spent a life time trying to accomplish.

So, Kyle and Adrian are getting married. Probably after Kyle gets back from his trip to Chicago this weekend

16 May 2023 Tuesday

Adrian is on this new 4 eggs a day breakfast routine. So, I fixed him 4 scrambled eggs, queso cheese, and a boiled potato for his breakfast. That is more eggs than I eat in a week. He wanted a can of tuna also to take with him for a lunch break.  I also gave him my silver and amethyst ring I bought back in 1988 at Gypsy Moon. It was the first real gift I bought for myself when I finally had some money from being so broke that year. I wanted him to have it to remember me by. I bought it because I had read in “Another Mother’s Tongue” back then that Gays should always wear purple on their person.

I spent almost all morning pulling weeds that grew up in the concrete pad and sidewalk along the south side of lot. That was a shore but I was happy when it was done but I still have to but it all in the yard waste bin. It’s a job for tomorrow.

I then went down to the Dog Park on North Temple to make an appointment for Lulabelle which they had an opening this Thursday at noon. However later when I came back to the house, I searched high and low for her rabies certificate but couldn’t find it at all neither Maxx’s only T J and Taco. So, I will have to go to the vet tomorrow and get a copy of them.

After leaving the Dog Park I went to Sutherlands and bought some more flowers and mice traps before going over to Mike Romero’s to pick up his electric lawn mower that he is giving me so I can finally mow the little bit of grass I have left in the front yard which I did. Mike said he hadn’t been feeling well because of his diabetes acting up and will bring Coco over tomorrow as he had a doctor’s appointment down in Daybreak. His yard is totally overgrown and weedy. I know he doesn’t have the strength or energy to do much about it.

I had been up since 5 this morning so I needed a nap and Kyle Foote woke me up around 4:30 and asked if I wanted to go with him back down to Mi Ranchito in South Jordan because he left his notebook there that he needed. I never say no to Kyle so I got dressed and we headed down right in going home traffic which I hate. Anyway, Kyle told me a little bit about his proposing to Adrian yesterday  and we visited a bit mostly about Adrian Villalobos starting school this week

This afternoon when he came home and fixed himself some lunch of fried fish, he talks to his sister via skype on his phone and he just laughs and it makes me smile and so happy to have him here, even if I don’t understand a word, he speaks to his sister but just can tell they are having a great time.

Kyle and I were barely back to the house in time for me feed the pups and then go off to my Tuesday night Gay Men’s Group. I’d say there was about 15 guys there, I think more than Bill Blevins anticipated. The main discussion was on the dangers of on line dating and the younger ones had more stories because they are the ones who use the dating apps the most, like Grindr, Growlr, and Scuff. We talked a little bit about Porn Hub pulling out of the Utah Market due to the State’s new anti-pornography laws where you have to show proof of age with a driver’s license on many of the streaming sites.

We also talked about 60 Minutes exposé’s on the 100 billion  dollars the Mormon Church is hoarding. A church spokesman tried to defend the church’s wealth by saying they needed the money for Jesus’ Second Coming to which someone in our group asked how much money does Jesus need to come back and is he coming First Class from Kolob?

Anyway, it was fun meeting even if I was rather low key because my energy is still low from teeth removal yesterday and all the work I have done around the yard.

When I came home, I was surprised to see Adrian and Kyle in the kitchen pulling out the refrigerator and oven to sweep behind them of mouse droppings and a dead mouse. I just let them go at it and had a bit of bean soup then went to bed.

17 May 2023 Wednesday

After fixing Adrian Villalobos his new diet breakfast and working on the computer I went over to Wasatch animal hospital to get records on both Lulubelle and Maxx. While there the  receptionist assistant said that Lulubelle was due for both her parvo and  Bordetella shots although her rabies was good for another year. So, I drove back to the house and retrieved Lulubelle and brought her to the clinic and $70 later she had both her shots. However, after get back home I noticed that she had pooped in the back of the FIT. I guess because she was nervous even though I walked all the pups before going to the vets.

            Well, that gave me the incentive to actually clean the inside of the car which I hadn’t since the accident last year and also, I never go through the car wash any more. I scrubbed inside the car and vacuumed the floors, washed the floor mats, and retied the seat covers. Then I washed the car in the driveway . It wasn’t  really too dirty as I park in the garage but just regular street grime and dust build up. It felt good to actually have a clean car once again.

            It was warming up by noon and it was in the mid 80’s today. I watered some of the front yard but didn’t get around to doing much yard work. Mike Romero dropped Coco off while he went to have his catheter changed down in Day Break so I mainly just stayed in the house resting although before Mike came over, I did go to Lucky’s because I was all out of Chicken for the pups, especially when Adrian came home from school hungry and ate two of the chicken thighs. I didn’t mind and the chicken I cook up is just as good for humans as it is for the pups. I also bought two dozen eggs and 6 cans of tuna for Adrian’s new diet. He goes through 20 eggs a week. He’s young and works out.

            Anyway, I also bought some boneless chicken breasts that were on sale and I sliced them into cutlets and breaded them before frying and baking them.

            When Mike came back from the doctors around 4, he retrieved Coco and I said I’d come over this weekend and mow his yard. It’s not that big of a yard to do but it’s really over grown.

            When Kyle Foote came home from work, he ate dinner here of my chicken cutlets, yellow rice, and cottage cheese. Adrian cooked up a small steak I left out for him since he had chicken for his lunch.

            I watched some of my usual shows and I have to say it gives me some pleasure to see Adrian and Kyle so affectionate towards each other, like we are a true family, which I suppose we are.

            Same old news. Mass shootings, bad weather, fighting over raising the debt ceiling, war in Ukraine, tension over Taiwan. Gas prices are back over $4 again. And the Beat goes on.

18 May 2023 Thursday

I knew that Adrian Villalobos didn’t have to go to school until 9 from what the counselor said but both him and Kyle Foote kept telling me his class was at 8 so I fixed him his breakfast at 7 but he didn’t even come up until after 8.

Today was an expensive day between grooming Lulubelle, buying treats at Walmart for the pups and Kyle Foote needing $2000 to pay for his 6 days at a hotel in Chicago.

I took Lulubelle down at noon and she wasn’t ready until 4. About 3:30 Kyle asked me to go get a drink at Common Cents and then he told me about all his job prospects but the bottom line was that he only had $80 until he supposedly get paid but needed to pay for his rooms which were close to $1800 for the time there. So, I transferred money from my savings account to his card so he can pay for his rooms plus some extra. I have no idea why he doesn’t budget for these trips but he doesn’t. I paid for $600 for his plane ticket last month so the only thing he actually paid for was for the convention and I have no idea how much that was. I know you have to spend money to make money but it seems like he’s always spending mine.

Lulabelle’s grooming was $61 with a $10 tip but she really needed it and she only goes in like every three months.

19 May 2023 Friday

I woke up at 2;00 this morning and forced myself to go back to sleep before getting up around 6. After walking the pups this morning, I started working some in the backyard, first we stacking all the fence planks that Kyle left out in the yard. I moved them and stacked them against the fence that is up. Then I started pulling up some of the wild mustard that was two to three feet tall. I want to get the weeds down that have blanketed the backyard and can be seen from the street.

            I also mowed and watered the front yard also. My garden in that transitional period where all the tulips and bulb flowers are gone but the late spring flowers haven't bloomed yet. There’s just a few irises but not many yet and no roses or poppies.

But I am so grateful that in my old age I can sit in the shade of a tree that I planted 26 years ago and enjoy a yard where everywhere I look, I know I planted a lovely garden. I am so fortunate to actually have a yard in this day and age when owning a home with a yard is out of reach of most of the middle class.  Salt Lake City is going to be home for apartment dwellers.

Kyle Foote wanted me to go with him and Adrian Villalobos to Costco because Adrian wanted their slice of pizza. I wasn’t going to go but Kyle sounded like he wanted me to go with them. We stopped first for gasoline at Exxon and prices had dropped just since yesterday from $4.19 to $3.87 a gallon. Who knows what is going on there?

I hadn’t been to Costco in years and hadn’t have a membership either but Kyle had some gift cards that one can use to enter the store. Kyle didn’t eat the crust on his because of the gluten so I ate a bit of it. It’s the part I like best anyway.

I decided to let Kyle use my VISA card while he’s in Chicago just in case of emergency. I asked if not to spend more than $300 but with that kid you never know what he will do.

We went to the airport at 4:30, said our goodbyes, and then I drove Adrian to Arby’s to get him a chocolate shake. It helps with his depression LOL. I spent the rest of the afternoon and evening walking and feeding the pups, then watched television before finally calling it a day.

20 May 2023 Saturday

Mike Romero came by around 9 shortly after I walked the pups and we went over to his place to mow his lawn that was completely overgrown.  He did some of the trimming but I could tell he didn’t have the strength or energy to do much as he was dizzy a lot. We worked until about 11 and got the worst of it done. It looked better and not like his place was abandoned. When we were through his next door neighbor dropped by and said there was a UDOT meeting last weekend about the possible expansion of I 15 which would take out his and all the other townhouses and homes along the freeway.  Mike acted like he wasn’t worried like UDOT would take years to do so but I doubt it.

I doubt whether their compensation would pay for a comparable home in that area close to downtown, pay for moving expenses, and all the other incidentals of uprooting  all these homes and businesses. Of course, none of these UDOT officials live here nor know of anyone who does. 

Seems to me it would be much cheaper to have reverse lanes on I-15 or build a new freeway to the west of the airport rather than spend 100's of millions of dollars buying up all the homes and businesses from here to Farmington. Oh well no body asked me and it’s not like UDOT cares what people have to say.

After coming back to the house around 11:30 I fixed me some lunch. Adrian Villalobos was out somewhere I really didn’t see him very much today.

I tried napping but at 3 Jeff Freedman who now lives in Pittsburg called to visit and pick my brain for some “fun” facts about SLC as that a Gay Baseball League he’s involved in is coming to Salt Lake City next week for some tournament. We commiserated how the Gay community has changed with younger people not participating any more or willing to do the work it takes to make change happen.  He said that the Royal Court here is so dysfunctional that he basically has divorced himself from having anything to do with it even through it’s his 30th Anniversary Reign. I sent him These for Fun facts that  since 2021 the majority of Salt Lake city's council members are LGBT and people of color.  That we Elected our first Gay mayor in 2015 and Salt Lake City had a Gay Liberation organization in 1969 just 4 months after the Stonewall Rebellion in NYC.

I think I over did it today...so exhausted I can barely feed the pups before collapsing. I spent 2 hours at Mike Romeros place mowing this morning and I had a bug to tackle the overgrown weeds in the backyard ... wild mustard, rag weed, Scottish Thistle, burr weed and goat heads. The weeds were nearly 2 feet and I was worried about the pups besides not wanting people to think trashy people live here...so I put on my work ethic and this 72 year old man spent 2 and half hours mowing. I moved all the unused fence planks the other day so I could mow... more to do tomorrow but I don't care anymore about the back yard...the days of shade trees. Fruit trees, and vegetable and flower gardens are gone... turn turn everything has a season but I'll keep planting until I am planted

            I saw that Doug Tollstrup aka Clariss Cartier poste a letter he wrote regarding not receiving Pride Day tickets this year. “Hi, All Recipients, I just got an email from Jonathan Foulk of the Pride Center and he informed me that they are not giving complimentary passes this year to Pride Weekend!!  They are giving us passes to the Utah Pride LIVE on Thursday, June 1, 2023 only.  I don’t know how you all feel, but this is very upsetting to me.  As past recipients, I feel like the complimentary passes were a way of saying thank you for our community service.  Some of you may not care one way or the other. At the bottom of this email, I am enclosing the response I sent to Jonathan.  If you feel inclined, please send him an email expressing your opinion and disappointment with this decision.  If they take this one small perk away now, we’ll more than likely never see it in the future. I would also be interested in how the rest of you feel just for my own knowledge.”

