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January

1 January 2012 Sunday

Here I am a sixty year old man, living alone with two needy schnauzers. I am still living at 1633 Fernleaf in Salt Lake City; Utah and it was a bright beautiful day at 48 degrees. I am still teaching, thank God because two years ago I wasn’t certain I would have a job. 

My heart is healing from Kyle Foote who left a swath of heartbreak and financial troubles on his way to prison where he is now. My health seems to be holding up although I do have diabetes. It would be nice to find companionship this year but not at the expense that I incurred last year with Kyle’s $20,000 fraud.

I didn’t do much of anything this first day of January. My niece Denise Wachs married Heidi Rapp in Arizona. I never met Heidi. I hope they will be happy together.

I had planned on going to the First Baptist church but didn’t want to go by myself so I didn’t.  Chuck didn’t get in until 6 this morning from being out at Wendover so he was in no shape to go.

I sent Charles Frost a Happy New Year greeting and Marty Alder, Kyle’s former boyfriend also.

I went to the store and bought a ham. I invited Mike and Chuck over for afternoon dinner. Then I sat in the hot tub in the afternoon and in the evening tried to watch a movie “Limitless” but got bored with it.

Amy Barry invited me to go see a Sundance Film with her this month as her treat.

I wrote on Face book this morning “Funny when you think you can't possibly be shocked by any further revelations about someone...then you are. I spent a year and half trying to gain the love of someone who had no capacity to love. I should consider myself lucky considering those who he pretended to love, now have serious concerns for their health. The devil appears as a beautiful man for sure.” 

I also wrote “My schnauzers are unaware that it's a New Year. Lucky them. No resolutions to keep. No regrets for past deeds. They are blissfully happy as they are. They are simply happy to love and be loved...and of course a couple of doggies treats is just icing on the cake... why wasn't I born a Gay man's animal companion? That must be Reincarnation's true Nirvana. If we could all just treat each other as Gay men do their animals there would be heaven on earth.”

I sent Marty Alder this message this morning: “Dearest Marty, I hope you are surrounded this day by the love of your family. I plan on going to the 1st Baptists (very Gay friendly) on 13th at 11 to start this New Year on a positive note.  I am thinking now that I do want all of Kyle's stuff like his computer, printer, and Kindle. I am going to be paying on them for a very long time and may as well use them.

I think Kyle's personal papers like social security, birth records, military records, and school records (and criminal records) as well as photos and family items should go to his sister Jami Fultz as Power of Atty.

As for Kyle's personal effects mainly his clothes, lets discard underwear, socks etc. Shirts and pants and jeans let’s donate to OUR STORE the thrift store for People With AIDS.  Keep whatever you want that you like (but no mementoes! He doesn't deserve your affection)

Jami has no room for any of this and surely doesn't want to deal with it. I think it might even be a matter of contention between her and her husband too.

By the time he gets paroled he will just have to start over like we all have to do. He's going to hate whatever we do but too bad for him. He's locked up in the pound and we are not.  What do you think?”

Marty wrote back, “think that sounds like a good plan! We should probably make a bin of stuff to save for him too. There are some things that I don't think I would be able to give away/throw away because he has a lot of photos and such. He does have some nice clothing that we may be able to sell and get at least $100 or something...”

I responded, “Absolutely...we should make a bin with anything personal of Kyle’s; photos documents and give to Jami to keep for him.”

Marty wrote: “Definitely. I should be able to sort through some stuff pretty soon so that it will be organized for us.”

I added, “I don't want burden Jami with too much because she has a difficult marriage as it is and wouldn't want Kyle's crap to become an issue. I just got out of the hot tub...beautiful day for it. Hope you are having a lovely time too!”

Marty answered, “Yeah, that would be sad to add pressure to her life. SWEET! It is a really nice day, which must have been wonderful.”

I replied, “Yep and now I am going to get comfy curl up with the Schnauzers and watch movies...what about you?”

He answered, “Cute. I'm hanging out with my parents. My mom and I went to yoga this morning and had brunch. It's been a nice day. And tomorrow we will find out what STDs I have.... lol”

I said, “I am glad you opened Kyle’s FB...he had all those photos of the deck being built that I never copied until now. It is fun to see a record of its construction.”

Then I face booked Zach Seach and told him he ought to get tested after Marty’s revelations last night of Kyle being a man whore. I wrote this to Zach Seach, “Marty was able to get in to Kyle’s computer and he's been having unsafe sex with multiple guys nearly daily. Marty is certain he has a STD or worse because he has some health issues. I hope you were tested just for your own safety. This was the last blow that I thought Kyle was a good guy. The fact he could lie so much to Marty telling him that he loved him and put him at such high risk is unforgiveable.”

Zach replied, Are you fucking serious? I haven’t gotten tested yet... but it’s going to be my top priority.”

I answered, “Very serious.. Marty's been bleeding from the rectum and has lost nearly 10 lbs.”

Zach: “Jesus F Christ”

I said, “Kyle was on Craig’s List daily, fucking and being fucked while living with Marty and Marty knew nothing about it like the rest of us. I have no doubts that Kyle might be  HIV positive because he cared so little for himself or the people he used for sex.”

Zach responded: “Wow ugh.... well that’s a great way to start a new year...”

I added: “Marty talked to Aaron Wood this week who Kyle was fucking before he met Marty and he's been tested and he's negative so I hope to God that Kyle just had STDS. ‘DalPal’ wrote Kyle had gonorrhea of the throat this spring... and another fellow said Kyle gave him crabs but not so sure how long ago that was. Sorry for the news but I thought you should know. You take better care of yourself. You hear?”

Zach responded, “yeah that’s true. Is he down at Draper or elsewhere?”

            I said vindictively: “He's in Draper. Probably in same cell as a rapist, at least we can hope. I never imagined I could be so deceived by anyone but sociopaths know how to find their victims.”

Zach ended the conversation saying, “Yeah he's not going to do too well in there... He'll be getting raped all the time... and will have to join a gang to even make it through.”

I then sent him Kyle’s prison picture when he was incarcerated.

 

2 January 2012 Monday

It was another really nice day in Salt Lake City. Unseasonably warm in the 40’s. I didn’t do much today but clean my bedroom and fixed some dinner. I made a glazed ham, yams, potatoes au gratin cream of corn, biscuits, and a spinach salad.  I had Chuck Whyte and Michael Romero over. Mike hooked his computer up to Skype which I guess is a free video and audio communication service. I saw the Romeros in Rawlins so that was fun.

Chuck watched a little of “Sordid Lives” the series before Mike took him home.

I worked on the footnotes for my chapter on Mormon History about the Hodges and the bandit days of Nauvoo.

I then went to my Therapist Machiel Klerk at 5 this afternoon. I think I am making real progress with dealing with Kyle Foote.  I said I felt like I am just now recovering from an emotional crisis and disaster and now I am looking at the wreckage and trying to clean up the mess left behind.

I made another appointment for January 16 at 6:00 in the evening but I feel like I am winding down and eventually I should be down to once a month and then every so often.

Marty Alder called and said his friend Matthew Shaffer may want to rent out my room until June.  That would be helpful and break me in, towards having someone else in the house.

Well back to school tomorrow. It’s time.

Charles Frost called to chat worried that when Kyle gets out of prison he will seek to harm me. I really don’t think so but who knows the real Kyle? Charles starts his job at the Pride Center tomorrow as director of SAGE: Senior Action in a Gay Environment.

Jami Fultz asked to friend me on Face book and I agreed. So I guess I better behave LOL.  Goodnight.

 

3 January 2012 Tuesday

I went back to work today but 4 kids were still gone so I only had 16 kids. It was really nice. I was glad to get back to work. It made my day seem more fulfilled.

It was another warm winter day, about 45 degrees. After taking Coco home I fixed some tostados for dinner and then worked on my article on the Hodges brothers of Nauvoo.  Other than that I can’t think of much to mention.

I felt rather melancholy a bit today over Kyle Foote or rather the person I thought Kyle was. I guess I am just clearing up the wreckage. Marty Alder was supposed to be tested today for STDS and HIV so maybe that’s another reason I am antsy.

The Republican Iowa Caucus is today. Who cares.

I’ve had really itchy skin lately especially my back. I wonder if it’s from the dry weather or something else.

 

4 January 2012 Wednesday

Had a lonesome dream that Randy and Kimberlee Gile came over and Randy was interrogating Kyle Foote why he was leaving me. I never saw Kyle in the dream but just the conversation where Kyle basically said he had done enough damage to me.

I looked on the court calendar and saw that Kyle is to be sentenced again this Friday at 8:30 in the morning. Melancholy today for some reason.

School is plugging along and the year will be half over next week.

Didn’t do much this evening except clean up the story I wrote of Mormons and the Mennonites and texted Marty who got tested today for HIV and STDS.

I have had such an itchy skin. I may have to go in to see the Instant Care doctor to see if it’s a rash or something worse. It seems to have started after I started driving the truck again and who knows what Kyle might have infected in the cloth seats.

Rick Santorum and Mitt Romney are tied in Iowa going into the primary.

I wrote Marty Alder; “Kyle goes before the judge again this Friday at 8:30 probably last time he will be out of prison for a long time.”

Marty  wrote back: “He better be in there for the rest of his fucking life. I want to see him in shackles.”

I said, “He will be in shackles this Friday for sure…what a wasted life. What a sad pathetic little man.”

Marty  responded: “It’s terrible. He better die soon so that our tax dollars don’t pay for him to live a great life.”

I said, “Being in prison surrounded by people like him or worse is certainly just…if he died he wouldn’t suffer his punishment.”

Marty Alder replied: “Yeah.. maybe you’re right. But if he ever hurts anyone like this again, I don’t know what I would do.”

I said: “We need to live a life of joy…that is the best revenge. I think I have a rash from Kyle from sitting in the truck. I hope it’s not scabies.”

Marty wrote: “Ew shut up. He is so gross I can’t even believe it. I’m actually at the clinic right now. I’m waiting in a room.”

I said, “Hope you have people with you…most of what they do isn’t bad just embarrassing…swabbing my urethra was for me the most uncomfortable…luv you wishing for all to be well.”

Marty Alder said, “Yikes I’m alone. And in West Valley. But I will be alright. Love you too. Thanks Ben.”

I then said: Call me afterwards if you need to talk or go out for coffee. I can meet you if you need the company. Sorry you are going through this- love Ben”

He later wrote after his tests: I have genital warts for sure. The others are off for testing.” I responded, “Oh dear…I love you.”

             

5 January 2012 Thursday

Brian Williams, who I have known off of Face Book and Michael Aaron came over to the house this evening to bathe in the Hot Tub. He came over about 6:30 in the evening and stayed until about 9. We had a nice time talking and visiting. He seems like a nice guy. But we are going to be just hot tub friends I think.

I’ve been working on my Blood Atonement writings again since Bill Poore’s brother Ross Poore has taken an interest in them.

I asked Marty Alder is he wanted to come over and watch “Hairspray” this weekend sometime but he said he was too busy this weekend.

 

6 January 2012 Friday

I could not help but think of Kyle Foote this morning since he appeared in court again this morning at 8:30.  I later texted Jami Fultz and asked she had gone but she said she didn’t know that it had been changed and she felt bad. She is going to ask that a mental health program be part of his condition for parole, which she seemed to think would not be for at least 6 months. She said her social worker husband keeps her from being sucked into too many of Kyle’s lies.

Greg Harden wanted to know how Kyle’s sister felt about him so I wrote him back saying: “Jami is acting as Power of Attorney but no one is allowed to see him.  Marty found out that Kyle had been cheating on him all through their relationship and he is probably diseased. Marty hopes he dies in prison and I really can't say I blame him.  I guess he can receive mail in prison but no one knows his address or cares to see him. He's lied to too many people and damaged everyone who loved him.  What a tragic soul.  Greg the Kyle we knew and loved probably never existed...because he never was honest with anyone.”

  After school, and after taking Coco home I settled into to what I thought would be a quiet night of watching television when Jim Dabakis called me. He said that he just bought two scalped tickets for “South Pacific” tonight at the Capitol Theater and wanted to know if I wanted to go with him.

What a pleasant surprise being invited to go see the Broadway Touring Company of South Pacific at the Capitol Theater by James Dabakis! It was 6:15 when he called and he asked to meet me in the lobby at 7:45 so I had to hustle.

I parked in the Towers parking garage just across from the theater for $5. The place was a amaze but I managed to find an elevator that took me to the street level. I wasn’t as interested in seeing South Pacific as I was going with Dabakis. I enjoy his company.

 He's a great guy and he was telling me how he just returned from Washington where he was a guest of Obama and his wife at a White House ceremony. He was among a few, about ten, who were asked by Obama to meet with him. Obama wanted to know about Huntsman ha! I joked and said didn’t he have Huntsman vetted before he was sent as ambassador to China?

Dabakis is not a fan of Huntsman either. He said that the 5 percent flat tax he touted for Utah as Governor saved the gov’s family about $130 million from his state income tax, money that should have gone to the state for schools.

            I made James Dabakis shake my hand so I could say I shook the hand of the man who shook the hand of President Obama ha! It’s about as close as I will ever get to a president!

Interestingly I didn't see that there were many there at the Capitol Theater under 50 years even though it looked like a full house at the theater. A few theater queens were there but mostly people who remember the beautiful score of Rogers and Hammerstein.

 I had never seen it performed live with a full orchestra...it was beautiful. I guess some prudes complained about the brief male nudity where a sailor runs out of the shower that Nelly Forbush is about to enter. It was comic relief but this is Utah.

We were way in the back and with my poor vision now I couldn’t see the characters very well. They were blurry. Oh well. It was a free show for me and the tickets said $59 so not sure how much Jim actually paid for them.

It was a three hour show so I didn’t get home until after 11:30.  It was a nice, unexpected way to spend the evening.

Amy Barry wrote me asking: “Hey Ben- Any idea what happened today in court? Just curious.”

I responded: “ Jami missed it because she didn't know they rescheduled for 8:30 rather than the afternoon. She said she would keep me informed when she hears anything. She is going to request that Kyle gets mental health therapy before any parole him.’

Amy then wrote: “Well I hope that shrink is worth his weight in gold for Kyle. I guess in the end he's still in prison and will be for a bit. I'm starting to feel like I can recognize my old self but still have a ways to go. I hope the healing is going well for you as well. Have a great time at the show tonight.”

 

7 January 2012 Saturday

I woke up to about five inches of snow on the deck and ground. I had no idea that it was supposed to snow this much. The canopy was near collapse from the weight of the snow. So I got up about 8:00 and cranked up the snow blower and did my driveway and sidewalks. I can just hear my friends who have bought Condos and townhouses lately, laughing at me as I shovel the snow that fell between midnight and 7 this morning off of the deck. Well screw you! I am going to sit in my hot tub!

After removing the snow I fixed biscuits with apricot jam, bacon eggs and hash browns and hot coffee for breakfast so let it snow let snow let it snow.

In the afternoon I went down to Sutherlands and did what Doug Lott suggested I do last fall and bought bungee cords for the structure. God created bungee cords to prop up my sagging Hot tub canopy...Thank you Jesus!

I sent Marty Alder a text asking when I could come over and pick up the Kindle, printer, and computer I want from Kyle Foote’s stuff.  He never got back with me, which I thought was rather strange but then I am sure all his roommates are back home and they have so much catching up to do.

I spent much of the rest of this Saturday writing on my Blood Atonement stuff and watching on Netflix, three episodes of the PBS series “Downton Abby” before going to bed at midnight.  Today is my 35th wedding anniversary. I wonder if Fran ever thinks about it. Such a lifetime ago.

 

8 January 2012 Sunday

The battery in my phone died this morning. Someone was calling me and when I went to answer the phone powered off. At first I thought it was just needing charging but it wouldn’t take a charge. So I was without a phone today.

I had promised Chuck Whyte that we would go to church today so I was over there a little earlier then I needed to be to come to his condo since I couldn’t call. Chuck can be exasperating and I know I was being cranky but why does he feel he has to take out the trash and crap like that when people are waiting on him? He had all morning or could have done it later than making a ride wait.

So anyway went to the First Baptist church but Curtis Price wasn’t preaching. But we Heard a good message so I guess that is good enough. Chuck then needed to get a package he ordered at Wal-Mart so I took him there all though I said I didn’t want to spend my afternoon taking him shopping. It’s not the time in the store (well kind of is because Chuck has to look at everything) but it’s the time taking him home and then my getting back home. I was gone nearly 4 hours this morning between picking him up for church and going to Wal-Mart. Oh well. If I complain then no blessings I guess.

I went over to see Mike Romero about what iPhone I should get to replace the phone that died but he wasn’t home either.  So I decided just to come home and snuggle in and watch some more of Downton Abby.

However Darren Solomon showed up about 2:30 with a friend of his named LaMar. They had gone to the Pride Center’s pot luck dinner and decided to drop by.  Since Darren wasn’t by himself, I didn’t make an excuse to not visit.

Eerily I noticed that LaMar could have been my doppelganger. It was like looking in a mirror; a bearded, pudgy old man like I am. Weird. I definitely could see why Darren is attracted to me if this is his type.

We visited for about an hour and I told Darren that Kyle Foote was in prison and what he had done to me and others. After they left I finished watching season one of Downton Abby and was ready for the 2 hour premier of the Second season.

Ben Anderson wrote me on Face book-“Thank you for the kind words you said about our current immigration situation. We have found an apartment in Munich, Germany and will soon move there.”

 

9 January 2012 Monday

I have my iPhone now. When I took Coco home, Mike Romero went with me to Verizon at the Gateway to activate the phone. It was reported as lost or stolen but I got that taken care of so, but they were unable to save any messages or copy my address book.  It used to be Kyle Foote’s phone that he bought last summer using an American express so I probably am the one who paid for it anyways. It’s a little daunting but I will get the hang of it.

Here in the news, Salt Lake City was voted as the Gayest City in America by the Advocate Magazine. That’s funny and fun at the same time.

I’ve been melancholy about Kyle a little bit lately. Not sure why. Amy Barry bought tickets for Sunday Sundance show.

             

10 January 2012 Tuesday

After school I went to American First Title to do the closing on my new mortgage loan. It took about a half hour for me to initial all the papers.  The Bottom line is that my Mortgage monthly payment is $760 a month and I will get about $8,000 in cash to pay down but not off American Express. I will still owe about $1500 on it, I will still owe about $4000 on Citibank, about $2000 on Lowes, $900 on Sears, and of course still my truck and car. Doing this made me think all over again how much Kyle Foote damaged me.

On a lighter note Salt Lake City was listed as the Gayest City in America by the Advocate Magazine using some silly ass criteria but you would have thought we were a bunch of baby rapists here.

I wrote on Face Book- I am getting very pissed at so many Nelly whiners that SLC doesn't deserve to be the Gayest City in America. These people have NO idea how fast and how far SLC has grown in the past decade.

Here in SLC there is NO anonymity as there is in big coastal cities to hide behind...EVERYTHING we are, was fought for inch by inch with blood sweat and tears by people willing to put it all on the line.