Jonathan Foulk (he/him) Co-CEO 415-308-6646 Jonathan@utahpridecenter.org

Here’s my Letter: “Thanks! Jonathan, I received the Kristen Ries award in 1996.  Ever since then, as a gesture of appreciation for our community service, we have gotten complimentary passes to Pride Weekend.  I feel like it’s the least The Pride Center can do for their community service award recipients.  I realize Pride has become a fundraiser for the center.  For many years, it was free as a gift to the community.  I think it’s so sad and quite frankly a slap in the face for those of us who have donated so much time and energy over many years.  It’s a small way the Pride Center has said thank you to us. I beg you and the Pride center to reconsider this decision!  I will be sending this email to all the other recipients, also. Thank you, Douglas Tollstrup (Aka Clariss Cartier)

            I also wrote “Hello, my name in Ben Williams and I just learned that the Pride Center has decided to not give out complimentary tickets to Pride Day this year. That is disappointing, I am sure to the majority of awardees who were recognized for their outstanding service to this community.  I received this honor along with Becky Moss and Nikki Boyer in 1991. It was the highest honor I ever received due to the fact that the Award was named for the First Recipient Dr. Kristin Ries who was the only physician who was caring for Gay men who were dying of AIDS in Utah. I was also given a life time achievement award by the center in 2019. Perhaps the Center would not even have a center or Pride Day if not for many of these recipients. I think this is just another slap in the face to the people who were instrumental in building this community in the face of enormous opposition and personal sacrifices. I am truly disappointed that someone decided to remove the portraits of awardees from the Dr. Ries stairwell at the center after all the work that went into it and the dedication of it as a huge milestone event. When I saw that the center had removed them, it was a sign that the history of this community means very little anymore. I was involved with the Gay and Lesbian Community Council of Utah for many year that created Pride Day and the Utah Stonewall Center which became the Pride Center. Whether you continue the tradition of comping tickets is irrelevant to me as much as the Centers' lack of appreciation for those upon whose back you now stand.

21 May 2023 Sunday

Another spring cleanup day. I watered all the front yard, then swept, and cleaned the north side of the garage of all the winter leaves and mulch. I then spread all the leaves along the fence line in front of the house. That was a chore. I wanted the side of the house clean so I could haul all the lumber that was  left on the backyard patio to the side of the garage. I just took as much as I could carry one a few at a time. When that was done, I pulled all the milk weed that grew up along the fence line next to the patio. Damn my Puritan work ethics.

            I am just doing things that were left all winter and tomorrow I will tackle removing all the bark that was dumped on the patio. I am taking it one day at a time.

            I sat and visited with Adrian Villalobos on the Veranda for a little bit and also went to Lucky’s to get some chicken for the pups and bananas for Adrian’s lunches next week.

            It was a really warm day today over 85 degrees but the air is kind of smokey from fires in Canada.

            This evening I watered the front yard again and think I need to buy a smaller hose because the one Kyle bought is just so clunky and unwieldy.

            This evening I watched a BBC movie on the sinking of the Lusitania during World War I. It sank in 18 minutes, drowning 1200 people. The film kind of suggested a conspiracy on the part of the British Admiralty.

I sent a response to the Pride Center regarding how they acknowledge Dr. Kristin Ries Awardee recipients during Pride Day.  I suppose I should be grateful they even acknowledge us at all considering no one down there probably has a  clue who we are or care for that matter.  Oh well I said my piece.

This is what I wrote, "I for one would have preferred tickets to Pride Day rather than the Utah Pride Live. As a senior the idea of a fancy sit down dinner has little appeal to me and I also have no clue who any of the performers are or where I would be seated.

At Pride Day, it was a time to reconnect with old friends, like a family reunion, and as the festival became so large it was especially nice to be in the VIP section only because so many past recipients and friends, I knew who help build the community were there. Even then in the so called VIP section I remember helping Nikki Boyer wait tables and clean up as we old timers can't just sit and do nothing.

            In 1989 I was a key note speaker at Pride and in 2019 I spent 2 day at the Utah Queer History booth standing and talking to people about our history. There was never a time I didn't help in some way with Pride since 1986.  Even at my age I don't want to sit and be fed and entertained at the Utah Live Pride. I'd rather be at Pride Day and see and reconnect with people we don't get to see much anymore. People who would recognize me and ask how I am not some nameless person in a crowded room.

 I am sure the Pride Day people thought giving us tickets to that one event was special but I don't think they realize that many of us especial Seniors would rather take our time strolling through the park or sitting in the VIP section reminiscing with our friends about days gone by. Those of us who received this award back in the 1990's are no longer Spring Chickens but still feel like what we did got us where we are today.

I always said and still believe Pride is more than a party.”

22 May 2023 Monday

I was up early around 5:30 to start fixing Adrian Villalobos his breakfast of a boiled potato, 4 scrambled eggs and slices of queso fresco cheese. I also pack tuna and fruit for his afternoon snack as he is in school from 8 to 1 in the afternoon.

            I had to be at the Redwood Clinic at 8 so I left the house about the same time Adrian did. However, Dr. Stoneburner was late getting to work so even though I was his first patient I still end up waiting. I didn’t mind.  I had him look at my ears that I was worried about and he said that they may be pre-cancerous so made an appointment for a dermatologist but it was not really serious. I just need to wear my broad brim hat whenever I am out in the sun for too long doing yard work. Anyway, everything was fine. My blood pressure was 125 if you can believe that. So, I made another appointment for Sept 22nd when I will also have some lab work down beforehand.

            I came home and took the pups for a morning walk then decided to go to Sutherlands to buy another garden hose. The 100 foot one that Kyle bought was just too big and bulky to use for just my front yard. I also bought a few more flowers and another tomato plant.

            I decided to rearrange the castle bricks so that its  straight line across the back now that I don’t have a front gate anymore and don’t need the little path. That was a lot of work bit then I had to use my yard car to fill with dirt and soil to fill it in behind the bricks to make it the same level as the rest.

            So, It was a work in the garden day again and I was really tired so after fixing a burritos I took a nap and when I got up, I was still achy so I used the hot tub for the first time in quite a while. Kyle has the temperature set at 99 so it was cooler than I like at 104 but I didn’t mess with it. Afterwards walked the pups and worked more out in the yard watering and cleaning up all the tulip that were spent and over for the year. I sat beneath my tree and looked at my garden with my buttery yellow irises and my oriental poppies so to pop.

            Adrian was in and out most the day and I rarely saw him and, in the evening, I watched my delayed Sunday shows like the Simpsons and Bob’s Burgers.  So that was much of my day. The smoke from Canada is diminishing and it was 86 today.

I wonder if any of the Brave New alphabet will care that it's Harvey Milk Day. I wonder also if the poly and gender add Ons will acknowledge it as that Milk  was, to them, a "cis gender white older man." He was Jewish I wonder if that counts LOL, He would have been 93 years old if a homophobe would not have murdered him and San Francisco Mayor George Moscone.

23 May 2023 Tuesday

I had to go down stairs and wake Adrian Villalobos up to get ready for school and eat breakfast. He had stayed up late talking to Kyle Foote and had a tiresome day at school yesterday.

I worked my butt off today by clearing the back patio and working in the front yard. The month of May takes a lot of work but it's much more pleasant to be outside than hot June and July. Besides, all the pretty irises will soon be gone.

I spent the past couple of days rebuilding my castle brick retaining wall to eliminate the path to the old gate that is gone but then I also had to shovel cart loads full of dirt to level out the ground. Then I had to shovel all the bark that was on the patio in the back and haul it out front to spread to keep the mud and dirt down.  Before I finished, I also mowed what little grass I have left in the front yard.

When I am pooped out, I sit beneath my shade tree and have my soul renewed by my flowering garden. Oh, Mary, it takes a Faery to make something pretty.

I planted my vegetable garden this year in the front yard near my Blue Spruce... mainly tomatoes, bell peppers, and squash. I guess the Johnson farmer gene is still in me a bit. I keep singing “he don't plant taters he don't plant cotton and them what plants them are soon forgotten but old man river he keeps on  rolling along.” God first planted a garden before he made man and woman so say the ancient Mesopotamians  who are all dust now.

When Adrian came home from school, he sat with me beneath the front yard tree and visited a bit before he went off to the gym to work out before it gets to crowded. I finally went in the late afternoon to take a nap and when I got up Adrian was home fixing himself some fried fish while I went and walked the pups. Lulubelle didn’t want to go because I think she could sense a storm was coming in.

It was raining here in West Pointe by Rose Park this late afternoon. I am glad I got all my yard work done and the pups walked earlier in the day and I didn’t have to water any.

I was too tired to go to the men’s group this evening and also it was raining some. Looking at my email’s Michael Aaron made a snarky remark about my comment that I would have rather had free tickets to Pride Day than the gala meal. It pissed me off. I will get over it eventually.

I watched The White House Plumbers about the Watergate break in and was going to go bed but I thought 9 was too early as I didn’t want to wake up in the middle of the night again. So, I was watching Golden Girls when Adrian came up all excited because Kyle Foote was at the airport because he caught an early flight home. So, I drove Adrian down to pick Kyle up. I thought Adrian was going to explode. I never had anyone love me as much as Adrian loves Kyle. I know Kyle was tired and really ready to come back home. I was happy he was home but went straight to bed.

24 May 2023 Wednesday

I didn’t do as much yard work as usual but did do some weeding and watering. I was kind of tired today. Jim McMullin called me this morning to visit and he said that TJ Otaka has been in terrible pain with his teeth and was at the dentist yesterday and today. I know how that can be. Jim told me he saw my name in the last Sunday paper or I wouldn’t have known that evidently, I was quoted in a Tribune article that the U of U Investigative Class published about the Doug Coleman murder in 1978. I spoke to the  class back in March because they wanted some background on what being Gay in the 1970s was like.

            It was a beautiful day on the most part although it tried to sprinkle in the late afternoon when I took the pups on a second walk.

In the evening Kyle Foote and Adrian Villalobos came up to tell me about their wedding plans and asked if I had talked to TJ and Jim and said I ad and they agreed to come. I guess they are going to go get a marriage license tomorrow and find an officiant for the marriage that Kyle wants to have at Table  X in Millcreek. I never heard of the place but that’s not unusual.

I watched another episode of the White House Plumbers before going to bed.  

The great Tina Turner passed away today 83 years old...made a new life after leaving Ike Turner RIP 

25 May 2023 Thursday

I was up early and made corn tortillas from scratch for Adrian’s breakfast  and was worried when he wasn’t up by 7 to eat but then realized that I had forgotten that on Thursdays he doesn’t have to be at college until 9.

            After taking the pups for a morning walk, I watered my garden and weeded some. Then I spent the rest of the morning leveling out a large mound of dirt in the backyard by where the gate will be that was left over from last year. The crust was like concrete but once I broke through, I could fill my  gorilla cart and haul the dirt to fill in some trenches and pulled rag weed. I still have some smaller mounds that will need a pick axe to break up before they could be leveled.

All that is left in my backyard is an Ash tree and a lone pink rose bush which was the first thing I planted back in 1996 when the house was brand new and we had to landscape. It’s still has pretty pink roses.

I then took a nap until Adrian came home from working out at the gym and fixing himself a late lunch. I took the pups out for an afternoon walk and it had clouded up but while it looked like it might rain it didn’t.

I made some meat sauce and spinach lasagna this afternoon for Adrian and Kyle Foote who went to the court house to get their marriage license. When they came back to the house Kyle then asked me to be the officiant at their wedding and brought with them the forms for me to sign so I could. I said that I would. In the early 90’s I performed a wedding for two Gays I knew back then.

Kyle said they picked out their suits for the wedding which he said were very spring like and light blue. Adrian was talking to his family on his phone and I asked Kyle if he had the jitters yet and he said no but Adrian has. Kyle said he thinks he may have caught a cold from his time back in Chicago and went back downstairs to eat some lasagna.

I didn’t ask anything about Table X and how expensive it seemed to be when I looked on line as I didn’t want to be that guy who spoils an occasion. But I know Kyle has to pay $1800 on June 1st and the wedding is Friday the 2nd.  Maybe Kyle worked out some kind of deal for a banquet at the place but when I looked at the site on line a 7 course meal with wine paring was $100 per person and there may be nearly a dozen people for a dinner afterwards.

If the government fails to raise the debt ceiling by June 1st my social security check may be late also.

Jim Dabakis sent me a text saying he’s in Venice, Italy so I sent him pictures of Taco snuggling up with me in bed.

Ross Poore wrote me “The confirmed date for Bill’s service is Saturday, July 1 at 1 PM at the cemetery in Layton. It is the Lindquist facility on Fairfield in Layton. Directions and specifics will be provided later.  The service will be short: the obituary will be read , a musical number, personal comments from someone and military honors. Comments from anyone is appropriate and asked for. I may contact specific individuals. The location is very close to our home. A small lunch is planned to give those that have time a chance to visit. I will send a map later. Any suggestion or ideas are welcome.” I haven’t decided whether I will go or not as it will be a family deal.  