SLC did not have an open door policy for Gays. It’s because we have been fighting for Gay Rights HERE in the crossroads of the West in the belly of the Beast since 1969! Show some pride if not gratitude. We earned the honor the old fashion way by still standing after every assault.

 

11 January 2012 Wednesday

During my prep time break, I was surprised to see Jami Fultz, Kyle Foote’s sister. She came to talk to me about Kyle. Kyle told her that I had had Kyle’s debit card and I told her I’d get it for her. We discussed what to do with Kyle’s things also. She really didn’t want them and I said I’d store them for her until Kyle gets out and then she could retrieve them and give them to her.  She said it was okay for me to have the computer, Kindle, and Printer. She is going to contact Marty and see if we can come over this Monday and sort through is stuff.

This evening Bob Henline, a political junkie who writes for the Q, invited me to Ben McAdams anti-discrimination bill  meeting McAdams  is introducing next Tuesday.

  Bob Henline wrote me; “LOL, this is hush hush, but Ben McAdams is unveiling his non-discrimination bill at a dinner at the Capitol on Tuesday night and he asked me to contact some folks that I thought would be supportive and invite them at 6pm on next Tuesday at the Copper Room of the Capitol.. free food.. politigeeks... etc...”

 I told him that I’d bring Chuck Whyte.

David Van Patten wrote me saying: “hi Ben , I just found out on Monday night that Kyle got himself in some deep trouble. What happened and where is he? I was able to find some old investment scams that he was involved in some years ago. I really consider Kyle a close friend and I’m kinda shaken up  over this. Is he in prison now?

            I wrote back: “David, I am sorry to be the one to tell you that, yes, Kyle is in Prison. He went in on the 23rd of December for violation of terms of his probation and check forgery. We all really loved Kyle but unfortunately he took advantage of everyone who cared for him. He broke my heart as he did others. He was sentenced to 1-15 years. He scammed $300,000 people from investors back in the mid-2000's and this summer he stole $20,000 from my credit cards. Kyle had some really good qualities however he lied so much to so many people you never knew who the real Kyle was. We are all shaken up over this.”

 

12 January 2012 Thursday

Today is the end of the second term so the year is half over. I gave Morgan Fultz an envelope with his uncle Kyle Foote’s credit cards, check book, keys, and other papers to give to his mother Jami. So that’s done. I also sent her some pictures through email of Kyle building my deck. I wanted her to have memories of her brother doing good.

After school I picked up my new glasses so  I can see again. They old prescription from 2010 was blurry and now things are clear again.

            Jon Jepson sent me the news that Nikki Boyer’s partner Ann Hart died today. I think she was younger than me but died suddenly at home.  I didn’t know her.

I’m Kind of tired today. Mentally tired.  I Talked to Charles Frost in the afternoon about how people should be telling each other when there’s a tragedy in the community like Ann Hart’s death because it’s what makes us feel like a community.

Nothing in the news but politics. Romney is all but certain to take the Republican nomination.  Some Marines in Afghanistan were pissing on some Taliban corpses which we have to apologize for but in reality I am glad they did…Taliban are women rapists, and child killers.

I wrote Jami Fultz: “I am sending home with Morgan a packet with Kyle’s key papers and cards that were left in the truck. I also sent by email some pictures of Kyle building my deck to remember his good side.” She responded: “Thanks so much! I haven’t gotten in touch with Marty yet about Monday. I’ll let you know when I’ve talked to him.” I replied: “Any time it’s convenient. Kyle isn’t going anywhere soon.” She added “I sure hope not.”

David Van Patten wrote me back about information I sent him about Kyle. “Thanks for responding Ben, is there any way of writing him. I hope that that 20,000 dollars on your credit cards does not affect your credit scores and that you’re not left liable for it. I remember something Kyle said to me when I first really got to know him and why he did so much for others.

He said that at one time he had a company and he was making a lot of money and he hurt a lot of people cause he liked money so much. I guess he was just putting up a front now. I wonder if he was just going to take it all and run as he talked about going to live in China last I ever saw him.”

I wrote back: “Yes, I suppose you can write to him in care of the prison at Draper. Make sure you include Warren Kyle Foote because that is his real name. Yes, I was liable for the $20,000 so I've had to refinance my house  but still owe about $10,000 that I will be having to find a way to pay off. Just glad I am still working.  I don't hate Kyle. I feel sorry for him. He has a mental illness and an addiction that he hid so well.”

 

13 January 2012 Friday

Dear Abby, I dreamed I was living in Moab with a bunch of granola head new agers. Did I mention everyone was naked smelling of patchouli and just wearing tie dyed head scarves and sailor knot ankle bracelets? Dream interpretation please using Mr. Jung or anyone else except Freudians..... Was I dreaming of heaven? Is this the Mormon planet I will get assigned to in the next life?- Confused in SLC, UT

 I went into work today after posting an Event Party on Face Book. I invited 19 guys I knew. No one showed ha!

I got a lot of grades done to today and went to the instant care to see what is going on with the rash on my right leg. The doctor wants me to see a Dermatologist because she thinks it’s something to do with my diabetes but she gave me some rash cream and I am going to try that first. So I came  home and cleaned the house just in case anyone felt like coming over.

Only Brian Williams responded and I think mostly for the hot tub but he had to go back into work so bought a pizza for nothing. I froze it and watched Hairspray in the movie room anyways. I went to bed early about 9:30 because I had drunk so Whiskey and that always makes me sleepy.

 

14 January 2012 Saturday

I was dreaming that Kyle came home and I was so happy to see him but I could tell that he was up to his old tricks and then suddenly I got the worse charley-horse in my inside thigh. It was it took about 5 minutes of excruciating pain to walk it out holding on to a walking stick. It was sore for most of the day. Not a good way to wake up with a charley horse in your thigh... Ouch! I heard calcium deficiency causes them...anyone else have a clue?

I did go into the hot tub to see if that would relax it. Other than that I just did research and writing of my chapter of Joseph Smith using animal sacrifices prior to the book of Mormon.

In Prison you are assigned into three groups according to personality- Kappa is for assertive and aggressive inmates, Omegas are for not being aggressive or a victim, and Sigma for being "Passive and easy going". I wonder if that is prison code for Gay. I have a pretty good idea where my friend ended up.

 

15 January 2012 Sunday

It was Fifty degrees ahead of a storm front bringing snow tomorrow. I Went to the 1st Baptist with Chuck Whyte, then he took me out to Olive Garden for lunch.  So I took him grocery shopping and now I think it’s time for me to baptize myself in the hot tub...

I wrote and asked Amy Barry how she was doing. She wrote back: “My therapist (Jerry Buie) says most crisis events like this have a 6 week curve of dealing with it. I'm now back on track to that curve. It certainly helps that I now have a ton of stuff to do for the farmers market. I like not thinking about him as much or if at all.

Jerry helped me understand a lot about Kyle's type of behavior and to give me examples of what to expect. I'm glad I picked him and I'm glad Kyle's in prison. That helps a whole hell of a lot.

I'm looking forward to our Sundance movie for sure. Maybe we can do a quick dinner beforehand downtown by the library? When are you may be doing a LBQT history class with the Pride Center? I'd love to come and listen when I can.”

 

16 January 2012 Monday

Today was Martin Luther King’s Holiday so I had the day off. About 1:30, in a snow storm, I went over to Marty Alder’s to retrieve all of Kyle Foote’s things he left there or most of it at least. Marty still had some more things of Kyle’s that were in the shed that he said he would give to me when he moves out in June. I said he could borrow the truck for his move. Well I have Kyle’s laptop computer, printer, and Kindle now.

At 6:00 in the evening I went to my last session with Machial Klerk my Jungian therapist. I think I was done and so did he. I was over the most crucial heartbreak from Kyle and am a lot more objective. I really enjoyed my time talking with Machial and will miss him but time to move on.

I looked at the dent in the back of the PT Cruiser from the time in December when I backed into a tree hidden in the dark that matched the scratch dent on the left side from the time last October when I went to see Kyle at NAMI and back into a post making a short turn. Well I have better glasses now.

At home I got into Kyle’s Computer using the passwords Marty gave me. The revelations began.

I wrote Stephen Schroeck sending him an email that Kyle's oldest sister, Jami Fultz had sent me to convey. “Kyle gave me access to his email account as he is currently in prison for parole violation. In order for me to visit him, I need to submit a copy of his birth certificate to the prison officials. Kyle tells me that he left that and his passport with you. Would it be possible for you to send me those items? I am happy to PayPal you money to cover the costs of sending them. I completely understand you may be reluctant to give these important items to a complete stranger. I am happy to answer any questions that would help assure you that I am Kyle's sister.

Here are a few facts that come to mind: He served a mission for the LDS Church to Curitiba, Brazil from 1999-2001.

Our dad, Bruce, died of prostate cancer while Kyle was on his mission. He donated his remains to the University of Utah for medical research.

Our mom, Sue Foote, died 10 years ago this month in Wheeling, WV of breast cancer.

Kyle is the youngest of 5 with 3 sisters (me, Andrea & Kelsi) and 1 brother (Kris).

He was born 10/17/1979.

            He served in the Air Force as an aircraft sheet metal mechanic and was able to spend some time in Germany.

He trained in Texas and Florida.

I have a cool jacket he got for me with a patch of Lackland AFB on it.

My Address: Jami Fultz 1354 S 300 W Bountiful, UT  84010 Home Phone (801) 294-6330 Thank you for your help!

 

17 January 2012 Tuesday

Ben McAdams met with a group of people to preannounce that he is going to run an anti-discrimination bill for the state of Utah instead of having piece meal city ordinances. He thinks it can pass this year.

I was happy to see Alan Anderson, Todd Bennett, Luci Malin, and Bob Henline, at the Capitol meeting. I went to with Chuck Whyte. Having stopped being so active in the community, I forget how stalwart some people are who will take time out of their lives to make sure the right thing is being done for our people. I am so truly grateful I live among true heroes. It's what makes Salt Lake City the Gayest city of them all.

Charles Frost wrote me: “You were amongst heroes, because you are one of THEM!”

This is a Text Message I received from Jami Fultz: “I went and got most of Kyle’s things from Marty and they are stored in my shed. Marty said there’s still a few things in his storage unit. He is moving in June so I will get the rest probably then. I said if any more checks come in to use them up for an iPhone Kyle was going to buy him.”

I wrote her back: “Going through his emails I am astounded by how much he kept hidden from everyone. Hope you are well. I saw that you are trying to get a birth certificate. A lot of his military papers are at my house if that helps. Steve is the guy that was on Judge Joe Brown with Kyle suing to get some of his money back.”

Jami responded: “I am sorry I didn’t help you out yesterday. Thanks so much for taking care of his things. I don’t know why I thought the Judge Brown guy lived in California. I can’t believe how strewn about his life was. A little here, a little there. I am wondering if it would be possible to sell that Idaho property. Do you know anything about it?”

I replied: “I don’t truly think there is any Idaho property. The court would have seized it as an asset when he was charged with security fraud. I did find a Teton County property tax notice from 2010-2011. I will bring it to school. Kyle was going to move to Buffalo New York be with this guy. He took him to Las Vegas; then on his 30th birthday to Key West Florida where he went skydiving. He lived the high life with this guy pretending to be a millionaire. He scammed this kid for $8000.  I found charges for $1000’s of dollars for these pleasure trips. I wonder where he got the money because it was before I met him.”

Jami wrote: “Wow Kyle hasn’t been trying to live THE dream he’s been living in a dream and it turned into a nightmare for many good people. It makes sense that the court would have seized all his assets. Amazing that he was able to get a checking account.”

I responded: “His Bank of America account is out of Idaho.  Make you wonder if he has cash stashed all over under an alias. I know he used Ryan Jacob a lot. Can you share his password to his computer accounts so I can do some investigating?”

            Jami said: As soon as I return home I will email you the scan I made of the info he sent me. Marty has the original.”

I replied: Thanks… sorry he is putting you through all this and can’t appreciate  the amount of sorrow it costs you.”

Jami then wrote: “I have some responsibility in this. Since I wasn’t there for him so he wouldn’t take up this life style, I get to deal with the fall out. It’s OK. You’re the one I’m most worried about. You did absolutely nothing to deserve how he has treated you.”

This is an email  from Stephen Schroeck  sent to Jami Fultz: Hi Jami, Interesting, my sister's name is Jami too and spelled the same unique way! I heard Kyle was in Utah State Prison.  How did he violate his probation?  I think this is his third time getting caught violating.  How long is he in for this time?  I believe I have Kyle's passport, but unsure about the birth certificate. I am going to have to hunt for these items.  Keep in mind he brought these items here over 2 years ago and I've moved since. I hope Kyle is well and in good spirits.  Glad to hear someone is looking out for him!  I'm curious, why does the prison require you to have his birth certificate in order to visit him?  Can't anyone visit?  In any case, I will look for the items and send them to you. Stephen”

I wrote to Stephen : Stephen, my name is Ben Williams. Kyle lived with me for a year from 2010-2011.  He was living with me when he taped the Joe Brown episode.  I took Kyle in because he was doing some remodeling for me and he worked his charm on me too although I am much older than him. Old enough to be his father. And I thought of Kyle as a son. He told me a little about you being his boyfriend but as you well know Kyle only tells what he wants people to know. I also taught Kyle's nephew and that is how I got to know Jami also.

I loved Kyle and enjoyed his company and he had me completely fooled as he did you too. Last spring he helped me build a deck on the back of my house and put in a hot tub. I was so proud of him.

Then over the summer he charged $20,000 to my credit cards without my knowledge to start up a website called Orgy.com.  The betrayal hurt beyond belief especially since he convinced me that he would pay me back if I did not send him to prison. I couldn't send him to prison. I had too much love for this persona that Kyle was portraying that really was not him at all.

Long story short, all his lies caught up with him and he had violated his probation by not working full time to pay back his restitution. He forged some checks and was caught and was arrested on Dec 6 and sentence to prison for 1-15 years on the 23rd of December. He's there now. You could go on the Utah state correction site and down load a picture of him in prison. It’s not pretty.

I went to therapy for 3 months to figure out how this could have happened but Kyle is a master manipulator and probably a sociopath.

I hope you got some compensation back from the fraud he perpetrated on you.  I had to refinance my house.  I let Kyle live here room and board free, and free use of my truck and had no idea that he was lying to everyone.

His last boyfriend was a virgin until Kyle met him and now he has a STD.  I am sure Kyle is HIV positive. Not sure how he could not be.  I found in his emails that even when he was dating you he was on Face Book almost every night having unprotected sex.

You and I were both victims of someone we loved and trusted, which is what I am most upset about is that Kyle taught me not to trust.

I have Kyle’s computer and am trying to gather all the documents of his, pertaining to the fraud he committed against me, in case I ever need records.  My email address is benedgar51@yahoo.com  Best Regards

 

18 January 2012 Wednesday

I Learned a few things today like how James Dabakis, who has decided to stay in Utah and work for $1 a year instead of a half a million dollars a year in Washington DC, helped start an LDS Democratic Caucus to bring more allies together to bring fairness and equality to this state. Jim is certainly a hero and why SLC is the Gayest City in America.

Stephen Schroeck wrote to me regarding Kyle Foote’s birth certificate: Ben, I am confused.  I received an e-mail a day ago from this e-mail saying it was Jami Fultz, Kyle's sister, and now a day later I am receiving another e-mail saying this is Ben.  Did you send both e-mails?  If so, why did you say you were Jami? And why do you need Kyle's passport and birth certificate?  I'm confused, especially because you gave me Fultz's address.

Your experience with Kyle sounds like a familiar story.  Kyle (Warren) is slippery, though I always questioned him because things didn't always add up.  Too bad he has been unable to focus his smarts in a legal productive manner; he might actually have been very successful.  Nonetheless, I am in total agreement that Kyle is a sociopath; lies upon lies, and most times for no good reason.

Fortunately I did not contract HIV from Kyle, nor do I currently have HIV, nor do I know if he has HIV -- do you if he does?  I know he had a friend with HIV, Greg, and I know Kyle said he volunteered at an HIV clinic or something along that line.

Mine and Kyle's brief relationship was nearly 3 years ago, and I am regularly tested for STDs.  Kyle did, however, confess he had herpes, though he told me this long distance so who really knows what the truth is with him or what he now has.

Did you contract a disease from him?  If so, I would be seeking legal action because most likely he knew he was spreading something.

Kyle's agreement to participate on the Judge Joe Brown show did help me recover the money he owed me.  Kyle did not have to participate on the show, but I believe he truly wanted me to get my money back, and so for a little humiliation he agreed to be on the show and fortunately his probation officer allowed him to travel.

The only money I lost with him was money to start a (lame) business, but it was my choice to invest in that, but it was minimal and I was cautious.

Kyle spent a lot of money on me, and I have always wondered where he got the cash especially since I had a good picture of his past and it didn't seem like he had a chance to amass any amount of extra spending cash.

 I believe he stole a good chunk of money from his employer at the time, Norm Baugh, owner of Green Jockey.  Norm did not elaborate much with me but did say Kyle made some mistakes with him and was somehow going to fix those mistakes.  I believe Kyle took advantage of Norm and a company credit card and used it to impress me with fantastic vacations, but that caught up with him too.

I use to confront Kyle about things that didn't make sense and he would always counter with "why would I lie, there's no long term use in doing that."  Well, he was right, nothing lasted long term and it all caught up with him.

He had hoped to move to New York and start a new life, and I was basically going to take him in, but after the 1,000th lie I told him to he needed to make alternate plans because I could no longer help him.

When I heard Kyle was moved to State prison I googled his name and found the Orgy.com website.  My first assumption was Kyle duped someone new to lend him money to start the website business and that person probably discovered Kyle's a fraud and reported him and that was why Kyle was arrested.  Seems my assumption was not too far off.

I found Kyle's self-marketing page on the Internet quite amusing where he described himself or a successful, wealthy businessman.  He is delusional and I feel bad for him, but he has brought this on himself, and after many second chances at life he has decided to break the law over and over and simply refuses to learn his lesson.  He is in need of tough love.  I wonder if he enjoys prison or if he has a desire to be reckless and hurt himself.  There's something not right upstairs with him. Stephen”

I wrote Stephen back: I know you have moved on with your life but some of us are still cleaning up the wreckage that Kyle committed back here.  I met Kyle through his friend Greg Hardin who I had known for years. I am 60 years old and Kyle even threw me a birthday party on that occasion.

 

Kyle and I were never romantically linked. In fact he was so buttoned down and uptight around me I actually thought he was a prude or shy. I never saw him even in underwear ha!

I knew he had boyfriends but had not a clue he was so sexually active (tramp is a better word). I am finding out all about his escapades from Craig’s List of guys he invited to my home after I was sound asleep. Of course I was working too, and he was not, so he had lots of free time to be slutty. But I never knew that about him when he lived with me.

He had access to my credit card info after he helped me build a deck and put in a hot tub. He used that money for Orgy.com without my knowledge.

I found out after the fact that he even was arrested as a teenager for having underage sex with boys. He still has a thing for boyish looking men.

So yes Jami let me have a printer, his computer, and a kindle that he bought with funds stolen from me so that is how I got into his account. Shocking to say the least.

I was very stupid with Kyle. Once I found out he had stolen that money rather then send him to jail, he begged and pleaded with me not to even suggesting suicide. So I didn’t. I even accepted back the charges under my name because he said he would pay me back through profits from Orgy.com. Needless to say that was money down a toilet.

I had this one impression of Kyle. You tried to believe the lies because you love him. I made him my beneficiary, I was going to leave my house to him and I wanted to adopt him as a son.  I've been in therapy for 3 months to get over the heartbreak he left me with.

I'm glad he didn't scam you any more than he did. How he could be professing love for you and then picking up tricks in airports is beyond me except that he is a sociopath or a sex addict.

 Jami said that Kyle's father once said about him that he knew when Kyle was lying because Kyle was opening his mouth.

So glad your health was not endangered with anything as serious as HIV. His last boyfriend has not told me whether he has the infection but did say that he has genital and anal warts.

The Kyle I thought I knew will always be special to me but the sociopath sitting in prison I don't know that guy.

If you do find anything that Jami could use to visit her brother in prison I know she would be grateful. I guess she feels she has a family duty.

Do you want me to delete all of Kyle's contact with you off his computer so he can't access it from another computer using his email? I am sure Kyle was stealing money from Green Jockey because they were a crooked outfit in the first place.

  I heard bits and pieces that you sent Kyle to jail for violation of his probation for going to New York. Well good for you if you did. Sincerely Ben Williams”

Stephen Schroeck  responded: “Ben I am sorry Kyle hurt you, and appropriately sorry for your loss both the money and the illusion of a good friend.  There's no way to rationalize Kyle's callous selfish behavior.  Of all my hook-ups, boyfriends, etc. he is the only one I look back at with disgust.

The continuous lying was such a disappointment, which was worse than anything, even cheating, because you realize you have no idea who this person is and you were deceived for so long and so much time and energy was wasted.

Try to keep your happy thoughts of Kyle, but remember they were a lie and you just need to try and forget about him and move on.

Kyle uses people and knows how to work them to his advantage. Regarding the Orgy.com, Kyle could sell a piece of sh*t to anyone.  He tried selling me on a Green Jockey idea, and it all sounded great, except for the product to be sold! Lol...

But he loved working numbers and showing how much could be made so easily in a certain amount of time.  He kept trying to get me to invest more and more, and I told him no, invest yourself, which he never did because he had no money, though at the time I was under the impression he had millions.

I had a conversation with Norm, which really opened my eyes.  Kyle went on and on for months how he worked as CEO for Green Jockey, had a company car, went to lunch frequently with Norm, made 5 figures a month, etc... Only to find out from Norm himself that Kyle was fired many months before and none of the details were accurate.

For no good reason, Kyle would tell me he just had lunch with Norm, blah blah blah...  He made it all up!  He detailed an elaborate life he had and went on for months about it, pretending to be at meetings, selling products, buying real estate, etc.  I was always suspicious, but was out of state, and frankly didn't care, so I didn't push too hard for proof of his daily activities.

I did contract genital warts from Kyle, thankfully I only had a minor case, caught it early and used high doses of medication, the warts disappeared and have not returned; it's been over 2 years now.

Kyle is a scumbag.  I believe he knew he had STDs before me, and if not, he certainly was made aware by me when I started to have an issue 2 - 3 years ago.  So if any of Kyle’s hook ups / boyfriends have contracted anything from Kyle over the past 2 - 3 years, then Kyle maliciously spread his STDs because he knew he had STDs; this is a crime!

I'm sure it's easy to make excuses for Kyle, such as him growing up Mormon, early death of parents, estranged from family because of being gay, etc., but at his age there are no more excuses. He has free will and is responsible for his own actions.

My best advice to you is to toss out his things and move on.  Chalk it up as an interesting charity case that went sour.  He is estranged by his family for good reason I'm sure; and he will make new friends to prey on; you as a victim cannot help him, he needs professional help, which is why he is back in jail.

His probation officer said a few years ago he expected to see Kyle in jail again, he found Kyle to be arrogant and insincere. Basically he thought Kyle was full of sh*t and saw right through him.

I had not heard about the pedophile arrest; that's terrible.  I think him and half his family have been in and out of jail, not sure what their issues are, but clearly they have them and need professional rehabilitation.

I didn't know Kyle to be a slut, but I suppose we are all capable of it.  He said I was the first to pop his cherry...either he lied or liked it so much he sought out as much sex as he could after that.

Again, I am sorry for your pain, I wish I could warn people.  It’s interesting how trusting and gullible people are even smart people.

 

I'm surprised Greg didn't give you a heads up, he knows a lot about Kyle's antics and sordid past.  If I were you I'd be a bit upset with Greg for not warning you. Greg seems to have his share of issues too, though I don't know him personally.

While I was with Kyle he was arrested for probation violation, which was working for Green Jockey, and lying about the details of the company and for having a position that gave him access to money (fiduciary responsibility), which was a direct violation of his sentence.

Kyle begged me to bail him out of jail, this is where I was weak and lent him some money, which he promised to pay back.  Kyle claimed that he was a millionaire and even showed me an account with $400k in it.  So when he asked for a bridge loan to cover the bail, I had no issue, because I thought he had money and he was going to pay me back as soon as he got out of jail.

Weeks turned into months with excuse after excuse about lost checks, problems with wire transfers, slow mail service, etc... Kyle finally came clean and told me he had no money.

I tried working out a payment plan with him, but he never sent $1.  He eventually stopped contacting me all together.  It was then, that I talked to some people and was made aware that he was not allowed, ever, to leave Salt Lake while on probation except for court or death of an immediate family member.

Kyle and I had several trips to Nevada, Florida, and New York.  Each time he told me he had permission and it was fine to travel as he pleases so long as the probation officer knows his whereabouts.  Well, this was a crock of shit, and this is why he was arrested a second time for probation violation.  And as we now know he was arrested yet a third time for probation violation.

Kyle just doesn't get it, or perhaps he really likes jail.  He used to call me daily from jail and write letters, and I was getting the impression he liked it there. He bragged about how everyone liked him, how good he was at his assigned tasks, etc.

You know, after he was first arrested for probation violation, the first thing he did after he was released from jail was fly to New York!!!  What a dummy, immediately after release he violated his probation, again!

I remember him telling me how rich he was, and I would just roll my eyes, mostly because I didn't care, but also because it never made sense...  He said he was worth 15 million dollars, yet didn't have a car, no fancy clothes, no smart phone, no house, etc...

 But I enjoyed some of his conversation and appreciated his entrepreneurial spirit, but ultimately, it was toxic and flawed.

You may or may not know, but he has scammed hundreds of thousands out of people in the past.  I knew this before we met, so I was careful about my money with him, and he tried to come clean with me and told me he was a changed man, and his supposed "honesty" is why I kind of trusted him and thought people deserve a second chance, and he created some great excuses about his history which made everything seem not so bad. 

Come to find out, everything was much worse than he made it seem.  One particularly sad case was a family had a family member pass away and there was a life insurance payout, Kyle got wind of this and approached the family and told them how they could make some money on the payout, the family lost about $50k  from this.  No morals!

 

It goes on and on, with others that refinanced their homes to invest in Kyle and losing everything and stuck with huge loan payments and nothing to show for it.  Did you not know about any of this? Stephen.”

Greg ‘Tracie Aviary’ Hardin wrote me saying “I received a "Dear John" letter from Kyle today telling me that he is making a "clean break" from everyone in his life over the next few years he will be spending in prison and as of such, Everyone and I will be "out of the loop". Kyle did however Thanked me for my friendship and everything that I did for him and also apologized for any hurt that he caused me and my family. He also asked me not to write him anymore. Now I can now move on and close that chapter in my life. I'm still going to be kind to those that are less fortunate than myself, "that's just the kind of person I am."

I wrote Greg back: “I hope Kyle does do some real reflecting in prison and gets some real help. He's damaged almost everyone he knows in some way or another so it's good that he does not want to be contacted by anyone. The truth is that people really now know the truth and he cannot manipulate them.

I have been corresponding with Steve his ex-boyfriend back in Buffalo. Kyle has given both Marty and Steve genital warts so who knows what other diseases he has infected young men with because of his selfishness.

I have his computer and am going through all his emails. It’s a nightmare of lies and deception. Truly Kyle is a sociopath. I still love the bastard or at least the image he projected to me which know what never the real Kyle.”

Greg responded back: “What was the disposition of his case? Is he done with court? Are there still pending charges? How much time did he get? NAMI asked me if I was in contact with him and if so, to please ask him to remove NAMI from his FB page. I guess they had to do a little "damage control" with his Monday night support group.

Ben, I feel SOOO sorry, if it wasn't for me you would have never met him and he would have never hurt you. Please forgive me. Hugs!”

I wrote back: Kyle must have stolen your massage table. He was advertising free massage in September 2010 saying that he was trained in Reiki Massage.... the liar.”

           

19 January 2012 Thursday

Today is my dad’s 87th birthday had he lived. It’s been a rainy drizzly day with a high about 47. There was no school for the kids today because of Teacher’s prep. I had planned a hot tub and movie event for the night but no one could make it. Oh too bad ha!

I am still obsessing over what I have been finding on Kyle’s computer. It’s Mind boggling. I am amazed by what I am finding out that went on in my home when I was away at work. I am surprised my house did not smell of Craig’s List... You never can truly know a sociopath I suppose. Oh well it's over now and I’m moving forward.

Martin Alder  said: “Yeah, Kyle makes sure to spread skank around as much as physically possible.”

I wrote Greg Hardin: “More revelations. Kyle was using my house as a massage parlor while I was working at school charging $40 an hour.” Greg responded, “Greg What, only $40 an hour. I charged $75.00 and that was over ten years ago! But then we have to remind ourselves that most of his customers probably used the money they earned baby-sitting for their massage. I seriously think you should consider writing a book titled, "The Things I Learned From Living With a Charming, Gay Sociopath" It could be good therapy!”

I also wrote to Jami Fultz: “Greg Hardin who Kyle lived with before me said that Kyle put his birth certificate in his safe. I told Greg that Kyle told me to toss the safe because he didn’t have the key. Greg said he had the key to it. Kyle must have forgotten where he put it moving so much. He also sent Greg a letter saying he was cutting all ties with former friends for the couple of years so he must know that he’s in for a good while.”

Jami wrote back: “He is now working and living with the death row inmates. He gives them their food trays and cleans the shower and rec room and takes out the trash. He says it’s kind of scary, in a “scared straight” way. Ron Lafferty is in the cell above him.” I said: “Oh my gosh does he write you or can he call out?”.  She replied, “He writes me. He’ll be able to call 1 time a week as soon as I set up an account in Texas and the prison verifies my phone is mine and isn’t one of his victims.”

I responded: “Those calls can get expensive. I did that for him when he was in jail in 2010. Jami I hate to be the one to tell you this but after  seeing how much depravity, Kyle kept on his computer I would never let him be around your boys as he would probably be a bad influence. He is a sex addict as well as a thief. He needs real therapy to overcome it.

I had no idea that he had guys over almost every day while I  was at work. It’s a wonder he is still alive. It was a very self-destructive behavior. He just must not have truly cared for anyone even himself. Don’t let your affection for your brother cause you any more pain.”

Jami replied, “Thank you for the warning. That will be my greatest challenge…to keep from getting sucked in by him. And Steve worries about dying and Kyle swindling me out of the boy’s inheritance. I’ve heard the calls cost $9 for 30 minutes”

I answered: “That is really good because at the county jail it was like $5 for just a few minutes. Just make sure Steve has everything in a good trust that Kyle can’t weasel into. Sorry for the bad report on Kyle but thought you ought to know that Kyle’s behavior was very out of the norm with something really wrong with how he thinks. I truly hope they don’t just warehouse him but get him some treatment too. Take care.”

I wrote Stephen Schroeck, Kyle’s old boyfriend who lives in Buffalo, New York: “Thank you for corresponding to me. I know after all these years it’s like a very bad memory being revisited. Like Hurricane Kyle.

Utah's laws are so strange and I read in their handbook they are really stringent who is allowed to visit inmates. I haven't checked into it enough myself because I don't plan on visiting him. He may have just told that to Jami for whatever sociopathic reason.

I found out from Greg Hardin that Kyle had put his birth certificate in this moveable safe. However Kyle had me throw it out over a month ago because he didn't have a key to it anymore but Greg said the dumb shit must have forgotten that Greg had a key. Still Jami should be able to request a copy if she needs one.

I am finding out so much about Kyle from reading his emails that he never deleted. He moved into my house 1 Oct 2010 and immediately started having tricks over from Craig’s List were he advertised himself as a Reiki Masseuse and was charging $40 for a message with happy endings. I figured it was the young boys he liked. Most of his sex ads said, “under 27 years”. He would have these guys over while I was working at school. He had people traipsing in and out of my house the whole time he lived here...probably more guys were screwed in my downstairs bedroom then a whore house. Unbelievable.

I am even finding sex tapes he made of himself and other guys in his computer. He even had  the nerve to write this one old boyfriend that he doesn't have sex anymore saying he wants to be monogamous with him. LOL  He was on Craig’s list up to the date he was arrested.  A true sex addict.

I am so sad about your sister and glad you had the finances to help her out. He stole money from Marty Alder’s, his last boyfriend, sister too. I think he was an opportunity thief as well as master mind thief.

Well I will recover from the $20,000 lost and I do have a nice deck and a remodeled house for my troubles. Most people were left with nothing.

Kyle will never be able to pay back $360,000 in his lifetime. He will be basically an indentured servant whenever he gets out of prison.

He just sent Greg Hardin a letter asking him not to contact him or write him anymore because he wants a break with all his former friends. He said he sounded remorseful but then can a sociopath truly be remorseful? He also mentioned something about when he gets out after a few years, so I am guessing he knows he's going to be in the big house now for several years not months.

I am glad you have been able to move on and I know in time I will too. Again he has a whole file of emails sent to your personal and business address in his email account. Do you want me to delete them so whenever he does get out of prison he won't be able to contact you?

You sounded like a really decent guy and truly did not deserve to be preyed upon. Even his first email to you about just coming out of a long 8 year monogamous relationship was a lie right from the start.

You had some nice vacations with the ass but ultimately you paid for them. I hope Kyle is just a once in a life time nightmare. Ben Williams.”

Stephen wrote back: “Ben, I don't mind chatting with you about Kyle, we can commiserate with each other. I'm curious...Why is Kyle mad at you?  Why did he ask you not to visit and not to write?  Does he think you turned him in?  Not to make life worse for him, but at the rate he has been stealing large amounts of money from people, it might be important to report to the police what he has done to you.  If you don't report this he may do this again and again, and perhaps to someone less well off; he could ruin a family, or a life, or even worse lead someone to hurt themselves or hurt Kyle.

 I'm surprise someone hasn't physically harmed Kyle. People have been killed for a lot less; people literally have second mortgages on their homes because of Kyle and nothing to show for it.     

I'm also curious as to why his sexual escapades bother you so much.  Seems you are more upset about that than anything, even more upset than him stealing your identity and charging $20k in debt to you and lying about it???  You don't need to answer, just curious.  I'm not supporting his behavior one way or the other.    

My heart sank when I was with Kyle and he was arrested.  I was out-of-state and didn't find out for a day or two but had a gut feeling about what happened. This was new territory for me.  I had never known someone that was in jail.  I had no idea what to do, and I had so many unanswered questions.

 

During the whole discovery process I uncovered so many lies and deceit; I had no idea who Kyle really was.  He remained optimistic with me though and pretended everything was alright...well things were not alright, his future was so uncertain and I wanted no part of the situation, but I hung in there for a while to support him because I felt bad for him and felt like I was his only friend in the world.

He continued to lie to me, but fortunately I had some helpful contacts so I was able to catch him in some of his lies.  I really don't know what he had hoped to accomplish.  After he bounced a check to me I pulled the plug on our relationship and friendship.

I kept in contact only to keep tabs on him in hopes that I would eventually get my money back.  Soon I found out there was no way he could ever pay me back even if he wanted to.

Thankfully we have trashy shows like Judge Judy etc., and I was able to recover my losses and got a great trip out of the whole thing!

Regarding deleting his e-mails, it’s not necessary, that's his business to deal with.  I'm not worried whether he contacts me or not.  If he really wants to get a hold of me he will find a way; I'm sure he has my information memorized!

I suppose if there are account numbers of mine floating around then they should be deleted, but I don't think he has any of that information...let me know!  Stephen Schroeck Buffalo NY”

I wrote back “Hi Stephen, I hope New York is having as nice of weather as we are in the Rockies. It’s 47 degrees and raining which means snow at the ski resorts. The Sundance Film festival is starting this week.  I imagine Kyle never took you to Salt Lake City for obvious reasons.  Don't ever let Kyle turn you off from ever coming to Utah to see all the National Parks and sites to see here at the Crossroads of the West!

I heard from Jami that Kyle is working and living with the death row inmates. He brings them their food trays and cleans the shower and rec room and takes out the trash. He says it's kind of scary in a "scared straight" way. This killer, Ron Lafferty, is in the cell above. You can Google Ronald Lafferty to see what a nut case he is. There is at least one man on death row Michael Archuleta who is there for murdering a Gay man in Cedar City by shoving a tire iron up his ass.

As to why he doesn't want me to write any more I can only think that he can't use me anymore and that I told his friends what he did to me which got him fired from the Farmers Market and cut off from all the people who had once respected him.

I am kind of well-known person in the Gay community that the editor of the Gay paper posted on Face book about Kyle's arrest and how he was scamming members of the community. Michael Aaron did that after I told him what Kyle had done to me.

I had gotten a position for Kyle as a columnist for the paper. It didn't pay anything but it got him name recognition.  I also think that I am a symbol of what he lost being locked up. 

This is a copy of his letter- “Ben, I received both of your letters today. Thank you for updating me on the status of my things and my friends. Please do not mail me anymore letters, however. I am not even close to being ready to forgive myself for the pain I caused you nor am I ready to forgive you for the pain you caused me. I am in a dark place when it comes to you and I and it would be unfair for me to further engage with you as all I feel are anger and regret. (primarily self-directed).

 

I am going to close this letter now in an effort to avoid furthering anything hurtful in its lines. Please do not respond, simply let me go. Continue in your therapy and find love and peace within yourself and your friends. Please give all my things without exception to Jami as I do not want them in your possession upon my eventual release. Hold on to the good memories we made together as I know I will. Goodbye Ben Kyle.”

Kyle knows I didn’t turn him in. He was picked up for a forged check and lying about his restitution. I wish I had been as strong as you when I found out he stole that money but I was not in my right mind and was still foremost thinking of protecting Kyle.

My therapist called what I was in “an enchanted torment”.  I was so in love with Kyle on so many levels and I only knew him as the boy who said he loved me (as a parental figure) and there was no way I could turn Kyle in more than I could my own child.