26 May 2023 Friday

It was raining this morning when I got up at 6 to fix some coffee and breakfast burritos. I just did my journal and This Day In Gay History. I haven’t done anything on Second South for a while as I am taking a break from it. I filled out the form to act as an officiant for Kyle Foote and Adrian Villalobos wedding next Friday and Kyle sent it into the county. Kyle caught a cold and Adrian worked on his homework for much of the day.

            This morning after the weather cleared, I worked for about three hours in the backyard moving the fence planks again so I could fill in more dirt against the fence line and took a pick axe to break up some of the dirt mounds. I didn’t need to water any because of the rain.

            I walked the pups twice but Lulubelle only once as she was weirded out by the change in the weather this afternoon.

            I did go to the Rose Park library to get four books to read. I haven’t actually read a book in quite a while and Janet Evanovich’s newest Stephanie Plum book was available. I also went to Lucky’s to buy some treats. I noticed the price of eggs are starting to come down so I bought 18 for $3.00. I have to keep Adrian supplied in eggs.

            This evening I watched a documentary on Netflix about the Mystery of Malaysian Flight 370. It show cased the three main theories but still to this day no one knows for sure what happened to it.

Fran Pruyn sent an email that Deb Hall and Kent Frogley will share the Dr. Kristin Ries Community Service Award this year.

The News reported 3 Utah Target Stores had bomb threats due to selling Pride merchandise. One was the SLC store.

27 May 2023 Saturday

I pulled weeds along the cattle guard fence in the back yard and then started pulling weeds in the old curb space where the mail box used to be and the little triangular space between the Bahena’s drive way and ours after walking the pups this morning.

Around noon Kyle Foote and Adrian Villalobos were leaving to shop for bow ties and white shirts for their wedding. Kyle asked if I wanted to go first down to Common Cents to get a drink and I said sure, as I was tired, and decided it was a good time to quit.  My oriental poppies are starting to blooms and I love the rich dark orange colors. I also transplanted some starts, from the roots of the old flowering cherry tree. I don’t know if they will make it but they would have been paved over if or when ever concrete gets poured

            They were gone for most of the afternoon and I read for most of the day from Janet Evanovich’s The Pursuit about a female FBI agent and a diamond theft. It’s pretty engaging, light, and frivolous.

            In the late afternoon, I heard all this banging around in the garage and went down stairs to find the boys cleaning out the garage so that Kyle can park the Terrain inside. I don’t know what got into them but I am glad they did. Afterwards Adrian wanted a chocolate shake so we went to the Arby’s in Woods Cross. Kyle said that the one on North Temple was out of shakes for some reason and he also said that Arby’s shakes there are a dollar more than anywhere else. I did not know that.

            It was a beautiful day and lots of people in the neighborhood were doing yard work like “Pleasant Valley Sunday” except for Victor’s place behind me where Reed Hall’s family used to live. The grass and weeds in his front and back yard are at least 2 feet high. I am surprised that no one has complained yet.

            I read more in the evening than finished watching “All the President’s Men” about the investigation into Watergate, then some comedy sitcoms before going to bed.

28 May 2023 Sunday

When I took the pups for a walk this morning, Lulubelle ran back to the house so I had to go back and let her inside and then took the other three for their walk. I am not sure why she did that.

Anyway, my fingers and hands are really sore from pulling up weeds that filled the spaces in between the concrete in the driveway. I first cleared out the old mailbox area, pulling weeds and shoveling out gravel before doing the driveway. Kyle Foote and Adrian Villalobos went off to brunch so was alone for much of the morning. I used a screwdriver to go along the spaces where the weeds grew and had to pull the stubborn ones. I spent about 3 hours crawling along the driveway cleaning it up when the boys came home. Kyle said he changed the location of their wedding to the Hyatt Hotel at the convention center downtown where they went for brunch to check it out. I guess there is a Mexican Restaurant on the Sixth Floor called Mar Muntanya where they want to be married on the balcony.

            I was pretty tired today after working on the driveway and didn’t do much else. In the late afternoon I walked the pups again and Lulubelle went this time. Kyle sent out e-vites to the wedding in the evening when I watched two foreign movies, a German one called “Blood and Gold” and an Italian one called “Seven Woman and a Murder.”          I mostly read several chapters from “The Pursuit” which I am finding enjoyable.

Gay actor George Maharis died at the age of 94 RIP. My mother was born where Route 66, which was built through Shamrock Texas.  The house was moved so the road could be built.

29 May 2023 Monday Memorial Day

I was tired from pulling grass and weeds in the driveway yesterday so I took a break from working in the yard. Kyle Foote asked if I’d make some scalloped potatoes which I did which Adrian and Kyle had for their lunch. Kyle cooked up some steaks and they ate out on the veranda. I didn’t want anything so I just stayed in my lazy boy and read The Pursuit which I finished this evening.

            I did talk to Michael Romero about attending the wedding. He’ll drop Coco off here and we will go together.

            So, it wasn’t much of a holiday for me but I didn’t care. I enjoyed it the way I did. Kyle and Adrian are both getting sick with sore throats. I hope that’s all it is.

When I was in high school, Memorial Day was always May 30th which it had been for 100 years. It was only changed to the last Monday in May in 1971 to make it a 3 day holiday. Originally it was called Decoration Day to honor Civil War soldiers killed in battle eventually became a day to honor the death of veterans of all wars. It has also now become a time to visit graves of loved ones.

My grandfather ancestor, Britton Williams, was captured in battle and hung by the British during the Revolutionary War. His body was cut down when nearly dead and then given over to Indian allies to mutilate. My grandmother his wife Elizabeth recovered his body and he was  buried on their plantation farm near the Savannah River SC. A plaque was placed in the  Bonaventura Cemetery in Augusta. GA even though he was not buried there. He was about  40 when he was killed as a Partisan Ranger in  Marion Francis' band of guerilla fighters also known as the Swamp Fox

30 May 2023 Tuesday

I was up by 6 to fix Adrian Villalobos his breakfast and pack a snack of fruit and a can of tuna. I went with Kyle Foote to his court appearance in Tooele. We left around 9 and fortunately we didn’t have to wait long to be called. Kyle’s lawyer was able to get his next court appearance for 6 months out which will be November 7th.  We were back home by 10:30.

            Kyle asked if I was going to Pride this year with him and Adrian Villalobos and I said no. I said I have been to more Pride Days than most people ever will. He disagreed so I said okay I have been involved in making more Pride Days happen then most people ever will.

My first Pride Day was in 1986 held in Pioneer Park. I sold homemade “Whole Wheat Faggot Mormon Cookies”  as a fund raiser for Affirmation and the Restoration Church  which sold out except for the ones stolen by transients in the park.

            In 1988 my pink Japanese Parasol was confiscated by the entertainment committee to shade the sound board system to keep it from frying at Sunnyside Park as it was hot that year over 100 degrees.

 In 1989 I was a keynote speaker and my remarks were printed in the Tribune. I also made a large cotton muslin banner with the  words Gay and Lesbian Pride painted on it to display.

It was the first time we had a sign in the park stating it was Gay Pride Day.  The Gay and Lesbian Community Council, which sponsored Pride Day, had a debate on whether to have any signage at all, fearing that it might keep people away. I argued that if we as leaders in the community can’t show our Pride and be fearless how can we expect anyone else.  I volunteered to make the banner.  It disappeared when the Utah Stonewall Center was shut down.

In 1991,  I along with Becky Moss and Nikki Boyer received the Dr. Kristen Ries Award for Community service  at Pride Day in Murry Park, only marred by a bunch of Neo Nazis  marching in and out. Later while attending the 2nd Pride March, I held our banner with others, with my back to the Nazis on the steps of the city county building.

In 1994 I was a keynote speaker again at Pride which was held at the Northwest Community Center where Joe Redburn announced that I was to sing LOL. He was a little tipsy  and I said no one wanted to hear me sing and proceeded with my speech.

My involvement with helping with Pride Day waned as it became more of a party than a political celebration of our rights. 

In 2003 I put together five Utah Stonewall Historical Society kiosks for the Center but they reneged on paying us for them. At that point I really stopped doing much with Pride Day, not trusting the folks who turned it into a cash cow for the Pride Center.

My last hurrah was in 2019 when with others from the Queer Historical Society we put together a history display. I rode in the parade along with Sue Robbins and Pepper Prespentt as I had received a Lifetime Achievement Award from the Pride Center.

It’s marvelous to see how Pride Day has grown and the parade become the second largest parade in Utah.  However today, however, I am quite willing to just reminisce about our early days and ready to let the parade pass me by.

            I went and worked a bit in the front yard pulling weeds in the walk ways and watering a bit. The oriental poppies are in full bloom and gorgeous, however my beautiful Irises are starting to fade away. Everything in its season.

            It was quite warm today walking the pups. I made some chicken and rice soup for Adrian because his throat was sore from his cold.

            Kyle came rushing home around 5 and asked for me to keep the Pups in my room as he had a conference zoom meeting downstairs. So, I did and fed them in my room before going off to the Gay Men’s Support Group.

            The meeting was held in the downtown library and already Second East was closed down for parking and it was a mess downtown so I decided I didn’t want the hassle of attending so I left. I went down Second South and from Main Street until Sixth West the street was filled with construction barrels. I could see right away it would be a mess trying to find parking Friday and decided it would be easier to take an Uber for the wedding.

            I wasn’t too disappointed about not attending the men’s group  as that I really just wanted to see what parking would be like.  I am reading a new book called “The Bone Queen” a murder mystery that takes place in Havana, Cuba.

            Before going to bed, I saw an email from Michael Aaron that he had some free tickets to pride and I asked for 2 and he sent them. Of course, I will give them to Kyle and Adrian

It was reported that Amy Fowler is resigning from SLC council because of a DUI and Rep Chris Steward is resigning from Congress. He said for his wife’s health. He was an awful representative for Salt Lake City and only won because of gerrymandering.

31 May 2023 Wednesday

Well, another May has come and gone. The weather was pretty for much of the day but a wind storm blew in while I was napping in the afternoon but I didn’t see that the ground was wet at all.

            After fixing breakfast for Adrian Villalobos, I made Malt O Meal cereal for myself. I wasn’t all that hungry for a heavy breakfast. After walking the pups, I went to Deseret Industries to drop off the Bill Poore’s rug shampooer, and some ski racks that Kyle Foote was just going to throw out. I know they weren’t cheap just to throw away.

            Afterwards I went to garden center on 15th South and I bought some creeping thyme. The whole parking lot was filled and I couldn’t figure out why until checking out I was told that Wednesdays were senior 10 percent discount days.

Sutherlands is starting to close out its vegetables and flowers so before they are all gone, I went there and bought 2 echinacea [purple cone flowers] a rudbeckia [black eye Susan] and some more thyme. These will take the heat of summer and no faery garden should be without echinacea.

I stopped at Common Cents on the way home and saw that gas has jumped back up to around $4.20. It sure has been fluctuating a lot lately.

So, I spent much of the late morning out in the yard planting, weeding, and watering. I was tired after that, so went inside and took a nap with the pups and when getting up at 4:30, I took all but Lulubelle for an afternoon walk. She was weirded out by the weather although it was sunshiny out.

After fixing their supper, I decided to clean the front room really well and I accidently knocked over the standing pole lamp that Kyle and Danny Montoya bought that Kyle didn’t want. It shattered the class lamp shade so I had to get rid of it. Also, I noticed that my fig tree plant I had for over 30 years finally died.  I had it from my days at the LaFrance Apartments days.

I mopped, vacuum, and dusted the front room really well and was too tired to continue with the kitchen which will be for another day. When Kyle came home, I told him about the Pride Day Tickets that Michael Aaron sent me and I gave them to him.  

I had two emails today one regarding the video I did for some U of U college students in an Investigative  Reporting Class who had asked me to speak to them about being Gay in the 1970s. I was familiar with U of U back then as I was the food service manager of the Huddle, a hamburger grill in the Union Building and later worked doing concert and sports set up in the Special Events Center. These students were investigating unsolved Gay murders from over 40 years ago. Another was from Wes Long regarding the City Weekly’s Pride Issue that had an article on MCC.

Well May has ended and most of my irises have faded but my roses are in full bloom as are my poppies. My vegetable garden is starting to take off too. 

JUNE

1 June 2023 Thursday

The pups all enjoying this first day of June as was I. I made Adrian Villalobos’ breakfast way too early again because I forget he doesn’t have to be at school until 9.

It was sunny out this morning so took the pups for a walk and then worked some outside. June is busting out all over as I walked through my front yard where I like to sit beneath my shade tree and see what has bloomed and what has faded away. By July most of the colors will be gone.

I cut back all the Irises that had faded all ready but my roses are in full bloom. I watered my little vegetable garden and after doing a little clean up I sat for a bit. Then I noticed that Kyle Foote had replaced the American and Pride Flags. He found a Gay Pride Flag with the original 8 colors that debuted at the Gay Freedom Day Parade in SF in 1978. Each of the original eight colors had their own unique symbolism.  Hot pink: sex;  Red: life;  Orange: healing; Yellow: sunlight; Green: nature; Turquoise: magic and art; Indigo: serenity; and Violet: spirit.

            I then went inside the house and finished cleaning the dining room and kitchen, mopping the floors and such. I was scrubbing and cleaning the deck of where the pups had pooped when Kyle came home and we went for a drink at Common Cents.

            I talked to Mike Romero some today about logistics about getting to the Hyatt tomorrow and I decided just to drive us because taking an Uber would cost almost as much as parking. Mike said his camper was ready and he was taking it out up to Perry Utah but will come back in time tomorrow for the wedding.

            I took a nap in the afternoon and when I was up, I took the pups except for Lulubelle for another walk. The weather had turned dark with thunder so she was too weirded out to go but it never rained and soon even cleared up.

            Kyle and Adrian were home and, in the evening, Kyle wanted me to go with them to Trolley Square so he could get a beard trim because Adrian wanted him too. He looked fine to me. Anyway, Adrian was so nervous and excited about tomorrow and called me his “little grandpa” in Spanish. Seems strange to be called Grandpa but I guess that is what I am since I am almost 50 years older than Adrian.

            After Kyle was finished, we went to McDonalds on 5th South because we were a bit hungry. Inside McDonalds was almost all computerized with order kiosks and it looked so futuristic. It certainly was not the McDonalds I was used to and the food was kind of crappy. While the place looked modern it was not very clean inside and had a lot of “sketchy” people there.

Afterwards we went to the Hyatt Hotel so I could see the layout for tomorrow and on the 6th Floor we went outside on the roof top and I could look down Second South. How different it looked with all the new high rise apartments.

Back at the house, Kyle wanted a run through of tomorrows ceremony and a practice. My part is that I will welcome people, ask if they have vows, then ask if they will take each other, exchange rings, and then pronounce them married.

Adrian’s knees were shaking. So, I am finally marrying Kyle, perhaps not how I expected but good enough. Bill Poore if he had a grave would be rolling over in it.  

Mayor Mendenhall said that more households in Salt Lake have dogs than children... no wonder I love Salt Lake.

2 June 2023 Friday

I performed the marriage of Kyle Foote and Adrian Villalobos this evening. So, I ended up marrying Kyle after all these years in a way I least expected. I could not be any happier for them as they are my family for better or worse.

            I was kind of anxious all day knowing that I was expected to perform the wedding this evening as it seemed kind of surreal to me, that this was not make believe but actually a legally binding ceremony. I’ve known Gay Marriage in theory since 2013 but this is the first time it meant anything to me.

            I was up too early around 4:30 because I couldn’t sleep any longer. Did my morning routine and walked the pups. I had cleaned the house really well yesterday so I just spent some time in the front yard enjoying my pretty flowers.

            In the afternoon Kyle and Adrian had some gal come to the house to do make up for their wedding. I never met her as I stayed in my room with the pups out of the way. Before she came over, I saw that a tow truck had pulled up in front of the house and Kyle went out to deal with it. I asked later whether he was behind on payments again but he managed to pay right there to get caught up. It’s always one crisis after another. Later that night talking to his sister she said that Kyle is always living on the edge and That is so true. After they were done with makeup, off they went to pick up their flowers and a boutonniere for me.

            I finally decided to dress around 4 after feeding the pups early. I wore the only nice outfit I have, some tan colored pants, my grey sweater, and I wore my silk Nordstrom tie I bought back in 1986 as one of my first purchases after coming out of the closet and separating from Fran. I spent $35 on that tie which was a huge amount back then.

            Mike Romero came over about 4:30 to drop Coco off and Kyle and Adrian came out and they looked so handsome in their matching light blue suits and bowties. Everything they had on was matching from their brown shoes, socks, and white shirts.

            Well Mike and I drove into town and we parked in the City Creek Mall underground car park near the Nordstrom’s entrance in a very convenient spot. Parking there was only $2 an hour compared to the $25 at the Hyatt.

            The city was festive with rainbow flags and colors for Pride Weekend. The kick off spot for the parade was on First South and West Temple with a huge balloon rainbow arch over the stage set in the street.

            The city was bustling on the Friday late afternoon and we made our way down West Temple to the entrance of the Hyatt. Inside was beautiful as it had only opened last October so everything as still shiny and new. The reception desk had rainbow colored lights which was a nice touch.

            We sat in the lobby waiting and just people watched, coming, and going. I thought it was interesting how dressed down everyone was compared to suits and ties people would have worn just years ago.

            Kyle and Adrian showed up just a little after we got there and soon the wedding photographers came who were Portuguese speaking from Brazil.

We continued to sit while Kyle was having some difficulty paying for their rooms for the night as his card was being held up and he was on the phone trying to find out why. I went over and paid for the rooms myself, just to take care of it. That was nearly $300. They then wandered around having wedding pictures taken.

T J Otaka and Jim McMillan soon arrived around 6:30 and we all went upstairs to the 6th Floor where I was surprised to see Jamie Fultz and another woman already there in the lounge. It was not long before most all had arrived. On Kyle’s side there was his sister, a woman named Rachel he knew from Club Verse, TJ, Jim, Mike, and me. The only person I knew on Adrian’s side was his brother in law’s brother in Law Leonardo who had come to Christmas dinner last year. A woman from El Salvador that Adrian knew from his Horizontal English class and a family of a man and woman and a toddler made up his side. There was this Chinese gal too there that I didn’t know whose side she belonged to. Kyle, I guess knows her through his business contacts.

Of course, Kyle and Adrian had a communication device to televise the event to his family in Columbia.  It was a bilingual affair for sure.

            Kyle had us all go out on to the huge Patio to the west and stand by the mural there for some group photos before going into the restaurant and onto the balcony. The only hold up was that Kyle forgot the rings and had to go back down to his car to retrieve them.

Finally, we were ready to begin and Kyle and Adrian looked so dashing and nervous as they held each other’s hands as the guests looked on. So, I began by welcoming people to witness the joining of the two in marriage. I then had them repeat their vows to each other and Kyle was so nervous that even when I was standing right by him, I hardly could hear him not that it matter as he spoke them in Spanish. Then Adrian, who spoke louder repeated his. I had them exchange their rings and asked if they excepted each other as husband and husband, which they did so I pronounced them married and they kissed.

            Afterwards TJ and Jim signed the Wedding Certificate as the witnesses and then we all went in to sit down at a long table set up for the dinner. We toasted with champagne and sparkling juice the newlyweds.  The Spanish speakers kind of grouped together on one side of the table near Adrian and Kyle’s friends were across from them down at the end where Kyle was. Mike, Jim, TJ, Jamie, and I all kind of sat together to visit.

The Mar Muntanya restaurant served a Northern Spanish variety of dishes to sample Tapia style. We had appetizers, fried papas, squash, butter shrimp, Basque Style Chuleton (Ribeye) steak, salmon, mussels in a rice dish Paella, We ended with three types of desserts, bread pudding, churros, and cheese cake. I really just took a bite or two of everything which was delicious but mainly was just enjoying the company even though I was winding down.

It was good to visit with Jamie again. TJ sat near her and they visited a lot. I know it had to have meant a lot for her to come her scallywag brother’s Gay wedding.

We were there much longer than I thought we would be but the food was served in stages. It was after 10 when the party broke up. Jamie had to get back to North Salt Lake and TJ and Jim had to catch Traxx to head back to Daybreak.

Mike and I then left the party that was ending too. I carried the boys packages back to where we parked. There was music in the city and a gorgeous full moon out.

Mike was having trouble walking a bit so we stopped a few times. Since it was after 10, Nordstrom was closed the way we came out earlier so we had to go find the FIT in the underground parking. I flagged down golfcart attendant and told her we lost our way. She drove us to where we had parked. I didn’t want Mike to be walking around trying to find it. Old people LOL.

 Anyway, all was well that ended well I drove us home. Mike had left his trailer at a camp ground in Perry near Willard Bay but decided just to spend the night at his place rather than drive back up.

Kyle and Adrian spent their “honeymoon” night at the Hyatt. Kyle is now a legally married man and I hope he does right by sweet Adrian and stays out of trouble. I told Jamie and I believe it that they both are so in love.

What a strange journey my life with Kyle has been. If Bill Poore had a grave, he’d be turning over in it.

3 June 2023 Saturday

I had a much more low key day today. I stayed in bed until nearly 7 because I went to bed so late last night, after 1, because I was too keyed up to sleep. I had walked the pups and was fussing in the garden when Kyle Foote and Adrian Villalobos came home around 11. Kyle hurried off to a meeting and when he came back home, I didn’t see the pair for much of the rest of the day. They weren’t honeymooning as much as were exhausted from last night and drinking too much champagne.

            This afternoon a huge thunderhead loomed over the city and the Pride Day at Washington Square had to be evacuated because of wind and lightning although out here we hardly had a drop.  The grounds reopened in the late afternoon.

Roy Zang wrote on Face Book "Today at the Utah Pride Festival entry gate, we shielded youth from the view of hate preachers – with rainbow umbrellas and zero engagement, resulting in them giving up and fucking right off.” I wrote him, “So happy I have radical friends with Queer Nation activism still in their blood.” Robert Moolman wrote, “Not all hero’s wear capes!!!”

            I really didn’t do much today although I had to go to Lucky’s to get the pup’s some chicken. I thought I had some down in the garage’s refrigerator but didn’t. Lulubelle didn’t eat any supper at all so I think she must be weirded out by the weather.

            I called Chuck Whyte in the evening to check in on him. He’s still peeved that Pride Center didn’t give VIP passes to Kristen Ries Recipients like in the past.  He said he didn’t go to the gala dinner either as he didn’t have the mean or money to take a taxi or an uber.

            I started watching a murder mystery on Net Flix after finishing reading Cuban Teresa Dovalpage’s novel Queen of Bones which takes place in Havana. It was interesting but kind of dry with lots of references to Santeria a Cuban based religion.

            It’s Pride Weekend and while I wish everyone a happy pride at my age, I am a homosectional happy to sit in my lazy boy sectional and let the parade pass me by.

Today is mom’s birthday mom she would have been 94 years old. Thanks for having me.

I always like Bobbie Gentry’s Ode to Billy Joe. “It was the third of June, another sleepy, dusty Delta day, I was out choppin' cotton, and my brother was balin' hay, And at dinner time we stopped and walked back to the house to eat, And mama hollered out the back door, y'all, remember to wipe your feet, And then she said, I got some news this mornin' from Choctaw Ridge, Today, Billy Joe MacAllister jumped off the Tallahatchie Bridge.” In the movie version of the song, Robby Benson played Billy Joe as gay.

4 June 2023 Sunday

Something was going on outside at 1 in the morning that sent the pups barking out into the backyard. I was too sleepy to investigate but had a fitful sleep afterward.

            I was up around 7 and fixed some fried potatoes, a scramble egg, and an English Muffin which I had with my coffee.

            I was waiting for Kyle Foote and Adrian Villalobos to stir as Kyle wanted me to drive with them to the Pride Parade and pick them up later. I was trying to be pleasant making conversation from the backseat and I wanted to tell Kyle about Roy Zang’s actions with the umbrellas yesterday and when I said Roy and his Chinese husband, Kyle immediately criticized me for saying Chinese husband and not simply husband saying I sounded racist. I just clammed up after that because Kyle always has to criticize any innocent comments I make or contradict me. Like the other day at McDonalds when he criticized me for looking at this sketchy guy with tattoos all over his face, he sat right near us when the place was basically empty and he could have sat anywhere. It’s not like I had a disapproval look, I was just being observant and told Kyle anybody with that many tattoos on his face wants to be looked at.

            Anyway, I just shut my mouth after that, not really mad but just resigned to not comment or express an opinion around him.

After his circuitous route all over downtown before getting out on Fourth East and South Temple, I then got into the driver seat and drove home. I went down Fifth East and had to go all the way down to Eight South because all the other streets in between South temple and 700 South were closed to west bound traffic because of the parade.