I was a weakling. I admit it but I am not the only one to fall under Kyle’s charms.  I am surprised that someone hasn’t had Kyle beat up and killed myself.  He is so lucky to have done this in a mostly religious community that has more ethics than Kyle.

Another reason I never went and told the police about Kyle is because I felt like I could have gotten in trouble knowing that he was in violation of his probation and not reporting it.

I am a Gay school teacher with only 4 years until retirement so in a Red State like Utah I did not want to do anything that might jeopardize my teaching license.  Moral Turpitude is still a cause for dismissal in this state.  

Anyway I also thought Kyle would help pay this back. He did make about 5 payments to the American express until he was arrested.

My therapist asked me the same question about the money and Kyle’s sexual escapades. I think it’s because I have never been much into making money or I wouldn’t have been a teacher. I just wanted a comfortable middle class life.  I also think that $20,000 is too much of an abstraction for me. I was more upset that Kyle conned me out of $650 last Oct for his birthday on the pretense it would keep him caught up on his restitution and out of jail. As long as he was out of jail I thought he could make his payments he owed for Orgy.com.  $650 was real to me. The $20,000 doesn’t seem real although I just refinanced my house at 3.79 percent to roll the debt into a new Mortgage.

I only owed $98,000 on my house but because the money is so low now I wasn’t able to borrow enough to pay off all the debt. I still owe about $8,000 to my credit union’s visa.

I guess the sex stuff is only because he lied so much about it. If he would have said to me, I am a 30 year sex charged guy that will be having guys over almost nightly I would have said okay. Why not -he’s young. But the sneaking around having sex when I was at work and charging for massages and all the rest while pretending he was so uptight about sex.

I think I also was jealous. Not necessary for sex but for a lack of affection, spending time with me etc. 30 or 60 you still need love and affection. 

I think it also really reflected that I really didn’t know who this man was that I had living in my house that I had grown to love and adore. Kyle always charmed me by saying we had a special relationship and a special connection and like any old fool being sweet talked by a pretty young thing it was nice to hear.

If you every make it out this way heading to California or a layover I live right next to the airport and would be glad to meet you.

Kyle has not put me off from being kind to people. Best regards Ben”

 

20 January 2012 Friday

There are consequences for every action. Kyle is in prison working cleaning up after death row inmates because of poor choices, decisions, and a gigantic sense of entitlement and self-importance. He shares a cell below Ron Lafferty and has to serve food trays to Michael Archuleta the man who brutally murdered Gordon Church in 1988 for being Gay.

 I got this message from a kid named Andrew Parker Leasy: “Hey Ben, I am not quite sure we've met, but I believe Kyle used to live with you? Anyways we were friends for a while.. I was just wondering how he's doing and if he's going to be home anytime soon? if you could write me back when you get a minute I'd appreciate it.” I responded: “I have to inform you that Kyle is in the Draper Prison serving 1-15 years. Kyle lived with me for a year. I will try to answer any of your questions about Kyle. Sorry to have to tell you this news”

Then Greg Hardin wrote: “Ben, My friend Kathleen and I have tickets to Dottie on Sat 2/25...see if you can get a ticket and we can meet Kathleen and we can have a lite din-din b4 the show. PS, it's "Falkers Night" Hugs!”

 

21 January 2011 Saturday

I wonder if I invited people over it would give me the incentive to clean my messy house. Nope it’s raining so I will curl up with the dogs and clutter the house with spoons and bowls and doggy treats. Maybe even hot tub in the rain.

I am spending a rainy Saturday morning eating breakfast of French toast, sausage and eggs and of course hot coffee. The wind must have blew last night because I see deck chairs strewn about.

Thinking about writing a book The Year of Living Dangerously: My life with a charming sociopath. Or perhaps start a 12 step recovery group called Kyle Anonymous. I am sure there would be plenty of participants LOL.

Well back to eating breakfast on this wet and rainy and snowy day that my canopy that I had bought last fall to cover the hot tub collapsed from the weight of water, snow, and slush. The hot tub wasn’t damaged but I had to go out in the freezing snow and take as much of it down as I could. Otherwise I didn’t venture outside of the house today.

Another revelation uncovered in Kyle’s computer is that he bought a plane ticket out from North Carolina to Salt Lake City last August for $400 for this kid Derek Hawkins. I guess that he had dated him before. You know who paid for that.

Bill Poore and I talked over the phone and he commiserated with me about having fallen in love with a sociopath. He said I was groomed by him. Perhaps so.

I wrote to Charles Frost about Kyle sparing no expense to fly a 21 years old to spend 5 days in SLC while he was just starting to date Marty Alder.  I said I had no idea. The kid may have come to the house while I was back in school but I never saw him otherwise.

Charles wrote back: “OMG. Does Marty know this? He must. YOU are becoming better than an FBI investigator missy. You keep up this work, I see a future in investigation and detective work for YOU. Love you. Called you. Left you a Voice Message. Hope you are doing well. Let's talk Sunday. XXOO Chaz”

 

 I wrote back, “Marty is trying to move forward while I am stuck in the past LOL It’s so deliciously voyeuristic to look in someone's private thoughts...kind of sick too...but hey I don't have any other hobbies.”

When I wrote Stephen Schroeck about the plane ticket he responded, “That is too funny!  When Kyle told me he didn't like onions, I told him the relationship wasn't going to work out!  Seriously...I love onions and they are used in most foods that I like.  Kyle was a horrible lay... no skills, no passion...  I think the only reason he has gotten laid was by tricking people into thinking he's smart, or rich, etc... You should definitely call American Express and report the fraud... You can easily prove you didn't sign, approve, or authorized those charges.  You could probably report it under identity theft.  I hope you do, no reason you should bare those charges.  The credit companies are insured so nothing to feel bad about in that regard. Kyle's existence / job is to be a con man... so I don't think he tires of the secret juggling; I think he enjoys the challenge. Stephen”

 

22 January 2012 Sunday

I did not go to church with Chuck today. I needed some time alone to process all the revelations found on Kyle Foote’s computer.

Damn my hot tub is down to 92 degrees from all the icy. But I am cranking it back up to 104. I can be butch...yes I can! I hacked sawed the legs off the canopy posts and drilled out the support deck screws. All by my little old lonesome!

It’s a gorgeous day here in Salt Lake City but the tears are flowing because the Mighty Mitt struck out in both Iowa and South Carolina! Boo Hoo!

Ring for the maid. Some people watch football I watch Downtown Abby.

I wrote Zach Seach: I’m reading Kyle's messages. I have no idea why he thought he had to keep the fact that while y’all were in basement fucking you had to be quiet so I wouldn't know. Was he afraid I would ask to join? Stupid.”

Zach replied, “No idea... I just respected what he wanted. Do you know if Marty has been tested yet?”

I said, “I mean I had my share when I was younger and wouldn't not have thought less of Kyle if he had put a red light in his window. He had strong sexual needs but I think very little passion... I know he did like having sex with you from his profile. He carried on with you longer than anyone. Some consolation I guess. He thought you were pretty hot.”

Zach Seach responded, “I am pretty hot. I ain’t gonna lie.”

I said: “Yes you must be for Kyle to drive all the way to Stansbury because he was Skyping, caming, Craig listing Grindring here almost daily. I have to say the boy had stamina. His sex videos show that he mostly liked to lay there and let others do the work and yes he certainly was a spit and shove it in man who loved his nipples played with LOL Kyle would die if he knew what I know about him now!”

Zach Seach replied: “lol we should go visit him, and tell him bahahahhahaha”

I said: “Too much work to go see him in prison. How much money would I get if I posted his porno amateur videos on one of those porn sites? Lol”

Zach snidely said, “Probably not that much money LOL.”

Later Brian Williams wrote me and said, “Let me know when u want to tub again and we can solo it or get a small group. At least winter has arrived. Lol.” I know he just wants to use the hot tub but I do like seeing him naked. It’s some consolation.

 

Charles Frost wrote in the afternoon: I think it's rather therapeutic for you to find out all this "real truth" about Kyle. It only cements your opinion more deeply of what a sociopath he really was and still is.

I do however feel you may wish to share the blatant cheating with Marty, so he too--can learn, grow, and become more of a healthy adult gay man, as he is more careful in who he chooses to fall in love with and fuck him.

Marty is a smart, but immature and rather naive young man. You could help him by sharing just the few pieces of what you find out with him. Plus Kyle needs to know that all are fully realize and understand his horrible depth of deception. We ALL only ever knew the tip of the iceberg.

Spend the time you wish on the computer, but not too much time--is MY ONLY advice to your friend. Don't get consumed in revealing what you all already know about Kyle. However what you are uncovering is a pile of evidence the Kyle cannot deny, as well as possible evidence that he broke probation, in even more ways than we ever thought.

I would like to talk to you sometime. Monday after work? Could you meet me? Monday is my ONLY night off this week? Maybe a glass of wine, if I bring it over, and a hot tubbing to relax and laugh a bit. I need that. Doug will not get home until late, and I have the evening off. Once I go to the gym and run lines, then I will need to relax and rest.

May I bring us some food over and we can laugh, eat, sip some Vino, and catch up. Let me know. Best to text really. I am so busy; I get to email rarely now days. Love you Ben. Thank you for the rich friendship we've developed. For that-- I can thank Kyle, one of the very "few" good things he ever did. Poor guy. He is lost, and I fear may NEVER be whole again. That is, if he ever was. Charles Lynn.”

 

23 January 2012 Monday

Because of the Damn storm I had to cancel plans with Charles Frost. I was looking forward to a nice soak and story swap with Charles. I found out that Kyle was transferred from the state prison at Draper to a county jail somewhere. Stephen Schroeck from NY notified me yesterday that he was notified of the transfer and he emailed me.

Amy Barry wrote me after telling her about Kyle’s transfer: “WTF on moving him around?! That better not be a precursor to releasing him this early.” She then told me that the Sundance movie is at 9 and that we should arrive at the Library at 8 to get in line.  She wrote: “I'm really looking forward to this movie and hoping it's a good one and SOOO glad you're going with me.

I wrote Kyle this letter today: “ Dear Kyle, I know you said you did not want me to write you again. I don’t feel like I can respect your wishes, so you can just throw these letters out as they come.  You once told me that that talking was never pointless and I believe that.   I will not pretend to say I understand what you are going through. I won’t say platitudes.  I just know that the human condition can get use to almost anything until it becomes almost routine and mundane. I hope you will find what is offered to be usefully and beneficial for you. As intelligent as you are, you will find ways to stay motivated, to do right, and get out as early as you can.

 

You have led a most fascinating life I must say.  One that only can be described as fantastic.  You gave people the Kyle they wanted and many times, which was noble and generous but at other times base and incredibly selfish.

I don’t know if I ever thanked you for fixing the kitchen counter top. Thank you.  I know you got nothing out of that but trying to be a friend.

The weather has been crazy this year, really warm and then turning snowy.  The wet slushy snow finally crashed the canopy over the hot tub.  It looked like a dilapidated daddy long legged spider.   But I just said to myself What would Kyle do? So I got out a hack saw and the drill and sawed off the legs and drilled out the supports. 

Next summer if I am ambitious I am going to put slats over the top railings. I think I will be able to do that like with the joists we did. It won’t be the Taj Mahal that you would have done but it will be practical and something  I could do with help.

Charles Frost is doing a Dottie Dixon play at SLAC for about two months. He’s coming over tonight to sit in the hot tub and grouse about  Troy Williams and what a jerk he is being. He is trying to get royalties off of the show because he is claiming to be a co-creator of the character.

Last Monday, I went up to the State Capitol after school with Chuck Whyte to listen to a proposal that Ben McAdams is introducing this session.  He is proposing a statewide anti-discrimination act similar to SLC’s. The Chamber of Commerce has jumped on board saying being anti LGBT is bad for business.  The jerk Waddroup is opposed; saying it should be a local issue where before he proposed repealing SLC’s ordinance.  Todd Bennett, Alan Anderson, Luci Malin, the owner of Club Sound and others were there to hear the proposal.

I guess you heard that Newt Gingrich won in South Carolina! LOL  The GOP is imploding. Thank You Tea Partyers.  Even Iowa was taken away from Mitt and given back to Santorum.  Poor Mittsy.

I don’t suppose you heard that Carla Gourdin and Deb Rosenberg have split up. Deb is in a new relationship. It was at Debbie’s that I first met you. Well, that I remember meeting you. Greg Hardin reminded me that you were with him at Big Ed’s near the U of U when Mike Romero and I were once there.  You Must have not made much of an impression on me if I couldn’t remember LOL.  It’s been hard on Deb and then last week she also had to put down her old dog Gabby.

 Big news I guess is that the Empress of the Rainbow Court died last Monday from a drug overdose and Nikki Boyer’s partner died of cancer.

The house’s refinancing went through, but not as much as I hoped because of the depressed housing market. I was only able to borrow $120,000 so after paying off the original and the 2nd, I only had $8000 to pay on bills. I put it all in to American Express because it had the highest rate.

I will owe $1500 still but I am going to try to find a smaller interest rate to transfer that too.  I hope to rent the basement out. I am kind of waiting on a friend of Marty Alder’s who wants to rent just until June when he will move out but haven’t heard anything from Marty in a while.  So if I don’t hear by the 1st I will just put in on Craig’s List.

Hopefully the bedroom won’t be quite as active as when you were there but what do I care as long as he pays rent and is good to the dogs.

I’m going to file for my tax return soon and will try to pay off some bills with that too.

 

I met this man named Bill Poore who is an assistant professor at the U of U in Theater.  He’s quite fun and interesting.  He worked on Broadway and had friends in the Los Angeles scene.  He even knew Andrew Cunanan, as a close acquaintance. You are probably too young to remember Cunanan because you were only 17 when he murdered Versace the designer and then killed himself.

Another kid named Brian Williams’ has been coming over to use the hot tub. He’s from Michael Aaron’s naturalist club.  That’s about all the social life I have.   Sunday was Curtis Price’s birthday too.

Well, I don’t know more to write. I don’t get any mail here anymore from you.  I suppose It all goes to the P.O. Box.  I gave your sister the cards that were in the truck. She told me that is what you wanted.

I will have to register the truck this month.  It just sits waiting for your stinky butt.  I guess I should take it out for a spin to get the juices flowing.

Well I know I won’t hear back from you. It’s okay.  I have a lifetime of memories.  With all your faults, I love you still (in an emotionally healthy way).

Take care of yourself the best you can. Your friend Ben”

I sent the letter to the BEAVER COUNTY JAIL Address 2270 South 525 West Beaver, Utah 84713 County. His Offender ID is 56416. 

 

24 January 2012 Tuesday

I paid $8000 towards Kyle Foote’s American Express credit card debt.

My sister Charline wrote about her Boston Terrier: For all of you that knew Winston I wanted to let you know that he passed away yesterday morning. I know a lot of people would say he is just a dog. But for you that have pets know that they become part of the family. He is dearly missed by all of us. He loved everyone and thought everyone came to visit him. He was truly a good companion.”

 

25 January 2012 Wednesday

I heard our Gay ‘perp’ has been transferred from being a house maid to death row inmates at Draper to being incarcerated in the Beaver County Jail along with our finest good old boy southern Utah rednecks. It was nothing dramatic, just shifting nonviolent offenders to county jails to help relieve crowding in the prison. I am sure it is better than being locked up in Draper.

What a gorgeous night it was tonight. I am Meeting some new people. It was a gorgeous night to sit in the hot tub especially with four other naked guys. It was almost breezy out! Just felt nice. Well I now know that the tub can accommodate a lot of people comfortably. A little wine, some interesting discussions. It’s all good. Thanks Chris, Dee, David, and Brian Williams!

Earlier I wrote Michael Aaron: “Brian and some of his friends are coming to skinny dip in the hot tub after 6:30 if you can make it.” He replied, “Damn. Afraid I have a screening tonight, though I may be able to sneak over beforehand if I can get this stuff done.”

I told him, “I'll leave the front porch light on and door unlocked...just come up and out the back if you can but since it is a school night I will probably shoo everyone away by 9.”

I contacted Zach Seach to let him know that Kyle was transferred to the Beaver jail. He asked: “why down there?” I answered: “It’s Better than to Tooele's new facility. Nonviolent offenders often get kick out of the Prison system to do their time in county facilities. The state pays the costs. When you are on your way to Southern Cal wave at the road crew one of them might be Kyle.”

Zach Seach laughed: “Bahahaha  I heard the new jail out here is quite nice actually lol.” I responded saying: Never having been incarcerated I wouldn't know about the accommodations.” 

Zach Seach replied, “ha-ha I haven’t been to the new one,” and I said, “I hope you don't have to but if you do then get a cute top cell mate.”

Zach Seach continued: “Oh I won’t ever have to go in again. Lol My probation is done next month. I've been doing really, really good.”

 

I said, “I am really happy to hear it Zach. I hope you do turn your life around. Why waste so much of it on stupid stuff. In a blink of an eye you will not have your youth. Don't waste it like Kyle has.” He responded, “I don’t plan on it.  I just had an implant put under my skin last Friday. Hence the stitches.”

I asked, “What does that do?” and he said “It's called naltrexone its FDA approved for blocking opiates attaching to the receptors in your body, and it cuts down on cravings. After I went to San Francisco I started cutting down off that med that looked like a Listerine strip. It took me till New Years to get off completely. It was like withdrawing for 2 months. So if you’re wondering why I haven’t been around that’s why. It was really tough.”

I wrote back, “I am sorry you have that monkey on your back... Kyle's was sex addiction...He was a hunter. He got his high from being a predator. He didn't care whether he was infected or infected others. I imagine he is having withdrawals or jacking off constantly. I knew you had issues you were battling. It’s okay. We all have our own.”

Zach Seach replied, “Yeah that’s true. Last Friday was a huge milestone for me. I'm really excited. Stitches suck, it feels like someone is constantly pinching the back of my arm. That’s where they put the implant. The good thing about it too, is that it lasts for 2 months, but costs 650 bucks.”

I said: Each milestone shows how far you have come. Ouch in your arm and Ouch in your pocket book. You will get back to a place where being normal feels normal.” He ended the conversation writing: Yeah tell me about it. But it’s better than having to take something every day to just feel normal. ya know. I can’t wait. Gotta love life. Later”.

             

26 January 2012 Thursday

I am so out of the loop...I did not know that John Griffin aka Nova Starr has left the state. People don't gossip like they used to. I miss it.

Michael Aaron  write: Sorry I didn't make it the other night. I was working up a web site for the gay wedding expo, and it is still not done. Stayed up till midnight that night. Ugh.” I replied, “We had a nice time and a perfect night. We will do it again soon but next week is parent conferences.”

 I then wrote to Brian Williams telling him that someone left a beige towel here. He responded : “Kids, can't take them anywhere. Lol. I know it wasn't Chris or me. I'll see if Dee or David say anything. I used to collect, and lose, towels when I hosted the nude parties...”