            I wrote on Face Book, "Driving around down town I was amazed at the number of people walking towards Pride Day at Washington Square.  I saw people, hundreds with children and strollers, walking as far as 7th south and 3rd north and 4th west to 5th west just where I had to drive to get back home...

How interesting it was to see how the day went from a Day in the Park 40 years ago where when the wind blew some gay literature off the table, people scrambled to retrieve it lest straights saw the papers. Or my 1st pride in ‘86 when undercover cops took pictures and surveillance at Pioneer Park. Or how the Gay and Lesbian Community Council made  pride day a subcommittee and provided it free for 13 years. I have to look back and be proud of what we pioneers did to get us where we are today... we actually were showing Utah we existed when we were not wanted.

All those people are going to have fun and celebrate today have so many of us seniors now to thank and so many more who have passed away. But actually, it is thanks enough to see how it’s become the second largest event in Utah."

Around 2, Kyle called to come pick them up at the Grand America where they had walked over to, which I did. Earlier I had put on a pot roast but neither of them  came up to eat and I spent the rest of the day with my pups.

T J Otaka wrote me, “Saw your post on FB about the drive this morning. Loved it as you wrote it so eloquently. However, they will try to rewrite the history, you are absolutely right. You guys planted the seed and it has grown so huge today. You laid the foundation for our community to grow in SLC. Without that, Jim and I might not have moved here in 2013. So let us thank you a big time. Happy Pride.”

Roy Zang also sent me this after I saw that he had more helpers today, “Yes, we did today !!! It was it was successful, the Jesus Thumpers left in shame surrounded by rainbow umbrellas just like yesterday.”

5 June 2023 Monday

It was a warm day around 87 degrees but pleasant out. I fixed Adrian Villalobos his usual breakfast this morning. I just love that boy. I walked the pups and was working in the side parking strip when Mike Romero drove over with his truck and camper. He had taken it down to the RV place to have them fix some minor repairs. He asked if I would take him to Smith’s in Woods Cross later to pick up his groceries. He never goes in the store anymore but just goes on line to order and then to pick up. He didn’t want to unhitch the camper so I said I would, which I did later in the afternoon.

            I went to the library to check out some more mysteries and then to the Rose Park Smiths to get some treats for the pups and some other groceries. I spent $20 on the pups, which was half of what I spent on groceries for the household.

            I read for some of the day and didn’t get a nap in because of the errands I did with Mike who went to a campground at Coalville for a couple of days.

            Adrian was gone most of the day but was home around 4:30 and he had some of the roast beef left from yesterday. When Kyle Foote came home after 7 he ate left over steak from Friday’s wedding banquet. We visited a bit so I guess I am over being pissed. Kyle is Kyle. What more can I say? I can’t stop loving him just because he sometimes acts like a jerk, because the good times outweighs the bad times.

            Chuck Whyte called in the evening and we visited a bit about Pride Day. He went to it with Steven “Chevy” Bolinder and had a nice time I suppose although he said it was so expensive. A barbeque sandwich and a drink cost him $20  as well as the $15 admission fee. Oh well. I told him there never will be Pride Days again like we held and enjoyed.

6 June 2023 Tuesday

Made breakfast for Adrian Villalobos and walked all the pups this morning as it was quite warm out already. Afterwards I went to Sutherlands this morning after fussing in the front yard, mowing, and weeding.  All their plants were half off so I bought 3 Aspen saplings for $8 apiece, a lily, and some succulents. I planted the saplings in the front yard along the fence. My irises are about done but my Empress of India clematis hasn’t even bloomed yet.

            After I was done, I was inside for much of the afternoon reading and napping. Around 4 I took the pups for a walk but Lulubelle didn’t want to come. The sky was full of dark clouds and it was windy. Even Maxx was kind of acting strangely due to the weather. It was just shortly after making it home the heavens opened up and rain was coming down in buckets here at North Point, a real belly washer, flooding the streets. It was like a monsoon rain and I hadn’t seen one like that here in years. It lasted about 15 minutes before it stop. The temperature had dropped from 90 degrees to 70 degrees.

            I then fed the pups and hurried off to the Gay Men’s Support Group to be there by 6:30. There was a sizable turn out of about 15 guys with about 2 new ones. The Topic was what people thought about Pride Day and whether people went or not. It seemed that many felt it was not as fun as was last year and was too expensive. Bill Blevins led the meeting.

            I was home by 8:30 and I fixed me a small plate of cheese and salami as I hadn’t eaten any dinner. I kept hearing Mexican music from outside so I went on the veranda. As the sun sank slowly in the west, I was being serenaded in my diverse west Salt Lake neighborhood  on this lovely evening. There must have been a party a few houses away. The sky was absolutely gorgeous.

            In the news a major damn was blown up in the Ukraine by suspected Russian terrorist flooding much of the countryside. The Human Rights Coalitions issued a statement that nationally Gays and Trans are under attack by right wing extremists.

7 June 2023 Wednesday

It was a very pleasant day here in Salt Lake but back East especially in New York City, smoke from fires in Canada has blanketed the city. It must be super miserable there.

            I went over to Mike Romero’s place and dug up a few shoots of Russian Sage that I had transplanted from my house when I had so much on my curb. I wanted to plant them in a container pot for my curb. I won’t make the mistake of just letting them spread.

            Besides getting some items for Adrian Villalobos’ breakfast and lunches and a drink from Common Cents I never left the house after that besides walking the pups around the block a couple of times.

            So, it was an uneventful day, never saw they boys except for Adrian when I fixed his breakfast and when he came home from school. I read a lot from Finlay Donovan Jumps the Gun, a novel by Elle Cosimano who I have read some of her books before.

I forgot with all the hubbub from Kyle Foote’s wedding that his sister told me that Dorothy Pratt had died this year so I looked up her obituary and she died February 10. She was a good friend to me while I was at Washington Elementary, actually championing me getting the job. She was a remarkable woman. Her obituary said that her dementia began to set in as early at 2010 and I know Liz Beck wanted me to stop using her as a substitute for my class. I will always remember her fondly as her folks founded the Pace hamburger and ice cream joint in Bountiful.

8 June 2023 Thursday

After fixing Adrian Villalobos his breakfast and walking the pups I decided to mow the weeds in the backyard. It’s about the only thing growing back there. Long gone are my lush green yard, trees, and garden.

            I was super tired after having to drag the electric lawn mower up the concrete steps and over the wires to contain the pups where Kyle Foote was supposed to have built a fence. I tried to use the battery one Kyle has stored beneath the veranda but that was no use.

            I read then for much of the day, feeling a bit dizzy, I took lots of naps, and really didn’t eat much at all. Didn’t interact with anyone but my pups. In the late afternoon, another quick thunder shower came over the house so when I walked the pups Lulubelle was too afraid to go even when it dried up.

            About the only housework I did today was change the sheets and remade the bed.

While watch Nora O’Donnell’s CBS News, there was breaking news around 5:45 that interrupted that Trump has been indicted by the Justice Department finally, and it might as well have been for treason.

It kind of over shadowed the news that Pat Robertson, the fascist evangelist, and Christian Coalition founder, died at the age of 93. Now he can burn in hell. “Pat Robertson Is Dead Everyone”=PRIDE.

9 June 2023 Friday

The weather was pleasant and a bit cooler than yesterday. Today is my sister Charline’s 76th birthday. Yesterday Adrian Villalobos asked me to fix him breakfast because he wanted to be at the gym by 8. I did, but it was way after 8:30 before he even came up. He and Kyle Foote were going to take Adrian’s car in to have his brakes looked at and also Kyle was meeting with the wife of his old mission president for lunch so Adrian had to be back at the house by 10:30. However we didn’t even leave until after 9 o’clock. So, I drove him to his gym in Woods Cross, came home and walked the pups then almost had to turn around to go back to pick Adrian up at 10:15.

            I was surprised that he was ready as Adrian runs a lot on Gay Standard Time also known as late. Anyway, after that I rested before deciding to go get a Dr. Pepper at Common Cents when Kyle called and said he had dropped off some tree saplings that Dierdre Paulsen had given him that she had gotten for Arbor Day. One was a Norwegian Pine and not sure what the others were but planted them in the front yard anyway. Maybe they will make it but anyway I won’t live to see them mature.

            I was home alone for most of the day reading from Finlay the Donovan’s Series which I finished this evening and did some research on William Miller Ferguson this man who was a barber and had a shop on Second South at the turn of the 20th Century.

Supper time at the House of the Barking Dogs...macaroni with fried chicken and pork chops seems to be a hit tonight...I am having M&Ms

             The Indictment against Trump for espionage was unsealed today. Sen. Mike Lee has his head so far up Trumps ass blaming the Biden Administration for the indictment saying they are acting like South American countries... at least Sen. "Corporations Are People" Romney said Trump brought it on himself. Any Trump supporter at this point is either a fascist, evil, or a moron.

I can’t believe the amount of books being banned in public schools. Is it just me or does it seem hypocritical that the extreme Conservative Moms for Liberty hate group are against a liberal education for their kids and others?

10 June 2023 Saturday

This morning I loaded up the electric lawn mower into the Honda FIT and drove over to Mike Romeros place to mow his lawn. When I got there, I was surprised to see his truck there because I thought he was still camping. I started to mow anyway and he came out and helped move the cord around as I mowed his little front, side and back yard which is mostly weeds and not grass anymore. All the rain we have had in the past few days made everything pop since the last time I mowed.

            Anyway afterwards, I went inside and visited some. He said he came back last Wednesday because his refrigerator was not keeping food cold so he brought it back to the dealer. He said he probably will just stay close to home this year and may not go to Colorado to visit his brother.  After I left, I stopped on the way home at Smith’s and filled the tank up as I was almost on empty. With a 10 cent discount I paid $4.05 a gallon.

            After coming back to the house, I watered the newly planted seedling trees and sat for a while under my shade tree. I was tired all of a sudden. It got warm today but pleasant around 85 degrees.

            My zucchini plants are really starting to take off now and my sunflowers are about 3 and half feet tall now. My Empress of India has started to bloom its showy purple flowers finally.

            In the house I heated up a burritos that Kyle Foote had left in the fridge down in the garage and tried to start a new book but felt sleepy so I took a nap. I was wakened by acid reflex from I think the burrito and had a sour stomach for the rest of the day.

            Adrian Villalobos came up around 4:30 and asked if I would help him with pronouncing some verbs on flash cards he had made. He was learning past and past participles.

            He lamenting that there wasn’t any cokes downstairs so I suggested we go to the store which we did. There I bought him some coca cola, sprite, and Orange Fanta cases and other groceries for him.

            Back at the house he fried up some Venezuela breaded cheese and other South America food. We visited some using the Say Hi app. He said his car is paid for now and he is only sending money to his mother now and pay off the money that was used to get him here. I learned a bit more about him, that he is the youngest in his family and his four older siblings are nearly 10 years or more older than him and he was a surprise baby to his mother. His sister is trying to come to the states to join Adrian’s brother in law and is trying to bring his three teenage nieces and a nephew with her.

            Kyle came home around 7 and said he had a busy day at Loco Burger reprograming their menu as they have a new French fries on their menu.  He ate a tomato and avocado salad and disappeared with Adrian downstairs.

11 June 2023 Sunday

This morning I was out early walking the pups, then watering the front yard. Kyle Foote came up to make Adrian Villalobos breakfast of pancakes, bacon, and scrambled eggs. Afterwards he asked if I would go with him to the Kearns Loco Burger and then down to Mi Ranchito in South Jordan because Adrian didn’t want to go. We took the Honda FIT and it was a really pleasant day out. Kyle needed to deliver some shoestring French fries to the Kearns location and he wanted to spray paint some light fixtures at Mi Ranchito that is closed on Sundays. I mostly just went along for the ride.

            Back at the house, after eating some lunch I decided to nap and while I was, a rainstorm blew in because I could hear it beat against the house. When it cleared up around 6, I took the boy pups for another walk then fed them their supper. The weather weirds Lulubelle out.

            It was a nice day but nothing exciting except that Jim Dabakis asked me if I wanted tickets to see Le Miz at the Eccles theater June 25th. I am not sure if he will be back or if he will just send me tickets.

12 June 2023 Monday

I finally finished the research I did on William Miller Ferguson who was a barber on Second South over 100 years ago. I had worked on it for and put it off for over a week. In the afternoon I went to the store and got some more groceries and items to make some lasagna for Adrian Villalobos and Kyle Foote.

Around 6 this early evening I was checking my phone messages as I wanted to let Kyle and Adrian know I made some lasagna, when I noticed that that Kimball Edwards had left me a message. He asked if I would come over to give him a massage. Since he had the day off, I said I would. I was kind of surprised that he had asked me to come over so I was there a little after 7:00 and stayed until 9:30.  He said he hurt his hip and leg and they were sore so he wanted me to massage them. We got naked right away and went into bed then I went to work on his beautiful athletic body. I know he loves my caresses as much as my massages.

            The time I was there we kissed and cuddle and talked about our lives. He said he went to Pride Day and enjoyed it although it was $30 for him to get in. He said he went with an older guy who I’m sure helped pay the cost.

            Kimball isn’t looking for a sugar daddy. He genuinely prefers the company, sexually and otherwise of old Gay men. I am not jealous at all but am happy that he’s young and exploring life. He said he went down to Tucson Arizona about a week ago to spend 2 days with a man in his 70’s. I suppose he met him on line. I was a little amazed that he said his favorite date is this 90 year old man. We talked about his attraction to not just older men but way older men. It just goes to show there is someone for everyone and I am sure these men he has affairs with are as grateful as I am for having a younger handsome Gay man be attracted to them. I am sure it makes them still feel kind of young.

            Kimball asked if I would ever want a relationship with someone and I said probably not at my age. I am so set in my ways now. It’s enough to spend the occasional time with Kimball. I asked him if the other men talk to him as much as I do and he admitted they didn’t. I think they enjoy him for the sex, and I think he enjoys me because I care about him, interested in his life, and he loves me caressing his body and my kissing. Besides, he said I am the best massager so there’s that.

            He’s leaving in a week or so to visit the Pacific Northwest because he’s thinking of moving away. I told him I would really miss him but as someone told me years ago you can’t stop progress. He has his whole life ahead of him.          So, I had a pleasant evening pleasing Kimball and I was home a little before 10 and when I pulled into the garage, I saw that Kyle’s Terrain was gone so they must have also gone out.

            I saw that the actor Treat Williams died in a motorcycle accident. He was 71 years old and I loved him in The Ritz and Hair.

13 June 2023 Tuesday

I went to the Gay Men’s Support Group tonight and there was about 12 people there and we discussed what we do to support people. It was an interesting meeting and I am glad I went because it’s about the only space I get any Queer Energy anymore.     When I came home, Adrian Villalobos was having his supper and he asked if he could have $200 to pay his mother and I said I’d go to the bank tomorrow to get the money. I finished watching the HBO series “the Plumbers” about E Howard Hunt and G Gordon Liddy. It was pretty good. Made me realize that Republicans have always been evil. TJ has been having a hard time catching his breath again which worries me and Lulubelle just doesn’t like to go out in the afternoon for walks.

14 June 2023 Wednesday

I went to the America First Credit Union within Lee’s market to withdraw $200 for Adrian Villalobos. Then back at the house this morning I pruned my Rose bushes, planted my tomato plants that I started from shoots, and also took some honeysuckle cuttings from Carlos Bahena’s bush to see if I can get some “starts” off of it. Around noon it began to rain a bit but cleared up when Mike Romero came over to drop Coco off. He had to go to the clinic in South Jordan to have his catheter changed.

            I started reading an Agatha Raisin mystery today and didn’t leave the house except to walk the pups. I just wasn’t in the mood even though I wanted to get some Chinese food, go to Sutherlands, and get a drink but I guess not enough to venture out.

            Adrian Villalobos had breakfast that I fixed and went to the gym. I saw Kyle Foote briefly around 7 this evening when he came home and had some left over lasagna for his supper. He said Mi Ranchito hired him for consulting as well as the Lulu’s Hot Sandwiches place.

I was in Salt Lake City in 1978 when Blacks were allowed to hold the Mormon Priesthood on this day. I remember all the hateful things being said at the time about it. I suppose 45 years ago the Mormon  God stopped being a racist.  

The cynics among us always believed the revelation came because Kinte Kunta Kimball was found on the Kimball family tree.  You have to remember ROOTS to get it.

My first reaction was damn... there goes the old Joke only Mormons got...Do you know why crows are black? Because they refused to eat crickets in the pre-existence... hahaha... don’t get it? You were never a Mormon...Leave it to Mormons to kill a joke and be a buzz kill.

15 June 2023 Thursday

It’s been raining all morning, a good steady rain. When it cleared up, I took the pups out for a walk and then went down to Lucky’s to buy ingredients to make Sulado de Pollo a Colombian dish for Adrian Villalobos then went to Sutherland’s and bought some grass seeds and bird seeds that I threw out all over the back yard. With all the rain we have had lately I am hoping some of it will sprout to green up the side yard to keep the mud down.

            I finished reading M C Beaton’s “Beating Around the Bush”. I may have read it once before a long time ago but if I did I had forgotten it. Adrian said he loved the chicken stew. I suppose it reminded him of home.

            In the evening Kyle Foote asked if I wanted to go out to dinner with him and Adrian. I wasn’t hungry but I tagged along just to be with them . Adrian wanted to go to Olive Garden in Bountiful so we did. I didn’t order anything but just shared some breadsticks and some of their salad as that Adrian doesn’t like lettuce salads.

            Afterwards they needed to go grocery shopping so we went off to Walmart in Centerville. I wanted to get some Caesar dog food for Lulubelle and treats for the rest of the pups. Besides groceries, Kyle and Adrian bought staples and personal item. I was going to pay for my stuff but Kyle said he would. Their bill came to $289. I was shocked that it was so much.

Anyway, we came back home and I read some and finished my book. Jim Dabakis sent me his tickets to Le Miz  which I gave to Kyle so he could take Adrian. Jim said he was in Mexico again but will come back to Salt Lake sometime in July

16 June 2023 Friday

I had to keep the pups shut in my room this morning because Kyle Foote asked if I would so he could sleep in and not hear them bark like they do. When he did get up he went to Discount Tires with Adrian Villalobos to get new tires for his vehicle as Adrian’s were all bald. Adrian went to the gym next door in Woods Cross and Kyle came home to take Persephone to the Warm Springs vet for a checkup and allergy shots. I went with him as its almost as traumatizing for him as it is for the cat.

            Back home, still in the morning, I went to the Rose Park Library and dropped off three books and checked out four more mysteries. I also went to Dollar Tree store to look around while out to buy a high school graduation card so I could send $50 to my grandniece, Dee Jones, my sister Donna’s granddaughter. Their shelves were nearly empty so I wonder what is up with that.

            Back at the house I read for much of the day “Hot to Trot”, an Agatha Raisin series, one I think that was written after M.C. Beaton’s death by a colleague. In the afternoon Mike Romero called to see if I knew how to get his Lesbian aunt Alice Romero’s phone number as the one he had doesn’t work. I guess he just wanted to reconnect with her in Seattle. I didn’t although I looked up her address on Ancestry.com.

This evening I saw that Donna had tried to call me so I called her back. She wanted to know if I heard that Denise’s ‘granddaughter’ had died of Leukemia back in North Carolina. I said that Denise had told me a few days ago. I never knew the girl or even heard of her so she must have been Denise’s partners granddaughter as that Denise only has that toddler grandson. We visited a bit. Nothing new just told her I sent her granddaughter some money. Dee is trying to get into the Arts program at Cal-State Long Beach. I told Donna that today is Grandma Johnson’s birthday. She was born 124 years ago as a twin to her brother Jesse.

            Anyway, it was a pretty day here in the west while back east, tornadoes, hail, and floods have been causing havoc in the south. Alexander McCaskill a former producer of Carlson Tucker show was fired by Fox for authoring the “wannabe dictator” scroll about President Biden on their “news.” What a vile human being for being so young and handsome.

            Daniel Ellsberg died at the age of 93. He will always be a hero to me for exposing the failures of the Vietnam War with the Pentagon Papers in 1971 which eventually helped bring down Nixon because of E Howard Hunt and G Gordon Liddy, the bungling Watergate burglars.

17 June 2023 Saturday

I only worked on the research I did on Leonidas Skliris the Czar of the Greeks for most of the day and in the evening finished reading “Hot to Trot.”           That was about as much effort as I could put in to the day. It was a beautiful day out for the pups to go walking and in the late afternoon I went to Lucky’s because we were out of eggs and Adrian goes through them like crazy. Roasted chicken thighs and buttered macaroni was a hit with the pups tonight...  I think they love me. I felt good today, just didn’t want to go anywhere.

18 June 2023 Sunday

I’ve been super tired for the past couple of days, really lethargic, too weary to even go get my Dr Pepper fix. Lost any appetite and just want to nap...old age is finally catching up with me... I think my shelf life expiration date is not that far off... probably just  self-imposed  cabin fever...just don’t seem to have much interest in things I once did...oh well as the Beatles said Life goes  on within you and without you.

            Today is Father’s Dy which means very little when I have no more Father, uncles, or grandpas. Days like Mother’s Day or Father’s Day are kind of melancholy for those of us who have lost all of the generation before us. It was supposed to get up to 90 today but never did, barely reaching 80 and in the 70s for most of the day because of the clouds that threatened rain but never did.

            Mike Romero called in the afternoon to ask me if I’d take Coco for about a week. He found his Aunt’s phone number and contacted her for him to come visit Seattle for Pride Day. He thought the trip might be too hard on Coco.

            I slept and rested a lot today but did find the energy to walk the pups twice otherwise I just curled up in my lazy boy or bed. Kyle Foote and Adrian Villalobos left the house early around 7 this morning so I didn’t see them until this evening when they came back home from working all day at Mi Ranchitos in South Jordan. They stayed upstairs eating a pizza and visiting, wanting to spend some time with me for Father’s Day.

Adrian’s sister, two nieces and nephew are crossing through the jungles of Panama on their journey to come to the United States. Adrian is worried because where they are is the most dangerous part of the passage. They left Columbia and are trying to get to Utah where Adrian’s brother in law is now.

            I finished the research on Leonidas Skliris finally and posted it on my West Second South site and on the People from Utah’s Past site. That took a lot out of me. I was too tired to even read today.

19 June 2023 Monday

It felt like Santa Ana winds all day like we get in Southern California. Winds were whipping around all day and they were a warm wind sapping every bit of moisture from the ground and plants.  Sterling Poulson the KUTV weatherman said it got up to 91 degrees but a cold front came in around 5 and started dropping the temperature. I didn’t see Kyle Foote at all today and Adrian only briefly when he was doing some cleaning this afternoon. He said a dead mouse was beneath the lazy boy so after cleaning it up I did some mopping and cleaning myself.

I must be over my malaise as I went out this evening and watered my garden then started pulling weeds in my parking strip. I showed Brittany and Peter Nash who were out walking  the myrtle splurge and told them to avoid it because it’s very caustic and told them how it sent me to the emergency room over 13 years ago.

I had a good go at it weeding until a brief shower sent me scurrying inside saying that was enough for the day. I think I just needed to get my hands in the soil to get grounded again and clear away any old age blues. I was surprised that he began to rain for most of the evening.

It was time to get back into my mystery novels as I read two Agatha Raisins series last week and I tried starting a new cozy mystery tonight  but not getting into it

Ron Holmgren suggested some books for me saying, “I am reading Patrick F. McManus' Bo Tully mysteries. They take place in Idaho. He is an outdoors writer, and his stories and articles are hilarious. Another author I totally love is Laura Levine's books. If you like the sea, Baja California, and great characters, read Jinx Schwartz books. I devoured them. Also, Alex Kava is wonderful. Specially her series about the rescue dogs and their trainer. I haven't read any of the series you are reading. Looking for a new series, so maybe give her a try.”

            I had a message from Rick Egan, a gay acquaintance I have known for years but only recently learned he was the brother of Elaine Day who I taught with at Orchard Elementary  back in the early 1990s.  He said Elaine died last Saturday. She was 10 years older than me and while we worked well together I didn’t really care for her as she flaunted her Mormonism at school. She would put on these elaborate 5th grade musical plays that I not being musical ended up doing  the sets and props and basically corralling the kids. I eventually transferred to 4th grade just to get away from her. We were both hired by Wayne Stanger in 1989 after I left Sunset Elementary.

Today is the new national holiday called “Juneteenth” to commemorate when the remaining slaves in Texas learned that they were free but has come to be a holiday for the ending of slavery in America. Not all states have adopted the holiday but surprisingly Utah did. Maybe that makes up for the shameful way they handled Martin Luther King’s birthday.

Why are most of the Red States in the South? Oh yeah the old White Supremist Confederacy.  My Southern Colonial heritage were people who enslaved others to work their farms but you don't have to continually be reactionaries and racist today. 