 

27 January 2012 Friday

I have been so busy snooping around in Kyle’s Byzantine world that I have really neglected my own journal. I took off today because I needed a break from the kids because next week is parent teacher’s conference and that makes for long nights.

I stayed up way too late last night until 1 in the morning but I got up about 7:30 to make breakfast and to get ready for Chevy to come over and groom the dogs. He came at 9:00 and worked until 12:30 on all three of them so I paid him $110 a little more than usually because the dogs probably took longer because they were so shaggy.

Other than that I just explored more on the computer and made some Spaghetti and Beef Stew. The Stew is for tomorrow when Bill Poore comes over.

It was a chilly day but a bright beautiful one.

Jami Fultz texted me and said she was all jazzed that Jim Dabakis commented on her FB page. I think She’s the  lone Democrat in Davis County. She texted me because she said I was the only one she knew that would appreciate it. LOL

She also sent me Kyle’s Beaver address and said that she thought he might be out in five months. Not sure how I feel about that yet. 

Well I met Amy Barry and her friend Anne at Stoneground across the street from the library for dinner. I had a eggplant Parmesan sandwich which was really tasty. The women had full dinner and some beers and their dinner together was $60 so I think the place is a little pricy for my taste.  

This was the first year that the Sundance Film festival used the Library as a venue and it was my very first experience for all the time I lived here. I knew it was going to be a Gay movie by all the Gay men that were standing in line.  Lots of 30 something men and younger. They made me think of Kyle. Truly I am of an entirely different generation.

The film was “Keep the Lights On” that followed the stormy relationship of two Gay men from 1996 to 2006. It was truly an independent film with scenes that should have been left on the cutting room floor and it moved at a slow pace but it was a compelling story of a man in love with another man who has a drug addiction. The sex scenes were almost as graphic as Kyle’s sex  tapes. In fact I was a little uncomfortable watching it with two women I don’t know all the well.

Anne is about my age and an aging hippy too.

It was after 11:30 by the time I got home and 1 again before I began to wind down.

Talk about a reality check. I put an ad on Craig’s List to hook up with someone. Nada not a response because of my age. Kyle puts one on and he has them coming out of the woodworks to get infected.

These are some Text Messages between Jami Fultz and Me.

Jami wrote-“Oh my gosh Jim Dabakis posted a comment on something I shared on FB! You may be the only person I know who would understand why I'm so excited!” I responded, “He really is a great guy. He passed on a half million dollar job offer in D.C. to stay in UT and work for $1.”

Jami: “I read your post about that. He's so awesome.”

I then said, “ BTW I wrote your brother. He doesn't want me to but I don't care. He can throw them away.” She then asked, “Do you have his new address & inmate #”. I said “ No I sent it to Draper before he moved but I am sure you can find the address for Beaver. I told him I am writing once a week to bug him.”

Jami; “Good! I ran into some family friends last week and they're going to write him too. I told him I don't care if he hates me because I think he needs all the support he can get. Offender number 56416 PO Box 391 Beaver 84713.”

I wrote: Thanks I'll write just to annoy him. Hope he is reflecting on past deeds rather then what business scam he can come up with next. If that boy would stop lying and work with his hands as well as his intellect he might turn his life around. He's young enough to make it happen.”

Jami responded: He may be out in just 5 more months! Not only do we need a miracle...we need it fast!”. I replied, “I bet they won't on the first parole hearing. Depends how much on the Kyle charm he can spread. That's a lot of his problem. Everyone wants to help him.”

Jami: “His matrix is 21 months & he says they should count the 13 he's already served. So I hope he does have to go  to the parole board before he's released.” I asked, “Is the matrix the amount of time he has to serve?” and she said yes so I said, “-He's not been in jail 13 months during his crime spree has he? Wow.”

She replied, “I guess. I don' know anything about previous sentences.” I wrote, “I don’t think he has. In Nov 2010 he was 3 weeks and earlier in the year before I met him another 3 weeks. He served 2 weeks in Jan 2009 and his boyfriend turned him in one time that year.”

Jami asked, “Does  his time on parole count toward the total? On another subject. Do you know of any research that lowering per pupil ratio results in better students?” I responded, “I think the studies are inclusive for upper graders but for lower grades I think there are. I will send links on FB.”

I then wrote to Charles Frost about  Kyle’s high price hooker. “Kyle paid $400 to have sex with this guy in 2009.”  Charles responded, “God. I am sure Kyle took that in his hole too. He lied about being a bottom. He loved getting fucked, and probably Bareback too.”

      The I wrote to this kid named Derek Hawkins who Kyle had to tried to get to come to Utah. I wrote: “You don't know me but my name is Ben Williams.  Kyle lived with me for over a year here in SLC.  He was living with me when you came to visit him last August.  He is in prison now here in Utah serving 1-15 years I have access to his computer is how I got your email address. I hope he has not done you too much damage. Sincerely Ben Williams’.” 

He wrote back, “Wow that’s crazy! I actually never visited Kyle.. I got a very bad vibe from him and decided against it. Why did he get sent to jail if you don't mind me asking? Derek.”

 

28 January 2012 Saturday

Woke up hearing a bang. I thought who the hell is shooting at the house? I get up look around, turn lights on, couldn't see anything but ready to call 911 but didn't hear anything else so went back to bed.

When I got up to fix breakfast I opened the refrigerator and a can of biscuits had blown its top and there was biscuit dough everywhere. That would have been hard to explain to a 911 dispatcher. You are old Father  Williams.

I cleaned the house today really good, polished dusted, vacuumed, patched the wall where the recliner had dug into it. Was a gorgeous day along the Wasatch Front but chilly.

I had Bill Poore the director come over and we watched The Making of the Boys which was a documentary of making of the Boys in the Band. I loved it and I think so did Bill. He said he knew much of the people they were talking about in the film and had dated the plays producer so he had fun.

             

29 January 2012 Sunday

I had a voice message call from my cousin Kay Johnson Campbell that my uncle JW passed away in his sleep last night. About a week ago he was admitted to the hospital with failing kidneys but he wanted to die at home and let nature take its course.

I tried calling Kay but her voice mail only picked up so I left a message. I will try later. I went to church with Chuck Whyte this morning and Curtis Price gave a good talk on authority and how anyone who claims that God told them to tell you want to do are full of crap.

I was going to have Charles Frost and Doug Lott over for hot tubbing but Charles had to work late so I guess he will come over tomorrow.

I had my truck registered to day and that was a bit of a chore because the rear mount break light was out and they wouldn’t pass it so I had to go hunt down the right kind of bulbs. All said and done it took nearly 3 hours to get the truck inspected and serviced but it’s a go now.

In the evening I found that I could get into Kyle’s Craig’s List Account. He set it up under a fake email address.  "mailto:utefanryan@yahoo.com" I was able to go in and change his password to Gayflower and look at all his postings.

Another shocker was that on July 5th he hosted a party at the Grand America, a 5 star hotel, for a sex romp. Guess who is paying for that.  He sure has a hang up of only having sex with under 30 years old “fit and toned”. He listed his own age as 27 in most of his ads. Hell he thought he was too old at 31!

Well I watched another episode of Downton Abby before heading to bed.

 

30 January 2012 Monday

I had a restless sleep. I was up and down with a nauseous stomach. So I’m a bit tired today. When I went into work, I heard that Jeny Petersen’s husband had a heart attack and is having open heart surgery this week. So she won’t be in and will have to cancel all her SEP conferences. I Feel really sorry for her.

I also called my cousin Kay about my uncle JW Johnson. She said he passed away peacefully in his sleep. What a blessing. He was 88.  I Told her how much I love her. She said all her kids are coming home for the funeral. He’s going to be cremated like Aunt Pauline was.

I had three conferences today but two was for the same kid whose parents are fighting so had to have separate conferences.

It was a lovely night with a crescent moon and Venus is so bright over head as Charles Frost and I soak our not so nubile bodies in the hot tub tonight after a delightful Chinese dinner that Charles brought over and a glass or two of Saki.

Charles made an interesting observation that as we grow older and some of us are still single maybe we need to set up communes to take care of each other. Something about a time sharing of talents. If anyone can make it happen it will be us baby boomers.

I wrote Kyle another letter. “Dear Kyle, The weather is gorgeous one day and crazy the next. Typical I suppose. I am glad that most of the snow is gone. Last Wednesday it was almost warm and breezy when I had a small hot tub party.

Brian Williams from the Naturalist club came over with three other guys. It was such a pleasant evening. They talked about having a work party this spring to come over and put slats over the top of the hot tub to finish it off. That would be great. Kind of keep it open in the spring and summer and cover it with canvas through Fall and Winter.  They said putting a lattice for privacy would work too.  I liked that idea.

 Chevy Bolinder came over to groom the dogs on Friday. They had gotten pretty wooly but they are all pretty now. Chevy took about 4 hours so I paid him a little extra.

Your sister Jami Fultz texted me all jazzed because Jim Dabakis made a comment on her Face Book page. She was so excited and said I would have been the only one to know how thrilled she was.

I think I told you that you that he was offered the Human Rights Coalition’s  national director position but turned it down to stay in Utah as the Democratic Chair.

I  went to see a Sundance Film last Friday. It’s the first time I had ever gone. The SLC Library was hosting for the first time, and the movie was “Leave the Lights On”.  I had no Idea what it was about since I had been invited but when I saw the throng of Gay guys in line I knew it must be pretty good and it was.

Sunday I went and had the truck serviced and inspected for its registration. The only thing that didn’t pass was the rear mount break lights. They had burned out and because they were a special type of bulb I had to go search for them.  But it’s registered now and good for another year.

Chuck Whyte and I went to First Baptists before I had the truck serviced. Curtis is growing a beard and it looks good on him. I met this young guy named Drew who was attending for the first time. I Told him I was a “visiting member” too.

Zach Seach told me he had an anti-opiate drug stitched into his arm. I saw the stitches. He said it releases the medicine for 2 months instead of popping pills every day. I told him I hope he can get over it. He’s off probation I guess this month.

I’m Not sure what else is news. The Republicans are eating each other up and that’s good but when it’s all over it will be a love fest except for Newt. He’s after Mitt because he’s bitter.

Well you probably won’t read this letter either so I will close for now. Affectionately Ben

 

31 January 2012 Tuesday

It’s the end of the month and we are well into the new year now. I had parent teacher’s conferences until 7:30 tonight so Michael Romero had to feed the dogs. Newt Gingrich lost the Florida primary to “Shitt Romney”.

Tony Hobson from the Q offered me tickets to go see “The Wanted” at the Venue on Thursday but I had no idea who they were, not that would I have wanted to see them anyway so I offered the tickets to Marty Alder and his roommate Brady Arnold. I am sure they will enjoy them much more than I would.

February

1 February 2012 Wednesday

It was another long day at school but not as long as yesterday because I was home by 7:00.

Deb Rosenberg called me and wanted to know if I had a room for her to rent because she and Carla are divorcing. I said I would know after Marty’s friend decides to move in or not. I don’t really think he will.

What is knew with me? Not much. I am still chronologizing Kyle’s sordid life. It’s kind of fascinating in a perverted kind of way. I guess it tells a lot about me I suppose.

This is Justice in Utah- Matthew Dahl, the former executive director of Salt Lake City’s ‘This Is The Place Heritage Park’ was sentenced only to six months in a federal prison, for stealing $321,608 funds from the park. Prosecutors asked U.S. District Court Judge Dee Benson to give him a Mormon pass, and to sentence him to 27 to 33 months in prison. But Benson only gave him 6 months.

 A judge gave Kyle Foote who stole $300,000 1-15 and worse of all the environmental activist Tim DeChristopher got 2 years from Benson and he never stole anything.

I sent Faye Romero, who I still think of as a mother in law some flowers that should arrive tomorrow. It’s her birthday month and wanted to get her some in case I forget.

 

2 February 2012 Thursday

Charles Frost and Doug Lott had to put their little dog Deacon down today. They are in mourning as you can expect.  Marty Alder and Brady Arnold went to the concert at the Venue by a British group called The Wanted that I got ticket from the Q. I never heard of them but I suppose I wouldn’t.

Deb Rosenberg called asking about moving into the downstairs bedroom if Marty’s friend doesn’t take it. I don’t think he will because I haven’t heard anything from him. Carla and Deb are divorcing and are having to separate all their assets.  What a mess. I Feel for them I really do.  Well I know for a fact that nothing lasts forever.

 

3 February 2012 Friday

I had this couple I met on “Manhunt” come over to use the hot tub and fool around. They were close to my age and had an interesting back-story. They had been together for about four years but don’t live together because they are both still married but their wives are invalids. They only play together. Russ and Mike was their names and Mike still wore his Mormon Garments. It had been ages since I ever was with a man who wore Mormon garments to a sex date. Ages.

Mike was a great kisser and it was a fun diversion. Maybe I am seeking validation again since Kyle Foote made me feel so undesirable with his hang up about age and weight.

I wrote Jami Fultz: “I sent home with Morgan a Wells Fargo bank statement that Kyle had in his computer. It’s dated Oct 2011. If these account numbers and I don't know whether this is real or bogus because he was forging things towards the end. Just thought you should be aware of as power of atty hope you are well.”

 

4 February 2012 Saturday

These are the bills paid today. I paid Citibank $150 for Kyle’s loan. I still owe $3500. My Lowes account is now down to $2,667.48 with a payment due March 5. I owe about $686 on the Refrigerator still.

 

5 February 2012 Sunday

I went with Chuck to church again at the First Baptist but said I could not stay because I had this hot tub date with this guy named Chris from North Salt Lake.  He was a nice enough guy but a dud in bed and finally I told him this wasn’t working for me and asked him to leave. I think he was attracted to me but there was just no spark and also he smoked.

I Spent much of the rest of the day going over Kyle Foote’s files and in the evening I watched Downton Abby.

I was on Silver Daddies this afternoon and chatted with a young guy named Max Harris or at least he said that was his name who contacted me. 

I wrote him:  So you like older guys?  I usually don't do young guys. How old are you again?” He said he was 19 that shocked me. He then asked, “So we gonna meet??” I was really suspicious and asked, “Do you play for fun or for money? And yes I think it would be fun to have a young cock up my ass.” What an old perv I am.

 

6 February 2012 Monday

This morning I called Kendall Holt, Kyle’s former probation officer, and he texted me back saying that I need to call the Salt Lake City police to report identity theft.

Jeny Petersen my co-worker is still out all this week.

Kyle Foote generously donated hundreds of dollars to Equality Utah, The Pride Center, and the Utah Stonewall Democrats with my stolen credit cards. I wonder if I can take them off as donations even if the donations were in his name? It is tax season you know.

It’s Strange how a master manipulator's mind works. I Just discovered that all the articles posted in the Q by Kyle Foote on LGBT mental health issues were a fraud. He paid a woman Patricia Kettle to ghost write them for $146 from part of the money he stole from me. I Should have known he wasn't that good of a writer ha! I definitely need to write that book.

I Think I should get Michael Aaron to write a serial in my Lambda Lore Column on Kyle Foote's maniacal desire to manipulate and control.

I tried looking up the police number to file a report on Kyle but because their site was hacked their web page is down! Reprieve for Kyle for a couple of days ha!

This is what I wrote to Kendall Holt about Kyle: “Hello, my name is Ben Williams and I believe you were Kyle's probation officer while he lived at my home 2010-2011. I understand he is now incarcerated in the Beaver County jail. I have information about identity theft that Kyle committed while living with me. Do you know what agency I should report that information to? It is in regards to opening an American Express Card under false information and the use of a Chase Bank Card.

He fraudulently put $20,000 on those cards to build a web site business called WKF Productions LLC dba as Orgy.com.  Thank you. Regards "Ben" Edgar Williams”

I then wrote Charles Frost: “I just found out that Kyle paid this woman to be a ghost writer for all his LGBT Mental Health issues articles that he sent to the Q Salt Lake. He never wrote any of them. He paid her $146 through PayPal as part of the money he stole from me. It gets even more bizarre doesn't it. I can't get the documents I need emailed to me at this address. It’s in his orgy.com mail file. I need help copying the documents for also building an identity fraud case against him. God was anything about him real?”

Charles wrote back: None whatsoever. All lies. I always found his articles very odd, voice wise. Have you contacted the woman? Build this case Ben. Call the parole officer, they will know what and who and when! So sorry he abused you so horribly.”

I replied “I contacted his probation officer. He said I have to report it to the police.”

The Kyle’s charity case David Van Patten wrote me: “All I know is the more I hear the more unbelievable it gets, stealing credit cards to make donation to places like the Pride Center, very strange, sounds to me like he wanted to put himself on a pedestal in the glbt world and thought he was too smart to get caught or was completely out of touch with reality.”

Randy Gile wrote: “Ben I will be back in town on Monday evening. I will get with you and we can move forward on Kyle. I was informed my Private Investigator friend that Kyle is looking at 6-15 years on what he has done so far so.  Let’s try to add a few more to it. Talk to you when I get back.”

             

7 February 2012 Tuesday

Mike Romero came over today to look at the printer I recovered and get me set up. We managed to get the printer to print from my computer but not from the Apple laptop. Ugh! Frustrating.

I fixed a roast, mashed potatoes, and corn for dinner for Mike coming over to look at it. The printer is a HP Office jet pro 8500 model that Kyle paid $406 for on my credit card.

I thought I was going to have a gentleman caller from Manhunt coming over this evening to Hot Tub but he flaked out on me at the last minute. Oh well.

 

8 February 2012 Wednesday

It’s a week into February already. Let me see what I want to remember about today. Jami Fultz finally brought Kyle’s iPhone over to me at school but it’s locked with a password so I doubt whether I will ever be able to unlock it and discover the mysteries on it.

While we were visiting Jami said she is going to write Kyle and tell him that I have all of his things and said I could do what I want with them. She wants him to come out of prison with nothing but the clothes on his back. I told her he will be furious. 

I asked her towards the end of our conversation, right as kids were coming back from PE, if she ever thought Kyle had been molested as a boy. She thinks he had been but has no proof that his brother Kris might have molested him. But we ran out of time to speak further of it.

I was tired most of the day from going to bed too late last night, sending stuff from Kyle’s Hotmail account over to my computer’s email. I still can’t get his Orgy.com email account to transfer.  That is where most of the criminal documents are located.

I told Kyle’s sister that his computer is like a window into his psyche.  I made her laugh when she said that her husband and she never go into debt and I said neither did Kyle!

I told my principal Liz Beck today that I would work Summer School this year. In all the years I taught I never worked during the summer but Kyle has done this to me. I will only work from 9 to  noon and I get paid my full hours so hopefully I’ll make enough to pay off some of the other bills.

 

9 February 2012 Thursday

I got into Kyle’s iPhone finally last night and deleted his lock on it by figuring out his pass word. There really was nothing exciting on it but all his whore numbers and massage numbers.

It was misty rainy all day and the kids were pretty hyper.

In the evening I had a trick come over but he really missed represented himself. He weighed at least 350 pounds! Well that’s what you get when you aren’t young and handsome like Kyle.