My colonial relatives intermarried with Native Americans and Free People of Color in North Carolina but kept their social status as long as the fathers were white.  Many also owned enslaved people.

American slavery was the first slavery in the history of slavery where  race was the determining factor for who was enslaved and the basis of racism in America today.

My first Williams American immigrant  ancestor came to Virginia in 1666 as an indentured servant contracted to work for a master but being white was eventually freed once terms of his contract was fulfilled. He became a successful planter himself but never owned slaves himself only contracted indentured servants as he once was.  His descendants to compete in the agrarian economy of the old South were the ones who started using enslaved labor.

None of my Williams forebearers were slave owners at the time of the Civil War. He was a Baptist preacher living in Alabama. All of his sons including my ancestor were recruited to fight for the South in a misguided concept of patriotism to their antebellum society.  Another case of the sons of the poor fighting a rich man's war.

20 June 2023 Tuesday

I posted on two Utah history sites my research on Alek Geros that Greek man who operated the Salt Lake Café on Second South from 1917 to about 1958. He was the longest resident of that section of Greek Town.

            It was a really cool day only in the 70’s compared to the 90’s yesterday this last day of Spring. My squash already have blossoms and some tomatoes are on the vine. Adrian Villalobos went back to school this morning after fixing him his breakfast but I didn’t see Kyle Foote until this evening.

I went to the Gay Men’s Support Group tonight with Blair Bateman as facilitator and the topic was on the Human Rights Campaign’s warning about the increase of hate against the LGBT community nationally. My response was that I didn’t care what the HRC has to say about anything. Still, it was a lively meeting and I  am so proud of myself for having shut my mouth and not correct Blair even though I knew he was in error saying that Wendover was the largest inland base in the United States in WWII when actually it was Kearns, Utah. But I thought I probably was the only one in the meeting who knew that so why embarrass him and actually no one was going to care. I didn’t want to be that “know it all” guy.

            When I came home Kyle came upstairs and told me that he had to have the Terrain towed to Lodders in Bountiful because it wouldn’t start. He called me while I was at the group but I left my phone in the car so I was unable to help. He got Adrian to come get him. However tomorrow he wants me to go to Lodders in the morning to bring them the key and have them talk to Kyle who has to be down at Mi Ranchitos because they are supposed to open tomorrow for business.  He’ll use Adrian’s car which means someone will have to go pick him up from school tomorrow. It’s always something.

21 June 2023 Wednesday

I fixed Adrian Villalobos his breakfast and Kyle Foote took him off to Salt Lake Community College while at 8 I was at Lodders in Bountiful to drop off a key to the Terrain to have them look at it. The kid said they were quite busy and it might not be until the end of the week or next week before they can get to it. I was surprised that Mr. Lodder, who owns the shop, said he remembered me from when I use to drop my vehicles off when I worked at Washington.

            From there I drove by the old location of Washington Elementary and saw that the entire area where the school and parking lot used to be was now a lawn for Washington Park but they were building some structure where the parent parking used to be. So many of my teaching colleagues have passed, Brenda Taua, Susan McAdams, Dorothy Pratt, and Elaine Day. There are probably more that I haven’t heard about.

            I then went over to the Smith’s Market Place I used to shop at and looked around their garden center and bought two black eye Susan’s plants before coming back home. It was nice out this morning and all the pups wanted to go for a morning constitutional which I did before working in the yard. I  mostly pulled weeds and cleaned up the parking strip on the south side of my property.

            I had to go down to SLCC by 1 to retrieve Adrian and bring him home. He asked if I’d take him to the gym but said I couldn’t because I was meeting Mike Romero to take him to lunch for his birthday but I said he could take the Honda FIT. It was the first time he ever drove it and I was slightly nervous but I knew he was 25 years old and is responsible.

            Mike came over about 2 and dropped Coco off who is going to be staying with me for about a week. Chubby’s was not crowded at all and we ordered smothered burritos and visited. He’s leaving out this afternoon for Seattle rather than try to do the entire drive tomorrow. Lunch for the two of us was $30 plus I gave a $5 tip.  Mike dropped me off at home where Coco couldn’t see him leave  and I came in to take a nap.

            Around 4, I took all the pups for their afternoon stroll, even Coco, so I was walking 5 dogs this afternoon. They did fine. But then back at home I saw that Adrian was really sad because his sister and her 3 teenagers are in the jungle of Panama  trying to make their way north and it’s been raining there. His 14 year old nephew Christian became separated in the dangerous part of the jungle where there are no transportation methods and no cell service.

However, his nephew was taken in by an older man and he was able to contact Adrian who was desperate to send him some money by Western Union. I drove him to Rose Park Smiths and their service desk was closed, so we went to Lucky’s and their service desk was closed also Adrian thought Walmart on Hope would be the closest Western Union but I asked him to look up the Smith’s in Glendale and they did have a Western Union office and when we arrived they were opened.

I am glad I went with Adrian because he never would have been able to do this on his own as the man at Smith’s who was helpful didn’t know Spanish. I translated the best I could to both him and Adrian and so I was needed for the transaction. I went ahead and wired $100 so his nephew can buy food.  If you have food, shelter, and a warm bed tonight  be grateful. Adrian is just beside himself worrying.

I wasn’t able to feed the pups until after 6 almost 6:30 because of taking care of Adrian’s needs and then just rested until Kyle came home from work. He said Mi Ranchito passed the health inspection so now he can concentrate on the Lulu Pizzeria next door. Adrian came up with a framed picture of Kyle, me and him from his wedding and he was so proud of it. The three of us have made a family in my old age. Then Kyle went off to have dinner with these Lesbians at Paxton Pub.

So that was my adventure this longest day of the year when the northern hemisphere  receives more light than darkness.  In the northern pagan lore, the consort of the goddess is at his full magnificence ...Merry Meet and Merry Part until we Merry Meet again.

22 June 2023 Thursday

I was awake way too early at 4:30 and couldn’t go back to sleep so rather than try, I got up and made a baker’s dozen of blackberry muffins from scratch. Nutty I know. Then I worked on my research on Nick Stathakos the Greek entrepreneur who lived on Second South until around 8 when I went and fixed Adrian Villalobos his breakfast of scrambled eggs, rice, and cheese as well as his snack pack of a banana, tangerines, and watermelon and pineapple chunks as well as a can of tuna. He’s in class until 1 in the afternoon so he needs a snack in between his classes. I also packed him a muffin.

            Kyle Foote took him to school and since I knew I would only have the FIT in the morning I went to Lucky’s to buy chicken for the pups and groceries for Adrian. Strange how my grocery shopping has switched from Kyle to Adrian.

            Anyway, it was warm already this morning and all the pups wanted to walk but Lulubelle half way around the block took off ran way ahead of us all the way home to the front porch. At least she ran home.      I watered some this morning, took out the trash cans to the curb and pulled some weeds.

            I then received a text message that two of books I had ordered from the library were already in at the Rose Park Branch so I took back all the books I hadn’t read and probably wouldn’t to pick up the ones in. I had ordered one of David Rosenfeld’s latest in the Andy Carpenter series and an Alex Kava’s novel one the authors that Ron Holmstrom recommended.

            Kyle Foote called and said that the Western Union money transferred never went through so after I picked up Adrian from college we went to the Glendale Smith’s to get the $100 put back on my debit card and to try and send another transfer. Adrian is thrilled that his sister and her kids are reunited and made it out of the Panama jungle and has cell service again. His sister fell and hurt herself, which was one of the reasons it was slow going. Once in Panama City they will have transportation again. So, we sent $50 to the man who helped Adrian’s nephew when he was separated from his mother.’

            It was nearly 2 in the afternoon when we finally were back at the house and I took a nap and Adrian took the FIT off to the gym. I must have been really tired from getting up so early because I slept until after 4:30 and then took the pups except for Lulubelle on another excursion around the neighborhood. Coco must have been tired because she was really going slow and stopping so we just meandered.

            We were just coming into the driveway when Kyle pulled in. He said he came home early to take the FIT to go to Park City and driving around looking for giant Margarita glasses.  The FIT is more reliable for going up the canyons. Adrian went with him so I was home this evening reading and watching a little bit of news. 

The billion and millionaires that went down to see the Titanic died in the submersible when it imploded.  Ironic that natured claimed some more who relied on the superiority of technology. Titanic the unsinkable has more dead millionaires in the deep.

I clearly Remember Judy Garland  having died on this day. It was only 9 days after I graduated from high school

23 June 2023 Friday

I was waken at 1:30 by barking in the back yard so I got up to make sure Coco wasn’t outside but it was Maxx and Lulubelle for some reason. I went down into the dark to see if Coco was there but she wasn’t. I thought it strange that only TJ went to bed with me. When I came back to the room Coco was in the doggy bed in the closet asleep.

            I managed to fall back to sleep but had strangest dreams of being in a bookstore that was giving away free books, then a romantic encounter with Adrian Villalobos who really was Kimball Edwards, both are tall, young, and fair. I also dreamed that Grandma and Grandpa Johnson showed up at my house unexpectedly as I was trying to make it to work at school but I couldn’t get the car to work.

Finally, I dreamed I was going to show my students a film on Hairspray to show them what the fifties were like when the school superintendent came into the classroom to tell me my kids were supposed to be at an assembly where all the teachers were expected to perform to Classic Songs and I had to do Dancing in the Rain which I did with gusto. My mind was an  eclectic kaleidoscope of dreams.

It was a beautiful summer day although I didn’t do much. I did pull some of the large milkweeds growing by the west fence patio and pulled out all the dead Arborvitae shrubs. Only 4 actually survived of all the ones we bought last summer with such high hopes. I got the yard waste  bin to the curb just in time for the trash truck to come by.

Adrian Villalobos fixed his own breakfast as he doesn’t have school on Fridays but wanted me to go with him to Trolley Square where he was getting a haircut at 10. I don’t think he was sure how to get there so I drove and I was surprised that Kyle Foote showed up as I suppose he had made the appointment for both of them. Kyle left South Jordan to meet Adrian. I was amused that Kyle and Adrian were kissing each other at the barbershop like any married couple would when meeting up. Anyway, afterwards I took Adrian home and I went to the library to get some children easy books for Adrian to practice reading his English.

            He borrowed the FIT to go to the gyn in Woods Cross and I made an English Pea salad which sounded good. Bill Poore always loved the salad too. When Adrian came home I was taking a nap and when I got up to greet him I saw that he had fixed himself lunch of chicken, rice, and the pea salad. He said that in Columbia that was one of his favorites only he eats his without lettuce.

            He went off again for another errand and I read some more from Santa’s Little Yelpers. I really enjoy how David Rosenfelt writes and I love the short chapters  so you don’t get bored.

            While Adrian was out I made a pan of lasagna and when he came home around 4:30 we sat down and I had him read from a book of Latino Children poems called Borderland. Actually, it was a perfect book because the stanzas were short sentences and no extreme metaphors as it was written for children.  However, we only got into it for about a half an hour when Kyle came home. I had Adrian stop so he could be with Kyle.

            Kyle asked me if I wanted to go with them to Home Depot because he had a truck with which he had to get some supplies for work. I think I surprised him by declining because I was happy to stay home and read and he had Adrian now to help him as needed, so I don’t have to anymore. I asked if he needed me but he didn’t so it was all good.

            I read for the rest of the evening into the night and finished the Andy Carpenter book. Unlike the others I read this past week, Rosenfelt’s is always a page turner.  I finally went to bed after 10:30 and the boys were still out.

Perhaps I am just callous in my old age but the death of a billionaire and others who paid $250,000 to view the wreck of the Titanic doesn't move me. I just find it eerily familiar to the fate of the First Class Millionaires of 1912 who arrogantly trusted the superiority of technology over mother nature as they sailed  in luxury on the unsinkable Titanic.   I also find it sad that the death of a billionaire seem to outweigh the drowning of 64 migrants off the coast of Greece. 

I don't know about you but I find it sickening that a few who own most of the wealth in this  old world can take joy rides into the stratosphere and to the depth of the oceans. I do feel kind of sorry for the poor little rich kid who only went to please his billionaire father.

I wonder if the 5 will be added to the names of over 1500 people, mostly working class and 3rd Class, who perished, claimed by the Titanic.

The submersible search sure took the news off the fact that Trump was going to reduce military equipment to Saudi Arabia if they didn't lower production to keep oil prices high to protect the Oil Company's profits.

Oh well the Rich get richer and now they have made sure the Poor have children.