Michael Archuleta, who spent 23 years in prison for the brutal killing of Gordon Church over the Thanksgiving break in 1988, is scheduled to be executed April 5 by firing squad. One of the most vicious murders of a Gay man in the United States and it was kept quiet because in 1988 Church being Gay was as shameful as his murder.

 

10 February 2012 Friday

Not much to write about except that I did put $25.00 in Kyle Foote’s commissary account. I don’t know what made me want to do that but I did. Confused and obsessed with life... too much Mama Bear in me... too much introspection...need to get grounded in the physical world and get out of my head but alas I am still hibernating till spring. So don’t bother me I'm obsessing.

I spent the evening watching Hulu TV and trying to get someone to come over  to give me a massage but nothing was clicking.

 

11 February 2012 Saturday

I’ve been horny lately, needing my scratch itched. Even been trying to pay for a massage but I finally texted this black kid who has been after me on Manhunt. Way too young for me but since he had been pursuing me and me not him, I decided that why not give him a try. He turned out to be perfectly delightful even if young.

His name was Max Harris, age 19, and still living with his parents on C St and 10th Avenue. He said he was a college student and a freshman up at the U of U. We went into the hot tub and started making out. He was a sweet kisser and his boner was unbelievable. I didn’t think I’d be able to do anything with it.

He wanted to bed me so we went downstairs to lay on the bed Kyle had so many of his adventures and we made sweet-sweet love.

After taking him home I dropped by Chuck Whyte’s and took him out to lunch but that wasn't my afternoon delight. We went to Wingers where a hottie waiter served us.

 In the evening Bill Poore came over to watch Lion In Winter. In the middle of it Richard Seltra and his boyfriend Zach came by to look at the basement to rent. They are looking around so they said they’d get back to me. I really didn’t want to rent to two people but it’s just temporary.

This cute kid named Joshua Jones wrote me today “Hello Ben, I was telling Seth Bracken yesterday that your column is my favorite part of the paper. I can't imagine the amount of work and research it takes for each piece. I look forward to meeting you at some point. All The Best, Josh”

Then Troy Williams sent me a message on Face book wanting some information. I called Charles Frost up and said I’m not helping him at all for being such a turd to him.

Troy wrote: “Hey Ben, how are you doing? I've been asked by Salt Lake Magazine to write a short article on how awesome gay SLC is these days. I've been doing lots of research, including your writings, as well as Rocky O’Donovan & Michael Quinn. I am kind of in awe of all that you guys have recorded. And it's helps provide an essential context that so many of us lack. I had forgotten that Dallin Oaks authorized stake-outs at gay bars to catch BYU students!

Anyway, I'd like to quote you in my piece. Would you mind writing a few sentences describing SLC's first gay pride? I'd like it from your first person perspective. What did it feel like, was it scary, empowering, hopeful?

And finally, what are your thoughts about the future relationship between the LDS and LGBT community? Do you see progress? Do you think the Church is trying to placate the gays by meeting with us -- or do you see it as genuine outreach?

Any thoughts would be appreciated. I hope to see Lambda Lore have its own website soon. The information you have pulled together is a must reading for everyone. Thanks for all you do for us! Best, Troy.”

In the news singer Whitney Houston died today of an overdose.

 

12 February 2012 Sunday

It was a very rainy day with a little sleet but no real snow. Today is my ex-wife Fran’s 67th birthday. Wow.

I called Chuck this morning to go out to breakfast. We haven’t gone to CJ’s in so long so we went there on 39th South and it was rainy most of the time. Afterwards I came home and worked on my taxes for most the afternoon. I should be getting about $1,600 back between the state and feds. That will go to pay off American Express. Otherwise I didn’t do much else.

I made some chicken soup because it is soup weather for sure. I guess Amy Barry and Greg Harden are going to come over next Friday for movie night!

I met a few people on Manhunt, Silver Daddies, and Daddy Hunt today but didn’t have anyone coming over. But at least I am feeling sexual again and feeling like there are people out there that still think I am sexy. Kyle Foote made me feel like it was all over for me because he surrounded himself  with twinks and young people who felt threatened by my age like it was a disease that was catching.

I Watched Downton Abby which I love.

 

13 February 2012 Monday

I must be over my depression because I do have my libido flowing again. I am on three dating sites- Manhunt, Daddy Hunt, and Silver Daddies and I have been getting a lot of attention from them lately.

I have a date Wednesday with this guy named Gary from Kearns, and on Thursday I am having another play date with Max Harris who wants to bring his “boyfriend” over as well. That should be interesting.

I mailed Kyle another letter today. I wonder whether he bothers reading them or not.  I sent him an article from the Tribune on Charles Frost’s show opening this weekend. I also threw in a zinger that I have been in communication with Stephen Schroeck from Rochester New York his old boyfriend. That should get him to thinking.

In the evening Michael Aaron texted me and we set a time together  on Friday  to go over Kyle’s computer to retrieve documents.

I went to bed by 10 tonight. I wanted to get to bed earlier. I need more sleep.

This is the letter I wrote Kyle Foote.

“Dear Kyle,  Just a quick note. Hope you are well.  It’s been raining up here but no snow so glad for that.  I made some chicken soup but you know I have not made any Chili Verde since you left.

There’s Not a whole lot of news. Your friend Dallin Garber is going in for surgery on his cornea he had implanted as a baby. I guess it has deteriorated and he will have to have surgery on it this Wednesday. I know he is worried about it.

Charles’ show begins next week. I am including an article on him from the Tribune. I don’t know if you have access to it in Beaver.

Curtis Price was in the news but it was just about giving a prayer at the State Legislature.

I had Bill Poore over last Saturday to watch “Lion in Winter” in the movie room. It was fun seeing it on the big screen again. Bill was regaling me with stories about meeting Katherine Hepburn while he was a director in New York City.

This Friday Greg Hardin, Amy Barry and Bill are coming over to watch some movie Amy picked out.

I had some people come by to look at the bedroom for rent. But they were a couple and I am not sure I want to rent to a couple.  But I am pretty sure I am going to rent it.

I Did my taxes Sunday and think I will have enough to pay off the rest of American Express. So that card is done. Yay!  It had a pretty high interest and you were paying for that stupid protection that was adding $85 to the bill for nothing.

I haven’t heard from Marty Alder in a long time. I guess he has moved on so good for him. I said he could use the truck in the summer to move. We will see.

I guess the biggest surprise was hearing from Stephen Schroeck. He got a notice that you were transferred from prison to jail and he contacted the Q who gave him my email address. All I can say is Kyle, Kyle, Kyle, Really?

Well he did say he thought you were a good guy to do the Judge Joe Brown show to help him recover his money. “Power connect”? Really?  I guess this is a different Valentine’s Day then the one you spent in 2010 in Rochester.

Well I will close for now.  I put $25 in your commissary account last Friday. I don’t know whether they told you or not.

I don’t care if you hate me. Use it to buy books or newspapers. You must not come out of prison the same person that put you there.

That would be the real crime. Ben

 

14 February 2012 Tuesday

It’s Valentine’s Day for the kids and the day was hectic as usual. Tomorrow I am getting a new kid.  I Cannot complain. I only have 21 now.

At home I bought tickets for Charles Frost’s play for this Sunday. I am going with Bill Poore so I am going to have a busy week.

Gary is coming over tomorrow at 6 in the evening and Thursday Max Harris wants to come back over and bring a friend. On Friday Amy Barry  and Greg Hardin are coming over to watch a movie. Saturday is about the only day I haven’t scheduled anything yet.

Things to do. I got to write a nomination for Charles Frost before the 2nd.  Friday I am also meeting with Michael Aaron.

It was a pretty day.

OMG I discovered that Kyle while he lead the charge against the Sugar House Chick-Fil-A, he actually had applied for a franchise in Jan 2010! Too funny! He wrote "I would like to become a Chick-fil-A operator for many reasons, primarily because I like and believe in Chick-fil-A’s food and values and I am confident I would be a successful owner / operator. I am an entrepreneur and have a strong desire to be in the food service industry... I have the education, experience, ambition and drive to run a successful Chick-fil-A, and if given the opportunity, I would hope to open several Chick-fil-A franchises within my region / territory."

It’s like reading the "Secret Life of Walter Mitty"! I've got to write me a book.

I received my American Express statement and I owe $1,830 more on it. I thought it was $1500 but oh well I will get it down.  I made a $86 payment to Sears for the Refrigerator.

           

15 February 2012  Wednesday.

This morning Jami Fultz sent me this text message saying “Just talked with Kyle. He has blocked your letters and has requested a no contact order. But he got money in his account yesterday which must be from you. Thank you on both of our behalf’s. You are generous to a fault.”

I wrote back “ Well it’s his decision I suppose. I hope he is going to try and make a turnaround in his life. Thanks for the info.”

I am not sure how to process this. It’s not the first time Kyle blocked me from his life. This one doesn’t break my heart.

In the evening I had this guy named Gary come over to hot tub. He’s in his mid-fifties and is a custodian in the Granite school district but lives in Eagle Mountain of all places. We relaxed in the hot tub and made out a little but I could tell this wasn’t going anywhere so about 7 said I had papers to grade and he left.

 

16 February 2012 Thursday

Today my reality has shifted.

I wrote Jami Fultz, “Did you tell him yet I have all his things?” She answered, “No…but he will be getting my letter about that soon. He said he has a “friend” sending him a couple of magazine subscriptions. Wonder who he is using now?” I said, “Someone he has charmed for sure lol. It’s not me.”

Jami wrote: “I’m sorry he’ lashing out at you. In my letter I told him his idea that he needs to distance himself from you so you both can heal was a bunch of garbage. Well I know he’s working the 12 steps when he apologizes to you.”          

I said: “I actually think my letters were perhaps painful reminders of all he has lost through his selfish disregard for the concerns of people who trusted and cared for him. Tomorrow I am meeting with someone to help get documents off his computer. On Saturday I am meeting with my detective friend to help me prepare to file identity theft charges against Kyle. You are right that he should answer to the consequences of his thievery.”

Jami responded: “Ben I am glad you’re charging him. Let me know if I can help. He needs to be in jail as long as possible.” I replied, “Sad but true. He’s never had to face up to the consequences of his actions beyond  just public humiliation.”

She then wrote: “I’ve enrolled him in the Jami Fultz Book Club. Every two weeks I will send him a self-help book. Any bets on how long it will take him to accept that he needs to change his life? The odds aren’t very good.”

I wrote back: “Kyle has a very strange view of the universe. In 2010 he was trying to get a franchise from Chick fil A  and last November he was a leading a public protest against them.” Jami remarked: “I guess they turned down his franchise application?” and I said, “I doubt they even considered it. Lol It was full of BS. He claimed to have a MBA in business and was experienced in running a restaurant. Lol.

I wonder if Kyle has dissociated identity disorder from some traumatic childhood experience. It’s like he’s truly different personalities. I had a friend years ago that had that medical condition. He would revert to an “Eddie” character that was not known to his other personality. Kyle used an alternative identity “Ryan Jacob” who he would send texts to but they were the same person. Odd.”

Jami wrote: “And wanted a Chick fil A? At least someone was realistic about themselves. I highlighted a paragraph from a Trib story about Fraud College I’m going to send him. Very interesting! [dissociate disorder] I’ll run that by Steve.”

I said: “I saw that article too, but why I am filing charges against Kyle now is that he has crossed over from just fraud to identity thief. He used to just talk people out of their money but now he’s actually stealing. I am afraid he will do that over convincing people to loan him money.” Jami then wrote: “I wish part of his punishment was having a T for thief tattooed on his face!” but I replied, “His cute face is what gets him in trouble lol.” Then she said: “Ain’t that the truth! Perhaps he should have his vocal chords paralyzed too.” And I ended the conversation saying: “He’d just learn to sign ha! He isn’t dumb.”

             

17 February 2012 Friday

This morning I went shopping for a VCR/DVD player to replace the one in the bedroom, an electric toaster oven, and a new shower hose. Things do wear out. I spent about $200 on it and groceries also. I thought this is the first really big money I’ve spent on myself in six months. Everything I had before was spent on Kyle Foote. At in the afternoon I went to the Q’s office in Sugarhouse. While waiting for Michael Aaron to return from lunch I visited with the new sales rep, Josh Jones.

I had a lovely time with Amy Barry and Greg “Tracie Aviary” Hardin last night. We ate pizza, and we noshed on salsa and chips I even made my extremely difficult Blueberry Yogurt Pie. We dished on Kyle some, watched Sordid Lives the series, and then Peter Greenaway's sumptuous Masterpiece “The Thief the Cook, his Wife and her Lover” a metaphor of Margaret Thatcher's United Kingdom and a warning what will happen if we let the wealthy let thugs run the government. Poor Amy being a vegetarian, some of the rotting meat scenes must have been off putting.

 

18 February 2012 Saturday

It was really quite a nice day today. I cleaned house and did some laundry but that’s about all until the evening. I called my masseuse I generally go to and got an appointment in West Valley for 8. I needed some stress relief and he provided it for sure.

Oh I did write a column for the Q today on swindlers in the Gay community. I wrote about Terry Cunard, Randy Richardson, and a bit about Kyle Foote. I called it A Cautionary Tale. Now that I know I have fans out there I better not disappoint them.

 

19 February 2012 Sunday

It’s strange weather again. Yesterday it was a pretty day in the 40's but this morning I woke up to a three inch blanket of snow all over the ground and deck. It’s going to be a busy day.

I’m grateful that I have a warm cozy home. I am grateful that I have Daisy and Buddy who love me. I am grateful to have a meaningful career that pays my bills. I am grateful that people read my columns and tell me they find them interesting. I am grateful for friends that supported me when I was insane with heartbreak.

I read today about this idiot sheriff in Arizona, who was Romney’s co-chair man for Arizona. Sheriff Paul Babeu resigned after reports surfaced that he tried to have his cute Mexican boyfriend deported. How sick are Republicans? I think Republicanism should be a new pathology in the American Psychiatric handbook because these people are CRAZY!

My goodness if you are running for Congress as a Conservative Republican from Arizona don't you think you should delete your Adam4Adam hook up site first? “Studboi1”! Indeed. I wonder if Romney found him as co-chairman for his AZ campaign on Manhunt! Hahahaha “Straight Acting” my great Aunt! What's hiding in your closet?

I put a pot roast on before heading over to pick up Chuck Whyte for Sunday Services at the First Baptists. Curtis Price gave a sermon on Christ’s transformation on the mountain and said we need to bring the gifts and experiences of our own transcendental experiences and apply them in ever day life.

After church came back to the house and started fixing dinner and Bill Poore came over to join us. However as we sat down for dinner Chuck suddenly got sick. He couldn’t eat, had the chills, and was nauseous. I had him lie down and covered him in blankets but wasn’t getting better.

He so wanted to join us for the play tonight but we all felt it was better if I took him home and put him to bed in his own place.

So Bill Poore and I visited all afternoon long. He telling me stories of people he knew in the entertainment business. He told how Kevin Spacey use to come over and fuck this cute porn model he knew and other tales.

In the evening we went to the Salt Lake Acting company early to get a good seat and to see if Chuck’s ticket could be resold. They said they probably could. We sat in the front seat so we could be as close to Charles Frost’s character Dottie as we could.

 When the fabulous Dottie Dixon came out to do her little interaction with the audience, she came over to Bill and he kissed her hand!. The place appeared to be sold out and the Gay Hotspot’s bunch was there in droves.

Earlier in the week Charles did a show as a fundraiser for the Unitarians and raised $10,000 for them.

The play was really different than I expected. Some real heart stirring moments. After the play, Bill was tired and he left, so I went to the Gay Hot Spots’ “greet and meet” where I introduced myself to Daniel Ogden and his cute friend Mitch. I finally met Fernando Noriega too. They are such children. I forgive them all any slight I had previously felt. Of course they only knew me through Kyle Foote's filter.

Daniel said he wanted to talk to me some more about Kyle later. I gave them both hugs and kissed Charles goodbye. At home I watched the last  bit of Downton Abby and then wrote on face book before going to bed.

“That damn Charles Lynn Frost made me cry tonight. If you have not bought a ticket for Dottie Dixon's latest and greatest performance get your tickets now. My director friend Bill Poore said this show was a good or better than anything he has seen in California or New York and said Dottie would wow people on a national tour and we have this treasure in our own back yard. Such a power play for "positive change"

Brandon Burt wrote I'm writing my review for City Weekly as we speak, Ben, and I agree: "The Sister Lives On" made me laugh until tears streamed out of my eyes -- then it just made tears stream out of my eyes. It is such a well-crafted show. And Frost has such a big heart and such love for the community and for his mother, it just felt like a huge hug. I felt at some points that Dottie was speaking directly to me. ♥”

I wrote Michael Aaron regarding the Sheriff of Pinal County Arizona; “You would think I better take down all my Adam 4 Adam accounts before running for Congress as a conservative don't you think? How “straight acting” is he when he's down on his knees as Romanovski and Phillips once sang!”

Michael Aaron wrote back: Hee-hee - I've been fascinated by this story. I think I've read all of the 8,873 Google search results, lol.”

I replied: “You just think he's hot.”

 

20 February 2012 Monday

I was off today because of President’s day and I really didn’t do much but hang around the house. I called Chuck Whyte a few times to see how he was doing with his stomach flu and about 1 in the afternoon, Randy Gile came over to talk about Kyle Foote. The gist of it, after looking through all my copies, is that since I reversed all the charges and accepted the debt on those two cards it would be Kyle’s word against mine that I hadn’t authorized him to use them. He said identity theft would be hard to prove unless I can find him using my social security number and pretending to be me.

Even though he pretended to be me, I can’t really prove it since I agreed the debts were mine. Randy also said that Kyle is looking at 6-15 years and at the most he might get an additional 6 months and I would be tied to him for at least 2 years with the investigation and perhaps trial. Even then Randy said I would come across looking like a fool which in fact I was. But I was in love. Love is a type of mental illness. Like the song said from Chorus Line What I did for love.

In the evening Charles Frost came over and brought some yummy Chinese food and more Momo Kawa sake. After eating, we soaked in the hot tub until nearly 8 pm. He really needed to relax and the jets were great on his back. He said was stiff from all the running around he has to do for his one man play.

We discussed so much and one of the main things we talked about was me doing a once a month Gay History class for SAGE at the Pride Center. I’d rather go through him then Valarie Larabee.

A little gossip he said he was so pissed at Fernando Noriega of the Gay Hot Spot because he took pictures during the performance which was illegal and Charles reamed him for it after the show. I wrote up a nomination for him for the Kristen Ries Award today also.

This morning I had written to Charles, “Dear friend, Bill Poore just raved about you. Thought your performance was riveting. You have a new fan. Only concern he said as a director was the stage. He thought your director had you do too much physical work. I am not a director but I agreed. What a work out! How you do it? It would just about kill me. You could have been sitting on a bar stool all night and you would have had them eating out of your hands. I would have clapped louder but I had a cupcake in my hand by the way DEEEEELISCIOUS!

Bill wanted to meet you but he knew you would be exhausted and he also wanted to get home to see the ending of Downton Abby!  Chuck got really sick at my house and we took him home and put him to bed. I think the box office said they could sell his ticket. I hope they did. The house looked full to me.

After the show I introduced myself to Daniel Ogden and his cute friend Mitch. Finally met Fernando too. They are such children; I forgive them all any slight I had previously felt. Of course they only knew me through Kyle's filter.   Please come over this afternoon for a soak and unwind. I still have sake and beer and food from yesterday. I am working on your nomination today since I am off.  Rest, rest, rest cupcake. Love you.”

 

21 February 2012 Tuesday

I’m back to school after a busy weekend. I was a little run down all day so I am going to bed early.

            I wrote to Jon Jepsen my nomination of Charles Frost for the Kristen Ries Award this year. “Dear Jon, Maybe its senility sitting in but the nomination email you sent out said the length of the nomination must be a minimum of 100 words but on the web site it says 100 words or less! I sent in a nomination on the web site but it’s a tad longer than 100 words like 575.

I nominated Charles Lynn Frost but I would not like his nomination to be invalid because of a misunderstanding of the requirement. I certain can shorten it to 100 words but I thought the point of the nomination was to inform the voters of the reasons for the nomination. Here is my nomination if the web site kicks it out.   Thanks ever so much for all you do. Ben Williams”

“Honored Recipients, I would like to nominate Utah native Charles Lynn Frost for the 2012 Dr. Kristen Ries Community Service Award. Charles is probably better known by some as Dottie Dixon, the consummate “Mormon Mother of a Gay son”. Frost developed this character to not only entertain but to be a meaningful bridge between the LGBT community and the various cultures of Utah. His instincts and insights has truly helped gap a chasm between religious communities and LGBT people and their families.

Rather than perpetuating a stereotype, Charles, through his art, has allowed people to reach out, come together, and embrace our common humanity and as he says be a “powerful positive change”.

Besides the numerous accolades Charles has received for his vocation as an actor, his character Dottie Dixon has been previously recognized in the LGBT community as The Salt Lake Q’s 2011 person of the year and in 2010 served as the Grand Marshall of the Pride Parade.

However for the countless hours Charles Frost has given to the community, LGBT, and other progressive causes, I feel he, the man, not the character is worthy of the honor of being the recipient of this year’s award.

Charles has given selflessly of his time and talents serving on various community boards. At the Pride Center alone he has served as President of the Board, as well as being a board member and on an advisory board. He’s served on the board of Equality Utah as well.

Charles’ life is dedicated to raising political and social consciousness as well as funds in this state for LGBT and social justice causes. Only recently he held a benefit for the Unitarian Church where they raised $10,000.

In the past two years Charles raised $40,000 for the OUTreach Ogden, LGBT Youth Community Resource Center by hosting holiday shows and VIP events as Dottie Dixon. This year alone, he, as Dottie Dixon, has made appearances for festivals, fundraisers and drives for Moab's 1st Pride Day, the Human Rights Coalition’s Gala Fundraising Dinner, the Salt Lake Men’s Choir, the Youth Empowerment Summit, the First Pink Dot Event, and the Women’s Red Rock Music Festival in Torrey.

Outside of the LGBT community he has been a fundraiser for the Utah Fair Housing Coalition, the Utah Humane Society the Unitarian Church., and many other charities. His appearances on X96’s Radio From Hell and KRCL 91 FM, promoting numerous LGBT issues, events, and fundraisers, has been a positive connection beyond our own community as well.

Charles is dedicated to the growth of LGBT community in healthy meaningful ways. He gives advice and wisdom to young entrepreneurs to help start fledgling enterprises and he has joined the Pride Center team as director of SAGE to seek better ways to serve our aging seniors.

Married to longtime partner Doug Lott in New York on September 14, Charles is certainly a role model for our community.

I feel that Charles, by channeling the good that resides in the basic nature of Utah people, has managed to engage many LGBT people and their allies [and a few of our opponents] to come together to find common ground on which to better the lives of not only the LGBT community but the larger Utah community in general.

Charles Lynn Frost embodies the type of people for which the Dr. Kristen Ries Community Service Award was originally created to honor. Therefore I am greatly honored to nominate him for your consideration.”

Jon Jepsen wrote back: “Thank you, Ben.  We need a few senile gays out there to keep us in check.  Actually, I didn’t catch what you did, so I thank you (looks like I’m the senile one).  I will actually try to get that corrected; I personally think more than 100 words is definitely called for. I sincerely appreciate your nomination of Charles Lynn Frost.  Recently, I’ve been thinking of who I would nominate, if anyone, and he is the first that came to mind.  I thank you. Yours truly, Jon  Jepsen”

Charles Frost wrote me: Dear Ben, Again, thank you for this honor and nomination. Your words (in the nomination) touched me deeply. Such a dear man you are, and I am so honored to have you as a friend. I told Danielle, my boss at Utah Pride Center today about your HISTORICAL RETROSPECTIVE series. She was SOOO stoked and excited too. We are going to promote it big time. Much love, and thank you for your hot tub, hosting, conversation, and mostly your friendship last night. I slept like a baby! Literally. Didn't awaken until 8:30AM! 11 hours. Whew, can't remember the last time that happened. XXOO  Charles”

I wrote Charles back: You're welcome cupcakes...luv ya.”

 

22 February 2012  Wednesday

Fifth grade teacher Mrs. Petersen came back to work today.  Really not much to write about. It was an over cast day. One of those days I have nothing to write about in my journal. How boring.

Martin Alder commented: “More like how refreshing!”

 

23 February 2012 Thursday

At the 5th grade Symphony listening Petrouschka by Stravinsky, I wanted to bitch slap the teacher from another school who kept letting two girls play with their iPhone.  We ran late getting to Abravanel Hall but we were the first back on the bus! Sweet!

 

 

24  February 2012 Friday

I had this guy name Dave come over this evening to hot tub and fool around. It was not one of my better romps. He came over about 7 and the first thing he said to me after coming into the house was “I’m a bit nervous and might not get hard. Do you have some Viagra?”

Well that put me right off. But in the hot tub he didn’t seem to have any trouble getting a raging stiffy. He seemed like he was hot to trot but back in the boudoir he was a dud. He was too nervous to do anything but jack off and then he couldn’t come. So I sent him home by 8:00 saying I was going out to meet friends.

I met him off of Daddy Hunt. I swear I am giving up sex for Lent.

 

25 February 2012 Saturday

The wind is whipping around this morning like a herd of lying Republican Presidential candidate blowhards. In Utah we know we have to always be on guard against the theocracy; but America wake up to the Catholic Theocracy! Five conservative Catholics on the Supreme Court has almost destroyed Democracy with their anti-American Citizen United Ruling.

 Now Newt Gingrich and Rick Santorum both Catholics would destroy the rights of women and Gays! When Catholics can beat back Obama's fair and just health care for women it’s time to question the role of Corporate Religion in America!

This morning when I tried to open my Journal from 2011 I was told by the program that word was unable to read the disk and that it might be corrupted. It scared me to death after all the hours and hours I put into writing it. 

So I wrote on Face book- “Plea for Help. I have a Word 7 Document that will not open. A sign pops up Microsoft Office Word Security Notice- Security Alert Office File Validation. It’s a 350 page document and I was working in it just last week. Any suggestions how to get it to open. I am desperate! It’s all my journal entries from 2011 and would hate to lose it. Ugh!”

I had Andy Dalrymple, Jon Schild, and my cousin Chris Johnson respond back with suggestions. The one that worked the best was to open the document in Word Pad. That helped the most but I had to spend most of the day going through it all and deleting the gobblely gook that was keeping it from being recognized on Microsoft Word 7.

 Banshee winds howled for most of the morning. Chuck Whyte called and said power was out at his place. In the afternoon I took him shopping and them to the house for some Spaghetti, hot tubbing and watching a movie.

In the hot tub the wind kept whipping the privacy curtains tail-ends into the water which then which would catch the icy north wind and spray us with cold drops of water. I could only a take it for a bit but Chuck stayed in for a long time. I think it helps his leg that he almost lost 2 years ago. It still doesn’t look good to me.

After taking Chuck home and after watching Kung Fu Panda I spent the rest of the night  cleaning up my 2011 journal on word pad and getting out all the gobbledygook so I can put in back into Word 2007. Who knew that 2011 would merit 300 pages. I hope this year is duller.

 

26 February 2012 Sunday

This Tanner Trowbridge kid was supposed to come over this afternoon to play around but he texted me this morning that he was coming down with a bug. It’s probably the same one that laid Chuck Whyte  down low last week.

My nephew James Clark texted me today saying that he is getting some vacation time off and wants to come see me. He needs to check his schedule and said he’d get back to me. ...

But today… ahhh! 40 degrees outside and 104 degrees of hot water. A lazy Sunday except for the time I spent reading and correcting the Word Pad version of my 2011 Journal.

I posted on Face book: I need someone to help me build a blog page to post all my archival materials and writing so it’s easily accessible. Cyber space is probably the best place. IS there a Gay Wikipedia I could post it to I wonder? Does Cyber space ever crash. Maybe I will carve it all on gold plates in reformed Egyptian so 2500 years from now I will appear as the Angel Ben and show some stone peeping treasure seeker where to find them. He better not start a new religion or there will be hell to pay. Wait! What was I talking about. Oh yeah the ether is where all knowledge is kept. Help me geeky friends you are my only hope.

             

27 February 2012 Monday

Not much to sing and dance about today. It’s Just another day of the same routine. I sent Charles Frost a poem that my cousin Chris Johnson sent me after I had put down Smokey and Priscilla. I thought it would help him with the loss of Deacon.

I wrote “I was reading my journal from last year after putting Smokey and Priscilla to sleep and I was thinking of you, Doug and sweet Deacon. Never doubt you did right by your furry baby.

 “May I Go? May I go now? ......Do you think the time is right?

 

May I say goodbye to painful days, and endless lonely nights?

I've lived my life and done my best an example, I tried to be.

Can I take that step beyond and set my spirit free?

I did not want to go at first; I fought with all my might.

Something seems to draw me now, to a warm and loving light.

I want to go now, I really do. It's really difficult to stay.

But I will try as best I can, to live just one more day.

To give you time to care for me and share your love and fears.

I know you're sad and hurt because I see your tears.

I'll not be far, I promise you that, and I hope you'll always know,

my spirit will be close to you.  No matter where you may go.

Thank you, thank you. You know I love you too,

 that’s why it's hard to say goodbye and end this life I had with you.

So hold me now, just one more time, and let me hear you say,

because you care so much for me, you’ll let me go today.”

 Charles wrote me back: “Oh dear friend. I am typing this with tears streaming down my face. So lovely, so beautiful. Such an emotional trigger. When I place your amazing words in little Deacon's mind, I am overcome by this. I miss him so, I KNOW what you have so capably written her to be the truth, but OH how I miss him.

This play has kept me moving forward, but you and Doug only know how much I am still hurting. I am happy he is gone, the love he gave was so tremendous. And yes--so unconditional when compared to the harshness of this world. What more can I say, but thanks for sharing this. I will read again and re-read again. I know once this play is over, I shall really mourn for a time. Much love to you friend. How kind of you to share this. My heart is touched.”

           

28 February 2012 Tuesday

It snowed off and on today but it’s been so warm lately that it doesn’t stick to the ground. In the afternoon I felt fatigued. So I just came home, fed the dogs, took Coco home and had hot dogs for dinner. I am feeling kind of out of sorts. There’s lots of bugs going around

I watched the Simpson’s 500th episode. It’s funny how a counter culture subversive show became mainstream and part of the American experience.

I invited Josh Jones from the Q and his boyfriend over this Thursday for dinner. I said I’d make enchiladas. I need to meet new people and not just for sex. I Need to have young friends in my life also.

I went to bed pretty early about 8:30 after sending about 60 emails from Kyle Foote’s Craig’s List sex solicitations to my email inbox so I can sort through them later to try and understand his compulsion.

 

29 February 2012 Wednesday Leap Day

So here ends February, a day later than usual. The school year will be over before you know it.

A huge snow came in and dumped snow all over the place at commute time. Michael Romero came over to pick up Coco because he was running late and I sent home with him the Spaghetti from Sunday. I had all I want of it. I Made enchiladas tonight for my company coming tomorrow night.

 

The Gay community held a rally up on Capitol. I know Charles Frost was a  speaker.  My Lambda Lore article came out today. It was on swindlers in the Gay community and I even mentioned Kyle. I still feel ambiguous about it. Why I still feel protective of him I am not sure.

Davy Jones of the Monkees died today. Day Dream Believer our time is  coming

 

March

1 March 2012 Thursday

It snowed and snowed last night more than it has for all winter so far.  I didn’t have any trouble getting into work though.

Today we did our Direct Writing Assessment for the 5th grade. So that’s one of our first hurdles to get over before the end comes.  I made arrangements to take tomorrow off. I had Jeny Petersen’s substitute come in for me.

At home I cleaned house a little for my company coming over and baked the enchiladas. Josh Jones from the Q Salt Lake and his boyfriend Steve came over about 6:00 and we had the most delightful evening. I made homemade enchiladas, Spanish Rice, and big salad and bought cannoli’s for desert.  They brought a big bottle of wine over and we drank every bit of it.

 We just were connecting like crazy and talking about all sorts of things and of course Kyle Foote. Josh said that people were talking about Kyle on the website “Salty Gossip” about being arrested and holding unprotected sex orgies. I guess I missed that one.

Anyway after eating, we went to the theater room and watched The Ritz because they had never seen it. The loved it. Josh got pretty plastered by the end of the evening and it snowed more so I was a little worried but Steve drove home and they only live over in the Trolley Square area.

Such neat guys. I posted on Face book that I think I made some new friends!  Life is full of surprises.

 

2 March 2012 Friday

I took today off and just had kind of a relaxing day. It snowed again last night but it was a beautiful crystal clear day.

I worked on an article for the Q on Wendy Weaver, the lesbian who sued Nebo School District for trying to silence her over her sexual orientation. It took me almost all day but I had nothing else to do.

I’ve been in contact with Doug Cartier and Marty Pollack about writing up the history of the early court. I spent 5 hours on research and one hour writing my column for the Q yesterday. If I got paid that breaks down to about $6.30 hour. Well it beats minimum wage ha! My reward will be in heaven.

I went over to Chuck Whyte's  about 6:30 and scanned a bunch of family pictures in for him then he took me Applebee's in Bountiful. It’s date night in Bountiful. Guys are going to Applebee’s so their date will get baby fever from all the bawling and crying going on there and will more likely put out. Oh did I mention the bawling and crying was from the guys? The babies were pretty well behaved.

 

3 March 2011 Saturday

I’m looking at a yellowish gray sky this morning. I want to sleep in but Buddy keeps nudging at me, nibbling, and climbing on top of me trying to get me to give him some love this morning. He's so insistent. Finally I gave in. I got up and gave him his morning chicken strip. Then he rolled over and went back to sleep. Damn dog. Spent the rest of the day just watching movies. Really lazy.

 

4 March 2012 Sunday

I went to church this morning with Chuck Whyte who wanted to be a back row Baptist but did get to visit with Greg K. Paiz, his boyfriend, and Dennis McCracken some. I stayed for lunch afterwards and then at home, I’ve been corresponding with a lost Williams cousin who wanted some family history.

It’s a gorgeous even warm day here in the valley. Hope all are having lazy Sundays!

This cute 18 year old boy form Daddy Hunt has been wanting to hook up with me. Gadzooks!! Has it come to this? Cradle Robbing? I prefer older men, 30 or older but any port in a storm.

Dan Fahndrich came over in the evening to drink wine, sit in the hot tub and talk about Kyle Foote. I needed to make amends to Dan because he so tried to warn me about Kyle.  He said about 3 or 4 years ago Kyle joined the Vinum Wine Club that Dan runs and he immediately cozied up to Dan, Dan’s roommate Dave Crawley, and Miles Olsen.

They became fast friends with Kyle pretending to be a businessman. Miles had an extreme infatuation with Kyle like I did. Actually he must have been in love with him too. Kyle put on all the charm and would go play pool with Dan and hang out at the Tryangle Club.

Dan was captivated I was by the same youthful vibrant energy that Kyle projected. The four became close friends and Dan thought he and Kyle were real friends. Dan told a story were Kyle convinced a realtor in the Federal Heights area that he was looking to buy in that area and he got the keys to a $3 million home with a swimming pool that Kyle held a swimming party at!

Another time they all went out to Wendover and Kyle said he’d pay for the rooms and the food and he actually put in on Miles’ card. Kyle played Miles for all he could using his credit card and stole nearly $100,000 from him investing in a false business office on 3rd South across from American Towers.

He also swindled Dan out of $20,000 that he said would double. Dan said more than the money it was the betrayal of their friendship the hurt the most. That I understood.

However it ruined Miles and he lost everything and moved to Texas. Neither one pressed charges because they knew they would never get their money back. Dan said that he can deduct $3,000 a year from his taxes because of the swindle but I told him I wouldn’t be able to because I accepted Kyle’s credit charges.

So here’s Kyle double life again.

 

5 March 2012 Monday

It is a Beautiful warm day; 60 degrees. Spring must be here now. I Had a boy from Echo Nevada want to drive 3 hours to come to SLC to fuck me. I said no thank you but appreciated the offer ha!

6 March 2012 Tuesday

 

7 March 2012 Wednesday

I was up real early today around 5 this morning.

 

8 March 2012 Thursday

Had a splendid evening with Joshua Jones and Steve at their place where they fixed delicious fajitas. Yummy! What a cute house they have near Trolley Square. We just gab away like old friends. I told them about me being in the purge at BYU in 76 and when I got home I had a message from this kid from Oregon who is who is working on his master’s thesis on the BYU purge. He asked me to help find people from that period. Funny coincidence.

 

9 March 2012 Friday

Josh Jones posted on his FB “Steve and I spent a great evening with Utah's preeminent historian and archivist, Ben Williams. He's kinda amazing.” He also posted a picture of this old man and Steve together.”

 God my beard is white but after what Kyle put me through it’s no wonder! Today it was 5th grade maturation! It was taught by a 68 year old former principal and Mormon Bishop. It was mostly about not touching yourself and the most important thing you can do with your life is to become a father! Not kidding!

But since Utah voted out sex education I guess this is the last time they will get any information about their willywackers LOL

 

10 March 2012 Saturday

I got up this morning and decided to tackle the house since it was a beautiful day. I think I will go soak this morning and then straighten up the house for movie night with Amy Barry and Greg Hardin and anyone else who wants to drop by. I am making veggie Tostados because Amy is a vegetarian....

What a beautiful day and my head is getting over being stuffy. Doing spring cleaning scrubbed the kitchen floor on my hands and knees and waxed the kitchen cabinets. Lots of little doggie prints. Cleaning is therapeutic and good for the soul. It’s a cosmic renewal of my space in the universe.

Good morning Starshine. The Earth says hello well at least Fernleaf Street does.