            There are rumblings of a mutiny in Russia of the Russian mercenary Wagner Army against Russian military over the war in the Ukraine.

            Andy Dalrymple has posted that he’s taking over the old Utah Queer Historical Society that the Pride Center abandoned and wants to rebrand it as a repository. I saw that Joni Weiss the Trans who gave me so much shit commented on his post saying how the trans were not allowed to be part of the old discussion. I messaged  Andy and told him to be careful around her because she is such a liar and I think unstable.

24 June 2023 Saturday

This morning I watered the front yard and pulled some weeds before I decided to go to the NPS garden store down on 15th South. I was looking for something to fill a large planter I have in the parking strip in front of the house. I first thought about Russian Sage but as the only ones they had were $12 and I didn’t want to spend that much I bought another bunch of drought resistant perennials instead. Back at the house I planted what I bought, pulled up some sunflowers that were blocking the sun from other plants, and did some pruning.

Then Adrian Villalobos wanted me to go to Ranchos Market on Ninth West and South Temple. There was a Western Union there after all and all the tellers there speak Spanish. His sister and her kids are in Costa Rica now or close to there and Adrian wanted to send them $500 for their journey and asked if he could borrow $200 for $700 altogether. It was around noon and the place was super busy with Latinos mostly Mexicans with almost only Spanish being spoken. I kind of felt like Adrian must feel  only in reverse.

We were there for quite a while only because we had to wait for Adrian to get information where to send the money. I told him to just let me pay with my debit card in one transaction rather than using his and my cards. I actually sent them $800 for a little bit more as Adrian said his sister and kids hadn’t eaten in two days.

            Adrian asked me not to tell Kyle that he sent money because he thinks Kyle would be mad at him because their money situation is tight right now and who knows what it will cost to fix the Terrain.  Anyway, Adrian is my family now so if I can help I will. Lord knows I have spent plenty on Kyle’s cute butt over the years.

            When Adrian came home from the gym we sat down and read some more from the Latino children’s poem book for him to practice his pronunciation of English sounds. He had a hard time saying the S in a plural and ed in a past tense verb because Spanish doesn’t have those. Also, the “th” sound at the end of a word is hard for him like in with and truth but he will get better with practice.

Adrian is affectionate with me and pats me, which in my old age is very sweet. Kyle will give me a hug before he goes down stairs but I think he does it more for me than because it’s something he naturally would do.  Adrian and I are much more “touchy-feely” which bonds us.

Kyle came home around 7 and said he was beat. He didn’t get home last night from work until after 1, said he didn’t get to sleep until 3 and then had to be up at 7 this morning. He said he had a quarrel with one of the contractors for the Lulu Pizzeria because he was charging his client too much money.

            I made some banana bread out of an overripe banana. I still can’t just waste food. I was even eating a left over slice of pizza Kyle brought home from Paxton Pub the other day. The place is “gay friendly” and owned by a gay guy and a Lesbian named “Mo” who used to own the Lesbian Bar called Modiggity back in the 90’s.

            I started to read a new mystery by Alex Kava a new author but it was not my kind of book as it was about a serial child killer as it turned out and I didn’t want to go there. So, I will turn it back in and get something else. I like light and breezy novels the kind David Rosenfelt and Janet Evanovich who write nothing too dark and serious. Life is too short

Is it unreasonable to ask the estates of the decease to reimburse Canadian and US Taxpayers the cost of the search mission?  In Utah people have to pay expenses for their rescues for putting themselves in danger for thrills.   The Titanic is a graveyard, not a playground for billionaires.  Time to let the Titanic RIP.

25 June 2023 Sunday

The last Sunday in June. It was supposed to have gotten up to 90 degrees but of it did, I didn’t feel it walking the pups. I tried to keep them quiet this morning to let the boys sleep in as much as they could although I know Kyle Foote was up and out early.

            I wanted to make the avocado green sauce that Cielito Lindo from Alverez Street makes or something close to it so I went to  Lucky’s to get some chicken for the pups and also some tomatillos, yellow peppers, avocado, garlic, and cilantro which were the main ingredients. I also bought some taquitos that I fried up which I had for lunch. My sauce wasn’t exactly as I remembered but good none the less.

            I didn’t interact with the boys today nor expected to because Kyle was going to work until the time of the Musical Le Miz at the Eccles theater.

            Since I didn’t have any books to read today I just watched some sit-coms on Hulu and in the evening I went to mow the front lawn but I couldn’t get the lawn mower to work. As I was in the yard, Kyle came home as well as Adrian Villalobos who had been out with a girl who became his friend when he was at Horizontal school. Kyle managed to get the lawn mower to work so I was able to mow what little grass I have left in the front yard.

            Before calling it a day I called my sister Donna Jones as it was her 74th birthday. We visited for a bit. I guess her granddaughter Dee is going to attend Long Beach in the fall.  She said everyone one else was doing fine and it’s been in the 100s at Bullfrog which she said wasn’t all that bad for down there.

26 June 2023 Monday

I had to take Adrian Villalobos to school this morning as that Kyle Foote had to leave really early.  So, after fixing his breakfast off we went. It was a bright sun shiney morning and after coming back to the house I walked the pups and mowed the weeds down in the back yard before it got too hot.

Then I decided to go to Deseret Industries. The pups had broken two of their food bowls recently so I wanted to see what DI had since I hadn’t been there in a while. I found a cool shirt and a beautiful crazy quilt red lap blanket besides the bowls. So that was fun. While I was there around noon Adrian called and said he got out of class early and needed me to come get him, which I did. On the way back he asked to go to Rancho Market again because he needed to send money again to help his sister  who is in Honduras now. I didn’t get involved this time but just stood around. It seems like Adrian always picks around noon to deal with this when there’s such a long line of people waiting at the check cashing window. But what can you do but just wait and be grateful? It’s not me having to deal with all of this. Lots of working Latino men getting cash probably on their noon lunch breaks. Anyway, that was my adventure for the day.

            When Kyle came home for a short while he said that Loddars called and said the Terrain was ready and it wasn’t the gas pump but something much less expensive  so he also decided to have them due his brakes while the vehicle was in the shop.

            I had called Ken Garff earlier in the day to make an appointment to have my oil change in the FIT but they didn’t get back to me until later. When I saw their message they had already closed.

            Ross Poore texted and asked if I was coming to Bill’s funeral service and I lied saying I would be out of town. I didn’t want to be around Bill’s family who didn’t care that much about his life and from years of hearing Bill’s scrabbles with his siblings. They were not a part of Bill’s Gay world nor mine. Ross informed me he was giving all of Bill’s money to his sister who had a millionaire son. She is in poor health so I heard but still I am glad that Bill gave me some money before he died. I did more for that man than anyone one in that family except for his brother in law. But the Bill was my friend before dementia took him away before he died.

27 June 2023 Tuesday

I had to pick Adrian up at 12:30 from the college and he took the FIT for much of the afternoon so I was home for much of the day.  Kyle came home around 4:30 and need me to go with him to get his Terrain that was ready at Loddars since Adrian wasn’t home. It wasn’t quite down with invoicing so we had to wait a while and Kyle didn’t make it to Glen’s Keys, which he wanted to have Adrian’s dock lock repaired.

            We were home about 5:45 so I rushed to feed the pups because I wanted to go to the Gay Men’s Support Group that starts at 6:30 at the Pride Center. I made it in plenty of time and the usual bunch attended tonight and the discussion centered around on whether there was such a thing as “Gaydar”.  It was a good meeting with plenty of interaction. Maybe I am being just conceited but I think the group is more lively with me there prodding on Gay positivity and discussions. Toshi, this Japanese man was more open tonight as well as two Latinos Jesus and Danny who said he went to a straight man’s Toxic masculinity group and hated it as they wouldn’t let anyone speak who hadn’t attended for 3 months and he said the men mostly blamed women who their issues. He said he wouldn’t go back and said it made him really appreciate this Gay Men’s support group.

28 June 2023 Wednesday

I posted a lot about the Stonewall Riots on the Gay Men’s group hoping to dispel the myth of Marsha P Johnson and Sylvia Rivera having started the rebellion. I also worked  a lot of the Greek Nathan Stathakos who was so prominent in the early days of Second South.

            It was a really pleasant day out for last days of June only in the high 70’s where back east and in the South they are under a “heat dome” of over 100 degrees. Its suppose to warm up into the 90’s this weekend and even 100 by July 3rd.

            I fixed Adrian his breakfast and snack pack this morning but didn’t see him nor Kyle Foote for the rest of the day or evening. I did finally go to my Vietnamese barber to get a beard trim and a haircut. I haven’t heard from Mike Romero either but Coco seems to have adjusted to being here just fine, loving her two daily walks and has a good appetite. This has been a vacation for her too I suppose.

29 June 2023 Thursday

I fixed Adrian Villalobos his breakfast and finished up my writing on Nicholas Stathakos so I could post on my West Second South Site and also to the People of Utah. I don’t know how many people will ever read them or benefit from the research but it’s out there.

I went shopping at Lucky’s this morning for groceries, especially for the pups. I didn’t buy anything for Adrian as I think he and Kyle may be gone this weekend because Kyle said he’d like to get away.  Later in the afternoon I went to the Rose Park Smith’s and bought a bunch of snacks and pop for the weekend if I am going to be alone.

            I am reading the Alex Kava’s novel Silent Creed, about a dog handler whose trained dogs are used to solve crimes. It’s okay so far and while not real compelling to me it’s interesting enough for me to read the short chapters. I did go to the library and picked up another David Rosenfelt’s book, “Holy Chow” so I would have something to read over the weekend.

            I fell asleep in the afternoon only to be awaken to hear the lawn next door at Victor’s place being mowed. Some kid must have been hired to cut down the weeds again as the yard was nearly a foot overgrown. Weeds have grown up all in his driveway and the place looks abandoned so not sure what is going on over there. His backyard has not been touched and has about 2 feet of weeds, especially milkweed and super tall Scottish Thistle.

            It made me want to work some in my own front yard and I did some pruning of the squash plants so the blossoms would get more pollinators and did some watering. It was not very hot today but is expected to be in the 90’s next week.

            Mike Romero called around 7:30 at night and said he was on the way home and would be by to pick up Coco around 9:30, which he did. I had him come in but did not keep him long as he was super tired from the long drive back. So, I told him that Coco had a very nice holiday and was active and feisty. I know she was ready to go home but I know also she had a good time here with the rest of the gang.

            In the news the Fascists on the Supreme Court overturned Affirmative Action for Universities after 50 years.

30 June 2023 Friday

Another June has passed by and it was much warmer today but pleasant enough. I took the pups for a morning walk and then went to Deseret Industries to browse and found some shirts a couple of quilts and sheets. Other than that, I was home most of the day and then I got a phone call from Roy Zang who asked if he could come over to talk.

I guess he’s had a few rough days at his new job as apartment manager as that some guy called him and Tony “fucking fags” and when he reported it to his management they only suggested that he and Tony move. He was so discouraged that he said he is thinking about moving to Southern California where he may have new job opportunities. He’s in his mid-40’s now and said he’s tired of Utah’s bull shit and needs a new adventure.

            After sharing his job woes, we visited about life in generation, how the we don’t fit into the “queer” paradigm and we feel like relics of a past time. We visited for a long time, nearly until 5:30 so I never was able to take the pups for a second walk but just had to talk cooking their supper.

            Around 7, Kyle Foote came home from Mi Ranchito and asked me to help him paint a wall down there tomorrow saying how much I like to be with him and I said it seems most of the time he asks me to be with him it involves a paint brush. He grinned because he knew that was true after all the painting I did at Club Verse last year. But I said I would.

            I was happy to hear that he managed to pay his $1,800 restitution on time although he said until he gets paid again he only has $300 in his account so he and Adrian Villalobos won’t be getting away for the weekend. He said that Mi Ranchito adopted his slushy Margarita drink idea and have already sold a few so he was happy about that.

            He had to leave to do some wiring at Loco Burger so I was alone for the rest of the evening and finished reading “Breaking Creed” before it was time for bed.

            In the news the Fascists on the Supreme Court ruled that businesses could discriminate against Gay people if it was their religious belief due to Free Speech trumping anti-discrimination laws.  They had already over turned affirmative action and also they overturned President Biden’s Student Debt forgiveness program. It’s always 6 to 3 ,  Roberts, Alito, Thomas, Gorsuch, and the drunk Kavanaugh and bitch Barrett against the three women Sotomayor, Kagan, and Jackson.

            Well June had been a delightful month with no extreme weather and everyone I know in fairly good health.

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