 I pruned 10 people off my Friends list this afternoon. I couldn't get it down any more. Dallen Garber who I only knew through Kyle made a crappy remark about me after I posted a comment to something he wrote. I had never attacked him and always said positive things about him personally but then he wrote to me “Ben you're weird... You tend to always state the obvious when you comment like they're are prophetic words of wisdom but somehow twist it into some odd, unsettling comment."

I thought that was kind of hateful from someone I had never met but who had come over in the middle of the night to be fucked by Kyle in my hot tub!” So... goodbye...only those who have personally met me can say crappy things about me because at least they know what they are talking about! Others I pruned because I really didn't know who the hell they were or why they wanted to be friends on FB.

 

Had a nice evening with Amy Barry who brought her delicious Spanish rice over and Greg Tracie Aviary Hardin who brought a movie to watch. I fixed veggie tostados and we had a great time visiting.

Then we watched “The Help”. Never saw it and it was really moving. I am old enough to remember segregation. Remember as a kid going to Mackenzie Park in Lubbock and was allowed to use the bathroom because it was for "colored" so had to wait to go to a whites only.

It was good to have people over. It makes me clean my house!

I heard the song the Snake by Al Wilson while I was cleaning today. That song was a hit in 1968 when I was 17 years old I didn't know I'd be 60 years before getting bit by a snake. Songs use to have life lessons. Do they still?

Before going to bed I sent Kyle $30. More than he deserves for sure, the snake. “The Help” had a value in there to love your enemies to overcome the misery they cause. I guess 30 dollars is worth the joy that the pretend Kyle brought me.

 

11 March 2012 Sunday

It’s the First full day of daylight savings and I didn’t do much today just being lazy. I did prune some branches off the flowering tree in the front yard to get the lower branches off that were hanging too low for people walking on the sidewalk but other than that I didn’t think I even left the house.

My inner thighs are sore from all the scrubbing I did yesterday in the house. I talked to Charles Frost and Chuck Whyte this morning. Charles said he’s exhausted and doesn’t know where he’s going to get the energy to do two shows today.

This cute kid from Kaysville named Jax that I met on Daddy Hunt texted me back. We flirted last Sunday and we flirted for much of the afternoon by sending sexy messages back and forth.

Talk about you basic dirty old man, but he’s of age and knows what he’s attracted to. I guess I should be ashamed but he’s pursuing me, not I him and who am I to deny a young man’s lust?

 

12 March 2012 Monday

Everyone was off a little today with the time change. This begins the last week of the 3rd term. Wow, it’s been a strange year, not just in school but everything I was dealing with Kyle Foote. I don’t know how I concentrated on school at all.

Except for this head cold I’ve picked up I’ve been in pretty good health knock on wood. Things seem to be changing. Kyle is fading away and I am making room for other people in my life.

            It was a beautiful spring day 65 degrees. Things should begin to pop  with the weather being this nice.

I Had some really intense dreams last night about being in a city that was hit by a tsunami and how people were trying to hide in tall buildings. I wonder what that was all about.

I know Kyle was in the dream too.

Well just a few more days and it will be Spring for real.

 

13 March 2012 Tuesday

Jon Jepson called when I got home from school to say that the Kristen Ries Award meeting had been cancelled because of the caucus tonight. Just as well. I told him about a bill coming for Kyle Foote’s from his company and we laughed saying well they better stand in line behind the other $400,000 he owes people.

Well I decided I couldn't just stay home and just bitch about Republicans so I went to my district’s Caucus Meeting at Rose Park Elementary. I was surprised to see so many Democrats attending from House District 23. There were at least 250 people there and 50 raised their hands and said they were new. I haven't been in 20 years so I might as well have been new.

I am in precinct 003 and there was 7 of us there from my precinct. I was surprised to see that the man Mike Romero and I always called The Bishop ( Jim) was a Democrat! He and three others were new to the process!

I was elected precinct Chair along with this sweet woman named Brandi who with her husband use to live in that corner house across from Northwest Intermediate. There was this one big mountain of a man who was determined to be a delegate for Ross Romero so he pretty well became a delegate.

We needed another so I talked Brandi into running for delegate but since she too was for Ross, I threw my hat into the ring for Ben McAdams. I really didn’t care and did think Brandi this sweet Hispanic woman who was very enthusiastic should be involved.

I voted for her and mountain man John and we elected them as the two delegates to attend the conventions in April. I was only a candidate delegate for Ben McAdams to be a balance but the others won.

Either Romero or McAdams would be great. I saw that Susan McAdams was sitting in the next precinct with her sister so I went and talked to her for the rest of the time. She's Ben's mom and we worked together at Orchard Elementary for about 15 years. She was confused when her son was calling me Ben and she only knew me as Edd which is what I go back in the School District.

I have a meeting to go to on March 31 for the Precinct Chairs.

 

14 March 2012 Wednesday

The Kids getting a little wild at school. It’s so spring like. A guy who uses the name “Cool Rider” from Manhunt and I sent texts to each other for most of the evening. I suppose he was bored at work ha!

I watched three more episodes of ‘Big Love’. I just have  two more to go and then am done with the series. Not a whole lot going on.

 

15 March 2012 Thursday

I remember my first year at BYU. I sat at a Young Democrat table outside of the Wilkinson Center and most students just scrambled away like we had the plague; like being a Democrat was catching,  but I remember this one jackass professor coming over and reading us the riot act for recruiting. This was in 1973. Are there any Young Democrats left at the Y anymore or have they all be snuffed out by 35 years of Mormon extremists? The last decent Governor of this state was Democrat Cal Rampton!

 

My article for Lambda Lore on Wendy Weaver came out today in the QSalt Lake Utah has more than its share of heroes but then look what we are up against. Utah will either make you stronger or kill your spirit. In Mississippi they will kill your body too.

 

16 March 2012 Friday

Why was it so dark this morning? It's 7:40 and still looks like the crack of dawn. If you sleep to 9 no wonder you love daylight savings time—slackers. I fix oatmeal for breakfast for my pups Yummy!

I hope real parents take the time to fix their kids some good breakfast. Feed your kids. Isn't that the first rule of parenthood? You wouldn't believe how many of my students don't eat breakfast at home.

End of the 3rd Term of school. It’s going quickly.

I left early to meet Ross Poore, Bill’s brother at China Star for lunch and to look over his manuscript.

 

17 March 2012 Saturday

Having the weirdest dreams of Kyle lately. I dreamed his parents came to visit me and I showed them the deck he built for me and said that I was sending him money and that his mom was just the age of my oldest sister. Strange.

It’s Been a busy St. Patrick’s day. I’ve been reading a riveting manuscript all this morning of a novel by Dr. Ross Poore and then just got back from a 2 1/2 hour visit with Marty Pollack going over early Royal Court history.

Now to get ready for corned beef and cabbage and a movie with Chuck Whyte and Bill Poore, it’s Movie night at Ben's.

After a dinner of corned beef and cabbage with Bill Poore and Chuck Whyte it was the Third Sex Sinema Double Feature "The Meatrack" the confessions of a Male Hustler (1970) Plus "Sticks and Stones" (1970) about Peter and Buddy who are throwing a 4th of July Fire Island party and you're all invited! Two Fabulous lines to remember "You will never be as old as you look dahling" and “I loved that dog!"

 

18 March 2012 Sunday

Where'd the day go? I mean just because I spent all day on the computer writing an article for the Q and typing up notes on the Royal Court from my visit with Marty Pollack yesterday. I don't think I even got out of my night shirt ha! No need to now.

Ha! I am turning into such an old man

 

19 March 2012 Monday

Today was teachers’ prep day without students so I was surprised when a parent showed up this morning. I have two kids whose parents are divorced and using their kids to get at each other. The man was angry because his ex-wife took his kid this weekend without his permission. He was angry at me for allowing his ex-wife to volunteer in my classroom to read with the kids during our reading workshop time.

I asked him if he called the police but he hadn’t so I think there was more to the story then he would let on. He said he was going to sue the district. I said to him that he was asked to provide his divorce papers to see if there was specifically a no contact clause,  which he never did. Oh well what a way to start the day.

 

In the afternoon I had to go to South Davis Jr. High for a WIDA class as part of my relicensing. It was just more crap on teaching kids whose English is their 2nd language.

I've been blessed with really sweet and spoiled dogs, Sam the rescued black lab, Toby the sweetest little mixed dingo rescued from Grantsville, and old Oscar my first Schnauzer, what an kind old gentleman he was when rescued from the pound. Priscilla was a little 8 week old dachshund mixed, rescued from Rawlings Wyoming’s pound.

Saffy and Smokey were sister and brother Schnauzers we got as pups from friends of Mike. Saffy was a runt and always had problems but really sweet. Well Smokey was sweet when sleeping. Otherwise he was a charming brat.

Now I have Buddy and Daisy, my chubby brother and sister, I got as pups. Buddy thinks he's my lover always wanting to be held and he is so sensitive. Daisy is a clown and my guardian.

 

20 March 2012 Tuesday

I have two students who have divorced parents who are trying to put me in the middle of their custody disputes. Ugh! Can't wait for this year to be over. People if you are going to have babies together then grow the hell up.

Andy Dalrymple came over and we visited this evening for a little chit chat to catch up on life. I actually do talk to people off of Face Book.

 

21 March 2012 Wednesday

Nothing specially exciting happened today. I am just trying to get my grades done to hand out on Monday.

The forsythia’s have popped and the globe willows are greening up so life is stirring again. I need to do some yard work but not ready yet.

I made an appointment to get the dogs haircuts on April.

I was nostalgic for Kyle Foote today for some reason. Why he still has a hold on my heart I am not sure. Maybe because I will be using the deck more as spring pops.

On my alternate Face Book page for snoopy employers and the government, I put down I love America and Jesus. Think that will do it. I created an account with using just my first and middle name and an easy password. Never know when you might be forced to share your page with an employer. Of course you could just lie and say you don't have a Face book account LOL

 

22 March 2012 Thursday

It’s a rude awakening when you bump your water glass off your headboard and it spills all over your head and bed! It’s not the best way to wet the bed! I Ended up sleeping on the couch with Buddy draped over me and Daisy at my head. Oh well I'll take a nap when I get home.

I spent Just a couple of hours blowing leaves off  my deck and I am already stiff. But it does look pretty. Spring is springing.

The Equal Rights Amendment was reintroduced today in Congress. With the radical right's attack on women, please support equality for women, if you love your mothers, sisters, aunts, daughters, and wives. Inequality is not love.

 

23 March 2012 Friday

Before I was even eligible to vote in 1970 when I was 19 I was a precinct walker for the democrat Jesse Unruh who was running against Ronald Reagan for governor. My mom took flak from Republican friends but she stood up for me and said at least I was doing something. I wouldn't be able to vote until 1971 with the 26 amendment and I have always voted since.

 After school I went to Lowes to price the lattice for the hot tub. It will cost about $125 and I still have about $100 on my credit. I am going to need help with screwing and light lifting soon. Any takers?

Sitting on my back porch watching the sun go down. Its Spring time in the Rockies and lots of kids playing ball in the streets. Life in West Pointe Salt Lake City.

 Randy Gile said he and Kimberlee bought themselves a hot tub in Daybreak. I guess my nephew James Clark and his family is coming up next weekend to spend Spring break here in SLC.

 I also made an appointment to have Buddy’s teeth cleaned on April 2nd.

 

24 March 2012 Saturday

Sorry if I am not rushing out to gush over the new City Creek/Mormon Mall. I am just not sure I have a testimony that the Lord appeared in the Holy of Holies and said to Brother Thomas "Thus Saith the Lord: Build me a Billion dollar mall." Perhaps I just haven't caught the vision because Tiffany and the LDS Inc do have so much in common.

 Families are forever and diamonds are forever. I suppose it’s a good use of a Billion dollars that was received by the church as a non-profit Charitable Institution. It’s all about the POWER and the GLORY ain't it. How much of the rent they make is going to fight Gay Marriage I wonder?

OK it’s time for coffee and maybe some biscuits and milk gravy and maybe a slice or two of bacon what the hell lets go whole hog and have fried eggs too! It's Saturday and I need to keep my strength up for all the excitement I expect to have today!

Farmer Ben has been working four hours in the yard. Blew out all the leaves from under the hot tub deck, replanted a bunch of ivy, irises, and day lilies, chopped down my dead Birch tree, transported cement paving stones to the garden, built up another row of castle bricks around the fire pit, started raking all the dead branches from the globe willows but now I am pooped.

There's something to be said about digging in the soil and seeing new life stirring. My yard is a chore but it keeps me active. Makes me think of Grandpa Johnson the farmer. But now I am so tired from doing yard work. I drained the hot tub too. I need a yard and house boy who won't steal me blind.

I guess I won't post that I raked the back yard into piles of leaves and twigs, and washed down the hot tub and am refilling it now ( and I made a meatloaf and potato salad for next week lunches) oh did I mention the two loads of wash? Calgon come take me away!

            In the news Rick Santorum squeezes out a victory in the Big Easy state. Mitt should just stay home and not bother in the Confederacy. They don't cotton to no Mormon Nawthener. Damn flip floppy Yankee.

 

Dick Cheney got a heart transplant while the GOP wants to cut Medicare. He's entitled to Socialize Medicine but we are not.

Should Rick Santorum get on the Brain transplant before Bush?

While President Obama is expressing the need for justice for Trayvon's family, Santorum is at a shooting range in the South where his supporter shouts Pretend its Obama and the crowd chuckles.

That's right, shoot another black man...you dumb ignorant bastards. Santorum you are known by the company you keep. The death of Treyvon- brought to you by Jeb Bush and the NRA

If Little Red Riding Hood lived in Florida she would have more to fear then the Big Bad Wolf. I hope she isn't bringing skittles and iced tea to grandma's

When God gave His only begotten son to die as an atonement for sin was he a Social Conservative or a Bleeding Heart Liberal? Something to think about as Good Friday approaches.

Liberals have accomplished everything beneficial in the history of the United States, starting with abolishing slavery, a wacky idea when Quakers and other activists first proposed it. PROUD TO BE A LIBERAL

 

25 March 2012 Sunday

I Didn’t go to church today. I texted Chuck but he didn’t want to go, so I just stayed home and rested this morning after working so hard yesterday. My back is still stiff.  My nephew James Clark called me today and said he’s coming up from Arizona next Sunday on the 1st.

My poor dogs are completely worn out watching me work today.

I am Sitting on my back porch listening to the Mexicans next door have a party. They are having way more fun than I am watching Daisy guard her dollies.

I can't keep up. Is it Repigican, Repukican or Rethugican? It certainly isn’t the Republican Party of Nelson Rockefeller, Barry Goldwater, Dwight Eisenhower, or Teddy Roosevelt any more. Republican tea baggers are nothing but a bunch of Koch suckers.

After cleaning out Wall Street and Bankers, Jesus should go after televangelists and any church that has Inc. in its title or owns a Billion dollar mall but will close it on Sunday for appearance sake. Or go after war criminals like Cheney can get a new heart at tax payers’ expense.

Sounds like to me Florida gots itself a new lynching program in its Stand Your Ground law. I hope Blacks carry guns now to shoot white angry neighborhood watchmen because you can shoot anyone in Florida you are afraid of. Thank you NRA.

The 1970's Bugaloos inspiring a whole generation of faeries and drag queens. Saturday mornings!

 

26 March 2012 Monday

A fierce rain storm blew in this morning when the kids were coming to school. The wind blew the rain horizontally! It cleared up pretty nice after that. Kids were kind of wacky though, from the storm .

I was up and down all night peeing so I was kind of tired today.

 

After feeding the dogs. I took Coco home and told Michael Romero he will have to feed the dogs tomorrow because of the I Can Do Dance.

I didn’t do much else.

I Had a good phone call with Charles Frost. We just laughed over things. He gets my humor. That is nice.

 

27 March 2012 Tuesday

It’s gonna be a long day. Our Ballet West “I Can Do Dance” Performance is tonight and right after school we all take a bus to West High where the kids rehearsed with 300 other 5th graders for the performance at 7:30. I will be lucky if I get home by 9:30 tonight. Peter Christie as director of the program works the kids to perfection.

We were smart this year and made the parents pick their kids up from West High. We only ended up taking two kids back on the bus and their parents were right there waiting so all in all it wasn’t bad just a long day.

Sometimes parents won't even come pick their kids up until 10 P.M and we wait out in the dark and cold until someone remembers to come get their kid. And of course it’s always someone with no phone.

At the dance I amused myself on my iPhone taking pictures of this cute gay teenager but it still was a very long day.

 

28 March 2012 Wednesday

You know it’s my personal belief that the people who could imagine God burning people in hell and are smug about it, are those people who will really be going to hell along with Republicans of course. I personally think hell is more of a time out room where you have to go and sit and think about how mean you were to other of God’s children. Republicans are going to have a very long time out.

 

29 March 2012 Thursday

We did our I Can Do Dance for the school today at an assembly and now it’s over for the year.

 

30 March 2012 Friday

We started practicing the Ghost of Plymouth Castle. It’s about that time again. One of students at the end of the day was crying because his dad lost his job and he’s afraid he won’t have any food. I tried to comfort him that his dad is all grown up and he will find a way to take care of you. I hope so.

Then I came home and worked some more in the yard since Monday is curbside Spring Cleanup. Anything with metal gets scavenged right away.

I also was cleaning up the garage and the rice cooker fell from a top ledge and conked me on the head. I saw stars. I wish the grim reaper would just let me die in bed. Is that too much to ask? Not sprawled out on the garage floor.

 

31 March 2012 Saturday

I cleaned the house some more today but at 10:30 I went to the Taylorsville library to attend the democrat precinct chair meeting. It was standing room only and Lauren Littlefield, the chair, was kind enough to give this old man a seat so I didn't have to stand. She is a Dyke for sure.

It was good to see Jon Jepsen and Ron Hunt there. I loved that there's no suits at the meeting!

I was home by noon and by 2 I had to be up at the University of Utah. Bill Poore invited me to see “Wild Party” performed at the U this afternoon so I had a very busy day. The vocals and acting was great. I just didn’t care for the musical all that much.

I was home by 5 but did get trapped a little bit in LDS Conference traffic. I had forgotten it is conference weekend.

Any way people started arriving about 6:30 at the house. Charles Frost came with Doug Lott. Bill Poore came by himself. Josh Jones brought his lover Steven and a kid named Aaron from Arizona, and they also brought Chuck Whyte who doesn’t drive. Andy Dalrymple came too so there was a nice mix.

Both Charles and Josh thought Chuck was being a nuisance. Poor Chuck. He sometimes forgets when to not be Chuck. In fact Josh when he was half snockered said Chuck was insane. Ha. I guess you just have to know Chuck from the olden days.

Well Third Sex Cinema was a success I think. I had 9 people over for it and after noshes and drinks (thanks Joshua Jones and Charles Lynn Frost for the wine) and lots of visiting on the deck we changed the movie to The Ritz. Lots of smart interesting people. Glad my bar hopping days are over so I can go to bed instead of just getting ready to go out.